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i will never be good enough. never have, never will be. there's just always someone better than me, so easily replaceable, so easily forgotten. it's not important if i'm around or not around, it doesn't matter at all. always the outcast. always overlooked.

never anyone's favourite.

is this really some kind of sick joke for god to keep putting the most splitting-inducing events around my period every time

#vent #actually bpd

one of those days that makes hospitalization sound real good right about now compared to dealing with shit

#vent

no matter what i do i can’t win. i keep trying and i can’t. i will always be stuck behind this glass wall away from everyone else

#vent

02void

02-18-2026, 9 AM

lowkey it sucks so bad sometimes being the boring looking friend when i’m out with my alt friends because they get compliments all the damn time, and every single time i gotta stand there waiting for it to be over knowing i’m not gonna have anything nice said about how i look as someone who just dresses standardly and doesn’t have 5 pounds of hair dye + makeup + piercings/tattoos on 🫩

#vent #this isn’t about lack of effort into my appearance btw bc i do put effort into being clean and nice looking #but like i KNOW i’m still chopped compared to my friends whenever we’re out #and no one in passing ever has something nice to say about me so i have to stand their grinning and bearing it #while my friends get showered in compliments #i already knew growing up that attraction and compliments from people around my age has never been a thing for me #and ig this just rubs it in even worse

god give me strength to not go off on this stupid idiotic cunt

#vent