Sorry in advance lol can’t stop thinking about freaky possessive Tim drake who’s obsessed with Jason.
Jaytim who are literally perfect for each other in a way that’s concerning to everyone around them lol.
Jason, who has never once felt like he’s been anyone’s first choice, and because of this has become ridiculously insecure about his self worth. He’ll deny it to the day he dies, of course, but it’s the truth. He wants and wants and wants so fucking badly it feels like he’s drowning in it. He wants to be someone’s first choice—their only choice. He wants to know what unconditional love feels like, wants to know what it’s like to be chosen. Every single person in his life has let him down in one way or another, and he knows he’s not blameless, but shit would be nice to actually feel loved.
( Like, come on. Hes had a handful of parents and parental like figures and every single one of them has picked something over him. Drugs, money, the stupid fucking mission. Every time. What the fuck is his luck? )
Enter Tim.
Tim, who has similarly felt abandoned by everyone he’s ever met, resulting in him developing some pretty serious abandonment issues. If he was honest with himself—which he very often was not, then he’d probably say he was born with them. His parents were gone more often than not, leaving him to be independent, sure, but absolutely drowning in loneliness. And then he met the Waynes, who, at least in the beginning, offered him more comfort before he had ever officially met them. Bruce was…rough, initially, and things had gotten better, sure, but that never meant he stayed. Tim was fiercely independent, which meant that Bruce….didnt feel the need to hover. It was as relieving as it was devastating. Him and Dick had drifted apart, him and Damian were…well, he didn’t know what they were, but Damian wasn’t trying to kill him anymore. Not brothers. Not really. But…something close, maybe. Alfred was loyal to Bruce and would never leave, but his feelings towards the older man had grown…resentful, almost. It was complicated. Kon liked to argue that Tim’s abandonment issues were very real, but he often made them worse—which was rude…but also probably true. It wasn’t his fault that growing up lonely had…unexpected results. The self isolation and insecurity was expected.
The need to keep everyone he loved so close to his chest that they were practically living behind his ribs was not.
This is why they work. Once Tim is interested in someone, he becomes absolutely devoted to them. He would literally do anything to keep Jason happy and it does something funny to his heart every single time. Jason has never felt as wanted as he does when him and Tim start dating. He doesn’t even care about the, frankly ridiculous amount of trackers on his person at all times, because he knows that’s how tim shows his love.
Never once has he ever doubted Tims love—not since he made the Jokers death look like a happy little accident that he certainly had nothing to do with, batman. He loved him. He wanted him. He chose him over and over again, and Jason would rather die again than let him go. He doesn’t care that Tim is possessive as hell (he thinks it’s hot) or that he gets jealous often (it makes him feel wanted), or that sometimes, when Jason is being especially bratty, usually on purpose, he gets a little mean.
(Jason loves when he gets like that. It’s so fucking hot…but he thinks everything Tim does is hot, so maybe he’s a little bit biased)
People have their concerns about their relationship, because of course they do. They say their relationship isn’t healthy—that the possessiveness shouldn’t be an attractive trait and Jason should know better. They say Jason is the bad influence (this just means that Tim is a good fucking actor because what?) and that he’s corrupting him just to spite Bruce.
They don’t care though. Their obsession…started out as exactly that. It wasn’t love, not at first. Their problems were similar enough to relate, but different enough to help. To soothe the ache the world had left on their souls.
And, yeah. maybe it was a little bit unhealthy at times. But they learned to make it work. They found a way to make Tims possessive nature not seem suffocating, but allowed Jason to feel wanted all the same.
Just…two down bad freaks who are obsessed with each other.
Tim is the type of person who gets embarrassed by the moans he lets out in bed so he bites his lip or the pillow meanwhile and Jason who has a slut-shaming kink grabs him by the hair and tells him to let him hear exactly how he makes him scream.
Jason watching Tim with lidded eyes as the younger sucks his cock. A hand on the back of his head to guide him up and down and he sits in the most relaxed way he can. Smirking and telling Tim that he’s such a good boy and damn Tim is cumming his pants again and Jason isn’t even close.
Dick or Tim going undercover and reviving the Red X mantle. Jason meets them as Red Hood and doesn't know who's under the mask. We all know Tim & Dick have game and pull both genders. Red X is incredibly flirty and a smartass but he doesn't really do puns like the Robins do. Plus keep his voice changer and weapons. Jason is falling for that man. Jason is the bottom/submissive one in this situation. 5k+ words. Maybe 5 + 1 formatting for 6 chapters. Red X being into the power/upper hand they have over Jason. Jason looks into Red X to try and figure out his motive but doesn't get much. Jason is 23/24. Tim is 21. Dick is 30. Scene where Red X sticks Red Hood down with one of his x's and says something about how "He looks way better tied up" or Red Hood is kidnapped tied up and gagged Red X shows up and says "He looks way cuter with something shoved in his mouth". Tim/Dick trying to hide how they interact with Jason as Red X because they know Bruce will snitch whether Jason is reintegrated into their 'family' or not.
btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here
Jason has tim pressed again the mattress face down. They're both in their uniforms still, Jason reeks and Tim can only imagine he doesn't smell great either. "Jason'" he whimpers out.
But Jason is already too far gone, rutting intensely onto Tim's ass. He can't remember exactly how they got into this position but the way Jason is grunting and moaning in his ear is making Tim's head spin fast enough to feel dizzy. God, he can feel himself soaking beneath his uniform.
Jason gets like this sometimes after a mission, particularly if it went bad or sideways. He doesn't know what set him off this time, when Bruce told him to back down and retreat, or when they got tricked and duped by black mask.
"fuck," Jason hisses from under his breath. He pushes himself up with one arm, the other to push Tim further into the mattress, pinning him so he couldn't move. "You really like this don't you, replacement?"
Ah, so he using *that* name tonight. Tim hated it sometimes, he sorta hates it right now, but he knows Jason likes to use it to create this space between them. It makes him feel better for how he's about to treat him. Tim shakes his head. "Jason," he whines this time, he knows whats about to happen.
"all this fucking crying and moaning but holy shit replacement if you could only feel yourself," he taunts, his gloved fingers find their way down Tim's body. He can barely feel anything, the uniform padding making sure of it but he can't help himself from squirming back and forth. A couple of clicks and belts and Tim can feel his uniform being pushed beneath his ass, the cool air hitting him and his pussy. Jason doesn't waste any time before sinking his hands into Tim's opening.
It makes him Jolt and he snaps his head back at the intrusion as he involuntarily moans. He can feel himself absolutely soaking Jason's glove. He hated how much affect Jason had on him like this. He likes when he and Jason can take their time, actually look at each other and feel each other like normal couples do. But he can't deny he loves when Jason uses him just like this. By the time Jason is three fingers in, Tim can feel that familiar knot in his stomach tighten but before it can break Jason takes away his hand.
Tim is panting now, he knows Jason wants to hear Tim beg for it. He wants Tim to embarrass himself, to prove Jason's the better hero. Tim only shakes his head which earns a handful of times hair being pulled so he could face Jason's face.
He didn't have his mask on, nor his domino. He could see the green and blue that mixed in Jason's eyes, God he looked so pretty like this. Flushed and mean, he looks like he wants to kill Tim. "Tell me pretty bird."
Fuck, he's using that pet name.
He can feel himself gush down there and so does Jason. "How much do you want to feel me?"
He leans in this time, his length pressing against Tim's ass, his body pushing a glorious amount of weight on top on him and the way his voice rasped and echoed in Tim's ear he felt himself short circuit. "Jason."
"I want to hear you say it," Jason rasps, "how much do you want me." The way he says it sounds almost pathetic. Tim knows he needs this, the reassurance, to hear Tim surrender and validate him. Tim knows Jason acts so tough, but he's so insecure too. "I want it," Tim responds breathlessly, "you can finish inside me." It's such a simple array of words, but it's the right ones for Tim to feel the warm gush of Jason's cum fill him full.
"Holy shit," Jason sounds so breathless, his weight on top of Tim becoming slightly overwhelming. "God, you're so fucking amazing Tim." the praise feels good. It's rewarding, it makes Tim feel good, it's the satisfaction he chases. He hums against Jason, and he takes it as a sign to flip himself over so he's lying by Tim.
Small, calming circles are traced against Tim's back. God, this is his favorite part. The part where Jason becomes needy and clings onto Tim like he needs to be in Tim's skin. "Thank you baby, thank you." He showers Tim in pretty words, words that make Tim's belly feel tight and like he might throw up.
A/N: didn't know how to finish this so I'm not it's been sitting in drafts for months
Hmmmm Jason Todd who feels guilty and sick when he gets hard watching Tim cry. Tim Drake who gets hard from being scared/in pain. I want a forever guilt spiral