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My feelings don't really matter here.
the prosecutor's proposal is proof that when you lean into what your country's good at (homoerotic police procedurals) you fuckin knock it out the park holy shit this show is so good
Your Phob is right here with you.
obsessed with Phob's visceral need to always bait Prince Vasin to remind him that he fucked his son a decade ago and can still try again
icymi: *the* scene of bittersweet love ep5
Ge, can you say “happy birthday” to me? Happy birthday.
Bittersweet Love (Episode 5)
Tin: 🥺 Please stop putting yourself in danger! 🫤 Phob: 🥰 You care! 🥰
I love that the Chinese BLs set in the past keep digging into the history of queer films because Feel What You Feel gave us the boys watching Happy Together, and now Bittersweet Love gave us the original The Wedding Banquet.
And it's even better that Lu Xiaofan was upset for Simon's character, who he considers the outsider because it would seem that Simon is Lu Xiaofan, who is the outsider to this family.
Especially because Simon is also the character who sacrifices his relationship, so the man he loves can marry and father a child from a woman to make his parents happy.
And it's not lost on me that they are happiest in this dynamic.
Yet there is a consistent divide.
Chinese BLs, do what you do best and let Lu Xiaofan run far away, not to be found.
Please!
You have no idea how many times I’ve replayed the scene where Phob puts Tin's hand on his cheek and kisses his forehead. Because my god, the literal English translation,"Your Phob is here now" barely scratches the surface.
The emotional weight here comes from three things happening all at once:
He deliberately drops his military identity.
He returns to the exact identity he held when he first loved the prince.
He reminds the prince that a promise made by a servant still stands, surviving revolution, rank, and history.
For international viewers, it’s less like he's saying "Your Phob is here" and more like he's saying: "I’m still the exact same Phob who promised you eleven years ago."
1921: Palace servant
Let's look back at that gorgeous scene under the Dok Phuttan tree, when they're alone on the fallen petals right before the prince leaves for England. The prince is royalty (Phrabat), while Phob is just a servant. That moment is the first time we hear Phob refer to himself in an intentionally humble, rawly intimate way: "Ai Phob khong Phrabat." Literally: "The Phob who belongs to you." He promises right then that no matter what happens in the future, he will never change, and he will wait for him forever. (Side note: this is exactly why "18" by One Direction fits them flawlessly. The lyrics are literally them!)
The prefix ไอ้ (ai) is so fascinating. While it's normally rude, here it shifts completely. Used between childhood companions (or by someone of lower status speaking of himself affectionately) it becomes a term of raw, intimate self-deprecation. He's basically saying, "I'm just your idiot Phob."
Why does "Ai Phob" matter so much here?
Fast forward to 1932. He's no longer a powerless servant kneeling below him. He is Captain Phob, a French-educated artillery officer and one of the men who will help overthrow the absolute monarchy. He has every reason to abandon that past self, but he still chooses "Ai Phob." It's absolutely heartbreaking. He's saying: "Before I was a captain... before I was a revolutionary... before history rewrote us... I was your Phob. And I still am."
And think about when he says it. The prince is unconscious after taking a bullet for him, and Phob whispers: "Ai Phob khong Phrabat yu thi ni laeo" (ไอ้ภพของพระบาทอยู่ที่นี่แล้ว).
Literal translation: "Phrabat's Phob is here now."
Better translation: "That idiot Phob who promised to wait for you... he's here."
Ultimate emotional translation: "I'm here. I'm still your Phob."
It completely freezes time. For one sentence, the Revolution is forgotten. The prince isn't the King's secretary, Phob isn't a captain, they're just the prince and his palace servant.
Buuut, what makes this line so devastating is that, politically, everything has changed.
In 1921: "I'll always be Phrabat's Ai Phob."
In 1932: He's literally one of the officers dismantling the political world that gives meaning to the title Phrabat. Yet emotionally, nothing has changed.
So when he says, "Ai Phob khong Phrabat yuu thii nii laeo," he's essentially saying: "The Revolution will take my station. France changed my education. The army changed my rank. History will change our country. But none of it changed whose Phob I am."
It’s not just a declaration of love, it’s a deliberate rejection, for one intimate moment, of every new identity he’s spent eleven years earning. By choosing the old self-reference Ai Phob, he momentarily steps out of history and right back into the promise he made as a palace servant.
The Edge of Horizon // Episode 5
Let him keep this promise.
the physical difference in prince tinnakorn before and after the timeskip is staggering.
when we first meet tin, he's young, he's talented, he's confident, he's got a bright future. he's cherished by his family. he has phob by his side. he enjoys his privilege and feels comfortable in it.
his body language communicates this too - he's loose, he's relaxed, self-assured. he smiles widely when he wants to. he jokes and teases.
he kisses phob easily and naturally, like it's the most comfortable thing in the world. like he belongs. like it's a joy. like it's his right.
it isn't that his life is completely free of anxiety or conflict, but he feels so assured of his own agency when facing any problem. siri can't go out without her father's permission? we'll just talk to him. phob is keeping a secret? i'll simply summon him to make him talk to me. phob can't follow tin to the uk? i'll just ask my dad on his behalf. tin truly believes he can overcome anything life throws at him.
privilege is a garment he wears with ease and comfort. and why wouldn't he? life is easy for him.
but then. eleven years later.
the comfortable, confident prince is gone. utterly gone.
he's tense, cautious, stiff. he barely smiles anymore, even when he intends to. the weight of eleven years of repression and obedience and expectations and family responsibility and running away from his emotions and giving up on happiness have left him visibly hollow and fragile. the effort of reshaping himself over and over to fit what others need him to be has exhausted all his capacity for self-protection.
his privilege is now a cage he is chained to, and a weapon he wields without even meaning to. he knows the harm he is capable of just by benefitting from the systems of power and oppression he was born into. the garment of privilege has become an uncomfortable, ill-fitting uniform of authority that protects people who are cruel and corrupt, and actively harms people who are simply striving for a better life. people who deserve more than their lot. people he loves.
he's running from phob in a desperate attempt to protect him. stay away from me, i'll only hurt you.
but phob has changed, too. phob is ready for a fight, and tin has lost basically all his defenses.
so these kisses now - he's so unsteady, so lost. he's helpless and desperate. he never managed to put these feelings away after all these years, he only hid and ignored them; so all that thinly buried emotion just rises up and overwhelms him every time. tin can do nothing but surrender.
there is an ocean of love, of want, of desperation, of pain, of longing in prince tin. the dam holding all of it back is paper thin, even after eleven years. any day now, it's going to break open and all come pouring out.
i have to throw ongsa his flowers because this man is telling the story with his whole body. and i am loving every minute.
(special thanks to @embersinthefirelight and @tanrak for the beautiful beautiful gifs 💜)
I will say, if Edge of Horizon gives me a thai-bl-style extremely half-assed forgiveness of shitty parents for no good reason towards the end, I will be supremely annoyed. Either give me a break with the parental figures or deserved forgiveness by way of actual parental redemption. Or, even better, give me a forever-complex family relationship where nothing is okay and well but a complete break is impossible because those are still their parents, so everyone lingers on an edge of trying to ignore the elephant in the room and being uncomfortable and not trusting each other but also incapable of putting an end to the connection entirely. I know I won't get that last one because that requires a certain complexity and discomfort and open-endedness that Thai BL does not typically like to provide, but I can always hope. Give me complicated uncomfortable family relationships that aren't completely broken but also aren't fine in any sense of the word, come on!
Boy oh boy I know we’re not even halfway through the runtime of the show, but at this point in time it seems impossible to imagine a happy end for Phob and Tin that doesn’t include a near or fully complete break with their families. They’ve been put into an impossible situation, as far as their feelings for each other in relation to their duties and social/familial backgrounds and the time period they’re in go, and I feel so deeply for them.
Everyone is going THROUGH IT this episode. Phob. Tin. My useless failson Chat. Phob’s mother. Tin’s father and grandmother. And then there’s beautiful Siri having her Found Family moment and charged lesbian cake sharing. Love that for her <3
Chat is truly The character of all time. Comes from nobility. Extremely prejudiced and an asshole about it. Supremely stupid and extremely susceptible to being scammed. Loves his family and tries to help it, but only makes things worse. Always SO close to understanding something, but falls just shy every time. Lost Eldest Son privileges through the force of being Supremely Stupid. Does not get equally loved back by his family. Has an extremely complicated relationship with his father. Just wants to do something right for once. Has a gambling problem and invested in a scammy mine to get out of the issues that his gambling caused. Pulls the silliest faces when he thinks he finally Got something (he never actually gets anything). Genuinely wants to protect his little brother. Accidentally shot said brother in the arm.
I should not find Phob being dangerously, violently protective this hot but alas. Tragically I think he DOES look good having people beat up and threatening them. Also, I DO like that he’s completely insane about Tin. And I do think he should use that killing instinct to protect Tin in the future. Basically that man is a bit of a red flag, but his prideful protective insanity has bewitched me body and soul and I am always in favour of a man with Principles, so he gets ALL my go-aheads <3
I know The Prosecutor's Proposal is a high-quality BL drama because, one, scrolling through its tag, I see tons of posts that perfectly demonstrate that the show resonates with viewers, and two, these posts fall into three categories, which always tell me the show is good and has caught on:
1) a 🎪 full of dedicated 🤡 employed full-time to roast the show's biggest alpha, who, not coincidentally, is also a biggest baby, a giant, petulant, sulking toddler
2) horny posts
3) heartbreaking 💔 posts about our boys' trauma, plus full, thoughtfull analyses (I hope the next episode brings us even more delicious angst)
Keep up the good work people! for the glory and general well-being of our small community 💖
Make a sound and you're dead. What... sound?
I said, make a sound and you're dead.
Taeseon knows Chaeha can't keep quiet.
He's totally laying claim and making sure everyone in the dorm knows Chaeha is taken, with the very likely possibility that it gets back to Song Haneul who lives in the same dorm.
He really is a jealous bitch