Okay this is an absolute BEAST of a post but this is what you get when you ask the guy who’s normal about crossfangs about crossfangs
I look exhausted Oh, stiff and awkward on the outside of the moment - Abolish is obviously chronically overworked, not to mention that he isn’t really great at socializing with others (ITS AUTISM I scream into the void) On top of this his manner upbringing would’ve likely instilled some pretty skewed ideas of what a normal social situation contains, considering that at the things he went to as a boy would’ve likely had a good amount of hostility and intrigue directed his way. This would obviously leave him in situations where he feels like an outsider, largely in fancy situations for his organization but even if it’s just him and the coven vamps.
You said some people don't know why they're wolves They just howl for the sound of it - In this song’s case the ‘you’ is Scott. He’s obviously lived for centuries in the social world that Abolish is struggling with. This line I view as a sort of reassurance that a lot of the shit directed his way was just because it was the thing to do—powerful people want more power, after all.
Some will never know they're beautiful Until the crowd points it out for them - Now I feel like this could go for either of their perspectives, bust especially for Scott towards Abolish. Scott is obviously vainer and would likely be focused on making Abolish realize his aesthetic beauty but also to just feel more understood or at least appreciated in general. Likely though social situations because that’s where he’s always felt the most powerful and adored but at least he’s trying.
But I see you through a camera flash I look back and you laugh And this is hard, but I feel less far - Back to Abolish perspective now! In this case maybe they’re out at some event together and Abolish would be struggling, dissociating or shutting down in some way, but seeing the way Scott manages everything while acting as an anchor in the situation could help him start to feel like there is someone there for him + be able to stay present rather than fading into the background
This ain't Watertown, I'm on alien ground - While I personally think Crossfangs would be a beautiful qpr this would be the feelings realization line for Abolish :)
I'm an astronaut, you're the Moon I stare at you, I sing to you I circle you - Coming back to the not really knowing how to make friends/get close to people, even if Abolish does want to be closer to Scott he doesn’t know how to. He sees him as this beautiful and competent figure, something omnipresent and still unattainable, so why should he even try? And so instead he yearns and hangs awkwardly around Scott, too scared to actually do anything
You said, "Oh, look, babe, even God is tryna warn you All this ain't for you" But I cling to my seat - Abolish trying to make himself seem more ‘normal’ and go out and be the type of person that other people like. Obviously Scott sees through this and tries to tell him that he’s fine with him being different, he doesn’t need to do things he doesn’t want to. Does Abolish listen? Of course not!!
And I clutch my cloth, and I bite my tongue - Okay I always heard this line as cross instead of cloth which would’ve been even more fitting but I digress. Abolish once again not taking care of himself to try and live up to expectations.
I'm an aging wolf who lost the taste for blood - As time has passed, especially right after. Oakhurst, Abolish hasn’t really wanted to do his job, he hates it, he’s lost the drive he had when he was younger. But what’s a wolf without its teeth? He can’t quit or change when all he’s ever known is the bloodshed.
If I'm gonna lose you either way x3 I'm gonna lose you either way - Abolish has largely lost every person who cared for him, from his parents to Legs. This obviously leads him to believe that he’s going to end up losing Scott because he cares about him, so why does it matter what he does. Scott’s just going to die or break up with him or something anyway.
Umm yeah this is kinda nonsensical because it’s kinda line by line + it’s late and I’m sleepy but hope you enjoyed one person who asked for this
