Sincerely, ha

Hillery. 19. Indonesia. is putting thoughts in words and videos. // hillandani (ig)

[sincerely-ha]

GRWM: Lazy, But Still Going Anyway

Eyelash Extension

I currently am using the eyelash extension that actually only cost IDR 150 and I think it is pretty good although I need to really careful overtime I wash my face.  Also everytime I putting on makeup that needs eyeliner on, phew! Y’all know it is hard to clean it with eyelash extension on. To the fact that it fallen after waking up in the morning, ugh, sad. I can tell that it only lasts for about a week - a month. But I love it, I am still looking for new professional and long-lasting and matched-budget eyelash extension since mine is already somehow broken(?).

Foundation Free Noticing in this video that I am currently not using any foundation nor concealer, and yup, das true! I am not using those kinds anymore for my daily makeup. And it has been almost two months. Lemme tell you why. There was this one time that I went on a camping exercise, and it was pretty hot back then but I did not think that I would be needing UV protection cream for whole my body and face. I did not care at all, I would just walk around feeling like it is okay, well it was okay till I feel like face is kind of hurt abit. I finally took my phone and took a look with its front camera and BAM! I got freaking sunburned. My feet was also burnt, I can totally see the line between the brighter side and the darker side since I wore a 7/8 length of legging. I could say that I was pretty stupid for not to care.

And then I decided to ask my friends right away through a instagram story on what to use when you got sunburned, they all told me to get any cream, any gel that contained aloevera in it. I was given a try an australian moisturizer with aloevera containment but when I looked for it in Indonesian online shop apps, like shopee and lazada. I could not freakin’ find it, so it is hard for me to purchase it if it matched my skin. But I finally tried the Banana Boat Aloevera Gel and it is actually good and suits my face and yes, my sunburnt face all gone after using it in a week. But actually I hate the smell, it is too chemical. But voila! my face has gotten back to normal, and it kind of shook me that it feels like I have gone through a face recovery. I was actually too insecure about my face, but after that I don’t like I need to cover it up with foundation anymore for daily makeup. Exception, if I got some blemishes I need to cover. BUT GURL! do not ever forget to prime, if not you will get much of breakouts instead.

- sincerely, ha

[extramadness]

[sincerely-ha]

I let myself drown into words I made in mind, but not ever been spoken.

- sincerely, ha

[sincerely-ha]

The will to change

That one day,

I found myself realized I am so stubborn. I have panic attacks. And yes, I took criticism kind of badly. I am also moody. 

I realized that I got some panic attacks when I was too panic about this one work I had to do that seemed to be a failure since it was postponed due to the wishy-washy confirmation of the dean in my college. I was in panic that I bought some light meals, I ate it so fast in anxious . My SO spontaneously told me I was too cliché, and I did not accept it, because in that point I felt like I need to be comforted, not to be told or criticized about. We got into a little fight.

Still on the same day, we argue, and I realized sometimes we just gotta be chill and I gotta be chill, and stop taking things to heart. I was always that kind of girl who loves to be spoiled. 

Up until now, I am that girl who is still stubborn for what she believes, and it is okay for some good reasons. Everybody appreciates your will to change for the good that’ll come.

This one person (SO) makes me believe that everyone deserves good changes, and there is no way that you cannot achieve the goal of change if you are trying your best to achieve it (except for some unexpected situation). Your actions make you. You make you, You change you. 

Just a simple action, like promising yourself to make your bed before you are going out of the room. A little change like that can lead you to a better personality that will make a better you, or I should say a ‘wiser you’. I love changes, it makes me believe that failure and disappointment are just temporary.

Do not fear changes, fear stagnancy.

- sincerely, ha

[maryjblige]

https://www.instagram.com/p/BGRVf15Pe4k/

[sincerely-ha]

WHAT MAKES THE SIGNS HAPPY

Aries: Challenges, taking risks, winning a bet, winning an argument, winning anything, competition, coming first in everything, excitement and adrenaline, being admired, being liked, having freedom to do whatever they like, feeling in control of their life, feeling like they have the world at their fingertips, spontaneity, adventure, an uncomplicated life.

Taurus: A peaceful life, relaxation, tranquility, time to think things over, reliability, stability, dependability, having someone they know they can trust, working with your hands, being hands-on, taking things slow, good music, comfort food, luxury, beautiful surroundings, all of the good things in life, being in love.

Gemini: Conversation, reading, writing, talking, being listened to, imagination, solving problems, playfulness, youthfulness, people with a sense of humor, being entertained, feeling curious, being told that you're interesting, being told that you're well-liked, variety, novelty, change, multi-tasking, light-heartedness, people who can have a good time.

Cancer: Being told that you are appreciated, being told that you are loved and cared for, nurturing and helping others, depending on people loyal to you, revisiting an old friend, your family reaching out for you, the past, nostalgia, reading about historical figures, feeling safe, staying home, having a private sanctuary, soft kisses, warm hugs.

Leo: Beauty, flattery, compliments, being the star of a show, receiving all the attention you'd like, extravagance, glamour, bright and bold colors, giving advice, playing the hero/heroine, protecting loved ones, loyalty, flirting and romance, being the best possible, having the best possible.

Virgo: Being acknowledged as intelligent, being told that you are helpful, having someone notice things that seem effortless but really aren't, self-improvement, positive mantras, the concept of perfection, down-to-earth people, clean sheets, fresh scents, good books, deep thinking, the feeling of being understood, someone acknowledging your effort and hard work.

Libra: Smoothing things over, living a laid-back life, avoiding drama, harmony between everyone, peace and quiet, relationships, romantic movies, being in love, playing the devil's advocate, picking arguments for fun, honesty, gentleness, kindness, beauty, the finer things in life, large parties, being respected instead of underestimated.

Scorpio: Having someone that you can trust, having someone that you can tell all your secrets to, loyalty, devotion, sarcasm, discovering hidden things, late nights out, figuring out how other people work, psychology, kindness, softness, challenges, one-upmanship, being right, truthfulness, personal privacy, faithfulness.

Sagittarius: Exploring, going on an adventure, unplanned events, spontaneous joy, seeing the bigger picture, a philosophical point of view, travel, people who like to laugh, friendliness, fun and energy, easy-going people, having big dreams, forgiveness, honesty, being direct and to the point.

Capricorn: Being respected, having status, being an authority, being known as the mature one, being known as the reliable one, being in control of your life, solid relationships, organization, having ambition, personal space, persistence, constantly improving yourself, having independence, holding responsibility.

Aquarius: Individuality, being recognized as unique, being recognized as special, being one of a kind, living life only to your own standards, being unconventional, listening to others, thoughtful people, having deep conversations, new ideas, new concepts, new trends, spending time alone, dreaming about changing the world.

Pisces: Imagination, things that inspire them- art, cinema, literature, history, music, dreaming about being someone larger than life, solitude, having time alone to think, empathy, compassion, people who understand them without further explanation, people who can read between the lines, creativity, having no rules, having no restrictions, living a life where they have no boundaries.

[sincerely-ha]

#belatedpost

Since it has reached half of year 2017, I watched myself grow with new ways of view to life. Then I feel like it is already time for me to think of what I would like to see myself in the future to become.

fear

I have always been afraid of the word ‘adulthood’, because I know it is time for me to find a way to get things I need on my own; independently, without my parents. Well not yet have I come to that phase, I am still in college. I am pretty sure I am an ambivert. I fear myself to become vocal without actions, and I hate it. That is why I appreciate introverts who works well. so

I am not a great manager for my own life, and I would like to let myself become better in managing my life. I am pretty sure It will never be neat, but at least I will minimize the flaw. I will grow, just the how plants grow, I will surround myself with positive vibes in life.

- sincerely, ha

[bled]

[living-in-luxury]

[silentrse]

scandalici0us

[the-ocean-paradise]

sunkissed & sandy

[biculturalist-deactivated201612]

I admire disciplined people so much. I admire people who can do what they need to do with a focused mind and unwavering commitment, not letting themselves get distracted and refusing to make excuses for themselves. I admire the kind of people whose eyes are on the prize, even if it’s far away, and who are determined, diligent and adaptive. I look up to the kind of people who refuse to succumb to any obstacle or challenge and transcend above the millions of things that stood against them and their goals. I admire those kind of people so much and I aspire to be like that so much more.

[acutelesbian]

A lot of people ask me what my biggest fear is, or what scares me most. And I know they expect an answer like heights, or closed spaces, or people dressed like animals, but how do I tell them that when I was 17 I took a class called Relationships For Life and I learned that most people fall out of love for the same reasons they fell in it. That their lover’s once endearing stubbornness has now become refusal to compromise and their one track mind is now immaturity and their bad habits that you once adored is now money down the drain. Their spontaneity becomes reckless and irresponsible and their feet up on your dash is no longer sexy, just another distraction in your busy life. Nothing saddens and scares me like the thought that I can become ugly to someone who once thought all the stars were in my eyes.

[fat-thin-skinny]

this fucks me up every single time

[acutelesbian]

I never expected this to be my most popular poem out of the hundreds I’ve written. I was extremely bitter and sad when I wrote this and I left out the most beautiful part of that class.

After my teacher introduced us to this theory, she asked us, “is love a feeling? Or is it a choice?” We were all a bunch of teenagers. Naturally we said it was a feeling. She said that if we clung to that belief, we’d never have a lasting relationship of any sort.

She made us interview a dozen adults who were or had been married and we asked them about their marriages and why it lasted or why it failed. At the end, I asked every single person if love was an emotion or a choice.

Everybody said that it was a choice. It was a conscious commitment. It was something you choose to make work every day with a person who has chosen the same thing. They all said that at one point in their marriage, the “feeling of love” had vanished or faded and they weren’t happy. They said feelings are always changing and you cannot build something that will last on such a shaky foundation.

The married ones said that when things were bad, they chose to open the communication, chose to identify what broke and how to fix it, and chose to recreate something worth falling in love with.

The divorced ones said they chose to walk away.

Ever since that class, since that project, I never looked at relationships the same way. I understood why arranged marriages were successful. I discovered the difference in feelings and commitments. I’ve never gone for the person who makes my heart flutter or my head spin. I’ve chosen the people who were committed to choosing me, dedicated to finding something to adore even on the ugliest days.

I no longer fear the day someone who swore I was their universe can no longer see the stars in my eyes as long as they still choose to look until they find them again.

[matthieuvenot]

Matthieu Venot l 2017

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[bujoign]

08.06.17 // 16:47 My habit tracker from a few days ago! It’s really helpful to see what I need to work on (a healthier diet and drinking more water!). Which habits do you track?

[sincerely-ha]

10 habits I promised myself to do

1. Wake up earlier

2. Read (news, blogs, books, anything)

3. Managed monthly budget

4. Get stuff packed for tomorrow a night before

5. Make bed before leaving the room

6. Declutter the items you no more use

7. Capsule Wardrobe

8. Do college assignments before due 

9. Eat on time

10. Drink water more

- sincerely, ha

[sincerely-ha]

Simply, us.

it’s been half a year

We know we fight alot, alot, alot although literally that day we would be making up.

PDAs; simply to let people know I am yours, and you are mine

Dug! It hit me, I might have been wanting to spoil around but one thing I forgot, to understand, I forgot to understand that PDA is not to flaunt Us is us, people do not need to see everything about us We know us detailed; We see what we see; We understand us, not you nor me.

Soul conncetion we transferred; may let us last;

in the name of faith, I would hope.

- sincerely, ha

[extramadness]

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Ease your soul here