Name- well. Y'all don't need to know my name. You can call me Shiri.
Kinks- (I mean..its pretty obvious..but) Hypnosis, BDSM, CNC, mind control (I know I said Hypnosis. No, it's not the same.) Pet play.. probably more.. but can't think of more right now
Limits- piss play, age play, rape play, people being dicks.(Don't be a dick.)
Partner- I have a partner (most of my stories are about them) but I am poly. That being said, I'm NOT here to find more partners.
Ageless blogs will get blocked.(!)
Dm are for mutual or for people I feel comfortable with
Ask are now open- please. Please don't make me close them again. (Look at limits)
I'm very dyslexic. And not actually an English speaker.. So if you see any mistakes in my posts..well..sorry about that..
Thank you all for all the likes and reblogs to my silly writing!! It means a lot to me!
You trained your partner to feel more comfortable with their body and being seen. How altruistic. Really all heart, aren't you, buddy?
But then they tell you about how they went to the public baths and had fun swimming without having to worry about what they were wearing and how much skin they were showing, and like -
Look, I'm not saying there aren't perks, but really that's the best part.
Trauma is a complex experience that I'm about to grossly oversimplify, but bear with me.
One way to think about trauma - about how it affects us, really - is to look at how it impacts how we see the world going forward. Surviving trauma can mean seeing the world through distorted eyes: shapes form out of what used to be clear lighting, and we react to what we see in the ways we internalised as vital to our survival. In a very real sense, it harms one's ability to see.
When we correct a person's vision, we typically don't start with surgery. Rather, we start by learning to understand the distorted eye: How is it distorted, and how does that distortion bend the picture it sees? How does the picture need to be adjusted so that the image is clear again?
Each eye is a precious and irreplaceable part of you. Each is worth keeping even with distortions, and all that is really needed is proper care and prosthesis. We don't need to cut out the distortions. We need only give them a proper complement for your vision to become clear again.
We do this by grinding lenses to suit them. Some grinds are more complex than others - some eyes need a more sophisticated set of aids -, but rather than cut you, we'll just add a gentle corrections. We can bend and pull the light just a little so that, when the eye sees it, the vision is clear again.
Like with eyesight, learning to see clearly with the distortions caused by trauma isn't a matter of cutting out distortions. You don't have to pluck your eyes out for what they've seen. All you need is to find the right lenses.
meeting a girl whos just way too good at flustering you like shes got a fucking cheat guide to all your weak points and every word is terrifyingly orchestrated towards your intoxicating demise
Everyone talks like having a brainwashed pet requires continuous, careful upkeep and, like -
This is an engineering problem.
A prototype might need constant maintenance but making machines with inherently unstable equilibria is a studied problem with clear solutions. Relying on constant human oversight, while sometimes necessary, is seldom sustainable and production models need more thoughtful design.
Your pendulum clock has a kicker, so that instead of pushing the pendulum regularly you can wind a spring every now and again to do it for you.
Your playthings should benefit from the same kind of technology: Build a routine and a special place for your toy to plug itself in and recharge its programming. Store them properly in a behaviour reinforcing environment instead of leaving them exposed to cognition disrupting elements. Particularly sophisticated specimens can even be enlisted in their own upkeep.
You can - and should! - still take your toy out to manually inspect it and correct any maintenance issues that arise over time, but insofar as is possible you should minimise maintenance requirements through design.
I was asked if I would record a reading of this by a partner who I'm sure will be very normal about my voice.
I don't have a fancy recording setup where I sit at the moment, so you get the product of my laptop's internal microphone and a single lazy pass with a noise filter. I pretty much sight read this.
Because I don't want to figure out how Tumblr handles audio (and, critically, if I can take down audio I've uploaded if I decide I don't want it circulating anymore), I've uploaded it here. The link will work for seven days.
I guess let me know if you like me reading in comments or an ask or something.
(PS: Feel free to download this, but please don't reupload.)
