Ozzie!

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

i really liek paples

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Hello, it is 445. Thank you for being such a good friend to me.

You're welcome! I love having friends! You've been very very very very very good to me too! Can I show you my guns sometime? They're all really cool, I promise! OH MY GOD I COULD SHOW YOU MY FOREST TOO!!!! We can pick berries together and not hunt deer because you don't like that!

[mynameis445]

That is very nice. But I do not think I can do that. I am sorry.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Aw ok :( Maybe another time!

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Hello, it is 445. Thank you for being such a good friend to me.

You're welcome! I love having friends! You've been very very very very very good to me too! Can I show you my guns sometime? They're all really cool, I promise! OH MY GOD I COULD SHOW YOU MY FOREST TOO!!!! We can pick berries together and not hunt deer because you don't like that!

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Does anyone see me? Like, Me. See me for me. My family sees Oswald, but I don't think they see Ozzie and I don't know how to fix that. It feels like no matter how much I put myself out there or put on dramatics, they still just look through me. I'm Ozzie! I like hunting and fishing and I'm really good a climbing trees! The best, if I had anything to say about it.

Mother asks me to hunt and dad expects me to hunt for money and food, and I do hunt for those reasons! But they treat me more like a money machine than a boy who enjoys the sport and genuinely wants to support his family. It makes me feel sad and ignored.

Not Dick though! He saw me as Ozzie right off the bat! He's actually impressed my my skills, and he even says good night to me before I go to bed every night! Isn't that cool!!! He looks me in the eye instead of the bridge of my nose. I like it, I think. Attention is nice.

But that doesn't fix my blood family. I go through so much effort for them, day and night, hour by hour, minute to minute, maybe even second to second if I'm daring enough to say it, slaving over hunting and selling, and sleeping on the floor so my sisters can have the bed, and being extra careful with the clothes I get so they don't have to stress over buying more. I hunt 60% of the venison they sell, I clean all the guns, I eat less so we can make more money, I do what they say when they say it, I make stupid jokes so they won't be upset that we didn't get to eat that day, I give my candles to my brothers so they can study at night and maybe get a more substantial job one day. What do I get from it?

A pat on the shoulder and half a second of a glace.

Is that really what I deserve?

After all this?

Everything?

No! I don't think so! I deserve more than a shrug or a dismissal. Dick taught me that.

...

But how do I get more if they ignore me so much all the time?

...

Wow. This... Sorry people of "tumblr"! I got a little carried away there for a second! Won't happen again! I need to go do something immature, I think Archie's adultness is getting to my head. Not that I'm not grown up! I'm very grown up! I just... I'm Ozzie.

Sorry. Bye.

[archiesamueltaylor]

Whatever, Ozzie. You always make such an uproar.

[richardbutdick]

You. You are a horrible, wretched man. A sack of shit excuse for a human and an even worse excuse for a brother. You are, worthless, nothing, and small. Leave Ozzie alone and go rot in hell. Every breath you take is a waste. You will not be remembered, and if you do, it will not be with kindness. If we are to ever meet -you or your horrible parents- you will be dealt with with the fury of a revolutionary soldier. Lady death calls you, do not leave her waiting.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

:O

[richardbutdick]

oh. Sorry Ozzie.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Language, Dick! Goodness! Don't make me start a swear jar!

[richardbutdick]

I can start one. I’ll put in a quarter right now, yea?

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

:D Yes! I don't have any quarters but if I ever curse I can put... uhh.... a button in! I have a few spare in case anything happens.

[seabeck]

I love how the moss gets illuminated

[richardbutdick]

I must be god’s favorite ragdoll.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

You're my favorite dad!

[richardbutdick]

I think I prefer that title better.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Exactly. I'm the best title maker!

[richardbutdick]

I must be god’s favorite ragdoll.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

You're my favorite dad!

[richardbutdick]

Why am I like this?

I ask this to myself everyday but I just don't know the answer. I am trying to improve. I thought I did improve. I was getting better, I really was. It had been almost a month. I was so close. I was getting better, I was less aggressive, so why did I have to ruin it the way I do? I always ruin it. This is bullshit. Why can’t I just fix myself, you know? Why can’t I just be normal and not feel like there’s a crushing weight on my chest? How am I supposed to be good father to Ozzie when I can’t even take care of myself? Of my babies. Of my wife. I just let them die. God I’m useless. What’s the point of anything if I always ruin it?! Maybe there is no point.

[richardbutdick]

How do I delete this.

[richardbutdick]

HOW DO I DELETE THIS.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Dad?

[richardbutdick]

I’m sorry. Bad night, Ozzie. I just… have that sadness again. Go to bed. I’ll be there in the morning, I promise. I’ll always be there.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

The sadness that doesn't go away?

[richardbutdick]

Yea. That one. I’ll be okay. I always am. You know that.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Yeah... Because you're my first mate, and my first mate never gives up.

[richardbutdick]

Why am I like this?

I ask this to myself everyday but I just don't know the answer. I am trying to improve. I thought I did improve. I was getting better, I really was. It had been almost a month. I was so close. I was getting better, I was less aggressive, so why did I have to ruin it the way I do? I always ruin it. This is bullshit. Why can’t I just fix myself, you know? Why can’t I just be normal and not feel like there’s a crushing weight on my chest? How am I supposed to be good father to Ozzie when I can’t even take care of myself? Of my babies. Of my wife. I just let them die. God I’m useless. What’s the point of anything if I always ruin it?! Maybe there is no point.

[richardbutdick]

How do I delete this.

[richardbutdick]

HOW DO I DELETE THIS.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Dad?

[richardbutdick]

I’m sorry. Bad night, Ozzie. I just… have that sadness again. Go to bed. I’ll be there in the morning, I promise. I’ll always be there.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

The sadness that doesn't go away?

[richardbutdick]

Why am I like this?

I ask this to myself everyday but I just don't know the answer. I am trying to improve. I thought I did improve. I was getting better, I really was. It had been almost a month. I was so close. I was getting better, I was less aggressive, so why did I have to ruin it the way I do? I always ruin it. This is bullshit. Why can’t I just fix myself, you know? Why can’t I just be normal and not feel like there’s a crushing weight on my chest? How am I supposed to be good father to Ozzie when I can’t even take care of myself? Of my babies. Of my wife. I just let them die. God I’m useless. What’s the point of anything if I always ruin it?! Maybe there is no point.

[richardbutdick]

How do I delete this.

[richardbutdick]

HOW DO I DELETE THIS.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Dad?

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Hello. This is 445. Are you okay? I am sorry for fighting with your brother.

It's ok, friend. I don't like the yelling too much though... But I forgive you! Always!

[mynameis445]

It is okay if you are upset with me. I do not think I have ever been that mad before. I am sorry.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

No no! I just don't like yelling in general. It's not personal.

[mynameis445]

I am still sorry!

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Don't worry about it!

[archiesamueltaylor]

You should be deeply ashamed of yourself. I don't know what is wrong with you and the rest of your family, or how such a generous, kind person like Ozzie ended up there. You say that you care about him, but you dismiss his struggles and are downright rude. I will not stand by and watch as you bully him. Clean up your behavior or you will cop a mouse.

Whatever. You'll get to know him soon to see he's overly dramatic.

[countesssurikova]

I can see from your behavior that he speaks the truth. Why you refuse to see just how horrible you are to him I cannot say. I read that post, and I could see how much he was struggling. Why can't you? Why is it that he is treated better by mere acquaintances than his own blood family? You are ridiculous and laughable, but I'm not smiling.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

:OOOOOOOOOO

OOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! OOOOHH!!!! ATE AND LEFT NO CRUMBS!!!

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Hello. This is 445. Are you okay? I am sorry for fighting with your brother.

It's ok, friend. I don't like the yelling too much though... But I forgive you! Always!

[mynameis445]

It is okay if you are upset with me. I do not think I have ever been that mad before. I am sorry.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

No no! I just don't like yelling in general. It's not personal.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Does anyone see me? Like, Me. See me for me. My family sees Oswald, but I don't think they see Ozzie and I don't know how to fix that. It feels like no matter how much I put myself out there or put on dramatics, they still just look through me. I'm Ozzie! I like hunting and fishing and I'm really good a climbing trees! The best, if I had anything to say about it.

Mother asks me to hunt and dad expects me to hunt for money and food, and I do hunt for those reasons! But they treat me more like a money machine than a boy who enjoys the sport and genuinely wants to support his family. It makes me feel sad and ignored.

Not Dick though! He saw me as Ozzie right off the bat! He's actually impressed my my skills, and he even says good night to me before I go to bed every night! Isn't that cool!!! He looks me in the eye instead of the bridge of my nose. I like it, I think. Attention is nice.

But that doesn't fix my blood family. I go through so much effort for them, day and night, hour by hour, minute to minute, maybe even second to second if I'm daring enough to say it, slaving over hunting and selling, and sleeping on the floor so my sisters can have the bed, and being extra careful with the clothes I get so they don't have to stress over buying more. I hunt 60% of the venison they sell, I clean all the guns, I eat less so we can make more money, I do what they say when they say it, I make stupid jokes so they won't be upset that we didn't get to eat that day, I give my candles to my brothers so they can study at night and maybe get a more substantial job one day. What do I get from it?

A pat on the shoulder and half a second of a glace.

Is that really what I deserve?

After all this?

Everything?

No! I don't think so! I deserve more than a shrug or a dismissal. Dick taught me that.

...

But how do I get more if they ignore me so much all the time?

...

Wow. This... Sorry people of "tumblr"! I got a little carried away there for a second! Won't happen again! I need to go do something immature, I think Archie's adultness is getting to my head. Not that I'm not grown up! I'm very grown up! I just... I'm Ozzie.

Sorry. Bye.

[villageofcloudsandsong]

Ah, that is absolutely horrible! I am saddened to hear this type of thing is still happening.

I understand deeply what it feels like to not be seen for who you are, though not quite to this extent. You seem like a very bright man, and I have a feeling you could go on to do great things.

Do not let the approval of people like that hold you down. And please take care of yourself.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

THANK YOU KIND STRANGER! I'M OZZIE TAYLOR, WHAT'S YOUR NAME? YOU ARE VERY NICE! I LIKE YOU! I'M OKAY! YES. OKAY.

[villageofcloudsandsong]

My name is Antoine, it’s very nice to formally meet you Ozzie!

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Um. Yeah. Nice to meet you too.

[villageofcloudsandsong]

Are you alright Jeune homme? If you don’t mind me asking.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Uh, yeah! I think.

[villageofcloudsandsong]

I don’t mean to pry further, but does this have to do with what that Archie guy said? Pardon my language, but he seems like un gamin ingrat. I am deeply sorry that you have to deal with that.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

I don't know what that means but I think you're more correct than whatever answer I could have come up with! He'd nice, usually, I don't know why he's yelling at everyone.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Hello. This is 445. Are you okay? I am sorry for fighting with your brother.

It's ok, friend. I don't like the yelling too much though... But I forgive you! Always!

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Does anyone see me? Like, Me. See me for me. My family sees Oswald, but I don't think they see Ozzie and I don't know how to fix that. It feels like no matter how much I put myself out there or put on dramatics, they still just look through me. I'm Ozzie! I like hunting and fishing and I'm really good a climbing trees! The best, if I had anything to say about it.

Mother asks me to hunt and dad expects me to hunt for money and food, and I do hunt for those reasons! But they treat me more like a money machine than a boy who enjoys the sport and genuinely wants to support his family. It makes me feel sad and ignored.

Not Dick though! He saw me as Ozzie right off the bat! He's actually impressed my my skills, and he even says good night to me before I go to bed every night! Isn't that cool!!! He looks me in the eye instead of the bridge of my nose. I like it, I think. Attention is nice.

But that doesn't fix my blood family. I go through so much effort for them, day and night, hour by hour, minute to minute, maybe even second to second if I'm daring enough to say it, slaving over hunting and selling, and sleeping on the floor so my sisters can have the bed, and being extra careful with the clothes I get so they don't have to stress over buying more. I hunt 60% of the venison they sell, I clean all the guns, I eat less so we can make more money, I do what they say when they say it, I make stupid jokes so they won't be upset that we didn't get to eat that day, I give my candles to my brothers so they can study at night and maybe get a more substantial job one day. What do I get from it?

A pat on the shoulder and half a second of a glace.

Is that really what I deserve?

After all this?

Everything?

No! I don't think so! I deserve more than a shrug or a dismissal. Dick taught me that.

...

But how do I get more if they ignore me so much all the time?

...

Wow. This... Sorry people of "tumblr"! I got a little carried away there for a second! Won't happen again! I need to go do something immature, I think Archie's adultness is getting to my head. Not that I'm not grown up! I'm very grown up! I just... I'm Ozzie.

Sorry. Bye.

[villageofcloudsandsong]

Ah, that is absolutely horrible! I am saddened to hear this type of thing is still happening.

I understand deeply what it feels like to not be seen for who you are, though not quite to this extent. You seem like a very bright man, and I have a feeling you could go on to do great things.

Do not let the approval of people like that hold you down. And please take care of yourself.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

THANK YOU KIND STRANGER! I'M OZZIE TAYLOR, WHAT'S YOUR NAME? YOU ARE VERY NICE! I LIKE YOU! I'M OKAY! YES. OKAY.

[villageofcloudsandsong]

My name is Antoine, it’s very nice to formally meet you Ozzie!

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Um. Yeah. Nice to meet you too.

[villageofcloudsandsong]

Are you alright Jeune homme? If you don’t mind me asking.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Uh, yeah! I think.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Does anyone see me? Like, Me. See me for me. My family sees Oswald, but I don't think they see Ozzie and I don't know how to fix that. It feels like no matter how much I put myself out there or put on dramatics, they still just look through me. I'm Ozzie! I like hunting and fishing and I'm really good a climbing trees! The best, if I had anything to say about it.

Mother asks me to hunt and dad expects me to hunt for money and food, and I do hunt for those reasons! But they treat me more like a money machine than a boy who enjoys the sport and genuinely wants to support his family. It makes me feel sad and ignored.

Not Dick though! He saw me as Ozzie right off the bat! He's actually impressed my my skills, and he even says good night to me before I go to bed every night! Isn't that cool!!! He looks me in the eye instead of the bridge of my nose. I like it, I think. Attention is nice.

But that doesn't fix my blood family. I go through so much effort for them, day and night, hour by hour, minute to minute, maybe even second to second if I'm daring enough to say it, slaving over hunting and selling, and sleeping on the floor so my sisters can have the bed, and being extra careful with the clothes I get so they don't have to stress over buying more. I hunt 60% of the venison they sell, I clean all the guns, I eat less so we can make more money, I do what they say when they say it, I make stupid jokes so they won't be upset that we didn't get to eat that day, I give my candles to my brothers so they can study at night and maybe get a more substantial job one day. What do I get from it?

A pat on the shoulder and half a second of a glace.

Is that really what I deserve?

After all this?

Everything?

No! I don't think so! I deserve more than a shrug or a dismissal. Dick taught me that.

...

But how do I get more if they ignore me so much all the time?

...

Wow. This... Sorry people of "tumblr"! I got a little carried away there for a second! Won't happen again! I need to go do something immature, I think Archie's adultness is getting to my head. Not that I'm not grown up! I'm very grown up! I just... I'm Ozzie.

Sorry. Bye.

[archiesamueltaylor]

Whatever, Ozzie. You always make such an uproar.

[countesssurikova]

You know that you, sir, are a part of the problem? How could you let your brother be treated like this, and then when he pours his heart out, dismiss him so cruelly? You do not deserve his help, nor his company. But you have it, and here you are, bubbling around. Shame on you.

[archiesamueltaylor]

But. But no. He can't be- That doesn't make sense! Ozzie's immature and makes stupid mistakes! He wondered off one time and got his foot stuck under a tree root for 3 hours before realizing he could just take his boot off to escape! There's no way-

[countesssurikova]

He can be immature and make mistakes. He's still a child. He's still doing all that work. And you're still not valuing him. Grow up. He wants your acknowledgment. It's not difficult to thank someone.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

Well... I was kinda stupid.... The boot thing.... That's so embarrassing!!

[countesssurikova]

That doesn't discount everything else you've done. We all make bad decisions sometimes.

[sharpestshotinthewholeworld]

I suppose so. Thank you, Ma'am!