Point in the story: Right after Zuri & Kenny officially became a couple.
Trait-giver Zuri: His mom is definitely intimidating. I couldn't correct her when she said I was from Sixam-143 or that my occult has no hybrids. But I'm sure the glitches in her idealist and proper trait make her only hear - I'm sorry, I shouldn't go there.
Healer Faye: It's alright. If you're thinking she only hears what she wants to hear, you're right. I won't tell anyone else we think that.
Zuri: Thanks. I'm sure lots of sims around her think it. I just probably shouldn't go around saying it. *sighs* His proper trait though...
I'm certain he... I guess what I want to ask you is... *sighs* He didn't talk about your relationship but I'm certain he didn't end it. And from your traits, I've narrowed it down to two possibilities.
Faye: You've looked at my coding?
Zuri: I wasn't going to at first but then I saw the yellow. Strong moodlets are too obvious, no matter how much I try to give sims privacy. An embarrassed moodlet from your good trait because you wanted to ask your spirit for a reading without my permission. You have my permission, by the way. You can search for whatever you'd like.
Faye: There's no need. You're being forthright. What are the two possibilities?
Zuri: I don't think his mother or his church affected you. Your perfectionist trait is perfection. And from what I've heard, your work is still impeccable. So there's no wavering in your connection with the
spirit you work with. But your lovebug and companion traits have been modified recently. Lovebug is yellow. Yellow is good. If it were blue or red, I would have more concerns. Companion is green and the glitch is minor. A minor glitch is expected since you still love him. Option one, you had to choose between him and your practices on your own. Option two, you had to choose because he sang his seduction lullaby.
Faye: Have you heard his seduction lullaby?
Zuri: Not yet. I haven't heard any of his lullabies.
Faye: Then why is that option two?
Zuri: That's why. He did not sing it yet. He's thinking about marriage but he did not sing it yet. His proper and loyal traits are not glitching but they are unnatural. I'm convinced it has everything to do with him being an Elohim-worshipper. Loyal should still have a hint of alluring or beguiling since he's a merman. There's nothing. Proper should have at least a hint of gloomy. Guilt and shame require code from gloomy. But his proper trait is run by his logic skill and his logic skill is boosted by his child of the islands trait. That's why he presents as the shady trait sometimes. He's constantly calculating. But he's an Enamourer so that stresses him out.
Faye: I don't quite understand.
Zuri: Enamourers can create the romantic buffs for the savefiles because their coding is the most indulgent. Kenny should be more indulgent. But he's a merman and an Enamourer that is constantly trying to convince himself that his true emotions have no value because
his emotions would go against his Elohim. I don't know how but he finds ways to justify his relationships with us even though his scrolls clearly says he should deny his attraction and refuse to be romantically involved with us. My guess is that his lullaby is a plea when he cannot justify it. It's an attempt to convince us to serve his Elohim instead because there is no room for guilt and shame in his coding.
Faye: It's worse than that.
Zuri: How can it be worse?
Faye: Before I answer, if you've thought about this already, why are you with him? Don't you care that he recently ended a relationship with another sim? Don't you think he's condescending?
Zuri: I do not care if he has residual feelings for you. He will not act on it. And I think he's arrogant when it comes to his beliefs. But if I'm right about his lullaby, I wouldn't think he's condescending until he starts singing. Which is why I wanted to meet you... I'm wondering how long before I start feeling like he's just tolerating me.
Faye: If you already have that fear, let him go now.
Zuri: I don't know... Maybe it's because we were already lovers in a past life. Maybe it's because his voice and his music calm me down when my paranoid trait starts getting purple. Maybe I'd be fine with his lullaby because I want to believe some of what he believes but I just can't on my own.
Zuri: That his Elohim would surround me with comforters always and reprogram my traits. I can change other sims' traits but I cannot change my own. I would love to live without the guilt and shame in my paranoid coding. Or the ambitious coding that constantly tells me that I'm not good enough. It's peaceful being around a sim that should be indulgent but remains content with his situation.
Faye: But do you want that from his Elohim? I mean, you're right. About feeling at peace around Kenny. I felt it too. And you're right that he does a great job at denying himself most of the time. That discipline is definitely what I love the most about him. But his lullaby? At first, it sounds like the most beautiful song you'll ever hear. But by the 3rd or 4th time, you hear the pain. It can't be a plea for conversion.
I think I could have lived with that because I also wish he would see what I see. If you believe that what you know is the truth, it's normal for you to want your loved ones to know it with you. But it sounds like an argument with himself and his Elohim that he could never win. And then his Elohim responds and you hear it and - you said my lovebug trait is yellow? I had to do so much work with the spirits to get it back to yellow. And to this day, it takes so much energy to not run to Kenny's side and try to - I'm sorry, I should not say this.
Zuri: It's okay, I understand.
Faye: Still. I respect your relationship. I do. And I don't blame his Elohim. If you ever hear it, you will understand. You said his proper trait does not have a hint of gloomy but if you look again, you might see pieces of the sim that raised him. Because there are certain things that he does not hear even when his Elohim says it to him directly. And it could break your heart when you realize he would never listen.
