* SCREAM QUEEN !

independent & highly selective fandomless oc written by ezrelle

[siirenae]

I’M PUTTING PERENELLE ON AN INDEFINITE HIATUS.  i have no idea why i can’t simply find it in myself to go on here.  maybe it’s the lack of muse??  or the lack of threads??  or maybe it’s just this blog has become frustratingly cluttered.  i really don’t know.  but i’m putting her on an indefinite hiatus because who knows,  maybe i’ll come back.  i’ve gone inactive on some blogs and came back after a long time.  maybe i just need the proper motivation irl to bring perenelle back again.  but for the meantime,  she will be placed on an indefinite hiatus until i think i’m ready to write her again.  if you want to talk to me,  you can find me on my other blogs:  @theirvictory​​  &  @mollitiaem​  as well as my dis//cord ( hover for the discord tag ).  that is all.  it has been a pleasure roleplaying with all of you <3 

[siirenae]

perenelle’s not dead.  i’m just finding it really hard to find muse for her right now esp when there are no threads and everything is just one blob of mess in her blog.  so like,  idk??  i gotta fix some shit up first before writing again.  

[wordsnquotes]

I’m so afraid of losing something I love that I refuse to love anything.

Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via wordsnquotes)

[for-pete-sake-memes]

💀 Reblog if your muse is deadly

[siirenae]

                  there was a soft exhale as perenelle placed her precious folders back into her messenger bag. college was   e x h a u s t i n g   to say the least, and the girl was more than ready to just DROP OUT. but then again, college guaranteed her a CAREER so therefore, she wasn’t going to put her (   hardwork   )  to waste. the blonde groaned. pale, slender fingers reaching for the strap of her bag as she moved away not-so-elegantly from her chair in the cafe. another sip was taken from the LARGE cup of coffee that was meant to keep her awake for the next TWENTY FOUR HOURS, but somehow, it wasn’t working. tired and heavy eyes will soon close, so she hurried out the door of the cafe  — but perenelle stopped dead in her tracks as she heard the sound of someone    (   maybe a crazed college girl experiencing hallucinations??   )   calling out the name “MAL” 

                   who would name their kid MAL?? perenelle thought as she continued on walking, there was no way that girl could have been calling after her. she was NOT MAL. her parents gave her enough justice to call her something far more decent than that. but the girl seemed to be persistent, still calling out the name even if perenelle had walked like a good twenty metres away from her already. the blonde sighed a second time. 

                   ❝     who are you and why do you keep on calling me that name?? it’s hideous !!     ❞

*&. @designerevil thought she was mal. 

[siirenae]

HEADCANON;; 

             PERENELLE HATES HIGH SCHOOL. ever since the explosion, she never thought about high school the same way ever again. how could she when she dedicated ( all her life ) into doing well in that place just to make her parents proud and to make them see that she’s as competitive as her brother, only to lose her entire family in a whim ?? 

                she absolutely hates caedwalla every time they make her pose as a high school student in their missions, and prefers the more combat-related missions than the undercover ones where she’s forced to just observe and never engage. 

                 high school reminds perenelle of a life she would never have, not anymore. it reminded her of her miscalculated priorities and her thirst to prove herself worthy of her parents’ pride. it reminds her of what she could have been if she didn’t blow up their home and destroy everything she once valued. she felt her envy towards these stupid teenagers who are self-centred and knew nothing about loss and grief. these teenagers who still have      ( loving families )      to go home to. teenagers who never have to endure a life where she had to     ( kill and kidnap )     people for the government. SHE ENVIED IT ALL. 

                  but then again, she was ever the queen of deception and would gladly deny allegations of her wanting more than the life she has now. 

[murking-deactivated20181202]

hi everyone this jannah / anny! this was really embarrassing for me to make a post about, like some of you already know about my situation w/ my mum already, but i don’t feel comfortable explaining that

@ everyone reading this: please if you have enough to send, can you send me ( and my sisters ) cash? i barely have enough for them, let alone myself. i’m currently using the money that we have rn to feed them, and i’m only eating once a day… like i’m trying to spend money on cheaper foods at supermarkets but it’s not enough. my dad’s not even trying to help us out, and i’m literally losing weight like crazy

i’m currently working overtime but we don’t get paid until the end of next month, which really doesn’t help me right now. so, if you can donate even £5 i would really appreciate it. everything rn is going towards food for my sisters / their lunch money

so, like any amount of money you send would be appreciated. i just want to make it easier for myself because rn i don’t have energy. i’m not used to a diet for just toast, microchips and water

paypal: [email protected]

even if you can’t donate, if u can reblog that would be great 💕

[rbcages]

how are you so quiet about it? your sadness i mean. how do you hold it in your chest, in your eyes, in your teeth without letting it speak; how does it stay still?

[dangerly]

[marielwrote]

ok but someone give me that cute bartender storyline though? like this guy tends bar at a restaurant or a pub or something and always sees this cute girl hanging out there, but she’s always either with friends or with some guy so he never really gets the time to talk to her BUT ONE DAY she walks into the place alone and orders so many drinks until she’s so bloody drunk, screaming about how her boyfriend cheated on her, that the bartender had to bring her home himself. she wakes up with a horrible hangover, stumbles out the room to find the bartender cooking breakfast and rolling his eyes, laughing. “first of all, you’re an idiot. second, we didn’t have sex if that’s what you’re wondering. third, breakfast will be ready soon. sit.” and fluff commences HELP PLZ

[siirenae]

finally got the chance to open perenelle’s account on a good laptop and i can RP as perenelle now. anyways, ALL THREADS WILL BE DROPPED. but previous connections would still be discussed. 

[siirenae]

I absolutely hate how fickle my muse with perenelle is, so like I need plots to restart her and I'm too lazy to revamp in another blog so. RIP me.

[siirenae]

HI!! So I just maybe partially restarted everything on perenelle so this is a STARTER CALL!! I have no idea if this is still a thing but I definitely want to write with all my new followers. So yes, just hmu for some lovin. ( *coughs* pls like this i need threads *coughs* )

[siirenae]

( *&. MS. BLACK CANARY // @battlecried​ ) 

         Ok, so, she definitely wasn’t feeling this. Which was okay, it was only the beginning anyway, and given the accident that this girl just had it was impossible for her to feel anything but anxiety. She could understand that.

Slow, baby steps. 

“Well then…” Dinah stopped, chuckling once she heard ms black canary coming out of Perenelle’s lips, “in that case, let me take you there. I can speak to her, make sure she knows…” how to deal with her powers? For some reason saying it that way, Dinah knew it would make her feel even worse about herself, “how to help, you know. And I can give her my contact, so she can call me if you ever need me.”

              SURPRISINGLY, THE BLACK CANARY was far more hopeful for her than she intially thought she would be. but perenelle knew better than to cave. if this woman found out that she'd killed her entire family with just ONE SCREAM, then perenelle would probably be stuffed into the cruel halls of a JUVENILE DELINQUENCY CENTRE. there are lots of that, and rumour has it that some of those centres beat up the kids with an iron rod. 

              PERENELLE WOULD RATHER DIE than to be stuffed into whatever hellhole the universe could see fitting for her. 

              ❝     REALLY, I'M OKAY. I'm sure I can take this by myself. my aunt's not really comfortable with visitors, you see.     ❞     and if the black canary does leave her alone ??  where would she go ??  how in the goddamn world would she be able to fend for herself on the streets ??  she was as good as dead.

[siirenae]

( *&. LAB PARTNER. ) 

       “ You sure? “ He asked, hearing the slight skip in her heart beat. It disappeared so quickly he wasn’t even sure if it was an anomaly or just an after thought. Nonetheless, he nods and flashes her another smile, easier now than the laugh before it as he picked up the gloves and actually attempted to do work. 

      Thumb brushed over the open page he’d left his book in, catching up with the requirements of the task before making any actual move. “ I trust you know what you’re doing ‘cause I don’t. “

              ANIMAL DISSECTIONS were better than having to become a secret agent and figure out why the hell such a peaceful-looking place could have a SPIRALLING mortality rate. but of course, lahey doesn't need to know all these thoughts and opinions. she'll gladly keep these for herself until she gets buried underneath the damn ground. 

              ❝     WELL OF COURSE i do know what i am doing. not to be arrogant or anything, but i'm pretty good at biology. i just can't dissect this one alone because such a thing requires four hands.     ❞     there's also a background story for that, one that perenelle would never want to tell. but her face remained the same, fakely smiling through all the whirlwind of caedwalla secrecy she was going through.

[givemeameme-blog]

Reblog if you are willing to write in-depth, significant, and valued FRIENDSHIPS.

[vanishcd]

givemeameme:

There is so much focus on romantic/sexual relationships lately. Friendships are incredibly important for characters too, and deserve as much love and attention as romantic/sexual relationships.

[twinsleft-blog]

shit i say — sentence starters

i decided to make a meme out of all the shit i say regularly. enjoy!

GENERAL SHIT. 

❝ I’M GONNA MCFREAKING LOSE MY MIND. ❞

❝ I’m going to shove an entire baseball bat down my throat and smash my insides. ❞

❝ *aggressive finger guns* ❞

❝ *high pitched screeching* ❞

❝ That’s where you’re right, kiddo. ❞

❝ I AM THE ONE THAT WEIGHS A TON DON’T NEED A GUN— ❞

❝ HECK. ❞

❝ GOTTA FUCKING BLAST. ❞

❝ That’s my cue to blast outta here. ❞

❝ GOT ME MOTHERFUCKING MCSHOOK. ❞

❝ Thoroughly shooken. ❞

❝ LISTEN— ❞ 

❝ Trust me, I’m a professional. ❞

❝ I’m gonna throw myself off of a fucking bridge. ❞

❝ I’m convinced I was a cat in a past life. ❞

❝ Inject caffeine directly into my veins, please. ❞

❝ I literally have a ‘white people voice’ for when I’m being polite. ❞

❝ I sound like a fucking twelve year old. ❞

❝ I got a tiny ass head. It’s like a fucking golf ball. ❞

BITTER SHIT.

❝ _____ is the literal bane of my existence. ❞

❝ I hate you. …I’m kidding. ❞

❝ Yeah, well, he’s/she’s/they’re a manipulative cunt, so. ❞

❝ I’m gonna punch you in the fucking mouth. ❞

❝ I’m small and bitter like an espresso. ❞

❝ I am Denatonium benzoate, aka the most bitter substance on the planet. ❞

❝ *facepalm* ❞

❝ *frustrated groaning* ❞

❝ I hate _____ with every fiber of my being. ❞

❝ I will kick your fucking ass. ❞

❝ Don’t you fucking dare. ❞

❝ I get it, I’m fucking short. ❞

LOVEY SHIT.

❝ You mean a lot to me. Like, seriously, a fucking lot. ❞

❝ I do it because I love you. ❞

❝ *fondly* Fucking nerd. ❞

❝ *fondly* Dumbass. ❞

❝ You are my absolute favorite person. ❞

❝ *heart eyes* ❞

❝ Don’t even fucking think about leaving without giving me a hug. ❞

❝ *whining noises and grabby hands* ❞

❝ There he/she/they go(es), the love of my life. ❞

❝ It’s literally unfair how attractive he/she/they is/are. ❞

❝ Look at how pretty he/she/they is/are, I’m gonna fucking cry. ❞

❝ I just wanna smooch his/her/their face. ❞

❝ JUST LOOK AT HIM/HER/THEM! I’M GONNA SCREAM. ❞

MOM-FRIEND SHIT.

❝ I am mom-friend. ❞

❝ You best not be fucking texting and driving. ❞

❝ Do you want ____? ❞

❝ Please don’t do that, you’re worrying me. ❞

❝ Listen, my job is to make sure everyone else is okay. ❞

❝ ‘Drink water kids!’ I say as I am severely dehydrated. ❞

❝ ____, that’s not good. ❞

❝ Who do I have to fucking fight? ❞ 

ANGSTY SHIT.

❝ I hate myself with every fiber of my being. ❞

❝ I’m just really fucking scared. ❞

❝ I’m sorry that I love you. ❞

❝ I’m sorry that I’m like this. ❞

❝ What’s wrong with me? ❞

❝ God, this happens every fucking time. ❞

❝ I loved her/him/them. And she/he/they fucking abandoned me. ❞

❝ I don’t know what I’m doing. ❞

❝ Why the fuck am I crying? ❞

❝ I’m getting bad again. ❞

❝ It’s like everything goes in one ear, out the other with you. ❞

❝ I’ve told you time and fucking time again that it makes me feel like shit, and yet you still do it. ❞

❝ I look and feel like absolute shit. ❞

❝ It’s nothing, I’m fine. ❞

SLEEPY SHIT.

❝ I’m so fucking exhausted. ❞

❝ I really wanna just sleep. ❞

❝ I need to just sleep for like 17 years. ❞

❝ I could literally fall asleep anywhere. ❞

❝ I’m gonna pass out in the middle of the hallway. ❞

❝ I’m already fucking tired. ❞

❝ If I sit still in one place for like 30 minutes, I will fall asleep. ❞

❝ Can I just nap instead? ❞