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“Am I strong enough?

Because it feels like

I’m nothing at all”

These past few weeks I’ve felt emptiness that I haven’t felt in so long. I feel so alone despite having people around me. “No one understands me” is what keeps going through in my mind so I stop myself from even really speaking out about it. “Will they even truly care about it if I bring it up?” I try to tell myself that is not the case but my mind refuses to believe it. My heart physically aches and my chest feels heavy. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t know what is good for me, what could help me get out of this. I’m scared. I can tell I’m slowly breaking down in my head and it’s becoming harder to control my irrational emotions and actions.

adeles

Maleficent: Mistress of Evil (2019)

coat

8eige

It (2017) outtakes

#her level of high is goal tbh

frikiskrew

elreyputo

Bridge to terabithia (2007)

tokai-teio

i fucking hate this caption

bob-belcher

#jup, relatable.

July marks 1 year

since I’ve been at my current job as RN Supervisor.

Starting next month I will officially be carrying the title of Assistant Director of Nursing (ADON)

😱

it’s only been a year and I’ve already been promoted to managerial position

All that hard work I’ve invested and it’s paid off

Now I’m in for some more harder work and higher level of stress 🙃

#personal

rivailles

Happy International Women’s Day! ♀

to have certain people in your life that uplifts your soul just with their presence is such a blessing.

I’m just so happy right now

oomshi

mediokurrr-deactivated20200405

CMON SEWING CLASS LETS GET SICKENING

shithotawkward

hashtagloveloses

put this in the MOMA

I talked to Aaron over the phone not too long ago and I didn’t realize how much I’ve missed him until I got this rush of warm feeling when I heard his voice. I wanted to cry when I said “I miss you” to be quite honest. It’s been like 3 months since I saw him and I miss being able to see him more often. 😔

afrorevolution

I feel alive once again

I’m finally getting back into a happy place again in my mind.

I felt like I wasted 2018 tending to other people’s needs, neglecting myself, and spiraling down into depression. I don’t know who I was and I spent my time hating myself for quite some time. I was continuing to fall yet I felt powerless to do anything for myself. I was slowly being destroyed while I just stood there watching and did nothing.

These past few months I was finally able to genuinely feel happiness in myself and it wasn’t forced. I’m starting to be able to look in the mirror and recognize myself again. I’m thankful for the people around me and giving me such positive vibes. I actually feel like I’m alive and living.

I don’t owe myself to anybody in this world and I want to keep continuing doing things for myself. I absorbed too much of others feelings and carried their emotional weight that I got dragged down. Over time I realized some things are meant to be kept in the past and not forced into my future.

I just want to do only me. Making myself happy will do it’s own thing with the people around me. I want to remain my own source of happiness and good vibes.

#my thoughts