summary: Remmick's grown tired of your disrespect, how easy it is for you to mumble something snide when you fail to get your way. So when he sits there in his chair, waiting, he doesn't hesitate to jump at the chance of shutting you up.
tags: oneshot, dom!remmick/sub!reader, transmasc!reader, reader is a brat, remmick is mean, pwp, cockwarming, oral sex (m!receiving never applies because they're both men), use of fem anatomy terms (no real focus on them though), no p in v! you don't deserve it, gagging, dumbification of reader, face slapping, sadism, dacryphilia, light degradation, remmick is actually upset so i'm slipping in hurt/comfort, praise kink, pathetic!remmick at the end, crying during an orgasm
wc: 1.8k
a/n: so proud of this, i had so much fun writing it and i'm so happy with the ending. writing heavy endings has always been hard for me, so being able to write something so light and raw without worrying about it was amazing. i hope you all enjoy! also, for the first half of this i had gibson girl by ethel cain playing on repeat, so that'll be the song. please comment, like or even drop something in my dms/asks if you enjoyed or had anything to share. i swear i don't bite.
┄─━ ࿅ ༻ ݁ᛪ༙༺ ࿅ ━─┄
Thick fingers push through your stubborn curls, a long, throaty groan falling into the open air. Remmick bucked his hips into your mouth, unforgiving. You hadn't deserved it, and he'd grown tired of you being mouthy— disrespecting him. For too long he'd bite his tongue, fangs sinking into the muscle until it drew blood to keep himself from ripping your throat out. It was the little things that'd get to him first—like when you had the nerve to scoff at him when he asked you to put more than just his shirt on in front of company. Or when he came home late one night from a hangout with a few old friends. He'd reminded you that night why you couldn't come—it being dangerous for you as a human, and that he was protecting you, and watched as you lingered at the doorway before allowing him in. You had stepped aside to let him in, begrudgingly. That alone would've been fine, he would've settled for, if it'd weren't for his ears perking at the smallest mutter under your breath of how he was doing a “bang-up job” at it.
He'd grit his teeth, jaw clenched so tight he expected his fangs to shatter. What a waste— not being able to sink his teeth into your flesh, simply to teach you a lesson. But you were delicate— gentle. So he had to be too. But god, if it wasn't tempting. Especially when he'd been resting after a hunt, shirt mussed and fangs plaqued with dried blood. His eyes trailed after you as you sat your happy little ass on his lap, without a shred of fabric between you and his slacks. His eyes nearly rolled back at the slightest roll of your hips before he could even pretend to protest. Didn't matter that he'd been exhausted, or filthy— he wanted to drag your ass onto that table and fuck the god out of you. You reveled in the small groan that fell from his lips, like the teasing little thing you are. A brat, really. Had the nerve to get up and walk off before he could lay a finger on you, ignoring his needs for the rest of the night. You'd pull away from his soft touches, ignoring them completely. So this— this was long overdue.
And here you are, bruised knees and aching jaw. It'd been an over an hour like this— you, warming his cock, appealing to a few languid thrusts now and then. You whined again, doing anything to get rid of the slick between your thighs, grinding down against the wooden floor for purchase. “Fuckin' filthy,” Remmick admonished, the low rumble in his throat melting into a growl as he caught sight of it. He pushed his polished shoe between your thighs, spreading them with little effort. He could feel you sigh in relief around him. He scoffed. “Just shameful,” You could feel his foot slides into the dip of your thighs, the cold shine of them against the thin cotton clothing your cunt causing you to flinch. “So fuckin' easy once you got somethin' pressed'ta that greedy lil' cunt, aren'tcha?” he jeers, cold and unforgiving. You don't answer, can't. Not with him fucking into your mouth without any promise of finishing. He swore to make you swallow more than just your words.
“Where'd all your bark go now, mutt, hm?” His hips snap up, relishing in the gag he'd been rewarded with as you struggled to keep your lips around him. Desperate for a break— a breath, even better. “I'on hear none 'a that slick shit now.” His eyes flit to your lips, pretty and puffy. “Answer me,” he grit, jaw clenched. You knew he was teaching you a lesson— Don't bite the hand that feeds you. You only wished you knew what you were walking into sooner. Should've known when he sat stiff in darkness at the corner of the dining room, flits of light tracking you from across the room in shadows, quiet, predatory. Should've known when his arm lounged on the table wrong. Like he was trying too hard to look natural. If you bothered to look any harder, you would've noticed the deep ridges carved into the table. Claw marks, engraved in rage.
For now, he revered in the fuckdrunk look glossed over your eyes, tongue darting over his lips as he watched tears start to brim. Your thighs felt lonely without his foot nudging your cunt. “Aww, you cryin' for me already, baby?” he cooed with a suck of his teeth, but there was nothing endearing about the way he said it— or any less blatant in the way his eyes fixed a little meaner on you, sadistic. Nothing in his eyes but faux-sympathy and lust. He was savoring this. You dared to pull away, all red-rimmed and teary. The sound your lips made as your lips withdrew from his cock— catching on the tip—was just downright filthy. “I— please, Remmick, I just—”
His grip on your hair was firm, chastising. “No,” his voice was low, much lower than you've ever heard before, like a rumble into your very soul. “Y'think you know more than me, hm? Know how much you can take n' I don't? S'what yer sayin' right?” You whimper at the knuckles buried in your curls, and he pulls a little harder, shaking your head back and forth for you. “No, right?” he spoke with grit teeth, “Answer me.” He hand grew easy on your hair, letting the drool from your lips pool over the head of his cock just beneath you. The second your lips trembled open to speak, he snapped his hips into your mouth again. The gag that followed was loud, you made a noise of surprise.
“Hm? What was that?” You whimpered, real and raw. “I asked you a question, angel, I expect an answer.” And the nickname feels wrong on his lips this time, condescending. Your words sputter around his cock, muffled by pale flesh, the trail of an olive vein leading further like a path to sin pulsing in your mouth, nose buried in thin curls. “Mmhf— mmn,” He snaps your head back, the tight grip on your hair never faltering. You've never seen him so pissed. Not at you. Not your Remmick. “Again,” and it's the only word he breathes as you try to speak. “Please—” He makes a sound of disapproval, pushing you back down onto his dick. You gurgle, saliva and tears coating him like lube, thick. He yanks your head back again. “Again.” he repeats. It takes a while of him doing that before you to catch on to what he wants— to what he's asking. Not pleas, an apology. Heartfelt. You rest your hands over the pale expanse of milk-soft thighs and he allows it. “'m sorry, 'm so sorry,” you sob, something broken in your voice. Your resolve, he thinks.
Whatever cracking in you, shattering into something real. You meant it. He taps your face a little too hard for gentle and you cry, the pain grounding you before you curled in on yourself. “For?” he asks, more than expectantly. “I- I was bein' mean, I know— I know it—” Mean. The word babbled from your lips like it would a kid's, being scolded for acting out. Maybe that's what he saw in your face, all screwed up in sadness, and puffy. Acting like a baby. His baby. He inhaled deep, resisting the urge to cradle you in his arms— to lick the tears from your cheeks, peppering you in soft kisses to your jaw and neck as he whispered how good you were. Because you weren't. And that's why the two of you sat here, you— curled around his leg, resting your head on his thigh— exhausted, and him— eyes downcast over you, slacks pushed down to his knees, pupils swallowed to black and something wrapped in anger. The touch that followed was gentle, revered. “Y'mean it?”
You moved to meet his eyes, soft sniffles filling the dampened silence, the air thick of trapped heat. You nod, sobbing into your hands. His eyes melt into something deep, crestfallen. He tuts, thumb undulating at your hairline, soft. “Sweet baby,” he sighs, “S'all I wanted to hear.” He strokes your cheek, eyes fallen over you sweet. Like how you missed. Your eyes catch over his cock again, still red and angry. Like your tears didn't deter him. You pressed a soft kiss to the head of his cock. He moans, shuddering like he'd been holding it in. You drag your tongue over the base, laving it in pooled saliva. His hand returns to your hair, not pulling. Not this time. No, something gentle— a soft caress. “Tha's it, thatta boy,” he groans, the sound thick as it leaves his throat like molasses. Your heart swims at the praise, taking him in your mouth, jaw still aching but now with purpose— with reason. You moan around him, the vibrations sent straight to his gut and he echoes you, head tipping back and eyes fluttering shut.
“So good— all I wanted. Wanted you to be good f'me. T'appreciate me.” and his voice sounds broken when he says it, like the hurt was still there. Your hand rubs at his thigh, gentle, reverent at the sound akin to a whine that punches out of him. There to make him feel seen, loved. You pull back, kissing the tip again and licking over the bead of precum falling, watching him come undone at it as he lifts his head to watch. He borderline sobs at the action, as your lips slip back down over his cock completely, your tongue nothing but a blanket for pulsing heat within your mouth. His arms crowd over his head, like he didn't know what to do with them. You hear small whispers of an "oh god", and "fuck", as you pick up your pace. Your throat flutters around his cock as you press forward until your nose reaches his nave, gagging slightly.
He moans, pumping his hips into your mouth instinctively, like he wasn't aware he was even doing it. “Only you, only you can tear in'a me with all this hurt n' jus'...rip it away.” he blubbered. His eyes meet yours, yours never leaving even as he cried through it. “Love you— only you baby, my sweet boy,” This wasn't some act of lust— this was an apology. And what followed after through twitches and pulses against your tongue, hot and heavy was his acknowledgement of it. You knew what followed was something you both needed, something you both waited for. He cried as he spilled into your mouth, swallowed entirely as it slipped down your throat, salty and warm. Forgiveness. And that's all you needed.
hey! thank you sm, i've been inactive lately because i've kinda fallen into writer's block, and soon after that– out of sinners. this is the first time in a while i've even opened tumblr. for my own sanity, i'll be taking a writing break, and i'm not sure when i'll be back. but thank you for your concern. see you soon
y'all i'm ngl this agnostic!reader x remmick religious fic has me all fucked up and is slowing all process of any other fic idea i have in my head because i'm struggling to finish/write it and actually like the result of it. i've been working on it for weeks which is a lot of time for the short amount of what i've written and revised. really debating on voiding it.
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void it for now, focus on other fics/ideas.
continue it, everything else will have to wait until it's completed.
Voting ended onJul 26, 2025
don't feel pressured to answer, i'm not really expecting one.
rules— make a new post with the names of all the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have wips
none of these include requests, as they are currently closed.
(reposting since i fucked this up before) | saw my lovely mutual post this and tag me and decided to have some fun, though don't be surprised if i take this down if no one asks anything.
𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓
݁ᛪ༙ 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐄𝐊 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐈𝐍𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐓.
[remmick x m!reader, horror/thriller, religious trauma, possible smut.] (delayed)
݁ᛪ༙ 𝐁𝐘 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐍 𝐑𝐎𝐓 𝐈𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐇.
[remmick x m!reader, horror/thriller, death, smut.] (delayed)
݁ᛪ༙ 𝐈𝐍 𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐈𝐍 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃.
[remmick x f!reader, romance, blood, violence.]
(rare, i know.)
݁ᛪ༙ 𝐑𝐄𝐃, 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐓𝐄, 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐃.
[new! stack x mary, blood, violence, death, romance.]
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Writing is very personal to me. It speaks to me and means a lot to me in every sense of the words. I put my heart and soul into everything I write. Do not rush me, or I will disregard your request entirely and scrap it. Initially, I will be nice and remind you to be patient, and that will serve as the first warning. However, if you continue to pester— your request will be ignored and deleted.
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𝐕𝐈. 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓.
Normally in my writing, I include banners that I spend my time working on. These banners take days or weeks— it honestly depends on my motivation/schedule. For requests, I will not be making banners, as they are not projects/ideas of my own, and I cannot form any inspiration from a request to make one. Those are my brand, and not including them saves time and energy.
𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐃𝐎. ✓
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If you're underage, your request will be deleted followed by a block.
𝐈𝐈. 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓.
I have no issues writing angst and actually enjoy it.
𝐈𝐈𝐈. 𝐅𝐋𝐔𝐅𝐅.
I don't write fluff often, but it is a nice change of pace from what I usually write.
If your request involves dub-con, you must be 18+, as well as be very specific about what you require within the request. This is just for me to ensure it does not cross into non-con.
𝐕. 𝐃/𝐒 (𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐌𝐄𝐄𝐓 𝐀𝐆𝐄 𝐑𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓).
For any elements of d/s, you must meet the age requirement in order for your request to be approved. Otherwise, it will be disregarded and you will be blocked.
𝐕𝐈. 𝐂𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐊 𝐑𝐄𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐒. (𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐁𝐄 𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃).
This is honestly just a personal boundary. If I feel your request for certain kinks makes me uncomfortable, I will deny it or ask you to dm me personally in order to work out your request if I agree to everything else.
𝐕𝐈𝐈. 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐒 (𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐁𝐄 𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃).
I don't mind ships, as long as they do not cross into incest or pedophilia. I do not mind writing ships with age gaps, as long as the younger character is 18-20. This however, must still be green-lit from me to ensure it is not what I'd consider a proship.
𝐕𝐈𝐈𝐈. 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒.
Headcanons are encouraged! I honestly don't mind them if I feel they fit the character.
𝐈𝐗. 𝐌𝐀𝐋𝐄!𝐆𝐍!𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑.
Only male!reader/gn!reader will be allowed on account that I don't feel connected to writing stories centered around women/fem!presenting characters. This does include transmasc!reader, of course. If you're interested in fem!reader writers, my mutuals, @faestunna , @vcmpbyt, and @spikedfearn are all amazing alternatives. I adore their writing very much, please don't hesitate to show them some love as well.
𝐗. 𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐎𝐒/𝐀𝐔
I would love a change of scenery, you are encouraged to ask for different scenarios of the characters and them in alternate universes.
𝐗𝐈. 𝐏𝐎𝐂!𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑
I honestly enjoy writing different variations of reader as a person of color, whether they are mixed or not— but there are limitations on account of me not being as familiar of certain ethnicities/cultures. I ask out of respect for said culture that you don't request, simply so I don't disrespect/misrepresent it. It is not out of prejudice or hatred for it. I hope you can understand.
𝐗𝐈𝐈. 𝐃𝐑𝐀𝐁𝐁𝐋𝐄.
Honestly, I've never written a drabble before. Since I have a love for long one-shots, but I will give it a try if asked.
𝐗𝐈𝐈𝐈. 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐃-𝐃𝐎𝐕𝐄 (𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐁𝐄 𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐃).
I often write dead-dove, but of course— there are limitations. If you have specific requests, dm me.
𝐖𝐎𝐍’𝐓 𝐃𝐎. ㄨ
𝐈. 𝐑𝐀𝐏𝐄/𝐍𝐎𝐍-𝐂𝐎𝐍.
I refuse, there is no need to spend any longer speaking of it.
𝐈𝐈. 𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒𝐓.
Refer back to one.
𝐈𝐈𝐈. 𝐏𝐄𝐃𝐎𝐏𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀/𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐄.
Refer back to one. Age gaps are allowed, but only under certain circumstances/situations, and there are limits.
𝐈𝐕. 𝐂𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐅𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐒𝐇 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐓.
Refer back to one. Anything involving feet, urine, feces, animals, etc. will not be allowed. Your requests will be deleted immediately.
𝐕. 𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆.
Refer back to one. I will not write about cheating— simply because it makes me uncomfortable. Jealousy is allowed, but genuine entertainment of the idea is a hard pass for me.
𝐕𝐈. 𝐅!𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑.
I have stated this in a request and my introduction that will not be writing fem!reader, which of course includes transfem!reader and fem!presenting!reader. If it is not male!reader/gn!reader, I will not write it.
𝐕𝐈𝐈. 𝐀𝐍𝐘𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝟕𝐊 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒.
This is simply to just get requests out faster. Please do not ask me to write anything extremely taxing or time-consuming.
𝐕𝐈𝐈𝐈. 𝐑𝐏𝐅-𝐑𝐄𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃.
I do not write real people. Maybe references here and there or a person will haunt the narrative, but I will never write real people. It makes me uncomfortable, and I'm sure they'd feel the same seeing a fic of them doing something inappropriate with another actor when they both have their own families, lives and feelings. I write characters and characters only, not people.
𝐈𝐗. 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐗 𝐎𝐂.
I feel like I shouldn't have to say this, but your self-indulgent isn't mine. I don't want to write about a character only you understand.
To say in plain words, no, you cannot request a part 2 of a fic I have already written.
𝐀𝐃𝐃𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐋.
This will soon be tied to my masterlist once it is near-finished. Please be patient. I will notify everyone when requests are open. As of now, they are closed.
hello! and primarily, yes! i no longer have my intro pinned but i stated that i will only be writing male reader/gn!reader at the very least. i don't write fem!reader on norm on account of there being an large ratio between f!reader and m!reader. unless it's a special occasion or specific idea of mine...
Is smokestack, serenades, and sulfur remmick x the guys?
SSNS isn't meant to be a ship fic, just similar to the original storyline if it was allowed to continue on. i'm sure some parts i write— intentional or not, will fuel certain shippers anyway, though. but no, it is not a ship fic.
hey everyone, so fics will be running a little slower. i've been working on the agnostic!reader fic, pet!remmick, and now the upcoming mortician!reader fic. just letting you know what to expect. also including snippets of each fic (tags are subject to be added to or changed since i'm adding them as i go along):
𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐄𝐄𝐊 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐈𝐍𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐓. (remmick x agnostic!reader) will be a lengthy oneshot, which is why it's taking me so long. this is also more than just agnostic!reader— it also features falseprophet!remmick.
𝐒𝐌𝐎𝐊𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐊, 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐒𝐔𝐋𝐅𝐔𝐑. will be the name for the kept!remmick fic. this fic will be multi-chaptered and intended to be updated consistently (fingers crossed).
𝐁𝐘 𝐒𝐎𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐍 𝐑𝐎𝐓 𝐈𝐍 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐇. (subject to change) will be the current name for the mortician!reader fic. this fic will come last, as it has not been worked on yet.
[TBD.]
not to mention i offered to help out some mutuals with requests so i will be busy, so please be patient with me. i am working hard on all of these fics to make sure they leave nothing to be desired— plus their banners which take me a long time to complete. i will update you all whenever i can. thank you.
idea... remmick x mortician!reader that grows obsessed trying to figure out the cause of his death and remmick starts to haunt them— drawing them into a sick fantasy of him still being alive and tempting the reader until it drives them insane.
(no, there's no necrophilia— i am sane. and yes, i'm still working on the other fic.)
surprised i didn't have to actually wait a week for people to answer but it's clear what the people want. here's some snippets of the remmick x agnostic!reader fic i worked on that i won't let go to waste before i clock in. enjoy.
summary: you're a vampire hunter tasked with the challenge of killing a generational curse that's plagued your family for decades. only when you look death in the face do you realize how out of your league you really are.
tags: oneshot, dead dove, blood and violence, angst, dubcon, pwp (porn with plot), foreshadowing, manipulation, afro-latino!reader (tejano), hurt/comfort(?), references of grief, death, kissing of a shotgun (i have no explanation for this), needytop!remmick, frottage, oral sex, biting, turning, whatever the vampire-equivalent of a feeding kink would be, pain kink if you squint, semi-public sex, oral fixation, slight dumbification (both parties but reader is fighting it HARD), dacryphilia, spit/drool kink if you squint a bit, hive mind, anal sex, blood works as an aphrodisiac for vampires, chain dangling used as honorable mention, remmick goes dumb when he fucks it's kinda scary, author is a firm believer in pathetic!remmick
wc: 7.7k
a/n: i had a lot of fun when i started writing, but i honestly hate writing endings. i contemplated how to end it for a long time before i settled for this. i think it keeps it light enough. i kept seeing lots of remmick x vampirehunter!reader which is great and all, but i kinda felt like it was boring, so i put my own spin on it. i honestly like it a lot better, but i feel like i could've done more w it. idk, lmk if you guys like it, enjoy. (also this was a bitch to edit so if you see any mistakes or gaps, please ignore it. i will avoid reading this like the plague out of sheer embarrassment. likes, follows or comments/asks are encouraged.)
The pads of your fingertips grazed over the last page of your calendar. September 28th. Today is the day– your day. Your chest tightened, nerves getting the better of you, like always. You were certain of how it'd go– that silver, crested shotgun in your hand, an emptied flask of holy water tucked in your belt, and the devil on his knees. Every decade, the devil would come wandering from shadows to take his pick of the litter to feed off of in Greenwood. And every decade, your family stood their ground– boots docked in dirt, gun in hand. Your grandmother would tell you stories of it as a child. About how there was a white devil pretty as sin that lurked in the shadows within the edge of the darkened woods, waiting. How he liked a challenge– liked it better when you fought back. Makes the blood sweeter, apparently. “Why can't we just call someone for help?” you'd ask her. “Those white men got good guns and trucks, I seen ‘em!” Naive, ignorant. Nostalgia tickled the back of your mind, the fond smell of her perfume flooded your nose. Like you were still there. Roses. She gently held your hands within her own, wrinkled with age. “Oh darlin',” she cooed, smile saddened as she spoke. “They know.”
Your mouth grew sour at the bitter memory. It sickened you. Ironically, those same men never failed to show up a month early when the time came to pay your dues, white-knuckling their trigger guards. Families watched anxiously from their cracked windows as they strode into town. They knew we didn't have enough each time, but they left each time with full pockets and bloodied knuckles soiled from whoever couldn't pay up. The next day, there'd be a house for sale. Since then, you knew better than to ever expect the kindness of a white man– knew better than to rely on one after they'd sent the devil to your door.
The distant muffle of conversation lures you out of your room, the wood creaking as you shuffled through the gloomy hallway. Hushed whispers slowed your footsteps, approaching the edge of the kitchen quietly. You peered into the small kitchen. “I can't,” Mami folded her arms. Her cardigan fell loose over her frame, disheveled as it draped her form. Her knuckles masked her lips as she bit away at her nails, pulling them away from her teeth forcibly. “I won't.” Nana's lips set into a thin line. “Do you really want to spend this morning being stubborn?” she asked, fingers interlocked. Her hands splayed neatly over her lap. “Today?”
Mami looked unsure, slowly shaking her head as she turned her back to Nana. “Dios nos va a proteger, (God will protect us.)” she assured. Mami didn't seem too convinced. You stepped forward out of the darkness, catching their eyes. Mami looked saddened, guilty for some reason. Nana gave a small smile, patting her lap softly. You roll your eyes, playful. “I'm too big, nana. I’ll end up breaking your hip.” She rests her arms against the chair's own. “You'll break my heart faster if you don't come here.” You sigh, long and drawn out. Too long to be taken seriously with that dopey smile on your face as you scuffle toward her. She pulls your hips down onto her lap, as if you don't weigh a thing– as if you were still that little kid playing with your wood-carved figures.
Mami doesn't bother facing you, not when you try to meet her eyes. She rests her hands on the cutting board, the blade of the knife resting at the edge of her palm. Your eyes linger over the the potted plant, wilting and withered. “You should give those some water and leave it by the window for a bit,” you suggested, voice lithe in hope to turn this into a good morning. For both your sakes. “It'll die out,” Nana nods. “There's nothing we can do, hijo.” Her words settle onto your skin wrong, for reasons you can't explain. You crane your neck to look at her. “There's always something we can do,” you insisted. “Just give it a bit of water—” Mami storms out of the kitchen, the sound of her door slamming shaking the walls. The silence after lays on thick, and Nana bows her head with a heavy sigh. “Don't worry about your mother, papi. She's just having a hard time.” she explained. You tilt your head slightly in confusion. “With what?”
“Saying goodbye.”
She tapped at your hip, not insistent, but enough for you to move off of her lap. You watched as she slowly stood, pushing off of the arms of the chair to anchor her weight and shuffle past you into the hallway. You could hear the soft knock on your Mami's door, and then waited. One second past, then two. Nana wouldn't knock again, only waited. There was a creak, a sliver of light and then darkness again as the door shut with a click. You don't know how long the two had talked, but long enough for the window to be idle as the blue morning sky faded into a warm yellow. There was a bang at the door— not of knuckles, just palm and brute force— one neither your Nana nor your Mami had hurried to answer. You stood from your chair, the seat left warm in your absence. Twisting the lock and pulling open the door, you're greeted with the sight of your tío you hadn't seen since your cousin's last birthday.
He looked tired, yet eager to see you once again. “Hey, kid. Long time, no see?” he chuckled. You pulled the door open further, smile giving faux annoyance away. “Seen enough, thank you.” He strode past you and into the house. You hadn't realized until the door opened how bright it was outside compared to the inside– dark and dreary. “Where's your mother?” You nodded toward her door, “She's been in there all morning talking to Nana. Is it...dad again?” You watched as his jaw set, his hand rising to his hat, like he considered taking it off. He hesitates, opting for scratching at his neck instead, the movement awkward and stiff. Mami said it was something he'd do often, a bad habit she hated— but a habit for what–? “Sure– yeah, of course. I'm sure she's upset about that.” he nodded, dismissive, walking past you. “Just sit tight, sobriño. We'll leave at dusk– gotta wait for the boys.”
You pushed the door shut, snuffing the daybreak's light from the room out like a dampened fire. You could hear heavy boots dragging down the hallway, the light peeking from the room. Small conversations are mumbled too low for you to hear. Your eyes distract you from distant chatter, flitting to the crested shotgun bolted to the wall behind glass. Markings had been carved into the silver of the receiver, some of flowers, some of crosses. Your legs tugged you closer, ducking your head beneath the glass to see more markings under the loading port. No, letters. No— initials. Your hand blankets your chest and over your necklace, gripping the cross Nana gave you tight in your palm. Pops' cross.
There was a drag of feet that thumped toward you, then stopped. Idle, like it'd been waiting for you to notice. You turn, meeting your tío's eyes once again. He looked exhausted. The same look he'd give to Pops whenever it came down to the nitty gritty of protecting this town— scraping together coins to get by. “You ready to carve yours there?” he asked, slicking back dark curls that fell short at his nape. He'd grown his hair out since Pops passed, stray hairs growing silver and out of place. You gave a slowed nod, nervous in ways you can't explain. Your chest felt tight again. It took him a bit to pull the thing down, nails stubborn to unhook from the wall. You watched as he struggled, unease never settling for what was to come. Finally, he pulled it free, nodding over at the dining room table. You settled back into your chair as he took his place beside you, placing the shotgun in front of you. Mami hated guns on the table. Your eyes slide over to her door, still shut and locked tight. “Eyes up, nephew.” he sniffed, brushing scarred knuckles against his nose.
His hands graced yours as you held the shotgun. Rough, worn. Your fingers trace the silver, over the carvings of flowers and leaves, down to your father's markings. His initials. M.N. — Malachi Narváez. You part your lips to a sigh without meaning to, tracing the patterns of his memory. You hadn't noticed the lingering eyes on you until your tío slapped his palm against your back, thumb brushing over your shoulder blade solemnly. “Let's put yours under his, yeah?” You nodded, gracefully accepting when he hands you a small chisel— a pinprick, really. He watches as you work at the metal, insistent. The sound of a door creaking open doesn't deter your focus, carving into the silver barrel. You lean back, proud, turning your head to meet— your mother's own. Her lips curve into the smallest smile, not meant for anyone else to see but you. Her eyes her bleary, swollen. She'd been adorned in her favorite blanket. The one you never thought would see the light of day. The one that lounged over Pops' chair. “Get ready, it's almost time.”
You nodded, pushing from your chair to grab your mudded boots by the door. “I'll check to make sure you loaded it properly.” he offered. You nod half-heartedly, distracted, shuffling into your boots. “Shouldn't I grab some more ammo?” you called out, fiddling with the laces and pulling them tight against your ankles. No answer. You could hear the pop of shell clank against the table, rolling against the wood. Your eyes linger over your tío's frame, half of it covered by the wall beside him from the distance. He whips his head around to meet your eyes with a small smile— forced, you note. “Just checkin' to make sure everything goes right.” he assured you. A lingering uncertainty swirled within your chest, but you ignored it with a wordless nod. “Shouldn't I grab some more ammo?” you asked again. He raised his head, meeting your eyes as he spoke. “Youdon't need to be loaded up on ammo,” he explained. “One shot is all it'd take.” There was a knock at the door, quiet, polite. Two shadows stood before the blurred, patterned glass, just on the other side of the door. Most likely your Pops and tíos' old friends. You sucked in a breath. Here goes everything.
Worn boots trudged into darkened woods, only led by the lantern that the ground beneath you basked in. Not even moonlight reached through the branches. Silence filled the air, the only sound echoing through the woods being footsteps overlapping. Your uncle and a few of your Pops' friends walked behind you, measured. It was tradition. No words would soothe the nerves of the hunter chosen, so no words were spoken. No songs would dull the fear in your bones— so no melody reached your ears. Minutes stretched on, silence dragging on even longer. Your breathing fell soft, blowing cold as you reached deeper and deeper. You hadn't even noticed the laterns behind you dimming with distance as you carried on. Your fingers clutched your gun, itching, waiting. Your eyes snap to the trees, to the flutter of something in the dark— an owl, you're sure. Maybe. You continued on, pace stuttering slightly. This is what you trained for. You opted for checking your gun again, every ounce of blood in your body screaming for you to— but you refuse. It's just nerves, you tell yourself.
You barely register it when you see it— a stretch of darkness stood still. Waiting. Just like they said he'd be. You halted, finger pressed against the trigger guard. The creature hadn't moved yet, didn't need to. He just stood there, as if he was waiting on you. You spoke first, voice loud as it echoed into the clearing. “You him?” you asked, and when the question fell short with silence, you spoke again. “Are you the devil?” Nothing. Not at first. Then, the figure stepped forward from beyond the shadows, languid. He said nothing, not at first, so you continued. “My Nana told me stories of a devil pretty as sin,” you noted. “You must be him.” She wasn't wrong. The man was handsome— defiantly so. The way curls settled over his forehead, the shadows hidden from moonlight cast under his brows and highlighting bright, flecks of red in his eyes that anyone could mistake for shine. Anyone other than you. His collar was loose, haint blue, in fact. He adorned a gold chain draped over his collarbone tucked beneath his wifebeater. His smile held false charm, wearing a lop-sided grin across his face, inviting. It was so... unsettling. Like staring at a wolf in sheep's clothing. He seemed entertained, cocking his head slightly. “That so?” his voice a honeyed rasp.
Your eyes fall over those fangs of his, glinting sharp in the light. “No reason we have to do this,” he reasoned, stepping even closer, his movements betraying his words. They way he approached you was downright predatory. “I mean— I don't even know yer name, darlin'.” You hesitated. Normally, you wouldn't have settled for so much small talk– you weren't here for that. But you couldn't help but feel for the man. He seemed...nice. Nice isn't the name of the man who killed your family. Nice isn't why Pops isn't here anymore. Your brows furrow.“You don't need to know my name,” you grit, bitter, angry. “You know why I'm here.” And that's all he needed. Your hands tightened over your gun. “Well, alright then.” he conceded, holding his palms up in mock-surrender. It felt...too easy. You were sure there'd be more fight. Nana said he liked when you fought back, so why isn't he? “I thought you liked a lil' challenge. You just gonna give it to me?” you asked. His grin grows, like a weed. “Just tryin' t'make it easier for you, sweetheart.” You shake away the sickness pooling in your stomach from the nickname. Right, sickness. Focus, you admonished. Your finger slipped into the guard, holding the pad of your index over the trigger. Your palm clutched the forestock, tight. Breathe in, breathe out, brace and...
Click.
The sound was hollow, barren with silence following after. The man stood in the same place as before, with that same cheshire grin. What? You pulled again, harder this time. Click. Click, click, click. You froze, as still as a deer in headlights. No. God, please no. Don't tell me... Your heart sank, blood running cold as a chill washes over you. It was loaded, right? Right? You racked. You remember doing it. You even checked after. Double-checked. Your tío had even offered to check after you. Wait. You didn't bother glancing back up at those fiery, red eyes on you. Like danger was an afterthought. Right now, your sanity was being tested. You couldn't put it together. Why would he have needed to check after you anyway...? He knew you knew how to load a shotgun, he'd help you practice cleaning it after. Your ears buzzed, his words rang in your head, “Just checkin' to make sure everything goes right.” he assured you. You knew it had to be loaded, because you could hear the clack of the shell popping from the action onto the dining table. Oh. Oh no. No, he'd never... You press-check, desperate fingers slide over the loading port.
“Pretty, huh?” his voice drawls, dipped low in molasses— thick, suffocating. Like he'd been eager to make himself known again. He strides forward, every step languid, savored. His eyes raked over your body, like sin. Your finger fumbles, hands clumsy as you desperately search your hips for ammo. Your uncle's voice whispered through your terror. “One shot is all it'd take.” And all at once, it clicked. Why his lingering eyes hovered too long. Why he was quick to hush conversation. Oh god. Oh god. Tears flooded your eyes, face wet as you sobbed, open and broken. They set you up. Your own family— your own kin. Mami's face flashed in your mind. Her swollen, reddened eyes. Her words. “I can't,” Her voice– strained. “I won't.” Nana's words— saddened, downcast, guilt-ridden. She wouldn't dare to look at you. “Saying goodbye.” Realization sank into your bones, your skin running cold from the air's chill. It hit harder than a truck. No, this was worse. Not a single bone twisted or broken, not a single scratch or scrape of skin. Just heartbreak. Betrayal. Your legs caved, dropping into the dirt— your mind was at war with itself.
“They didn't tell you, did they?” The man rumbled, and you stopped, your cries deafened. You paused, eyes slowly traveling back up to meet the man in front of you. Whatever was in your eyes was enough of an answer for him. He shook his head in some sort of mock-sympathy, “They never do. I can't lie— the look on yer faces is worth it every damn time.” He chuckles, the sound wry— like he'd been stripped of any sense of normalcy of conversation. He steps forward, measured, like he'd been approaching a scared animal. “Tell me what? Who?” you asked, defensive. You didn't miss the way he ate up the distance between you, clutching the flask of holy water at your hip like a vice. He slows, eyes flitting to the flask in your hand. His hands fall easy at his side.
“A couple decades ago, I found this town o' yers. Less people than when I first came.” he nods to himself. “Yeah...I was gon' kill every last one of ya.” he mutters to himself, eerily casual— like he was talking about the weather. Your heart sinks as he steps forward, arms folded behind himself, restrained. “But yer great-great-so-many-fuckin'-greats grandaddy convinced me to only kill one of ya every good couple of years or so. Said it'd be bad if the livestock up n' died before they could carry on multiplyin'.” What? His voice carried through the emptied clearing, nothing but you, him and a prayer between you. A hope you wouldn't die slow. Or at all. We can't all be so lucky. “Yer ancestors made a deal with me— a pact. One that's been carried on for longer than you've been alive. One that keeps me fed, and keep most of you alive.” Your mouth fell open, and he pretends his eyes didn't linger when it did. “No, that— they'd never,” you averred. “And yet here you are.” he attests. You could feel bile rise to your throat. Livestock? Like you were nothing but sheep and cattle? “Course they still had to keep up appearances n' all. Paintin' it out to be some heroic effort. Strange how you ain't even question why all them men lined up to fire, and yet you were the last to be handed that gun o' yers.” He jabbed his finger at the shotgun in your hand. A hand-me-down. Your eyes pool with tears again, sniffles growing louder, having purpose. How stupid of you— feeling purpose in a meaningless death.
You could hear your daddy's voice screaming into your blood. Get up. Did he know? The man's pace didn't slow, didn't need to. You clearly weren't going anywhere. Get up. Did they send him off to his death too? Your eyes fall over the list of initials carved into the shotgun in your hand. Oh god– all those names. You choked back bile, sobbing harder. You held a graveyard in your hand. Get up. Was it here? Did your father die here? Blood smeared over his face, unrecognizable— his chest caved in? Did he rasp your name with his last breath? Your chest heaved for air, desperate. You felt sick. Get up. Now. You shook your head slowly, eyes blurred with tears. Your body trembled, weakened. What was even the point of fighting? Stronger men had been standing in this very dirt. Stronger men had their initials left behind on the same shotgun in your hand. What was there left for you to do? The earth had shattered all around you, your resolve crumpled beneath your knees.
“Aw, don't cry darlin'. S'alright, I promise,” he cooed, kneeling before you— mirroring you. His fingers felt light, gracing the gun in your hand before his grip around it's neck tightens. You can't pull away, frozen. You watch almost helplessly as he points the gun toward his lips, pressing a light kiss over the barrel. You could hear a brief sizzle. You ignore the way your chest flutters from it. He doesn't. “Each time I stood right here— staring down a man in the face, I offered him a choice not to fear death— but to be loved by it. Yer father, and his father's father, and every man that stood where you are right now met the same fate not because they'd been damned by me— but because they wanted to— because they refused my gift to them.” His hand rests over your cheek, careful claws guided away from dredging into your skin. He lifted your chin to meet his gaze— those pools of red light washing over your skin. “You don't need t'bury yourself in death's arms unless you crave for its kiss, sweetness.” Your mind swam, all reason holding on by a thread as your head throbbing. You had cried yourself dry, and he had let you. And now here was, picking up the pieces. A question dug at your mind, recalling something your Nana said. Was the devil pretty because he was kind, or because he was tempting?
He rested his head against your own— not fearing what you'd been owed to do to him, but what you'd do to yourself if no one had been there to do so. “If you give yerself t'me, completely— I'll cherish you in ways your lil' heart isn't capable of fathomin'.” You hadn't even processed the shift in position until your back pressed against something soft, until you'd already been sinking down into the dirt, his hand cradling your head— practiced. Like baptism. You couldn't speak, didn't need to. The whisper of words you beckoned to leave your lips were answered by his own without needing you to. “I ain't gon' kill you, sweet thing,” he spoke, his voice low and honeyed. “I'm gon' turn you int'a something new,” He avowed, nuzzling against your cheek. You feel his lips brushing against your neck— featherlight, before he pulls away— like he punished himself for closing the distance between the two of you. “Only if y'want it.” he adds under his breath, The sound of his voice felt like deliverance. “Tell me you want it.” he whispers. “I– I can't,” You stammered, the words fall so easily from your lips before you could even think. Your arms scrambled for ground beneath you. You can't? Not ‘you don't want to’— can't? “My– my family said you were—”
“Your family let you live a lie,” he interjects, sharp-tongued and vehement. As if he shared your anger like a secret— like a burden. He persists, and you let him. “You fought for a lie— lived for a lie.” Your eyes zero in on the pointed claw before you, his jaw clenched. "Y'know, I– I'd lie to you and say I didn't enjoy killin' some of those men,” he granted, “But you've had enough of that, now, haven't you?” Your mouth opened and shut, wordless. He took your silence as permission to continue, “I can't say I regret what I've done– That I regret feeling their ribs crack and cave beneath my palm— regret their blood, warm as it soaked my lips or the way my teeth sank beneath their skin int'a somethin' real– somethin' raw. 'Cause deep down I knew it'd lead me to you— to my salvation.” His eyes were honest, reverent. “You will be my greatest creation.”
He settled over you, thighs bracketing your waist. Gold dangled over your face— what felt like a glimmering virtue swung above you. His claws trailed over your sweat-soaked shirt, lithe as they popped your buttons with ease. His palm mapped over your skin, supple under his touch. He shuddered, lips parting with need. He was drooling, saliva thick dribbling down over his chin. “Let me be your liberation,” A soft plea as eyes flit to your open throat. “Please.” he pleaded, broken open. You nodded, acquiescent. What else could you do? You'd been playing into some fantasy, self-assured and righteous. The ending had already been picked out for you and you just sat there and took it— hands held out for more. His hands to slip over your wrists, firm. He places a kiss to your forehead, devout. He guides his lips down, down, down over the call of your pulse. Your blood thrummed beneath your skin for him as you squirmed. You felt bare, vulnerable. Messing around with boys behind the church was one thing, but this...this was something else entirely.
“I can smell you,” he rasped, nosing under the soft of your jaw. “'Can smell the fear in your nerves— your hesitance.” He lapped at the skin, desperate. “In case you ain't notice yet, darlin', yer body ain't fightin' back.” Then you feel it. A pinch at first, the point of his fangs slipping beneath your skin before the burn grows, your skin stretching to make space for him. You writhe beneath him at the bite, his teeth clamping down. Your lips were useless, babbling sweet cries and sobs for him. “No, no, hurts, I can't do this, I can't—” He doesn't shush you, only holds onto you tighter, thumb rubbing soothing circles into your shoulder. “You can, sweetness, I know you can,” he murmurs, voice muffled. “What's mine will forever be yours.” And then, cold rushes over your wound, accompanied by the crawl of something wet. Then, quiet, his body growing rigid. “Oh, hell...”
He inhales, deep. Like a shark smelling blood in water. A shudder follows silence. And then you feel it— feel him, anchored to your neck something desperate, filthy. He suckles and god, it's so good. You whimper, soft. He groans, the sound reverberating against your skin. He pulls away, eyes rolled back in ecstasy, blood dripped from his lips like molasses. “Fuck, so good—” Your ears buzzed, almost drowning out the sound of blood squelching, pulsing from your wound. Almost. “Like heaven on my tongue.” He wasted little time opening you up beneath him, suckling, biting and lapping at your neck. “More, more, please–” he begs, dragging his mouth from your neck as he ruts against you.
“Been— shit— needin' this,” He pushes your thighs aside, crowding into the space between them like he owned it. And he did. “Starved of it like you wouldn't believe.” he chuckles, chest heaving, panting like he'd been out of breath— like he couldn't breathe without being buried in the soft of your neck. Your face contorted, twisting in agony from the ache, the burn sinking deeper into your skin— searing. You couldn't even focus on the pain alone without his filthy, needy sounds flooding your head. Was he...getting off to this? Were you? Something thick pushed eagerly against your inner thigh, deprived, heavy. Heat pooled in your stomach at the thought, something dark — hidden being pulled to the surface. Fuck. You hadn't even realized you'd been rocking your hips against him. Shame buried itself beneath your skin, face flushed.
You gasped as he fucked his hips into you—once, twice, three times— bucking into the tent of your pants. You didn't want this. There's no way you did— no way you were seriously getting off to this man— no, this devil above rutting into you like some desperate, heat-seeking mutt. The same devil you'd been sent to kill— the same devil haunting your bloodline for years, like cold sinking deep beneath your bones. You prayed it'd at least go unnoticed, but with the slightest drag of his hips, a moan falls from your lips like a prayer— and there he is to answer it.
“Ah-ha? What's all this?” He rolled his hips again experimentally, flush against your own, eliciting a sound you didn't even know you were capable of, buried deep. You felt caged beneath him, his hands dug delved into the dirt as he relished in the sight of you— no doubt a mess. Your curls mussed, sticking with sweat against your brows, shirts raked up and pulled apart. “Knew you needed it just as bad—” he keened. “Fuck—tryin' to hide it from me, huh, sweet thing?” he tuts, tugging your slacks down from your hips, claws dragging against your skin. His demeanor changes almost completely, no longer some desperate thing ducked between your thighs, no. Something colder, certain. He yanked away the last barrier between the two of you with a hiss, impatient.
“I can me show you what sanctuary could be,” he vows, truth waiting beyond what patience could hold. “With me.” Nothing but shredded cotton surrounds your naked hips. Nothing but his lips, soaked, bathing in your skin. Blood drips from his lips— your blood as his spits onto your hole— filthy. You groan, craning your neck to watch. His eyes flit to meet yours, pupils blown into black watching you, fervent. A claw— no— two push past your lips, open, pushing onto your tongue. Your moan is muffled, drool pooling under the muscle. His attention on you, rapt as he nods— drunk on the sight alone. “Yes, yes— so good,” he praises, candid. “So, so good. Savor it.” Your lips enveloped the taste of his fingers, salt coating your tongue. Your eyes flutter shut, suckling on deft fingers, thick in your mouth. He pushes them in deeper, relishing in the way you gag— gasping for breath.
“Fuck, can't wait,” he pants. “Gotta do it now— gotta make it good for you.” He's drooling like a dog and it's filthy. You couldn't even ask what he meant before he returns to your neck, like home. His jaws shut over the expanse of your throat, over the bite he where he marked you as his. You clawed at his back, desperation eating away at you, but to no avail. He hadn't even budged. You couldn't even scream, cold rushing over you as your strength waned. You gurgled, only able to listen to the flesh tearing from your throat— to the sound of teeth gnashing flayed flesh, blood squelching, gluttonous. Your vision began to white out, and then, you felt it— something pressing into you, between your thighs— slow, purposeful.
“So fuckin' sweet for me,” he growled against your neck, hips flush against your ass. Memories flood your mind, desperate— defiant. Mami, her soft eyes as spun, Pops there to catch her, high on an old melody. Nana watching, her eyes crinkled into crescents with a small chuckle. Your tío, taking a swill from a bottle nearing empty, grounding as he kept his eyes on your little cousins, jumping to the music, giggles filling the air. You choke, eyes rolling to meet moonlight above you. You could barely stifle the sob that'd been punched out of you. This is what your life had come to— ended. A hand angles your head, baring your neck more, saliva slicking your throat— well, what was left of it. Your vision swims in darkness, and then... Nothing.
Nothing but cold. Nothing but dark. Nothing until— you gasp, lunging forward. Once again, he's there to catch you, shushing your sweet sleep-drunkened cries softly. He cups your cheeks, soothing you back down. “S'alright, 'm here, darlin'. I'm here.” Your chest heaved...needlessly. You could feel it somehow — a shift. A shaky hand travels over to the wound— to where he bit you. The flesh had still been torn open, but you felt...nothing. Nothing but hunger— raw, a primal need to sink your teeth into something. Anything to pacify the itch in your gums. Your eyes travel up to meet his, an image floods your mind of you— you staring back at him. Him staring back at you. Letters flood your thoughts, persistent. Like it was determined to be carved in your very consciousness. A name falls from your lips, the only one that matters, “Remmick.” you whisper. “Yes, yes– that's right,” He nods, pleased, his smile stretching over blood-soaking lips. “Let me feed ya, sweet thing. Y'must be starved.”
And you were. Your stomach felt hollow, empty. Go on. It ushers, the voice in your head not your own— not even your father's. His. He pushes his wrist before you, and your eyes fall over the skin, pale in moonlight. You move before you can even blink, teeth piercing his skin. He groans, within bliss. “Fuck— yes, bite down, darlin', let me feel those pretty lil' fangs o' yers.” Warmth rushes past your lips and you slurp, natural— needed. You moan, the taste fading from copper into something sweet. God it's good, so fucking good. Your hands wrapped his arm, firm, grounding. You couldn't stop, not that you wanted to. It felt so relieving. So—
Good. The voice filled, his own. “Go on. Drink me down, darlin'. Don't stop.” He watched, enamoured by your need, by your hunger. You could feel him twitch, pulsing between your thighs— to where the two of you connected. He'd been so patient, waiting until you woke to fuck into you, nice and slow— buried to the hilt. Your eyes flutter as he sinks into you, rolling back. You could drown in this feeling. He groaned— no, you— no, the both of you did in unison. So this is what he meant. A gift, born from death. Sanctuary. His eyes trailed over your lips, pressed insistently against his wrist. He moaned, and in turn, so did you.
The feeling was freeing, a lustful haze clouding all judgement and reason. “Fuckin' beautiful.” he breathed out, hips pistoning into you once again. He filled you completely— mind and body, blood and soul. You could see where you two connected, a bulge in your stomach. “Oh god—” you mewled, head dipping back with blood-slickened lips. He shook his head, amused. “Not god, sweetness, just me.” You groaned into his wrist, not wasting a single drop more. Your cheeks hollowed as you sucked, paced. He mirrored your tempo to the buck of his hips, feeling you fill him and him, you. You clenched around him, testing, and a ghost of something tight and wet enveloped your cock. Oh fuck. You could feel him fucking you, and you fucking him— sharing sweet, melodic pain as it sings into you both. He'd memorized your name, reciting it. Like a poem. He hovers over you, mouth dripping with your blood like honey falls from his lips and onto yours. And it's so good. Why is it so good?
A shared thought between you before you can catch yourself. Intrusive, you tell yourself. But a call to him nonetheless. Move faster. He indulges. He eases you back to his wrist, to where pain hums your name, but you shake your head— full, in every sense of the word. He pushes his wrist into your mouth, uncaring. He loved it. The sight of you drinking him dry—the insistent feel of his cock nudging against that gummy spot ruthlessly, your hole squeezing his cock like a lifeline— like he'd leave. Not going anywhere. He filled, never. You sob and he moans, reverent, pleased. He doesn't wipe the tears staining your cheeks. Of course not. You don't smudge a painting if you see a stray scrape of off-color. You embrace it. “Fuckin' love it when you cry for me,” he rasps. “Can feel you gettin' tighter each time.” You could see yourself in the slivers of moonlight within his eyes, sobbing and blood-slickened beneath him. Beautiful.
You lift your hips on instinct, allowing his thighs to slip beneath your ass. The movement practiced, synced. His hands fell over your hips, claws biting into your skin. He held his palm over the bump under your navel, over him. “Told ya I could make it good,” he chuckled, breathy. “All you needed, all you could ever want—” he groaned. He picked up the pace, hips snapping forward with grit and little grace. You swallow him whole, opening yourself up to take him impossibly deeper. Your voice drowns out all reason, sweet little moans and whimpers fall short from your lips. Delectable. He droned. You felt dizzy, the sky and stars spinning above you with heavy-lidded eyes. You mumbled pretty little nothings, thighs twitching and hips jerking to meet his own. You both moaned in tandem. Everything felt clearer— every memory of his overlapped your own, feelings and thoughts so clear— they felt like your own. You could see everything, and he let you. Bared. Faces, names, some you'd never meet and others— others you'd...
You'd known. Your hips slowed, stuttered. His hadn't, pressing into you like salt into a wound. Your grandfather's face flashed in your mind, smothered in dirt and blood. His hands were withered— wrinkled. He spat into the grass below, charging with nothing but an empty shotgun. Same as your father— his face was bruised and bloodied. You felt sick. If Remmick noticed, he never slowed, cock still pumping in and out of you without falter. Your legs kicked out faster than your brain could process what you were doing. “Wait—” He growled, pushing your thighs further apart muttering something incomprehensible— something ancient, something dangerous. Your consciousness slipped the words into your head like a note beneath a door. “Feum ort...dh'fheumadh mi. Chrath thu— (Need you...needed me. Craved you—)” They were muttered to himself, but shared nonetheless, like a prayer— like a ritual.
“Rem– Remmick stop it—” you gasped, feeling yourself teetering on the edge. Memories of your father's ragged breathing flood your ears. The haze had begun to fade, disgust festering in your stomach. You didn't want to see that. You didn't want to remember what he was. And that's exactly what he wanted— to give you a taste of what he is— what he's capable of. Remmick leaned down, nipping at your ear. “So sweet, god, it's killin' me.” he groaned. He licked at the shell of it, tempting, distracting. Heat pooled in your stomach, a flickering flame. “Remmick, fucking stop, you're doing it on purpose—”
The voice continued it's incantation, etching itself like a sigil in your mind. He tilts his head, empty, not quite there. Like he wasn't even aware of what he was doing— saying. “You don't want me to.” he states— not cocky, but assured. “I told you darlin,” his tongue darts between his lips, slow. Languid. “What's mine, will forever be yours.” You choke, a moan spilling from your lips as you swallow. “Fuck, wait I'm gonna- I have to—” You struggled against him, attempting to stave off your impending orgasm, pushing it down. It didn't matter. He'd fuck you through it, thrusts growing sloppy— thoughtless. “I waited long enough, darlin'.”Look at me. His voice chanted into your mind— into your soul. Look at me, he commanded again. His hips slowed, granting you focus on anything other than searing pleasure ripping through your body. Your eyes met his– his never straying from yours, pearls swallowed in black so far, you couldn't see a shred of light in them— cold.
You could see yourself through him, your lips sullied in blood and sin. Only then did he pick up his pace, fucking into you. One word kept ringing in your head— mine. You didn't look away—couldn't—his eyes compelled you to meet his own. “So pretty like this,” he rasped. “Please,” you whispered, soft pleas falling on deaf ears. “I don't want your memories—” you sobbed. A flash of hurt washed over his face, his head tilting to the side with knit brows. “Without his eyes even needing to stray from yours, his fingers laced over your cock, thumb smearing the long-neglected dribble of precum over the tip. Mine. Your cock twitched, needy. Remmick's tongue darted past his lip, slowly withdrawing back into his mouth. Mine. He could feel it— how close you were, didn't allow you to shy from him. You belonged to him. The thought was overwhelming. You tried to fight against it, uselessly.
Thick spurts of white coat the expanse of your stomach and you whine softly— but that hadn't stopped him. “Attaboy,” he murmured. Your stomach flutters, squeezing tight around his cock. He stroked you through your orgasm, unrelenting, pushing you into overstimulation. “Fuck, wait–” Your back bowed, shaky hands pushing against his chest. “Please,” you whimpered. He leans down, his body blanketing your own, so much closer— deeper than before. You could feel yourself clench around him, like the feeling was your own. You moaned, lips parting. “Remmick, please—” Mine. He was long gone, completely fuckdrunk. “Takin' it so good, just like I knew y'would,” he slurred. Only when he comes— slamming so hard into you, your sure it'll leave bruises over your ass does he come to. His come spills into you— hips bucking once, twice to make sure it stays. All mine. He doesn't even register that he came, fixated on you entirely— on the way your chest rises and falls, the way your thighs twitch when he rakes his nails over soft skin, the way your voice had fell quiet right as you came— it was addicting. You could feel it, the way he looked at you. Everything of his was yours now.
He pulls away, cock softening between your thighs. The sound he makes as his nose dips into your neck is ruinous. He groans openly, the sound broken— pathetic, lonely noises finally having an audience. “Waited so long—” he keened, voice wrecked in every sense of the word. “All I needed, n' here you are. A prayer in my arms.” He cradled you tight against his chest. Soft, careful. Like you were made of glass— easy to break. He could feel your mind stirring, small thoughts bubbling to the surface, boiling. He knew exactly what you were thinking. Still, he spoke, low and sweet— “Tell me,” Not commanding, but authoritative. “My family,” you whispered. “They...they left me to die. They knew, they all knew and—” you cut yourself off, swallowing thickly. He could hear your heartbeat, a loud, rhythmic thrumming within your chest. A melody he'd commit to memory.
“You're supposed to be dead. Or I am. Whichever doesn't matter anymore I suppose, since we both are.” There was no lithe to your words, hanging heavy in silence. You could feel him shift, reddened flecks of light drawn to you like moths to a flame. A claw dents your skin, not enough to scratch as he cups your jaw. Gentle, reverent. “For years I've grown bitter from seeing what man has done unto man,” he rumbles, a small shift in his voice. A mix of spite and something unheard of. He continues, eyes flitting away from you and to the darkness.“And for years, I've let it fester. Let myself fall privy to man's sin— to their greed, their selfishness.” A soft stroke of his thumb to your cheek. “Until I realized what man fears most—”Silence lingered as you waited for him to fill it, tilting your head slightly. His gaze was trapped, sunk into the darkness as it stared back at him. “Judgement.” he filled. “A firm hand to guide them, not of righteousness, but of cynicism.” his voice shifted into something lower, foreign. His eyes flit to you, devout. “You will be that hand, darlin'. They fear regret— fear emanation. Consequence.”
“So be their mirror, and stare them in the face.”
With every drag of your body, your strength threatened to wane. You limped forward, the lace of your boots strung out, your shirt carved open— blood sunk into the cotton. Mudded soles thump against the wood of the porch. Your hand twisted at the knob, unsurprised to find it stiff. There's a brief moment of silence, of waiting. You could see the stars swimming above you in fading darkness through the patterned glass. Then, a click. The door creaked open, unsure. You were greeted by the sight of your family, your tío with his hand on the door while Mami and Nana sat at the dining room table, peering from behind the wall. You could imagine how you looked— blood-soaked mouth, dried at your neck. It did little to cover the gaping wound. Your collar pulled loose, drenched in darkened blood. Yours, his— did it matter? You waited, eyeing the threshold. Your eyes met your uncle's, lingering. His hand jerked without it meaning to, habitual.
The door pulled back, away from you, welcoming. You strode in, feet dragging against the hardwood. Mami would've said something about the mud, about leaving your shoes at the door. Mami was quiet, her eyes wide, fearful. Your curls were mussed, humidity caught up to them all the same. You still clung the shotgun in your hand, this time careful to avoid the silver-lined carvings. You let it hang at your leg, almost dangled. You didn't bother turning your head, walking straight for the table— to where you'd first heard the clank of a shell. Your tío didn't stop you, just held the door open in fear, like the devil's shadow would follow after you. A revered guest. In a way, he was. Your eyes don't meet Mami's, never bothering to glance at her terror-stricken face. Your nails rake down over the table, until they meet the silver shotgun shells. You hesitate, feeling the heat of them before they even reached your fingertips. You scoop them into your hands, the sizzle in your hands agonizing. Mami and Nana watch in horror, understanding washing over their face. You muttered, under your breath but loud and clear enough for them to hear, the silence surrounding it deafening.
ꜱᴜᴍᴍᴀʀʏ: New York, 1970. You’ve come too far from Mississippi to be told no. Your agent, Remmick, calls you his masterpiece, and he’ll do anything to make the world see you the same. You don’t ask what it costs him, but every time the spotlight hits your skin, his eyes shine like it’s worth it.
ᴡᴄ: 22.5k (including cont'd)
ᴀ/ɴ: title taken directly from this incredible song. if there's any fanfic writer reading this, mix your settings up! it's so fun to go out of your comfort zone and just go batshit crazy with your ideas and that's exactly what i did. the fact that i had to split this into two posts makes me so mad like i promise i'm not interaction farming tumblr just can't handle the heat of 20k+ words. i've done grateful remmick, pathetic remmick, and now we've got obsessive remmick. collecting his archetypes like infinity stones 💋! as always, white girls i promise you can have your fun with this too. enjoy reading divas! i don't do taglists personally, so just follow me if you want to be updated when i post c:
ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢꜱ: (including cont'd) SLOWburn, obsession, murder, vampirism, blood, bloodplay i think, praise kink, breeding kink, body worship, eye contact, biting, cunnilingus, very light dubcon, exhibitionism, p in v, monsterfucking, overstimulation, dacryphillia, cockwarming, the wildest possible time to have sex (you won't guess it), i'm sorry yall this shit is just freaky as fuck, overt affection from the start, fluff, a little domesticity never hurts, remmick being an unhinged control freak but in the least toxic way possible, reader did not prepare herself for ts, maybe a little angsty but that depends on your definition, codependency, power imbalance but it's never abused(?), religious undertones if you squint, depictions of racism, texturism, and microaggressions in the fashion industry, amateur knowledge of 1970s fashion and modeling (i was living on the devil wears prada and a prayer), excessive use of dividers, minor vampire rule changes for writing convenience
New York City, 1970.
The city shimmered in the distance like a mirage, flickering orange and gold against the horizon, then hardening into glass and steel as you drew closer. Manhattan rose from the ground like something alive, wild and bristling, all sirens and streetlamps and noise thick enough to taste. The car hummed low beneath you, headlights slicing through the last stretch of night. You leaned against the window, forehead pressed to the cool glass, watching the skyline appear piece by piece like it was being conjured just for you.
It had been a long drive. A strange one. Not quick, not smooth. Over twenty-four hours, maybe more. Time bled at the edges when you were with Remmick.
He wouldn’t drive during the day. Not once. Every time the sky began to lighten, he’d pull off the road. Into a gas station, a motel lot, once even behind an abandoned diner where the air smelled like rust and pine needles, and he’d wait. In silence. Crouched low in the driver’s seat, sunglasses on even in the dark. You’d offered to take the wheel more than once, half-joking, half-worried, but he’d only chuckled and said, "Ain’t no use rushin’. Best things bloom slow, darlin’. Let the night do her part."
The highways felt endless. Flat fields, flickering street signs, the quiet rhythm of tires against asphalt. You dozed in and out, lulled by his steady driving and the scratch of his thumb against his lighter. He didn’t play the radio. He didn’t sing. Sometimes he talked to himself, voice low and rhythmic like a sermon, words you couldn’t quite catch. Other times, he said your name like it was the only thing worth saying.
And then: the city.
He pulled the car to the curb, the engine softening into silence. You blinked up at the brownstone. Tall and narrow, made of worn red brick with black trim and a wrought-iron gate that looked older than both of you. The street around it was quiet, lit by just a few streetlamps buzzing with moths. It wasn’t a mansion, but it was nice. Too nice, as if it'd been detailed just minutes before you arrived. Clean front stoop. Big bay window. Flower boxes under the sills.
You frowned. “This yours?”
Remmick stepped out of the car, rounded the hood, and opened your door with a little bow. “Ours,” he said simply, like that explained everything.
You stood slowly, stretching your spine after hours curled in the seat. The New York air was colder than Mississippi. Sharper. The kind that cut clean and left you blinking. You looked up at the brownstone again. It had to be expensive. The kind of place a real agent might have. The kind of place someone powerful stayed, not someone who drifted into a backwoods general store and offered to make you a star.
But he just smiled. Like he already knew what you were thinking.
“Ain’t much yet,” he said, his voice low, accent thick and lazy and true. “But it’s the start. From here on out, we climb.”
You stared at him. Your so-called agent, your midnight stranger, the man who found you counting change behind the counter of your uncle’s store in Mississippi, under flickering fluorescents and a ceiling fan that squealed with every turn.
You hadn’t been looking to be found.
You hadn’t even meant to speak to him.
He’d come in just before closing, tall and tired-looking, dressed like he didn’t belong. Black turtleneck, coat that didn’t suit the heat, and those eyes. Blue, yes, but something off about them. Ancient. Red flashed in his pupils if the light hit just right, like a warning. You caught yourself staring too long.
Then he said it. “You ever thought about modeling, sweetheart?”
You laughed in his face.
He didn’t leave.
He came back the next night. And the one after that.
He didn’t try to touch you. Didn’t leer or flirt. Just leaned on the counter and looked at you like you were already on the cover of Vogue or Life. Like he was just waiting for the world to catch up.
“You’re a fuckin’ star,” he said again and again. “You don’t see it, but I do.”
Now here you were.
He carried your suitcase without asking, easy like it weighed nothing, and led you up the narrow staircase. Inside, the apartment smelled faintly of lavender and old books. The walls were clean, freshly painted, but the baseboards and window frames still bore signs of age. The floors creaked under your feet, polished wood catching the light. The front room had a velvet couch in a deep wine color, a small but elegant fireplace, and shelves that already held a few books. Some old, some new, all carefully arranged.
There was a vase on the windowsill. Empty, waiting.
It wasn’t just an apartment. It felt like someone had made space for you here.
You dropped your bag near the door and looked around slowly, jaw slack with disbelief.
“You… really live like this?”
Remmick leaned against the doorframe, his shirt collar open just enough to reveal the top of his pale chest. That red glint shimmered faintly behind his tired blue eyes, not threatening, just… different. Other. He didn’t hide it. You didn’t want him to.
He grinned, showing the faint edge of his canines. Too sharp to be human, too familiar to scare you. “I told you, didn’t I?” he said softly. “You’re gonna be a fuckin’ star.”
You stepped toward him, unsure if you meant to laugh or cry. “And this is part of that?”
He nodded once, serious now. “You deserve a place to start from. A place that ain’t tryin’ to drag you back down. I meant it when I said I’d take care of you.”
And in his voice, you heard it again. That vow he’d made in a gas station parking lot under moth-covered lights. That strange devotion that didn’t ask for anything in return.
You looked around one last time, then back at him.
“So what now?”
He stepped into the room, slow and certain, like he’d been waiting years for this moment.
“Now,” he said, brushing a stray curl from your face, “we get to work.”
You very quickly learned the situation you’d gotten yourself into.
It wasn’t subtle. There were no illusions of partnership or shared footing. You weren’t splitting rent, trading favors, or learning the city together like other girls who moved north with dreams and no real plan. No, you were being kept. Thoroughly, obsessively, deliberately kept.
It started small. You mentioned your shoes were falling apart. The next morning, a pair of Ferragamos appeared beside the bed. You half-joked about not owning a proper winter coat, and he was gone for twenty minutes, then returned with three. Leather. Wool. Something French you couldn’t pronounce, still with the tag attached.
The closet filled before you realized what was happening. It started with a rack of dresses, mostly black, some red, some blue, a few greens and golds, all tailored like they knew your body before you’d ever tried them on. Then came the heels. Then the jewelry. Not flashy, but real. Real enough to catch light. Real enough to turn heads.
You didn’t ask for it. Sometimes, you weren’t even sure you wanted it.
But he noticed everything.
You lingered a second too long looking at a photo in a magazine, the jacket the model wore, the earrings that matched her lipstick, and the next day, something damn near identical was folded neatly at the foot of the bed.
“Remmick, I don’t need-”
“Didn’t ask what you need, darlin’,” he’d say, brushing past you with a cigarette tucked behind his ear. “I asked what you want.”
He never lit that cigarette inside. Not even once. Wouldn’t so much as hold a lighter within ten feet of you. He’d smoke out on the stoop or disappear to the far end of the street, muttering something about “not stinkin’ up the air you breathe.” The first time you joked about wanting one yourself, just to see what the fuss was about, he looked at you like you’d cursed, warning “not with a smile like yours, not a chance.”
It wasn’t just the clothes.
You ran out of conditioner once. Just once. The bottle was still in the trash when you stepped out of the shower and found five new ones lined up on the bathroom sink. Different brands, all familiar, all from back home. Stuff you didn’t even think they sold up north. He’d stocked them like he’d raided a beauty supply store in Jackson and brought the entire aisle to you.
When you tried to thank him, he shook his head and looked at you like you’d insulted him.
“Don’t need thanks,” he murmured, turning the sink knobs absently, like making sure the water still ran. “Don’t want it neither. Just want you ready. Prepared. You look the part, they treat you like the part.”
That was the other thing. He never wavered.
You could be barefaced and groggy, hair wrapped, in slippers and one of his oversized shirts, and he’d still say it: “You’re the most beautiful thing in this city.”
Always with that voice, like gravel and honey, and always with that look. Like he was memorizing you for when you weren’t there.
He refused to let you carry groceries. Refused to let you pay at restaurants, even diners. The one time you tried, fumbling for your wallet while he was in the bathroom, he damn near lost it. Quietly, of course. Never loud. Never unkind. But the look on his face when he stepped out and saw you holding your purse?
He took your wrist gently and leaned in close. “You ain’t got to do that, darlin’. You never will.”
And you believed him.
Because Remmick didn’t make promises lightly.
He’d booked your first photoshoot before your second night in the city. He knew a guy who knew a guy. Shady as hell, probably, but the studio was real, the lighting was good, and the photographer never once looked at you sideways. You didn’t have a portfolio yet, didn’t know how to pose, but Remmick stood just out of frame, nodding, giving you small, soft corrections. Not criticism. Just reminders.
“Chin up. Eyes sharper. That’s it, darlin’. Just like that.”
He was everywhere. In the corner of the room, watching. Waiting. Always watching.
You got used to it. Maybe too fast. Maybe too easy.
But something about his presence didn’t unnerve you. It calmed you. Like if anything went wrong, if anyone tried anything, he’d handle it before you even knew to be afraid.
The girls you passed on the sidewalk in Harlem, downtown, SoHo, they looked at you with curiosity. Some with admiration, others with judgment. You didn’t blame them. You were the new face, the quiet one with an older man who opened every door and paid every bill and looked at you like you were something exquisite and holy.
And you noticed him too.
The way he never ate. The way his canines always looked a little too sharp when he smiled too wide. The way his eyes gleamed red sometimes when the light dipped low.
You weren’t stupid.
You weren’t scared either.
Because when he looked at you, it wasn’t hunger. It was worship.
Like he’d waited lifetimes for you. Like now that he had you, there wasn’t a single thing on this earth. living or dead. he wouldn’t rip apart to keep you standing.
And the strangest part?
You were starting to believe it.
You still didn’t know what exactly he was. He hadn’t told you, not directly. But there were nights when the city seemed to go still around him, when your reflection in the apartment window looked younger than it had the day before, when he came back from “errands” with dirt on his sleeves and a strange, metallic smell clinging to his coat.
You didn’t ask.
You just watched him move through your life like a secret you didn’t want solved.
And when he knelt in front of your vanity, helping you fasten the strap of your heels, he looked up at you like you were the moon.
“Whatever you want, darlin’,” he said. “All you ever gotta do is ask.”
And you believed him. Again.
The proofs arrived in a thick envelope, crisp and neatly stacked, smelling like ink and developer fluid. Remmick slit it open with his finger, careful not to smudge the edges, then spread the photos out across the kitchen table like cards in a high-stakes hand.
You hovered nearby, still in your robe, coffee cooling untouched between your hands. He’d barely said a word all morning, just paced between windows and rearranged the chairs until the light hit the table just right. Now he sat, back straight, fingers laced under his chin like he was studying scripture.
“Alright,” he muttered, nodding to himself. “Let’s see what we’re workin’ with.”
He picked up the first photo, held it close to his face, then glanced at you with a small, stunned kind of smile.
“Goddamn, darlin’,” he said, shaking his head slowly. “Look at you. Look at those eyes. Like they know somethin’ nobody else does.”
Your lips twitched. “That good or bad?”
He flicked his eyes up. “That’s perfect.”
The next photo didn’t get the same reaction. He turned it sideways, then back, then let out a thoughtful little hum before setting it aside.
“Not that one?”
“Too wide on the lens. Warps the shoulder line.” He looked up again, serious now. “Ain’t you. That’s on the camera, not the subject.”
You sat across from him, watching the small pile of rejects begin to form at his elbow. But with each one he discarded, he gave an explanation. Real, technical, thorough.
“This one’s too soft. Focus is just off the eye, makes you look unsure.”
“Lighting’s dirty on this one. Sinks the skin tone. Not your fault, not on you.”
“Angle’s wrong here. Nose ain’t shaped like that, lens just thinks it knows better.”
He never let it seem like you’d done something wrong.
Even the ones he didn’t like, he lingered on first. Admired them. Complimented the tilt of your head, the curve of your mouth, the way you held your hands. He only tossed them aside if the frame failed you, if the shot wasn’t worthy.
“You’re not a problem to fix, darlin’,” he said at one point, tapping one of the keeper shots. “You’re a truth they gotta learn how to capture right.”
You were starting to understand how his mind worked. Not just as your agent, but as someone who genuinely couldn’t stand seeing the world misunderstand you. It mattered to him, deeply. Almost violently.
He ended up with four he liked. Four out of thirty.
“This one for the face,” he said, sliding the first forward. “No smile, just eyes. Says take me serious.”
The second: “This one shows the angles. That jaw? That neck? You’ll have girls tryin’ to grow bones like yours.”
The third: “Little softness. You look like someone’s dream here.”
And the last, his favorite, he didn’t explain. Just stared at it for a long while, thumb grazing the edge, eyes unreadable.
When you reached for it, he didn’t let go right away. Then he finally handed it over.
It was a shot of you mid-turn, hair caught in motion, dress pulling just slightly at the hip, your mouth parted like you’d been about to laugh.
You didn’t even remember posing like that.
“I love this one,” you said quietly.
“I know,” Remmick replied, watching you with something almost reverent in his face. “That’s why it works.”
You leaned your cheek into your hand, tracing the edge of the photo with your finger. “Don’t think I’ve ever seen myself like this before.”
“’Cause you haven’t had someone show you right. Not till now.”
He stood, collecting the rejected prints and sliding them back into the envelope. You watched him move. Graceful in that slow, deliberate way of his, like every motion was premeditated.
At the counter, he paused to straighten the stack of fashion magazines he’d brought home the night before, flipping through one until he found a dog-eared page. A model with your same cheekbones, but none of your soul.
“See that?” he asked, tilting it toward you. “They’ll chase this look ‘til they die tryin’, but you-” He tapped the table beside your photo. “You got it. Easy.”
He lingered a moment longer, then returned to the table, his thumb brushing a speck of dust from the corner of your favorite shot. You noticed his hands. Always busy, always precise. Even when they trembled a little, like they did now, like he was holding something too precious to mess up.
“Gonna send these four out by noon,” he said, tapping the chosen shots. “Couple magazines, two scouts. I’ll follow up by phone tomorrow.”
Your brow lifted. “That fast?”
He gave a small shrug, lips tugging into a lopsided grin. “You think I came all this way just to sit on my ass?” He leaned across the table, close enough for you to see the faint red gleam flicker at the edge of his irises. Subtle, quick. “Told you I’d make you a fuckin’ star. Didn’t say when. Just said I would.”
He leaned back in the chair, exhaling slowly, then looked at you with that soft, satisfied expression he wore whenever he thought you weren’t watching. “Put somethin’ nice on, sweetheart,” he said, voice low and warm. “I’m takin’ you out tonight. Gotta celebrate your first real shoot.”
The look in his eyes told you it wasn’t just about the pictures. It was about you. Everything was.
He didn’t call it a date. Wouldn’t even come close.
When you stepped out of the bedroom in one of the dresses he’d picked out days ago, red, silky, and cut to fit like it had been stitched directly onto you, he only gave a low whistle and said, “Now that’s how a star walks into a room.” Not you look beautiful. Not I can’t stop starin’ at you. But it was there in his face, plain as anything. The way he let his eyes trace you, slow and reverent, like he was seeing something sacred.
He held the door for you like always, one hand at the small of your back, guiding you toward the black town car idling at the curb. The engine was quiet, the driver already waiting. No one had told you where you were going, and Remmick didn’t say. He just tucked you into the backseat like you were made of porcelain and leaned close with a grin, his fingers grazing your bare shoulder.
“Big night,” he murmured, low and warm. “You should eat like it.”
You didn’t expect what came next. The restaurant didn’t have a name on the front. Just a narrow archway tucked between a boutique hotel and a shuttered tailor shop, with a single golden plaque bolted to the brick. You wouldn’t have noticed it at all if he hadn’t guided you up the steps like he belonged there.
The maître d’ recognized him instantly. “Right this way, sir,” he said without even asking for a name, and suddenly you were being led into the kind of place people waited months to get into. The dining room was dim and hushed, wrapped in warm light and the clink of expensive silverware. Velvet chairs, fresh flowers at every table, real wax candles instead of electric flickers. The sort of atmosphere where everyone whispered even when they didn’t have to, because they could.
You were seated in the center of it all, surrounded by couples in tailored suits and silk shawls, sparkling jewelry and moneyed quiet. The moment you sat down, you felt them. Eyes, subtle and sideways, glancing over menus and martinis to look at you. You were the only Black woman in the room. Probably the only one who’d been here in a while, if ever. Their stares weren’t loud, but they were there. Lingering. Curious. Unwelcome.
Remmick didn’t miss it.
His hand was already on the table, fingers brushing yours. “Hey,” he said, soft enough only you could hear. “They look ‘cause they don’t get it. ‘Cause you’re sittin’ there lookin’ like a fuckin’ dream, and they’re not used to seein’ somethin’ that real.”
You looked up at him, and he was already watching you, something dangerous and steady behind the softness in his voice. “Let ‘em stare. You belong right here, sweetheart. You belong everywhere.”
That was all he had to say. The weight of the room shifted. Not for them, for you. Like suddenly you were immune. Like the whispering walls of that restaurant had never held a woman like you before, but they were damn lucky to now.
He ordered for both of you, waving off the menu like he already knew what was good. “She’ll have the oysters and the saffron risotto,” he said with a smile that was somehow both charming and firm. “Bring us the champagne. The good kind.”
You laughed and asked how he even got a reservation. He just shrugged. “Told ‘em I had someone I needed to impress. They didn’t ask more’n that.”
The food came in careful courses, small and perfect, each bite richer than anything you’d ever tasted. He didn’t eat much, just pushed things around on his plate while watching you. Every time you made a face or hummed in surprise at the flavor, he looked like he was cataloging it, like he’d remember what you liked forever.
“Tell me which dish you want me to learn to cook,” he said at one point. “I’ll have the whole damn kitchen figured out by next week if you ask.”
You told him that wasn’t necessary, and he smiled. “That ain’t the point.”
Between courses, he kept the compliments coming. Not like a man trying to win favor, more like someone stunned into reverence. He said it like a fact, like gravity: you were stunning, and you should already be on magazine covers. “The cameras don’t even get it yet,” he said. “They ain’t caught what I see.”
Still, he never called it a date.
Even when his gaze lingered on your mouth for too long. Even when he wiped a smear of sauce from the corner of your lip with his thumb and let it stay there for a beat too long. Even when his voice went low again and he said, “We’ll remember this night. First of many, I promise you that.”
You smiled down at your plate, cheeks warm, heart louder than it had been all day. He watched you like you were the only one left in the world. Like he could feel the pull of it just as much as you could, but wouldn’t name it. Not yet.
Dessert was something ridiculous with gold leaf and dark chocolate, something you didn’t ask for but he somehow knew you’d love. When you took the first bite, he grinned wide and leaned back in his chair.
“A star and her agent,” he said. “That’s all this is.”
But his voice was thick, and his eyes didn’t leave yours, and when he reached out to adjust the strap of your dress where it slipped on your shoulder, his hand lingered, slow and possessive.
“And stars oughta be spoiled, don’t you think?”
You nodded, quiet, caught between the warmth of the food and the fizz of champagne and the impossible softness in his voice. He said nothing more, just sat there across from you like he’d already decided you were the best thing he’d ever done.
And maybe he had.
Watching Remmick work was your favorite pastime.
You curled your legs up beneath you on the couch, still wearing the oversized tee he’d laid out for you. Not one of yours, of course. Something soft and perfectly worn, smelling faintly of cedar and whatever cologne he only ever seemed to wear around the apartment. The plate on your lap was empty now, just crumbs and the last smear of blackberry preserves from the toast he’d made fresh that morning. No burnt edges. No crusts. The way you liked it.
He’d sat with you through the whole thing, elbows on the table, watching every bite like it fed him instead. When you asked if he was gonna eat too, he only smiled.
“I’ll grab somethin’ later. You go on.”
He never ate around you, not really. Said mornings weren’t his time. Said he didn’t like the taste of breakfast. Said he’d already had his coffee. A lie, probably, because you never once saw him make a cup. But he’d sat there all the same, chin in his hand, smiling at you like you were the sunrise itself.
Now he stood across the apartment, back to you, the long cord of the house phone stretched taut from the wall to where he leaned against the kitchen counter. His voice was calm but firm, syrupy in a way that meant he was negotiating. You could only hear his side, but it was enough to understand.
“...I know what I’m askin’, but you ain’t looked at her yet, Mary. Once you see her in front of you, you’ll understand-”
A long pause. The hand not gripping the phone gestured in frustration, but his voice didn’t budge.
“Yeah. I get that. But what I’m sayin’ is, she ain’t just a checkmark on a theme issue, alright? She’s talent. She’s the face. Whether that issue’s in January or June or never, she deserves ink. You know it.”
Your stomach tightened a little. He hadn’t said what magazine it was, not directly, but you’d caught the hint yesterday when he started listing off dream shots. Glamour, he’d said. Cosmopolitan. Vogue, if they bite, but Glamour’s got that open slot sooner. At the time, you’d thought he was dreaming big. Shooting for the stars to see what stuck.
Now, listening to him wrangle a gatekeeper with the kind of slick charm only he could wield, you realized he hadn’t just dreamed. He’d promised.
And he was fighting tooth and nail to deliver.
“Mmhm. Yeah. Yeah, I’m sure. I read it.” His voice thinned slightly, though he still sounded smooth. “Saw the whole spread. Good issue.”
A beat. You caught the flicker of his jaw tightening.
“Nah, I’m not sayin’ you shouldn’t have done it. Just sayin’ maybe you oughta take another look at your timing. Feels a little... seasonal. Like maybe you think color only matters once a year.”
Your eyebrows rose.
There was a longer pause now. You heard a faint tinny buzz from the other end of the line, though the words were too muffled to catch. Remmick didn’t speak. He just waited, staring out the tiny kitchen window at nothing. His fingers tapped the countertop, slow and even. You could feel it. The moment. That low boil of something restrained. Whatever she’d said next, it had hit a nerve.
Then finally, he spoke again.
“Listen, Mary. I’m not askin’ you to do her a favor. I’m offerin’ you a face your readers are gonna be grateful for. She’s got the look and the movement. She’s camera-trained and runway-ready, and she just got off a shoot with a photographer I know you’ve pulled from before. You want numbers? You’ll get numbers. All I need is fifteen minutes in front of your casting director.”
Another pause.
His eyes flicked to you.
You offered the smallest smile, and he smiled back. Just slightly, just enough to soften the line of his mouth. Then turned back to the phone.
“Perfect. Yeah. Tuesday’s good. Tell ‘em she’ll be there.”
He hung up with the kind of gentleness that didn’t match the fight you’d just heard in his voice. As if slamming the phone down would’ve undone the win. He stayed there a second longer, hand resting on the receiver, then turned toward you and ran a hand through his hair.
“Well,” he said, voice back to its usual slow drawl. “Hope you didn’t make other plans for Tuesday.”
He'd already made sure you didn't.
You blinked, throwing the first name that came to your mind out. “That was Glamour?”
He gave a short nod and crossed the room in two strides, crouching down in front of the couch. “That was me doin’ what I said I would. You’re in, sweetheart. Casting preview, ten a.m. I’ll walk you in myself.”
Your heart was thudding, too fast to hide. “Remmick... they said no at first, didn’t they?”
He didn’t lie. Didn’t pretend. Just shrugged. “Didn’t matter what they said at first. You got me. I make sure first ain’t never final.”
You looked at him, really looked. The way his blue eyes caught the light and shimmered red in the middle, something not quite right about them, something old and endless that had never scared you. Something that felt like fire behind glass. You’d never asked what he was, not out loud. But you knew.
And you knew whatever he was, it loved you. Or worshipped you. Or both.
“Remmick,” you said, quieter now. “What if it doesn’t go well?”
He reached up, thumb brushing just beneath your cheek. “Then I raise hell.”
You laughed, half from nerves and half from wonder. You’d come to this city with nothing but a suitcase, a dream, and a man who’d found you behind a dusty counter and said star like he already believed it. And now here you were. Toast crumbs on your lap, your agent on fire, and Tuesday morning shining in the near distance like something impossible.
You weren’t sure if you were ready.
But with Remmick at your side, it almost didn't matter.
Tuesday morning came earlier than you'd hoped, though you weren’t the one who set the alarm. Remmick had been up before the sun, half-dressed and humming under his breath in the next room while laying your outfit out across the back of the couch.
He’d picked it the night before, but apparently that hadn’t stopped him from fussing over it again in the morning. You heard the crisp flick of a lint roller, the brush of fingers smoothing seams, the rustle of tissue paper as he checked the shoes a third time.
When you finally dragged yourself out of bed, you found the kettle already whistling and the lights dimmed low, the way you liked them. Remmick was standing by the window, fingers pressed lightly to the frame, eyes flicking up toward the gray, dim sky like he expected it to turn on him.
You watched him for a moment, leaning against the doorframe in your feather-trimmed robe, half-curious, half-sleepy.
“You waitin’ on somethin’?” you asked.
He turned slightly, not startled, just aware. That quiet, humming attention he always gave you.
“Mm? No,” he said, too quickly. “Just checkin’ the weather. They were callin’ for sun earlier. Thought maybe it’d clear.”
You blinked. “And that’s bad?”
He smiled, but it didn’t quite reach his eyes. “Only if you don’t want your hair frizzin’ before the cameras roll.”
You didn’t buy that, not fully, but you didn’t press. Especially not when you caught the way his shoulders dropped just a little with relief as he turned back toward the window and muttered, “Overcast’s good. Real good.”
Then, as if a switch had been flipped, all his focus was back on you.
“Went with the green. It’ll set off your skin like it’s already been retouched,” he said, running a hand over the fabric. “Open collar, mid-thigh hem. You’re showin’ just enough to make ‘em lean forward, not enough to make ‘em blink wrong. You’ll kill in it.”
He’d chosen your heels too. Pearlescent and soft. He bent to help buckle them before you could even sit down fully, kneeling in front of you like it was the most natural thing in the world. He looked up after the second one clicked into place.
He pulled you in front of the small mirror in the hallway, fingers brushing through your curls. Careful but firm, like he was memorizing every strand, every coil.
“You look damn beautiful like this,” he said quietly, his voice low enough that it felt like a secret meant only for you. “This hair? It’s got fire. It’s you. Ain’t no straightening iron gonna fix what’s already perfect.”
You watched his face, how his lips twitched into a rare smile, how his sharp canines flashed for a moment when he spoke. It was like he was showing you a piece of a world you hadn’t dared to claim yet.
“If they try to tell you to change it, you tell ’em exactly what I’m tellin’ you.” He leaned in, voice dropping lower, the kind of serious that makes you hold your breath. “If they don’t like this, they can choke on it.”
You couldn't help but laugh.
The walk to the Glamour offices wasn’t long, but he stretched it out like a runway. Kept looking you up and down with a quiet smile that made your stomach dip.
“You remember what to say if they ask about work history?”
“Freelance,” you said. “New Orleans, mostly. Catalogue stuff. A few showroom calls.”
“Good girl.” His hand found the small of your back. “And if they ask who’s representin’ you?”
“You.”
“Damn right.”
Every few steps, he’d stop to adjust your sleeve, or reposition your collar just slightly, or brush a speck of lint off your back like it was a threat. All the while, compliments rolled off him like breath.
“Walkin’ like you got six hundred cameras on you already.”
“No one else out here looks like you. That’s why they’re gonna remember.”
“God, darlin’, if they don’t pick you up after this, I’ll make a whole new magazine just to show ‘em what they missed.”
He meant it too. That was the thing.
When you reached the building, the receptionist barely had time to look up before Remmick had already introduced you both. “Ten o’clock, casting preview for senior editorial. We’re expected.”
He kept his hand low at your back as you were ushered toward the elevators, nodding politely but not waiting to be led. He knew the layout better than he should have. Knew exactly which floor. Which door. Which office.
You didn’t ask how.
Just like you didn’t ask how he managed the reservation for that dinner, or the money for the apartment, or the pull it must’ve taken to get a Tuesday meeting with Glamour on less than a week’s notice.
He stood with you right up to the waiting room. Talked you through every possible scenario. Repeated it all again. Not like he didn’t think you remembered, but like he needed to be sure. His hand curled around yours for a moment, thumb brushing your knuckles.
“You’re gonna go in there, and you’re gonna own it,” he said low. “Chin up. Shoulders back. They ain’t doin’ you a favor, darlin’. You’re the one bringin’ value.”
You smiled, even if your heart was loud in your ears. “You’re staying, right?”
“As long as they let me.”
The door cracked open then. A woman in a gray blazer stepped out and gave you a polite, clipped smile. “They’re ready for you.”
Remmick looked at her, then back at you.
“You got this,” he whispered, eyes catching the light like glass. “Go turn ‘em to mush.”
You stepped through the door with a deep breath, feeling him at your back even after it shut behind you.
The room wasn’t anything like you’d imagined. No flashbulbs. No velvet couches. Just white walls, a long table, and a row of people behind it. Only three today, though it felt like more.
The man in the middle leaned forward, adjusting his glasses as he looked you over. His suit was tan. His tie was brown. He looked like he belonged on the cover of a retirement brochure.
He didn’t smile.
His eyes landed on your hair, soft and natural, shaped carefully the way you and Remmick had discussed, and he frowned.
“You didn’t straighten your hair?”
The air thinned.
He said it casually. Like it was a reasonable question. Like you were the one who’d missed a memo. There was no malice in his voice. No edge. Just that neutral, evaluative tone. The kind that made your skin prickle.
You opened your mouth, unsure whether to answer. Whether to defend. But you didn’t get the chance.
Remmick’s words came back to you.
If they don’t like it, they can choke on it.
You straightened your spine. Lifted your chin.
“No,” you said, clearly. “I didn’t.”
His brow lifted, but he didn’t comment further. Just made a note on the paper in front of him and gestured toward the far end of the room. “We’ll have you stand there, please.”
You moved without trembling. Stood where he told you. But just as he looked up again, his tone shifted. Cool, clinical, condescending, like he was correcting a child.
“Next time, I’d encourage you to tame it a little,” he said, making a vague swirling motion near his own head. “It tends to interfere with the shape of the editorial spread. Distracts from the clothes.”
You held your breath for a second.
Then exhaled, choosing to respond with your silence.
You couldn’t see Remmick from here, but you knew, if he could, he’d be watching through the walls. Jaw set. Eyes sharp. Fingers curled around the armrest of some uncomfortable waiting room chair, burning with the need to intervene but holding back for your sake. Because he trusted you. Because he’d prepared you for this.
They smiled at you.
All three of them. The old white man in the center, still reeking of cedar cologne and importance. The younger one on his left with the narrow glasses and tight mouth. And the woman, quiet, polished, seated from the start, offered the warmest smile of all, like it might soften what was coming.
“You’ve got something,” the man in the center said, folding his hands like he was giving you the world instead of brushing you off. “Undeniably. And that face? It tells a story.”
You waited. Chin high. Shoulders set. The reader in you knew a setup when you heard one.
“But,” he continued, “we just couldn’t find the right fit for you on the cover. The concept’s already tight, and we’re working with established talent.”
The woman nodded sympathetically. “We’ll absolutely include you in the spread, though. There’s a great piece near the back. Beauty-focused, intimate lighting. You’ll photograph beautifully there.”
“Somewhere in the centerfold,” the younger man added. “Where you’ll pop.”
Pop.
You kept smiling. Even thanked them. Told them it was an honor.
The hallway outside felt colder than it had earlier. Like whatever heat had filled the building this morning had been drained just for you. You glanced around, expecting to see Remmick waiting in that same corner you assumed he'd been pacing in for the last hour, but he wasn’t there.
“Your agent?” the receptionist offered, catching your look. “He was asked to wait in the lobby. Waiting room’s only for models.”
You nodded, once. Of course it was.
You stepped into the elevator, then down through the marble lobby, each heel-click a reminder. Not of rejection exactly, because they hadn’t said no. But of all the ways a person can still be told not quite.
Remmick was already rising from the bench opposite of the window when you turned the corner. The second he saw you, he stood fast. Palms brushing down the front of his shirt, like his whole body was waiting for your cue. For your expression to tell him what to feel.
His mouth opened, but you beat him to it.
“They said I’ll be in the magazine,” you said.
His face didn’t move. Not right away.
Then slowly, his brow lifted.
“And?”
“Not on the cover.”
You watched it hit him. Watched how his expression stayed still for half a second too long. Just long enough for it to twist into something else. Something dangerous.
His jaw set hard. A muscle ticked. The color beneath his skin seemed to shift, just faintly, as if whatever fire lived inside him didn’t know where to go yet.
You almost thought he’d go back upstairs. March into that office and ask those men if they had any idea who they’d just handed a consolation prize to. If they knew how much talent they’d looked straight in the eye and passed over like it was nothing. He looked like he wanted blood.
But instead, he turned back to you.
His voice was quiet when it came. Measured.
“Well,” he said, lips tight around the word, “it’s a start.”
You gave a small nod. You didn’t trust your voice yet.
“And every star,” he added, smoothing his thumb along the back of your hand, “has to get her start somewhere.”
You looked down.
There was something about the way he said it. Not forced, not fake. But like he was trying to convince himself as much as you. Like he was clinging to the shape of the words because they were the only thing keeping him from sinking into whatever fury had been building behind his eyes.
“I wore what you told me,” you murmured. “Said what you told me to say. Stood still, smiled, kept my tone light. Did everything right.”
“You did more than right,” he said quickly. “You were brilliant.”
You looked back up.
“Then why wasn’t it enough?”
His face twisted. Something old passed over it. A flicker of pain he couldn’t hide fast enough.
“It was enough,” he said, voice low. “You are enough. You’re more than they’ve ever had walk through those doors, and they know it. That’s why they smiled so damn hard, ’cause they were too scared to admit they didn’t have the guts to hand you what you earned.”
You blinked.
He softened immediately.
“Darlin’,” he said gently, and that was the first time he’d called you that in a place like this. Not in the safety of your brownstone, not in the hush of his voice during quiet mornings or late nights. Here. Now. On a marble floor that didn’t want to carry your name.
He pulled you close, just enough to press his hand to the small of your back, shielding you from the glances nearby. “This is the last time someone underestimates you and walks away proud of it. I swear on my fuckin’ life.”
You exhaled, shaky. His hand rubbed small circles into your back, smoothing over the ache like he could press all the disappointment down until it flattened into something manageable.
“You said it yourself. You'll be in the magazine,” he went on. “A spread still gets eyes. Still gets press. They’ll see your face, your name, and the next time we walk into a building like this-” his voice dropped, almost growled, “-they’ll beg to put you on the front.”
You knew it wasn’t just a promise. It was a threat. A vow.
Remmick didn’t get loud. He didn’t need to. But the intensity in his voice had a gravity all its own, like if the world didn’t bend for you, he’d find a way to crack it open with his bare hands.
“I’ll make sure of it,” he said, softer now. “No matter what it takes.”
You leaned into him. Just slightly. Enough for him to steady you.
The world had felt heavier in the elevator. More than disappointment. It was like it had reinforced something you’d been trying to unlearn: that the door would still close, even when you did everything right.
But here, in the curve of his palm and the grit of his words, it felt manageable. Not fixed. But seen.
You didn’t say anything else as you both walked toward the exit, his hand never once leaving your back. His touch didn't say Keep moving. It said I’ve got you, and for now, that was enough.
He didn’t take you out that night.
You thought maybe he would. Half-expected it, honestly, with the way he’d looked at you in the car. Like you were glass and flame all at once, and he couldn’t decide which part to reach for first. His hand had stayed on your knee the whole ride, but not in that idle, drifting way men sometimes did when they got comfortable. No, his touch had been still. Focused. His thumb pressing slow, precise circles into the fabric, as if committing the shape of you to memory.
But when you stepped into the brownstone, he didn’t say a word about dinner, or drinks, or anything at all that required going back out into the city.
The door clicked softly shut behind you.
He locked it. Then checked it again, like he always did. Not once. Twice. Fingers lingering on the bolt like the world couldn’t be trusted not to knock again.
Then he turned, caught your eye in the dim hallway light, and you caught the redshift in his.
“Let me keep you in tonight,” he said.
Not a plea. Not a command. Just a fact.
You nodded before you even realized it.
It wasn’t long before the apartment was quiet again, save for the distant hum of traffic and the rustle of Remmick moving through the kitchen. You stood in the living room, still in your casting outfit, watching him open the fridge with that same thoughtful care he brought to everything. Like every bottle or jar might be hiding something important.
You didn’t expect him to cook. You’d never seen him eat. But the man knew his way around a pan, that much was clear.
He tied your apron around his waist without asking, rolling the sleeves of his shirt up to his elbows as he set to work with the kind of slow, methodical focus that made the whole kitchen seem quieter.
Olive oil warmed in the pan. Garlic hit it next, the sizzle sharp and sudden before mellowing into something rich and familiar.
You leaned against the doorway, arms folded. Watching.
He didn’t look up, but you saw his shoulders shift like he could feel your eyes.
“I had somethin’ else in mind for tonight,” he said. “Somethin’ with music. White tablecloths. Wine list thick enough to kill a man. But figured you might need a minute to breathe.”
“I’m fine.”
“I know,” he said softly. “Still.”
You didn’t say anything to that. Just watched him toss fresh herbs into the pan. Basil, thyme, a pinch of something red from a spice jar he’d labeled in your handwriting. You didn't allow yourself to consider how he even learned to write like you.
“What’re you making?”
“Pasta,” he said, glancing over his shoulder. “The real kind. Not that boxed stuff.”
You raised a brow. “You knead dough too, Remmick? That part of the agency job description?”
His mouth twitched, knowingly so. “Never hurts to be versatile.”
You smirked, but didn’t push it.
The radio played something low and old from the corner of the room, letting its dusty melody thread through the space like smoke. You sank into the armchair by the window, curling one leg beneath you as you listened to the rhythmic scrape of Remmick’s knife against the cutting board.
It was peaceful. Domestic in a way that felt almost unreal.
He plated your food with a flourish and brought it over without a word, setting it gently in front of you like he’d done it a thousand times before.
“Don’t wait,” he said, already moving to clear space on the coffee table.
You didn’t.
The pasta was perfectly done. Homemade sauce, deep and savory. You chewed slowly, trying to hide your surprise.
“You sure you didn’t work in a kitchen before this?”
“No ma’am,” he said, stretching out on the floor in front of you, back against the couch. “Just picked things up.”
He didn’t have a plate. You’d stopped asking about that after the third time it happened. He always said he’d eat later, that he’d already eaten, or that he wasn’t hungry. But the look in his eyes as he watched you always told a different story.
“Thank you,” you murmured, after a few more bites.
He looked up at you then. Eyes soft.
“You don’t gotta thank me.”
“I want to.”
Something shifted in his face. A flicker of something he didn’t say. He looked back down at the rug.
“I know today didn’t go like we wanted,” he said, voice quieter now. “But it’s a start. Ain’t no stars born in full blaze. You’ll get there.”
You hummed, letting the praise settle somewhere deep inside. The pasta disappeared slower after that. You were full before you finished, but you kept taking little bites just to keep him sitting there. Just to keep this moment still.
He cleared the plate when you finally set it down. Washed it, dried it, and returned like it was nothing. Like you hadn’t watched his shoulders flex through the thin linen of his shirt or followed the curve of his jaw as he leaned over the sink.
When he returned, he didn’t sit on the floor this time.
He eased onto the couch instead, the cushions dipping under his weight, the worn linen wrinkling beneath him. His body moved with the kind of slow care that wasn’t laziness, but calculation. Like he was measuring how much space he ought to take up, how much distance there was between your bodies.
Then he held out his hand.
Open. Bare. Still.
No words. Just that quiet, steady offering. Not an ask. Not a demand. An invitation.
You didn’t speak either. Just looked at him, looked at that hand, then back up into his face.
He wasn’t smiling. Not exactly. But there was a kind of soft hope carved into the lines of his mouth, a flicker in his eyes that said he needed the touch more than he wanted to admit.
So you reached for him.
Your fingers slid into his, warm and steady, and let him draw you forward. Not pulled. Not dragged or directed or coaxed, but simply… guided. Like gravity worked differently where he was.
You let yourself settle beside him.
His arm curled naturally along the back of the couch, but didn’t touch you. Not at first. He sat still as you tucked your legs beneath you, shifting until your shoulder just brushed his chest.
The lamp nearby cast long, slow shadows against the brick wall behind you. The whole apartment felt hushed, wrapped in soft amber and low sounds from the street that barely reached the window.
You tilted your head slightly, letting the silence stretch.
He looked at you then.
Really looked.
And not with that mask he wore around others, the one he used when smoothing the way for phone calls and photoshoots, all cleverness and quiet, careful charm.
This was different.
His hand slid from the cushion behind you, moved down and found yours again. He cradled it between both of his like it was delicate. Breakable. A thing too precious to be touched without veneration.
He traced the shape of your palm with the tip of one finger. Slow. Careful.
And said nothing.
You let him do it. Let him take your hand in his and explore it like it might disappear, like every line and fold and soft edge meant something more than flesh and skin.
You looked at him for a long moment, studying the lines around his eyes, the way his hair was still mussed from running his fingers through it. His jaw was tense, but not with anger. Something quieter. Something more internal.
“You okay?” you asked.
He smiled faintly. “Tired.”
“You sleep last night?”
He gave a soft snort. “Don’t need much.”
You let that go.
The apartment was quiet again. The kind of hush that felt deliberate. Sacred. The low hum of the refrigerator was the only thing keeping time now.
And then he spoke again.
“I ever tell you how much I hate bein’ helpless?” he said quietly. “Hate sittin’ in a hall waitin’ to hear how they gonna minimize you. Like I’m just supposed to swallow it.”
You didn’t answer. Just turned, leaning slightly into the curve of his arm where it hovered behind you.
“Hey,” you said after a pause. “You didn’t fail me.”
He didn’t speak.
“You hear me?” you pressed, voice firmer now. “You didn’t.”
He looked at you again then. That same old look. Like you were something just out of reach, Something he didn’t think he deserved but couldn’t stop staring at.
And then, like a dam breaking, he shifted.
His hand slid from yours, only to return a second later, cupping the back of your fingers, cradling them between both of his. He brought them close to his mouth, not quite kissing them, but holding them there like they warmed him.
“I just wanted it to be perfect,” he frowned.
You tilted your head.
“It is,” you said. “Not the job. Not them. But this? Us?”
He blinked.
“It’s getting there.”
That earned a small laugh. Quiet. Real.
You smiled.
“Thank you for dinner,” you said again, softer now.
His eyes lingered on your lips a moment too long.
“Anytime.”
And he meant it.
Anytime. Anything. Always.
Every inch of him said so.
You didn’t sleep much the night before.
Too much weight in your chest. Too many thoughts, all rustling like paper just out of reach. Every time your eyes drifted closed, they fluttered open again. The room was too quiet, the air too still. It felt like something was waiting. Or maybe you were.
But even if you had managed to drift off, you would’ve woken anyway. You always did, somehow, whenever he came close.
It was subtle at first. The soft creak of a floorboard just beyond the hallway. A change in pressure. Barely there, but enough to make your skin prickle. Like the atmosphere shifted slightly to accommodate him. The air grew heavier, like it recognized him before your eyes did.
You didn’t move. Kept your breath even. Let your lashes stay low, even though your eyes were cracked open just enough to see the shape in the corner.
Remmick.
Standing there. Still as a portrait, as if one stray blink might smear him from view. Bare-chested, in nothing but a pair of dark briefs that hung low on his hips, his skin pale and sharp against the dark. The moonlight didn’t dare touch him directly. It hovered in the corners instead, gathering where his shoulder met his throat, pooling in the shallow dip of his chest. His body looked almost carved. Lean, wiry muscle wrapped tight in skin that barely looked like it belonged to someone living.
But it was his eyes that held you in place.
They didn’t catch the light.
They made their own.
Twin glints of red shimmered low beneath his brow, steady and unblinking. Not the flash of a reflection. Not the glimmer of light hitting moisture. No. These burned from within, low and quiet, like embers buried deep beneath ash. They didn’t flicker. They didn’t pulse.
They glowed.
And in that glow was something else. Something wordless. Something ancient.
He didn’t say a word.
Didn’t make a sound.
Just stood there at the foot of your bed, breathing like he didn’t trust himself to get any closer. Like he’d been walking through a dream all night and didn’t want to wake you for fear of it ending.
It wasn’t hunger in his face. Not lust, either. It was… awe. Disbelief, maybe. As if he wasn’t entirely convinced you were still real.
And as you watched him, quiet, breath steady, you couldn’t help but wonder:
How long had he been doing this?
How many nights had he stood in that exact spot?
How many times had you not woken up? Had you not noticed?
The thought didn’t scare you. If anything, it stirred something softer. Stranger. Like the ghost of a heartbeat rising from the floorboards beneath you.
You didn’t speak.
Didn’t move.
And neither did he.
By the time the alarm sounded, the sun wasn’t up yet, but he was already in the kitchen.
You heard the clink of porcelain, the soft scrape of a drawer sliding open, the rhythmic hush of his bare feet moving across the floor. The smell of something warm and faintly herbal drifted through the air. Something like honey and mint, but darker underneath. Earthier.
You sat up slowly, still heavy with the weight of half-slept dreams, and blinked against the dim light spilling in from the hallway.
Your clothes were already laid out again. Pressed and folded across the back of the couch. The same place as last time.
A blouse in cream and cinnamon tones. High-waisted slacks. The matching heels you'd only worn once, but that he’d polished clean anyway. Everything laid out with such care it made your chest ache. He didn’t miss a detail. He never did.
Even your hair products, combs, oils, moisturizers, pins, were already set neatly beside a warm towel on the kitchen counter. Like he’d anticipated the exact order you’d reach for them, the sequence of your morning carved into his mind.
You stepped in, still rubbing the sleep from your eyes, and found him whistling. Low and unhurried, some old tune you couldn’t place. He stood at the stove, stirring something in a small pan, shirt sleeves rolled to the elbow. There was a quiet light to him this morning.
His hair was combed back, not slicked, but neat. The buttons on his shirt done all the way up, save for the top two, leaving his throat bare. His slacks were creased to perfection, and the leather belt cinched around his waist gleamed like he’d buffed it just for the occasion.
He looked over his shoulder at you, and his face lit up like it always did. Like you were the very thing he’d been hoping would walk through that doorway.
Because you were.
“Evenin',” he said with a smile, voice rough but still sweet.
You raised a brow. “It’s morning.”
His smile widened, almost sheepish. “Don’t feel like it.”
You moved closer, the floor cool beneath your bare feet, and leaned your hip against the counter beside him.
“You been up long?” you asked.
He shrugged, eyes flicking back to the pan. “Long enough. Wanted to make sure everything was just right.”
He handed you a steaming mug of tea without being asked. Your favorite, of course. Just the right amount of honey, just the way you liked it.
“You nervous?” he asked softly, not looking at you.
You didn’t answer right away.
Instead, you watched him. The set of his jaw. The way his fingers flexed slightly on the wooden spoon. His body was still, but the tension was there. It always was. Like the storm never fully left his bones.
“Not really,” you said. “Not yet.”
He nodded. Then turned toward you fully, wiping his hands on a towel tucked into the waistband of his slacks. He studied you, head tilted slightly, eyes trailing over your face with that same intent scrutiny you were starting to get used to.
You didn’t flinch from it anymore.
“C’mere,” he said gently, holding out a hand.
You hesitated. Only for a second.
Then reached forward.
His fingers wrapped around yours, warm and careful, and he tugged you closer. Slow, but certain.
“I had a dream about you,” he said softly.
“You were wearin’ that same look. All bright-eyed and sharpened up. Like you’d walked straight out of some storybook meant to ruin someone,”
He laughed, soft and half-embarrassed, but didn’t look away.
“You make it hard for a man to think straight, y’know that?”
You didn’t respond right away. You just let the words settle, warm and slow in the hollow of your throat. Something in the way he said those words made your stomach twist. Made your breath stick somewhere deep in your ribs. It didn’t feel like the usual flattery. Not cheap. Not performative. Not the kind of thing you’d heard a dozen times back home or whispered at castings with a sleazy grin.
This was different. Lower. Honest. Like it surprised even him.
And maybe it did.
Because as soon as he said it, he seemed to catch himself. Barely. His throat moved with the effort of swallowing it down. His eyes dropped, and he took a small step back, as if distance might fix whatever he’d let slip between you.
“Go wash up,” he said, voice quieter now. “I’ll get breakfast finished.”
You didn’t argue. Just nodded once and moved toward the bathroom, heartbeat louder than your footsteps.
By the time you stepped out again, hair wrapped in a towel and skin still warm from the steam, the apartment smelled faintly of sage and something sweet. Peaches, maybe. Or brown sugar. You couldn’t tell. Just that it was soft. Comforting.
The living room had a golden hue now, touched by early light filtered through overcast skies. Everything looked gentler, as if the whole city had been wrapped in gauze.
Remmick wasn’t at the stove anymore. The burner was off, the kettle still hot beside it.
He stood at the window instead, one hand resting on the sill, the other pulling the curtain back just a fraction. Not enough to see out fully. Just enough to check.
When he turned back around and saw you, whatever he’d been worrying about fell clean out of his face.
His eyes widened slightly. Jaw slackened. His whole posture shifted, like the breath had been pulled straight out of him.
“God damn,” he whispered, nearly under his breath. “Look at you.”
You didn’t need a mirror to know what he was seeing. The high-waisted pants he’d picked out the night before, fitted just right to your waist. The blouse with its delicate neckline and little pearl buttons, catching faint light. Your curls still damp but styled soft and neat. Face clean. Mostly bare, but radiant.
You let yourself smile. Just a little. “You picked the outfit.”
He didn’t deny it.
Didn’t nod, either.
Just walked toward you, slow and careful, like approaching something sacred. His boots barely made a sound on the old wood floor.
“Still,” he purred, reaching out to brush something, nothing, really, from your sleeve. His fingers lingered a little longer than needed. “You wear it better than I dreamed.”
He fussed over you the entire time. Fixing buttons. Adjusting seams. His fingers lingered where they shouldn’t have. On your hip, on your collarbone, but always under the guise of perfection.
“You’re gonna hate the cabs in this city,” he chuckled, smoothing a wrinkle from your skirt. “Good thing we’re not takin’ one.”
You raised a brow, though you weren't at all surprised. “We’re not?”
He looked up, pleased with himself in that quiet way. “Got a car waitin’. Somethin’ a little easier on the nerves. And the shoes.”
You laughed. “You got us another driver?”
“I got you a driver,” he corrected gently, brushing something invisible from your sleeve. “I just happen to be taggin’ along.”
His words tried to sound offhand, but his hands kept pausing. Kept hovering like they couldn’t quite bring themselves to let go.
The last touch lingered too long on your lower back.
“If it comes down to it,” he added lowly, “I’ll carry you myself.”
You smiled at the joke, but when you met his eyes, it wasn’t a joke at all.
He meant it.
And for a second, the air in the room felt heavier. Pressed in close. Charged.
You cleared your throat. “We better go.”
He nodded once, like it snapped him out of whatever spell he’d drifted into.
But just before you reached the door, he caught your hand. Gently. Held it between both of his, the edges of his fingers slightly trembling.
“Today ain’t just a shoot,” he said, voice steady, low. “It’s your beginnin’. Your real one. So when they look at you, don’t flinch. Don’t fold. Let ‘em see what I see.”
“And what’s that?” you asked softly.
He didn’t smile.
“Perfection.”
The car rolled to a stop outside a tall brick building tucked deep into SoHo, the kind with no sign on the front and a buzzer system you had to know how to work to get inside. From the curb, it didn’t look like much. A delivery van was parked at the corner. Two men with light meters and cases of film were hunched over a dolly at the service entrance. But inside was something different.
The photographer’s studio took up the entire top floor. High ceilings, polished concrete floors, wall-to-wall windows dressed in gauzy white fabric that filtered in the pale morning light like milk through cheesecloth. You stepped in and immediately noticed the quiet chill in the air, too sterile to feel artistic. Not cold exactly. Just... clinical.
The space had clearly been prepared. No one had cut corners. A fresh bouquet of lilies and peonies sat in a vase by the makeup station. Garment racks overflowed with gowns in every imaginable shade, some still tagged, some borrowed from designers who only lent to the best. Studio assistants buzzed around with clipboards and cups of coffee, walking fast but talking softly. Respectfully. Not to you, but to him.
Remmick.
He stood just behind your shoulder, as he always did, not saying much but radiating authority in a way that made people clear a path. There was no need for volume, no need for presence to be announced. His silence had weight. The kind that made a room shift without realizing it.
You saw it in the way spines straightened when he stepped close, the way assistants lowered their voices mid-sentence, as if whatever they were discussing might offend him by accident. He didn’t bark orders. He didn’t need to. His gaze alone, steady, unreadable, somehow both patient and predatory, did most of the work.
Every time someone turned, they looked at him first. Their questions never quite made it to your lips. The makeup artist. The stylist. Even the photographer, who was trying too hard to act like he didn’t notice. His eyes flicked to Remmick’s figure once, twice, like he was trying to place him. Like he didn’t understand why he felt nervous.
You’d started noticing it more often. How his presence rearranged a room. How the tone changed, the pace shifted. Like the energy bent around him before anyone knew it was happening.
The photographer, a trim white man in his late thirties with thin lips and thick-framed glasses, finally stepped forward. His pants were pressed too stiff. His cologne smelled sharp and expensive, but didn't mask the sweat already building beneath his collar. He gave you a quick glance. Nothing warm. Nothing memorable. Just a skim of the eyes like you were a fabric sample. He didn’t offer a name.
Instead, he turned his head, nose wrinkling ever so slightly, and addressed the stylist behind him.
“She’s darker than I expected,” he said, not bothering to lower his voice. Not even a whisper of shame. “We’ll need to be careful with lighting. That undertone catches weird on film.”
You felt Remmick stiffen behind you. So subtly you might’ve missed it if you hadn’t been so attuned to the way he breathed.
There was a silence, sudden and sharp, like someone had shut a drawer too hard.
But he didn’t speak.
Not yet.
You didn’t need to turn to know his hands were probably flexing at his sides, slow and deliberate. His restraint wasn’t the brittle kind. It was the kind that bided time. Waited for the perfect opening.
You kept your face smooth. Not blank, not soft, just controlled. Every inch of you brimming with dignity he clearly hadn’t expected. You caught one of the assistants glancing up from her clipboard, eyes wide and flicking from the photographer to you with something like alarm. Her jaw tensed, but she said nothing.
No one corrected him.
No one said a word.
But you simply walked past anyway, toward the makeup chair, head held high.
The chair sat beneath a ring of lights, too white and too bright. You sank into it with practiced grace, smoothing your robe over your thighs as a stylist bustled over, her nervous smile stretched too wide.
“Hey, sweetie,” she chirped. “Let’s get you glammed up, yeah?”
Her hands were quick, efficient. She swatched shades across your jawline with a speed that spoke more to panic than precision. None of them matched. Too yellow. Too gray. Too red. You didn’t say anything. Just watched as she fumbled, her fingers trembling slightly as she reached for another palette.
“Your undertone’s so unique,” she muttered. “Really gotta find that balance... can’t let the camera flatten it...”
You knew what she meant.
And what she didn’t say.
Remmick hadn’t moved from the edge of the room. He leaned against a column, arms crossed, eyes locked on the back of your head through the mirror. Not breathing heavy. Not shifting. Just watching.
Guarding.
The stylist was careful with your hair, at least. Didn't try to fight it. Just lifted and pinned and fluffed with dutiful fingers, whispering tiny praises under her breath like she was scared of doing too much. She was trying, you gave her that. Whether it was guilt or fear or something closer to decency, you didn’t care. So long as she kept her hands gentle and her thoughts to herself.
“Camera loves your cheekbones,” she said, and that part sounded honest.
When you were done, you stood slowly, caught your own reflection in the mirror.
You looked like yourself.
Yourself, but sharpened. Framed in gold and plum. Lips glossed, lashes full, jaw set just right.
Behind you, Remmick shifted. You saw him in the glass, his eyes not on the outfit, not on the hair.
On you.
Always on you.
You didn’t smile. Not yet. But something eased in your chest.
The first few rounds of photos went smoothly enough. You moved between backdrops in different gowns. Deep purples, yellows, something champagne-colored with a sheer overlay that caught the light like water. The fabric floated when you walked, whispering against your legs, pooling at your ankles in gentle, liquid waves.
You didn’t pose so much as exist the way Remmick had taught you: shoulders open, chin tilted with certainty, mouth soft but deliberate. Posture like armor. Expression like invitation. You didn’t chase the camera. You let it come to you. Let it find the angles it wanted, as if it had no choice but to follow the pull of your gravity.
The flashbulbs burst in rhythmic intervals, bright and brief, filling the space with the scent of heat and ozone. Stylists moved around you in a silent, efficient orbit. Patting down your skirt hem, adjusting the hang of your sleeve, brushing an invisible strand of hair from your brow. But it was the photographer who kept lagging behind. You could feel it in the pauses. In the hesitations. In the way he kept glancing toward Remmick like a man who had questions he didn’t know how to ask.
He didn’t know how to handle it.
“Give me something more demure,” he called at one point, standing behind the camera with a squint and a frown. “Less... confrontational. Softer eyes.”
Your brows lifted. Not high. Just enough. And just for a moment, you let your tongue slip.
“I’m looking into a lens.”
“Well, yes,” he said, chuckling like he thought that’d smooth things over. “But it’s just... try to be less direct. You’re a feature, not the focus.”
You didn't say anything back.
Your mouth didn't even twitch.
But Remmick did.
“She’s exactly the focus,” he said, stepping forward from the edge of the lights, voice low and firm and without a speck of humor. “That’s what centerfold means.”
The room went still again.
Even the stylist’s hands froze mid-pin near your waist. The assistant by the reflector stiffened, eyes darting between the two men.
The photographer adjusted a light. His fingers weren’t as steady as before.
“I meant it compositionally,” he said, clearing his throat, not quite meeting Remmick’s eye.
“No, you didn’t.”
Remmick said it without blinking.
His tone hadn’t changed. Calm. Crisp. But the weight behind it was enough to press the silence flat between every heartbeat in the room.
And for a moment, the only thing that moved was the slow flicker of the overhead bulb as it warmed.
The photographer looked down, fiddled with his light meter, and muttered something about “another angle.”
Eventually, the shoot resumed.
You didn’t flinch. You didn’t fold.
But you caught the way Remmick stayed closer now. Just outside the frame. Arms still crossed. Watching the photographer like a man making mental measurements. Every time the camera clicked, his eyes weren’t on the flash, but on the hands that adjusted it. On the words that came next. On every breath, every shift in tone, like he was deciding whether or not to let this man finish his job.
As the final shots were taken, dramatic lighting, a sheer backdrop, your hair full and proud against the white, he moved beside the stylist and spoke low, voice barely above a hum.
“She’s done after this one,” he said. “I’ll be handling approvals.”
The stylist didn’t argue. Just nodded, lips pressed together, hands folding neatly at her waist.
You were back in your clothes ten minutes later, the silk blouse clinging a little from the heat still radiating off your skin. The dressing room felt more cramped than it did before, the air heavy with setting spray and leftover perfume. Your throat was dry. One of the assistants handed you a paper cup with a straw, and you accepted it without a word, sipping slow, letting the cool water settle the heat in your chest.
Someone knelt beside you, working at the straps of the heels. Your feet ached, throbbing faintly from hours of posing. Never quite standing, never quite walking, just holding beauty in place.
Remmick was waiting by the door.
He hadn’t moved the entire time. Coat over his arm, one hand resting lightly against the wall as if to anchor himself. His body didn’t sway. Didn’t fidget. But his jaw ticked every few seconds, like he was grinding something silent between his teeth.
When you joined him, blouse tucked, shoulders square, he didn’t say anything right away. He just looked at you.
Looked long.
“You were perfect,” he hummed, voice barely above a hush.
“But?”
“But nothing,” he said, tone rough at the edges. “You were perfect.”
He opened the door with his free hand, held it until you passed through, his touch naturally settling the small of your back.
He didn’t comment on the photographer again.
He didn’t have to.
You saw it in the way he walked beside you. Shoulders set too tight, gait too rigid for someone supposedly at ease. His jaw was still clenched, the muscle there twitching with the rhythm of his steps. His fingers flexed every now and then, as if rehearsing something they’d wanted to do but hadn’t been given permission to.
And when you stepped into the elevator, he stood still. Hands folded in front of him. The red shimmer pulsed once, subtle and slow. You reached out, gently brushing the tips of your fingers against his wrist.
He didn’t speak.
Didn’t flinch.
Just looked at you, like you were the only thing keeping him tethered to the floor.
You weren’t sure what he would’ve done if you hadn’t been there to stop him.
But you were.
And he let you lead this time.
Just this once.
It had been a week since the shoot. Seven full days since your skin was powdered and styled, since camera bulbs flashed like lightning, and since Remmick’s hand hovered behind your back like a second spine. Steadier than any wall, quieter than any breath, always there.
And now, a week later, the magazines were out.
The sun hadn’t even gone down when you heard the lock click. You were barefoot in the living room, tea cooling untouched on the windowsill, your thumb slowly dragging across the same corner of the same page in a book you hadn’t really touched since morning. You weren’t reading. Just looking. Letting the quiet stretch long around you.
The soft hum of traffic rose from below, dulled behind brick and double glass. Somewhere across the alley, a radio crackled faintly from an open window. But inside, the air was hushed and warm, filled with the scent of sweet almond and black vanilla. Something Remmick had lit before he left, soft and curling in the corners of the apartment like memory. A clean smell. Luxurious in its calm.
You turned your head at the sound of the door creaking open.
Remmick stepped in, arms full. No coat, he hadn’t worn one in days now, but his favorite fitted blazer was slung on his shoulders. Brown and a little rumpled like he’d worn it too long. His sleeves were pushed to the elbows, forearms exposed, the collar open at his throat. His skin looked flushed, not from heat, but from effort. From thrill.
And in his hands?
Magazines.
Stacks and stacks of them.
Glamour. Thick, glossy. Dozens, no, maybe hundreds of copies, some with their spines still crisp, others already peeled open, like he couldn’t resist peeking before bringing them home. He kicked the door shut behind him with the heel of his shoe and dropped the load on the coffee table in a huff of breath and triumph.
You blinked at the pile.
Then looked up at him.
Then back down.
“…Remmick.”
He beamed at you.
Actually beamed.
And for just a second, just long enough to make your stomach flip, you saw them.
Fangs.
Not teeth. Not canines. Fangs.
They hadn’t fully retracted. The points glinted faintly behind his bottom lip, his mouth too wide with joy to contain them, like he’d forgotten what he was supposed to hide.
He didn’t notice. Not yet. Just stood there, catching his breath, eyes glowing faint and sweet in the lamplight like he'd returned from battle with spoils no one could take from him.
And you, watching from the couch, weren’t sure what took your breath first. His smile, or the fact that it wasn’t quite human.
“Every shop had a limit,” he said breathlessly, already tugging the first magazine open. “Three per customer, some of ’em said. Five, if I smiled real nice.”
You raised a brow.
He licked his thumb, flipped a page. “So I went to every damn shop in Manhattan.”
And he meant it. His shirt was damp at the collar, sleeves wrinkled at the elbows. A thin line of sweat traced his temple like he’d run half the way home. You could practically see the city on him. Subway grit on his cuffs, the faint scent of cold air and ink clinging to the folds of his blazer. He looked like a man who’d carried your name through the streets like it was gospel.
Then he found the spread.
Your spread.
Dead center in the glossy pages, your face filled the left half. Your body, the way they’d posed you, half reclined, your mouth parted like you’d just finished saying something worth listening to, took up the right. Above it, the title gleamed in embossed gold:
A Southern Star on the Rise
He whistled low. “Would you look at that.”
He turned the magazine toward you like you hadn’t already lived it. Like you hadn’t memorized every contour, every careful arch of your brows, every piece of your expression caught in that still moment of light.
But he held it like it was sacred. Like scripture. Like he was revealing something you hadn’t quite grasped yet.
“Damn,” he muttered, opening another copy. “Print didn’t dull you a bit. Thought maybe it would. Thought maybe it’d catch you wrong. But no. You shine right through.”
He pulled open another magazine. Then another.
In seconds, your entire coffee table disappeared under layers of your own image. Identical pages laid side by side, all turned to the centerfold. There you were, over and over again. Still. Composed. Glowing.
Like a constellation laid across the living room. Like stars, just rearranged.
Remmick crouched beside the table, smoothing one copy flat with the care of someone laying down silk. He didn’t blink, just studied the page like it was breathing, alive. Like he was waiting for it to reach back.
Then he rose to full height, tucked a copy under his arm, and walked over to you. Still barefoot. Still silent.
Still watching.
And you, frozen on the couch, felt your throat tighten with something you hadn’t named yet.
“You seen yourself in these?” he asked, voice quiet and smooth. Like the question itself was fragile.
You nodded once.
He grinned and leaned in to kiss your cheek. Just a brush of lips. But slow. Like it meant something. Like it had waited all day to land there, and now that it had, the world could keep spinning again.
Then he reached for your chin. Callused fingers gentle as they tipped your face up, thumb brushing just beneath your jaw.
“I want you to say it,” he demanded, though so gently you could've mistaken it for a polite question.
You blinked. “Say what?”
He didn’t answer. Just looked at you. Really looked. His pupils were blown wide, red bleeding through the blue, burning steady in the low light of your living room.
Not glowing out of hunger.
Not now.
Out of pride. Out of something heavier. Older.
He waited.
So you said it.
Soft at first. A breath, barely formed.
“I’m a fuckin’ star.”
His smile widened. Slow, hungry, like it’d been waiting just beneath the surface.
So you said it again.
Louder this time.
“I’m a fuckin’ star!”
And this time, he didn’t stop at your cheek.
He kissed the corner of your mouth. Gentle. Noncommittal. A press of gratitude, of awe. Like you’d just named something holy.
Then he straightened, tapped your shoulder once with two fingers like sealing a blessing, and turned back toward the coffee table. Toward the sea of open pages like he couldn’t stand to look at just one.
He crouched again. Fingers drifting over the print, barely touching the paper. Just enough to feel the ink. Just enough to make sure it was real.
Behind him, you stared down at your own face. Again, and again, and again, until the whole room felt covered in you. Until your name echoed back at you from every glossy surface.
It was too much.
It wasn’t enough.
You reached for one of the magazines and ran your hand over the fold. The version of yourself staring back was powerful. Beautiful. Alive. You looked like a woman who knew exactly who she was.
The only thing stronger than the pride warming your chest was the look in his eyes every time he flipped a page.
He thumbed through another copy, quieter now. As if just the sound of turning paper was too loud. Then, almost absentmindedly, like the thought had just resurfaced between page turns, he said it:
“Oh, Vogue called.”
Your head snapped up.
He didn’t look at you right away. Just kept flipping, smoothing down a crease on one of the centerfolds.
“Said they had an opening next month. I booked it. Thursday, ten.”
You blinked.
“Vogue.”
“Yeah.” His voice was soft, distracted. Eyes still on the magazine in front of him. “Figured it was a good fit. Didn’t wanna wait.”
“You... booked a Vogue shoot?”
He finally looked up then, eyes wide and sincere, brows pinched like he was only just realizing something might be unusual.
“I mean… yeah. I told you, didn’t I?”
You stared at him.
He stared at your photo.
And then you laughed. Soft, incredulous, stunned.
Because of course he had.
Of course Vogue had called Remmick.
Of course they had seen the piece and knew exactly what they were looking at.
He hadn’t had to knock on their door, hadn’t begged or bargained. They came to him.
Because when they saw you, they didn’t see a gamble. They didn’t see a request.
They saw inevitability.
And Remmick?
He treated it like the most obvious thing in the world.
“You,” you said, smiling now, “are insane.”
He blinked once. Then gave a faint shrug, turning back to the magazine.
“Maybe,” he murmured. “But I’m not wrong.”
And when he looked at you again, spread out across a dozen pages, glowing under lamplight, you could see the truth settle in his expression.
He wasn’t just proud.
He was certain.
You were everything he said you were.
And now, the world was catching up.
You woke to the scent of freshly peeled citrus and the low sound of Remmick humming. The windows were still closed, the curtains drawn against a morning sky that hadn’t quite made up its mind. The apartment smelled sharper than usual. Grapefruit, maybe. Lemongrass. Something he knew cleared your head. You were still blinking the sleep from your eyes when his silhouette appeared in the doorway.
“Up,” he said gently. “Got somethin’ to tell you.”
You sat up slowly. “What time is it?”
“Little after six. But don’t panic,” he added, smile curling at the corners. “You’ve got hours.”
You raised a brow. “Remmick... what?”
He walked in, holding your outfit already pressed and draped across one arm. Light blue silk. Crisp ivory slacks. A bold, gold-buttoned jacket you didn’t recognize.
He held them out. “We’re goin’ to Vogue.”
You blinked. “I know. You said the shoot was today.”
He hesitated. Then, sheepishly, almost boyish, he added, “Right. But, uh… I didn’t tell you everything.”
You stared at him.
He cleared his throat. “It’s the cover. They want you on the cover.”
Your mouth went dry.
He took a step back. Just one. Holding the clothes like a peace offering. “Figured if I told you earlier, you’d start worryin’. Fret about posture. Or pores. Or your walk. Or-”
“Remmick.”
He looked at you then. Earnest. Glowing.
You pressed your palm against your chest, trying to slow the way your heart was kicking against your ribs.
“The cover?” you whispered.
“Front page. Full feature.”
It should’ve floored you. Maybe it still would. But right now, all you could do was nod and let him help you out of bed.
He guided you through the morning like a man who’d rehearsed it a hundred times. Hands careful, patient. Shirt laid out before you needed it. Jewelry untangled before you even glanced at the box. He pressed a warm cloth to your face, careful not to disturb the curl of your hair, freshly done the night before.
“You’re gonna knock ‘em dead,” he said, and you knew he believed every single word.
And then, quieter, almost to himself: “And I’ll be right there to see it.”
The car was waiting downstairs. Sleek and black and already running, the driver greeting Remmick with a nod and holding the door open for you like he’d been coached. Your nerves didn’t settle, not even on the drive. But Remmick’s hand rested gently against your knee the entire way. Grounding. Warm.
The studio was quiet when you arrived. Museum quiet, gallery quiet. The kind of stillness that felt curated, intentional, like someone had taken great care to make the space feel more like a cathedral than a workplace. The polished concrete floors were cool under your heels, spotless and reflecting faint outlines of the high arched windows that lined the walls. Exposed brick, original to the building, gave the room a sense of old, lived-in charm, and soft white curtains billowed ever so slightly from vents high above. The air was heavy with the scent of lavender, linen, and something powdery-sweet.
You moved through the entrance with Remmick just behind you, his hand barely grazing the small of your back. Never guiding, just anchoring. He didn’t speak, didn’t announce himself. He didn’t need to. His presence always did the talking.
The photographer met you before you’d taken more than three steps inside. “Étienne,” he said, with a faint bow of the head. His accent was French, thick and rounded at the edges, the syllables slipping from his mouth like warm sugar. His hair was silver at the temples, his blazer draped and elegant, and his handshake was firm but not aggressive. Warm, like he’d waited a long time to meet you.
“It is my absolute pleasure, mademoiselle,” he said. “I’ve admired your spread in Glamour. You moved with the camera. Not many know how to do that.”
He didn’t say your skin glowed.
Didn’t ask about your hair.
Didn’t say anything about being “surprised” by your presence.
He just met your eyes, quiet and open. Like you were someone worth listening to.
“Today,” he said, “you belong to the camera. Let’s make her fall in love.”
You let yourself breathe, just a little.
The rest of the team introduced themselves in a calm rhythm, one by one. No rushed hands. No clipped instructions. A stylist with a soft Brooklyn accent asked gently before adjusting your collarbone. A makeup artist barely older than you murmured a few compliments while swatching shades along your jaw. Matched your undertones on the first go. No hesitation. No apologies.
Your hair wasn’t “a challenge.” It wasn’t “big.” It was just yours. One woman, sharp-eyed and efficient, studied the fullness of your curls for a beat, then nodded once and said, “Let’s let it speak today.” No flattening. No translation.
You didn’t feel tolerated.
You felt expected.
Appreciated.
The way the room moved around you was not with caution, but with respect. Like your place had already been made, and they were just moving to match it.
And Remmick, he didn’t hover today.
He didn’t pace. Didn’t step in or offer unnecessary notes. He took a chair near the edge of the set, legs crossed, hands loosely clasped over one knee. His coat lay neatly across the back of the chair, and he looked like he was simply waiting for a performance he’d already seen, waiting to watch it unfold in the flesh.
He watched you the way a man watched a storm rolling in. Calm. Certain. Unwavering.
His eyes tracked your every step.
And when the camera clicked, when Étienne raised the lens and tilted his head just so, it began.
Soft commands, never harsh.
“Lift your chin just a touch, oui. That’s perfect.”
“Let the shoulder dip, like you’re sighing.”
“Not a smile. Just the idea of one.”
And you you didn’t pose. You existed. You did what Remmick had drilled into you for weeks: you let the room adjust to you. Shoulders drawn back, chin at just the right angle, spine fluid. You didn’t chase the lens. You let it orbit you.
Each frame caught something new: your strength, your softness, your refusal to shrink.
Backdrops shifted behind you. One faded into the next. Cool eggshell white to a moody, smoky grey. Then to a blush-rose curtain lit from behind to mimic early sunrise, and finally to a gold-toned gradient that bathed your skin in warmth, turning every line of your body into a celebration. Your hands, your mouth, the arch of your back. You weren’t just in the photo.
You were the photo.
At one point, as you adjusted in the sheer champagne gown, the stylist stepped close to smooth a wrinkle on your shoulder. She paused, tilted her head, then muttered under her breath, “I swear, you don’t have a bad angle.”
Remmick smiled at that.
Didn’t say anything.
But you saw his fingers twitch against his knee.
And when Étienne pulled the camera down after the final shot, when the room held its breath and the lights warmed one final time, he exhaled slow, his voice dropping.
“Mon dieu,” he said. “You are going to be the beginning of a new era.”
There weren’t cheers. No grand applause. Just a quiet stillness that settled over the room like snowfall.
The stylists nodded. One of the assistants wiped her eyes.
Your name passed around the room in whispers.
Back in your own clothes again, the familiar weight of your own scent folded into the fabric, you stood in front of the mirror, unsure what exactly had changed.
Something had.
You could still feel the echo of the lights on your skin, the soft heat of the set, the way Étienne had whispered magnifique under his breath more than once without knowing you heard him. The clothes they’d dressed you in had been draped and pinned and sculpted to fit your body like a second skin, but now that they were gone, what lingered wasn’t fabric.
It was power.
You weren’t wearing a magazine dress anymore.
But you still felt like a cover.
You gathered your things slowly. Slipped on your shoes one at a time. Tucked the lipstick you'd needlessly brought. Gave the studio one last glance over your shoulder, just to make sure it had all been real. That the lights weren’t a trick, that the hush in the room wasn’t some illusion of grandeur.
And then you saw him.
Remmick.
Standing at the edge of the studio floor, right where the light faded into shadow. His coat was folded neatly over one arm, the other hanging at his side, still and sure. He didn’t lean against the wall. Didn’t shift his weight. He just stood there like he’d been waiting for this exact moment, this exact you, to turn and meet his eyes.
And when you did?
He didn’t speak.
Didn’t grin. Didn’t offer some teasing remark or coy turn of phrase.
He just looked at you.
Like he couldn’t believe it.
Or maybe he could.
Like he’d known it all along but still wasn’t prepared for the truth of it staring back at him now, standing in her own skin, quiet and luminous and ready.
He extended his hand.
Not rushed. Not hesitant.
Like a gentleman.
Like a vow.
You stepped forward, each footfall soft against the studio floor, and reached out to take it.
His palm was warm. Slightly callused, as always. Big enough to hold you steady.
And when he leaned in close, closer than necessary, just so his breath could touch your ear, his voice dropped so low it barely cleared the air.
“They’re never gonna forget this.”
A beat passed. Two.
Neither did you.
Not the way the stylist said your name like it mattered. Not the way Étienne had bowed when the shoot wrapped, saying Merci, étoile. Not the way your hands hadn’t shaken once. Not the way Remmick’s thumb had grazed your knuckles on the way out, subtle and steady.
The door clicked shut behind you.
And the city welcomed its newest star.
You should’ve known not to get your hopes up.
Remmick had warned you once before. To not believe in the win until the ink dries and the check clears. And still, the moment the phone rang, you felt the breath catch in your chest like something was finally about to settle right.
It was early, too early, and the tea in your hand hadn’t even cooled yet. Steam curled in the morning light, soft and golden through the windows.
You heard him answer it in the kitchen. Not loud, not sharp. Just steady.
“Remmick.”
His voice, smooth. Polished. Still cold from sleep, but clipped with that quick professionalism he always wore when someone else was listening.
There was a pause. Long enough to tighten something at the base of your neck.
“…Come again?”
That was the first red flag.
You stood. Not rushed, not loud. Just enough to hear better. Half-expecting him to wave you off with a flick of his fingers, that little sideways smile he gave when things were under control.
But he didn’t.
He turned his back instead. Shoulders hunched slightly. Quiet. Like he didn’t want you to hear what was coming next.
He rubbed the back of his neck once, then pressed his thumb into the edge of the counter like he needed the grounding. His knuckles whitened around the phone cord, twisting it once, twice, tighter.
“Yes,” he said carefully, “I’m familiar with your lead editor.”
Another pause.
Then something darker entered his tone.
“Yes. The one with the impeccable eye for trend pieces.”
Your stomach dropped.
There was silence on his end. Long. Tense.
And then:
“They what?”
His voice didn’t rise. Not yet.
But it changed. Dropped lower. Flat and cold like steel before it’s drawn.
You stepped closer, quiet as breath, barefoot against the hardwood. Leaned just enough to see the side of his face. The angle of his jaw, sharp and flexed. The twitch at the corner of his mouth.
“They’ve already had their one for the year?” he repeated.
Low. Disbelieving. Dangerous.
His free hand came up, rubbing slow at his temple like he needed to press the words back out of his skull.
“Who’s they?” he asked, quieter now, but you felt the weight of it in your chest. “Go on. Say it clear.”
There was no response.
Just static. A voice on the other end fumbling for footing.
Remmick’s brows drew together.
“No, I’m not upset with you,” he said, voice thinning again into something cool and even. “I understand you’re just passing the message along.”
He closed his eyes a moment. You could see him working to keep it in. Like something old and sharp was waking in his blood, trying to claw its way out of his chest.
“I’d like to speak with the editor directly,” he said, softer now. “Yes. I’ll hold.”
And then his hand dropped to the counter. Fingers drumming.
Waiting. Ready.
The line clicked.
Then his jaw twitched.
“Good morning,” he said. Different now. Calmer, colder. Stripped of the courtesy he kept like a glove around secret hands. “Didn’t expect to catch you so early.”
You still couldn’t hear the voice on the other end. Not a single word. But you didn’t have to.
You could see everything you needed in him.
The stillness of his posture, the death grip he had on the base of the phone, the fine tremble running through the muscle of his forearm beneath that rolled-up cotton sleeve. It wasn’t the kind of rage that burst outward. It was the kind that boiled, thick and patient, one degree at a time.
“Yes,” he said, so polite it sounded rehearsed. “I was just speaking with your assistant.”
He closed his eyes a moment. Not a blink, but something longer. As if he needed to press the lids down tight to keep from rolling them.
“She told me they, meaning you, have reconsidered the cover.”
The pause that followed was electric. Tense.
Then, low and even:
“Right. Of course. Marketable. That’s the word you’re going with?”
He said it like the word itself offended him. Like it was dirty in his mouth. Too small for what he knew you were worth.
You moved forward without thinking. Just enough to lean your shoulder against the hallway wall. Careful. Watchful. Your arms folded tightly across your chest, heart beating fast and slow at once. He hadn’t seen you yet.
And you weren’t sure he was aware of anything anymore beyond that call.
“I see,” he said softly.
That was the shift.
The sound of something sliding into place. Like a bolt locking. A fuse catching.
“So let me get this straight,” he continued. Slow. Measured. Precise in a way that made your skin prickle.
“Your board approved the shoot. Your casting team signed off. Your editor watched the proofs. Sat on them. And now, after all that, you want to scale her back to a feature because you already had your cover for the year.”
The quiet that followed wasn’t empty.
It was dense.
He didn’t yell.
He didn’t curse.
He didn’t raise his voice by an inch.
But every word landed like a coin dropped on concrete. Heavy. Sharp. Deliberate.
“You think this city’s gonna run out of covers?” he asked, the ghost of a laugh in his voice, but it wasn’t amusement. It was disbelief, slicked with venom. “Or is it just that you think she’s the kind of beauty you ration out, so you don’t have to explain yourselves twice?”
His free hand braced against the counter now, steadying himself.
“Was she too sharp? Too soft? Too dark?” he asked, the last word clipped so hard it cracked in the air.
You watched him as he stood there, completely still except for the way his shoulders were rising. Measured. Controlled.
But underneath that, underneath every inch of him, he was seething.
He wasn’t shouting.
But something inside him was.
And you knew it. Could feel it.
Remmick was holding onto composure with a thread, not because he didn’t want to break, but because he knew what would happen if he did. Because if he said what he really meant, what lived behind that voice, that mouth, those glowing eyes, he might set the whole building on fire.
And you hadn’t even heard the worst of it yet.
His voice didn’t rise at first.
It stayed low, clipped, deliberate. But the sharpness in it grew. Line by line. Word by word. Like something uncoiling inside him, slick with heat and venom.
“You listen to me,” he said, voice climbing with a force that prickled the air, “and listen real good, if you think for one goddamn second that this is a numbers game, a market play, a token, you’ve already lost the future.”
You flinched. Not because he was yelling at you. He wasn’t.
He was yelling for you.
“You want safe? Go print another profile on Gunilla Lindblad. You want forgettable? Put some washed-out French girl on the cover in a turtleneck. But if you want history, if you want impact, you don’t remove the only name worth remembering.”
He turned then. Saw you.
And his eyes didn’t soften. Not even a little.
“She’s the only thing your readers are gonna remember come fall,” he snapped, jaw set, nostrils flaring. “Not the blonde. Not the brunette. Not whatever recycled face you’re tryin’ to float next. Her.”
There was a sputter of protest from the line. You couldn’t hear what was said. Didn’t need to. You were watching Remmick’s knuckles flare white around the phone.
“No, I don’t care what the board says. I don’t care what the sponsor says. And I sure as hell don’t care what you think’ll sell. I know what sells. You’re lookin’ at the future and treating it like it’s a fuckin’ one-shot.”
His voice cracked with how tightly it hit the consonants. Near shouting now, not just raised. Commanding.
“You owe her the same shot you’d give any other girl in her place. And if the only reason you’re pulling her is because you already had your one,” he hissed the word like it was venom, “then you better grow a spine before I walk you into a lawsuit so loud it echoes into next year’s masthead.”
Silence on the other end.
Remmick didn’t wait.
“I want you at the brownstone tomorrow night. Seven o’clock. Alone.”
His next words were a knife dragged slow.
“We’ll talk in person.”
And then he hung up.
Didn’t slam the receiver. Just lowered it with a kind of deliberate grace, a calm that only made the burn beneath more terrifying. He stared at the cradle for a moment like he could crush it just by looking hard enough.
Then sat, slowly, at the dining table. Exhaled through his nose.
He didn’t look up at you right away.
Just stared at the wood grain beneath his fingers, the set of his jaw making it clear he was holding something in.
Then his hand rose.
Palm up.
You crossed the room without a word and slid your fingers into his.
He pulled you down gently, like you were breakable, into his lap. One arm curled low across your waist, the other resting across your thighs. His hands were steady, even though you could still feel the tension in the muscles of his forearms, coiled and waiting, like it hadn’t quite drained from him yet.
His cheek pressed to your shoulder, his breath warm against the side of your neck.
“You’re goin’ on that cover,” he said, low and final.
There was no fire behind it. No venom.
Just certainty.
Like he was telling you the weather. Like it was already written in the next day’s paper.
You turned slightly in his arms. His hands tightened to keep you balanced, to keep you close. “Remmick…”
“No,” he cut in, soft. “No more backpedalin’. No more maybe next times. We play their game, we lose. You hear me?”
You nodded. You didn’t trust your voice not to shake.
He looked up then. Met your gaze dead on. The light in the kitchen caught in his irises, a faint, simmering red just beneath the blue. Not bright. Not threatening. Just there. Alive.
“Which means,” he continued, more gently now, “you’re not gonna be here tomorrow night.”
That made you blink. “What?”
“I want you out the house. Just for a few hours. Somewhere comfortable. I’ll make sure your ride’s arranged. I don’t care if it’s the theatre or a restaurant. Hell, spend it with friends if you want.”
You didn’t have any of those yet.
He knew that.
Still, his tone didn’t waver.
“I just need the place. Need it quiet. I don’t want you hearin’ what might be said.”
His fingers grazed your wrist, his thumb brushing along your pulse. You leaned back, just slightly, the movement slow. Measured. Testing.
“What are you gonna say?”
His expression didn’t change. Not even a flicker. “Enough.”
That was all he gave you.
And somehow, it was enough.
He kissed your temple then. Just once.
The kiss wasn’t sweet.
It was solemn.
Like a promise.
Like a man setting something in motion.
And you, sitting in his lap with your arms around his shoulders and your pulse kicking hard against your ribs, believed him. Felt something shifting under your skin.
A current.
A warning.
You’d seen Remmick angry before. Seen the quiet tension in his jaw when someone spoke over you. The cold way he looked at men who looked too long. The clipped tone when a stylist suggested straightening your hair or brightening your skin.
But not like this.
Not cold. Not still.
This wasn’t bluster.
It was a verdict.
You pressed your forehead to his, and he closed his eyes like the touch settled something in him. His fingers slid slowly along the small of your back. He didn’t squeeze. Didn’t grip.
He just held.
Quiet and firm.
And somewhere, under all your nerves, you felt that same fire rise too.
