silentlullabiess

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[silentlullabiess]

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she / her / they / ƈɛʟɛֆȶɨǟʟ ɮɛɨռɢ

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22

MINORS DNI

here for a good time not a long time

[silentlullabiess]

𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆝 𓆟

I'd gut myself like a fish

to let all my secrets spill out of me

not for the pain, not for the show

but to just feel something real

below the tide, swaying in the water

watch my body sink away

𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆝 𓆟 𓆝 𓆝 𓆟

[silentlullabiess]

i can't sleep,

i haven't for months,

the thunder outside is loud,

my heart feels heavy,

why could i not make you proud?

[silentlullabiess]

the rain and thunder outside make me feel homesick for my childhood

the yelling

the slamming doors

the screaming

the loudness that was always there

it feels good

like when you make yourself bleed.

[silentlullabiess]

I am just a bunch of fragments of every single person i have met put together in a really confusing puzzle that is missing a lot of pieces.

[silentlullabiess]

i want to be nostalgic but i almost didn't make it out of my childhood.

[silentlullabiess]

I have cried all the tears,

I have begged with all my breath,

you will never love me how I need,

but how do I forget?

[silentlullabiess]

you have to save yourself, before you save anyone else.

[silentlullabiess]

take me deep into the woods,

show me the darkness of the earth,

teach me to be good.

[silentlullabiess]

have you ever felt the rays of the moon on your skin?

the coldness of the night all around you,

the silence that joins you,

the mellow feeling inside your chest,

have you ever felt the rays of the moon on your skin?

[silentlullabiess]

roses are red,

violets are blue,

you were nice to me,

what happened to you?

[silentlullabiess]

i want to be praised like a god, a goddess, a higher being..

is that too much to ask for?

[silentlullabiess]

i truly was created to be hard to love.

to be misunderstood.

to be mistreated.

to be a monster.

to never be enough.

to be the odd one out.

i was not meant to be loved deeply.

i was not even wanted.

[silentlullabiess]

I would change everything about me if it meant you'd like me better.

[silentlullabiess]

I want to get lost in the maze inside your head baby.

Please.

[silentlullabiess]

I'd slit my throat just to let you deeper inside.

i just want you close.

[silentlullabiess]

i wish i could crawl into your skin and curl up like a cat, that would be the best nap spot.