Dizzee and Shao have been spending a lot of time together. Dizzee knows Shao and Zeke are not really talking anymore, because of what happened with Boo Boo, but his little brother is safe at home now and his Big Brother needs him. Shao needs him. So he’s there for Shao.
Dizzee has been trying to make Shao go out with him to write on walls for a while, but it hasn’t happened yet. They listen to music, they smoke quite a lot, they sit and talk, sometimes they don’t talk at all. Dizzee knows Shao keeps too many things to himself, they both have their secrets, but they are there for each other and that’s enough.
Dizzee wants to tell him about Thor.
He knows Shao knows something. He has seen them together and he just knows, but Dizzee wants to tell him, tell him about the way love feels when it’s burning your veins and consuming your heart, he wants to tell him about the nights he and Thor talk about the stars and it’s like they’re up there with them, not as aliens in top hats, but as two stars that shine together.
And while a part of him always thinks Shao would shut him up because he doesn’t care about these things, there’s the other part, the bigger one, that thinks Shao would want to know about it. Because what he feels is pure and powerful and Shao would want to know about pure and powerful.
There’s this particular night, it’s hot in the Bronx and Shao is scratching a beat, Dizzee turns to him and all he says is “I think you should try to put that beat in a wall tonight, write something and let people listen to it” Shao’s looking at him. “You know, Diz? Maybe tonight is the Night”. And then they’re in the trains and Dizzee is writing another Rumi poem “You are the universe in ecstatic motion” and Shao is signing something in dark red that looks a lot like “Curtis”. Dizzee doesn’t ask.
It’s beautiful that they’re doing that, Shao was his biggest inspiration and now they’re writing together and it’s a beautiful night and Dizzee is just really seeing the beauty. He is happy and the words just come out of his mouth.
“I’m dating a Guy” He breaths, not sure if Shao heard him.
“The blonde boy?” Shao asks, after a minute or a moment of silence, not taking his eyes out of his work.
“Yes.”
“Is it like… Are you two in love?” And Dizzee thinks he sees a spark of something in Shao’s face when their eyes meet. A spark of hope.
“Yes, we… We are in love with each other.” Shao just nods and time seems to stop.
“That is… That is very nice Diz, hm” Shao stops himself and Dizzee feels his hands sweating a little.
“Just. Make sure he treats you right and talks to you about the stars and the aliens and all that shit you know?” And then Shao smiles. It’s a small smile, but Dizzee can see everything and he is suddenly feeling the world’s kindness and the power of words and it really is a beautiful night.
“I got you, remember? You’re my alien brother and I got you.”
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