ive been turning this passage over in my mind and thinking about the varied ways we are presented with the origins of alecto: John's version, the lyctors' version, this version from her. there's the fractal nature of her narration at this point when nona is slipping over into alectohood, and there is the thing i love most about taz's writing, the little tricks of phrase she works in to communicate multiple hidden meanings. as alecto thinks, she lists increasingly complicated and divergent truths. from this little passage we get different versions of the origin story, with agency placed on different actors. what is the split between the world (earth? the universe? a specific active force?) and alecto? did alecto exist before john made her? was john born with the ability that he has, or was it granted to him "for he so loved her"? curiously, john does not spend much time (in his narrative to harrow) on the question of why he got these gifts. two things majorly come up for me with all these questions: horrors of love, of course, and the difficult unending push-pull of giving yourself over to something/someone, what you can expect in return. that is the defining theme of tlt to me and i really appreciate that it is so loudly present in this germinating moment of the series. second, this passage is referencing John 3:16, one of the most famous bible passages: "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son [...]" but in the bible, the World is not an actor. the books are in conversation with christianity, within canon and metatextually; crucially taz is not reproducing straightforward biblical narratives. that transformation is really important, it asks critical engagement of us as readers. how is this connected to christianity, and how is it different? all the overlapping versions of this story (and the things happening off the page in the books) indicate there are many more forces at play than just john and alecto. what is the World? what is it doing? what does it mean for the world to love john?














