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Sinelaborenihil from AO3. She/Her. TERFs can gtfo. 18+ Blog

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(Most of) My Writing

(As of April, 2025)

Hello my loves! I went and updated my list of fics once again and now it's officially too long for one post. My Supernatural fanfics have been moved here.

Here you will find my BG3, Mass Effect, Dragon Age, and Original Fiction, organized by fandom.

Currently all posted fics are complete!

I formatted it this way:

Title/Link ✲ Word Count ✲ Status ✲ AO3 Rating ✲ AO3 Warnings ✲ Relationship (Romantic or Otherwise) ✲ Summary

Putting the list/links below the cut because it is roughly 10 pages long and I'm not trying to decimate anyone's dash!

Multi Fandom:

Note: I listed this first since I tackle a variety of pairings/situations here -- might be the easiest place to start if you haven't read any of my work and want to check out a bite-sized piece!

Something Kinky This Way Comes (Kinktober 2023) (93,248 words) ✲ Completed ✲ 31/31 Chapters ✲ Smut and Feelings across multiple pairings. Wrote a smutty piece for every day of October - Definitely my most ambitious short term project! Please mind the chapter-by-chapter Trigger warnings.

Baldur’s Gate 3

Shorter/Single Chapter BG3 Fics:

Timeless Adoration (855 words) Competed ✲ General ✲ Major Character Death ✲ Astarion/Gender Neutral Tav ✲ Astarion is at Tav’s side as they face the end of their life.

Aching for More (971 Words) Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Halsin/Custom Fem!Tav (Kesari Tavoryn) ✲ Unable to stop thinking of Kes one night, Halsin finds himself fantasizing about what intimacy with her might be like.

A Sheath for the Blade of Frontiers (1,000 words) Completed ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Wyll Ravengard/Custom Fem!Tav (Nymerah Tavash) ✲ A sweet comment from the woman he's rapidly falling for helps Wyll find it in himself to seek out a little pleasure.

I’m Sure You Would (4,043 Words) Completed ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Barcus Wroot/Custom Fem!Tav ✲ When Barcus Wroot gets a surprise visit from the woman who saved the world and stole his heart, will he have the courage to finally admit how he feels?

Party Favors (2,781 Words) Complete ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Halsin/Custom Fem!Tav (Kesari Tavoryn) ✲ Kes and Halsin sneak away from a ball in Baldur's Gate to have a little fun.

BG3 Multi-Chapter/Longfics

There's No Place Like Home (12,830 words) Completed ✲ 5/5 Chapters ✲ Explicit (For Violence) ✲ Graphic Depiction of Violence ✲ Astarion/Custom Fem!Tav (Imala Tavlyrren) ✲ Alternate version of the confrontation with Cazador and its fallout. 

Ardor & Audacity (115,300 words) Completed ✲ 25/25 Chapters ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depiction of Violence ║(Past)Rape/Non-Con║Major Character Death ✲ Rolan/Custom Fem!Tav (Kanai Tavmotet) ✲ Begins with Rolan in the Shadow Cursed Lands, follows him and Kanai as they go from friends to lovers over the course of the game and into post-game.

Bear With Me (74,214 words) Complete ✲ 21/21 Chapters ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depiction of Violence ║(Past)Rape/Non-Con║Major Character Death ✲ Halsin/Custom Fem!Tav (Kesari Tavoryn) ✲ Friends to lovers story that begins with the tiefling party and continues through endgame.

Bear Fruit (125,204 words) Complete ✲ 25/25 Chapters ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depiction of Violence ║(Past)Rape/Non-Con ✲ Halsin/Custom Fem!Tav (Kesari Tavoryn) ✲ Halsin/Custom Fem!Tav (Kesari Tavoryn)/Astarion ✲ Begins six-months post game, follows Halsin and Kes as they try to navigate commitment and starting a family.

Mass Effect

Sights in the Stars (Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian)

You Did Good, Child (5,753 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ My version of how Aziza Shepard and David Anderson met for the first time, as well as the early days of his mentorship.

Grease Monkeys Have to Stick Together (1,725 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Teen ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Garrus enjoys tinkering on the Mako with an unidentified human woman “who got her background in engineering.”

The Values We Hold (3,670 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Teen ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Garrus has been left behind aboard the Normandy for her last few missions. When Shepard gives him the opportunity to talk, it leads to a conversation that makes Garrus think about some of his past choices in a new light.

Upgrades (6,348 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Teen ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Aziza Shepard discovers that all that mineral scouting and artifact finding has turned her into a millionaire. Once she gets over the initial shock, she decides to put some of her fortune towards making sure that her squad is as well-equipped as possible.

He Who Laughs Last Laughs Best (7,604 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence║Major Character Death ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ An exploration of what's going on with Joker immediately following the Collector attack and the time up to the attack of Lazarus Station. As well as what happens when he finally gets to say what he needs to say to Shepard.

On the Side of the Angels (7,470 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ What if “Dossier: Archangel” was timed and Archangel is captured if the player doesn’t go to them first?

Hot Chocolate & Electric Blankets (4,638 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Shepard is reeling after running into Kaidan on Horizon and Garrus and Joker conspire to make her feel better.

"Gray? I don't know what to do with gray." (3,473 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Teen ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Garrus' hunt for Sidonis doesn't go quite as planned.

“You will find only what you bring in” (12,052 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ During shore leave on Omega, Joker's past comes back to threaten his life and the Normandy's mission. I was sad Joker didn’t have a loyalty mission; so I wrote him one.

Go Right, Just Once (21,124 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ When Aziza suggests taking their friendship somewhere new, both she and Garrus are forced to contemplate the possibility that they mean more to each other than they realized. 

Wild, Celebratory 'We Made It' Sex (9,768 words) ✲ Completed ✲  Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Following the suicide mission, an extremely relieved Zi and Garrus decide to spend a little time celebrating on their own.

Be there with your dress blues on (5,403 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ How I imagine Zi Shepard returning to Earth following Arrival. I also wanted to explore the beginning of her friendship with Vega.

Bravery comes along as a gradual accumulation of discipline (4,947 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Teen ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ What would happen if the Council approached Joker during Shepard's house arrest with an offer that came with a terrible price?

Not So Awkward Interspecies Romance Thing (7,988 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Garrus is forced to confront the strength of his feelings for Shepard following the Reaper attack on Earth. When they are unexpectedly reunited on Menae, will they be able to pick up where they left off?

Clearing the Air (5,248 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Teen ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Kaidan Alenko and 3 members of the Normandy crew have some awkward, but important conversations. This is for everyone like me who wished that they could push back on Kaidan more in ME3.

Impossible Duty (4,419 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Major Character Death (Offscreen) ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ When Aziza Shepard overhears a conversation in Huerta Memorial Hospital, she is forced into an impossible situation. Does she tell Joker what she found out? Aziza knows in her heart what her choice has to be, but that doesn't make it any easier.

Leviathan (8,663 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ After a close call on Despoina, Aziza Shepard offers to take her relationship with Garrus to a new level.

Hide & Seek (10,668 words) ✲ Completed ✲  Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Playful banter following Aziza breaking the Armax scoreboard quickly turns into an invitation for a game of Hide & Seek with her as the prize. 

Found (12,721 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Following the fun they had roleplaying as Shepard and Archangel, Aziza and Garrus have a conversation about their limits. Once they are agreed on where they stand, the fun can begin. But this time, who is in control is slightly more up in the air...until it isn't.

A Show Of Trust (5,588 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ After a nightmare makes Aziza Shepard start to question herself, Garrus takes the opportunity to prove to her just how much he trusts and values her.

Vigil (129,450 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence║Major Character Death ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Having survived the Reaper War, the crew of the Normandy fight to get back home in the memory of what they believe to be their fallen commander. Meanwhile, back in the Sol System, Commander Aziza Shepard must first overcome the devastating injuries that she suffered, then fight to rebuild the galaxy that she fought so hard to save, all the while holding on to the desperate hope that the crew she loves is out there somewhere. But as weeks and months turn to years, the galaxy begins to move on. Will she move on along with it? Or will hope win out over "ruthless calculus"?

Tying the Knot (8,293 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ When a little bit of Garrus' past arrives to their official wedding reception in the form of a stunning turian senator, Zi accidentally makes a bit of a turian faux pas. This leads to some surprises during sex that leave the two of them closer than ever.

A Bow on Top (4,960 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Following their official wedding night, Garrus finds himself searching for ways to show Aziza how much the night before meant to him.

Adventures in Paradise (29,948 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Aziza and Garrus finally get away, just the two of them, for their honeymoon. It's a chance to relax, spend a little time together, and maybe update the kink spreadsheet.

What If? (7,527 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Aziza and Garrus revisit a fantasy of Garrus' and imagine what might have been if they'd realized their feelings while aboard the SR1.

The Things That Haunt Us (25,213 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Aziza Shepard/Garrus Vakarian ✲ Roughly a year after the public Shepard/Vakarian wedding, Castis is excited to have his family to his home on Palaven to celebrate his birthday. However, the celebration is cut short when a serial killer Castis once hunted returns and targets Garrus and Solana to force Castis to play his sadistic game.

"That kind of passion is deceptive; it can make you seem reckless when you're anything but." (Naya Shepard/Garrus Vakarian/Adrien Victus)

They Had Reach and She Had Flexibility (9,647 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Naya Shepard/Garrus Vakarian/Adrian Victus ✲ After catching Naya watching porn one night, Garrus suggests they invite their friend Adrien Victus to spend the night with them.

Reunion, Reaffirmation, & Reciprocation (18,251 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Naya Shepard/Garrus Vakarian/Adrian Victus ✲ Post ME3, Garrus returns from being stranded to realize that Adrien has developed feelings for Naya.

We All Need Somebody to Lean On (4,844 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Major Character Death (Offscreen & in the past) ✲ Naya Shepard/Adrien Victus ✲ When Adrien uncharacteristically stands Naya up for a date, she goes looking for him and finds him consumed by guilt.

Shock and Awww (11,246 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Naya Shepard/Garrus Vakarian/Adrian Victus ✲ Naya, Garrus, and Adrien experiment with Consensual Non-Consent.

Rakiya Shepard/Jeff “Joker” Moreau 

Joke's On Me (7,155 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Rakiya Shepard/Jeff “Joker” Moreau ✲ Joker is propositioned by his best friend, Rakiya Shepard, immediately following returning from the Omega 4 relay. This leads to the startling realization that he’s developed feelings. Waiting for a Punchline (8,642 words) ✲ Completed ✲  Explicit ✲ Major Character Death (Offscreen) ✲ Rakiya Shepard/Jeff “Joker” Moreau ✲ The stranded Normandy crew is rescued and Joker is given a second chance with the woman he adores. 

Jara Shepard/Garrus Vakarian 

Echoes (9,794 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Major Character Death ✲ Garrus/Fem!Shep, Garrus/Original Female Turian Character ✲ Post ME3, Jara Shepard wakes up in the ruins of London with no memory, meanwhile Garrus mourns her death and eventually moves on to build a life with someone new. Sad/Bittersweet ending.

Non-Named Shepards

I should go (398 words) Completed ✲ General ✲ Fem!Shep ✲ Silly conclusion to the clone fight.

Home is the sailor, home from the sea (8,412 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲  Major Character Death (Offscreen) ✲ Garrus/Fem!Shep ✲ Set 4 years post ME3, the crew of the Normandy return to the Sol System. This fic was the blueprint for Vigil and the first fic I ever put up on AO3.

Dragon Age

AUs/One Offs:

Picture’s Up, Roll Camera (5,787) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Fenris/Fem!Hawke ✲ Modern AU ✲ While in the backwater city of Kirkwall filming an adaptation of a video game he once voice acted for, Fenris meets a woman with an irrepressible sense of humor one night after work.

A Dragon’s Tooth, Split in Two (3,863) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Iron Bull/Dorian Pavus ✲  Following the events of Trespasser, Dorian and the Iron Bull have an important talk about the future of their relationship.

Indelible (1,761) ✲ Completed ✲ General Audiences ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Following the events at Adamant, an unsettled Varric Tethras ends up having a conversation about art with Solas.

Blind Date (1,555 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Varric Tethras/Cassandra Penteghast ✲ Modern AU where Major Cassandra Pentaghast is set up on a blind date with Varric Tethras, Investigative Reporter.

"Kill Me and You Will Never Find Out Where She Is" (4,371 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Female Hawke/Fenris ✲ Dark AU where Hawke is taken by Danarius and Fenris must come to the rescue.

Grief Shared (1,864 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Major Character Death ✲ Female Hawke/Fenris ✲ Fenris finally returns to Kirkwall and has a meeting with Viscount Tethras about the loss of their mutual friend.

How Far You'll Go (1,531 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Female Hawke/Fenris ✲ Varric confronts Saoirse Hawke after the events of Here Lies the Abyss

OCtober Writing Prompt Collection (8,469 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence║Major Character Death ✲ Multiple Pairings ✲ Based off of these prompts https://oc-growth-and-development.tumblr.com/. These range in content from super soft and fluffy to some very dark themes and there are two chapters that do have TWs on them. 

End Slides (2,859 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Dorian Pavus/The Iron Bull ✲ If Iron Bull and Dorian get into a relationship together, there's a possibility that post-game Dorian gets kidnapped by Venatori and rescued by Iron Bull and the Chargers. This is just a quick take on how it might have gone down.

Staring into the Abyss (3,545 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Major Character Death ✲ Varric Tethras & Female Hawke ✲ Saoirse Hawke is overwhelmed by all that has happened to her and as tensions escalate between mages and templars she finds herself contemplating taking her own life.

Kestrel & Crow (Zevran & Indira Surana)

Swimming Lesson (1,399 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Teen ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Indira Surana/ Zevran Aranai ✲ This is in response to a Reddit Prompt: "The LI of your OC gives your OC swimming lessons" and is just a quick little moment between Indira Surana and Zevran Arainai.

A Healer's Touch (2,907 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Indira Surana/ Zevran Aranai ✲ Zevran is hurt in the final conflict in the Brecilian Wildnerness and Indira Surana offers to help.

Pesadillas (2,378 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Indira Surana/ Zevran Aranai ✲ Zevran has a nightmare that throws into stark relief for him his feelings for the Gray Warden Indira Surana. Based on the Dragon Age Sub-Reddit writing prompt: Love Interest talks in their sleep during a nightmare that leaves them thrashing.

Tick-Tock (1,794 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Indira Surana/ Zevran Aranai ✲ This was inspired by the Dragon Age Subreddit writing prompt: “Time is ticking…” & “Tick tock, tick tock…” & “What is your decision? Remember… every choice has a consequence.” My version of the encounter with Taliesin.

Unbroken (4,523 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Indira Surana/ Zevran Aranai ✲ Indira Surana gives herself up to save her friends and finds herself a prisoner in Fort Drakkon. 

The King's Confession (2,772 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Major Character Death ✲ Indira Surana/ Zevran Aranai ✲ Following the Battle for Denerim, King Alistair makes a confession to Zevran.

Never Let the Truth Get in the Way of a Good Story: Varric & Nayeli Hawke

The Unreliable Narrator (16,252 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence║Major Character Death ✲ Female Hawke/Varric Tethras ✲ Loosely based on the gameplay modes of Dragon Age: Inquisition, The Unreliable Narrator is a multi-chapter fic exploring a romantic relationship between Varric Tethras and Hawke.

The Hunter, Home from the Hill (4,050 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Nayeli Hawke/Varric ✲ Varric Tethras welcomes Hawke home from her most recent deployment.

Stories Untold (5,944 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Nayeli Hawke/Varric Tethras ✲ A few moments between Nayeli Hawke and Varric Tethras as their friendship slowly transforms into something more.

Is That My Shirt? (1,446 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Female Hawke/Varric Tethras ✲ Varric Tethras gets his shirt back from Nayeli Hawke when she arrives at Skyhold.

Fan Theories (2,762 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Female Hawke/Varric Tethras ✲ A surprising conversation with Seeker Cassandra changes the course of Hawke and Varric's lives forever.

Veritas (2,686 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Female Hawke/Varric Tethras ✲ Varric Tethras had never been one to let the truth get in the way of a good story. But what happens when your best friend can only tell the truth and earth-shattering secrets come out?

Saoirse Hawke/Fenris

The Wolf You Feed (450,705 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence║Major Character Death ✲  This is the story Fenris and Hawke’s lives in Kirkwall and beyond, and the impact one person can have on the world around them. Begins in DA2 and concludes post-Trespasser.

Moodles (1,515 words) ✲ Completed ✲ General ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Saoirse Hawke/Fenris Tethras (Offscreen) ✲ Even when she's gone, Hawke still manages to cause trouble. This time, it's through her dog. Iron & Silverite (Zuri Trevelyan & The Iron Bull)

Like a Red Flag to a Bull (7,964 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ How I imagine Krem leaving Tevinter and meeting Iron Bull.

Codex Entry: A Ben-Hassrath's Report to His Superiors Following Events on the Storm Coast (1,462 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ Hissrad/The Iron Bull mentally takes notes for his report to his superiors within the Ben-Hassrath following the Herald of Andraste's encounter with the Blades of Hessarian.

Apology Accepted (3,977 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲  No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ When the battle with the Highland Ravager takes a dangerous turn, The Iron Bull feels the need to apologize to Inquisitor Zuri Trevelyan for putting her in danger.

Krem Puff (1,713 words) ✲ Completed ✲ General ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ Krem has noticed that the Iron Bull's relationship with the Inquisitor seems to be growing more serious. Bringing it up to Bull leads to a surprising conversation that sets Krem's fears at ease.

The Broken Necklace (18,035 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ Things go wrong in the Emprise du Lion and Zuri Trevelyan has to make a hard choice.

Old Scars & New Healing (6,295 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence║Rape/Non-Con ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ A letter from home pushes Inquisitor Zuri Trevelyan to tell Iron Bull about her past engagement and why that person is no longer a part of her life.

Wicked Eyes & Wicked Hearts (1,933 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ Rape/Non-Con ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ Everyone knew that their trip to the Winter Palace would be a trecherous one. However, much to Zuri and Iron Bull's dismay, the danger doesn't end with the plot to kill the Empress.

"You can't do this in the royal gardens!" (1,894 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ A response to the Reddit writing prompt: Wicked Eyes, Wicked Hearts "You can't do this in the royal gardens!"

Fighting for "Ok" (9,220 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Rape/Non-Con ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ After running into her abusive former fiance at the Winter Palace, Zuri Trevelyan is determined to put her past firmly in the past. She asks her partner, the Iron Bull, if they can work together to reclaim some of what was stolen from her all those years ago. Not wanting to rob his partner of another choice, Iron Bull agrees on the condition that they move forward cautiously. However, despite Iron Bull's efforts to make the experience as safe and enjoyable as possible, Zuri finds herself struggling with the memories of what she has endured.

 A Question of Trust (6,191 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Mature ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ When news about Blackwall's past comes to light it makes Inquisitor Zuri Trevelyan question her choices. Unfortunately, one of those choices is her Tal-Vashoth partner, Iron Bull, who is left to worry about the state of his relationship when Zuri leaves for the Hissing Wastes without him.

"If we wanted to be careful, we'd be up on the surface." (9,758 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ When Iron Bull joins Inquisitor Zuri Trevelyan in the Deep Roads, a dangerous encounter puts Zuri in danger and scares Bull badly. Once they have the opportunity to talk, Zuri realizes how badly she scared her partner and offers to make it up to him. As always, Bull has some ideas about how that might go, which leads to a lot of teasing and eventually, rope.   

Vashedan (2,249 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence║Major Character Death ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ The Iron Bull has a nightmare about remaining loyal to the Qun.

Bloody, Bold, & Resolute (30,141 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Graphic Depictions Of Violence║Rape/Non-Con ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ After Corypheus is defeated, Inquisitor Zuri Trevelyan and several of her guests are invited back to Orlais for a celebratory ball in her honor. However, when her former fiance makes it clear that he will stop at absolutely nothing to make good on his prior "claim" to her hand, Iron Bull, Krem, and Zuri will have to decide just how far they are willing to go for the sake of love and friendship.

We’re the One Fucking Thing that Stays Fixed (9,390 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull   Struggling following the events of Trespasser, an exhausted Zuri Trevelyan has pulled away from the Iron Bull. However, when she suggests that he might be happier finding a new partner, the ensuing conversation reaffirms their bond and allows Zuri to feel safe seeking physical intimacy again.

Why Did it Have to be Demons? (10,749 words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ Major Character Death ✲ Zuri Trevelyan/Iron Bull ✲ While visiting Kirkwall after Zuri has accepted a place in its peerage, looking at real estate turns into a horrifying encounter with a Despair Demon. Caught in its grasp, Iron Bull is forced to live an alternate future where he loses everything he holds dear.

Original Fiction:

Partners in Penumbra (9,956) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Original Female Character/Tentacle Entity ✲ The weight of life and its responsibilities has left her unable to sleep, and so she remains awake in what she thinks is the solitude of midnight darkness. But soon she finds out that the dark is less empty than she thought and that her restlessness has attracted the attention of one of its ancient denizens.

Camping is More Fun With Tentacles (4,415 Words) ✲ Completed ✲ Explicit ✲ No Archive Warnings Apply ✲ Original Female Character/Tentacle Entity ✲ Trying to ease her way back into enjoying her old life, Rae goes on a camping trip with her old adventure club. One night a surprise visit brings with it an even more surprising realization: The Entity missed her while she was away.

[whiskynorocks]

your challenge, if you choose to accept it: recreate yourself in this picrew and put your name in this incorrect quote generator for a quote.

(I cheated and did my Shepard instead. I make the rules.)

Rowan Shepard: I am so horny and angry all the time.

This must be ME2 era...

tagging in @youhowltome, @callista-curations, @heal-on-kill, @sinelaborenihilsr2, and @queenofbaws. Either for yourselves or one of your OCs :)

[sinelaborenihilsr2]

Althea: If I'm extra sarcastic with you it probably means I'm flirting with you or you really annoy me and I can't handle your crap... have fun figuring out which one.

your challenge, if you choose to accept it: recreate yourself in this picrew and put your name in this incorrect quote generator for a quote.

no pressure tag to @thepickledmermaid, @kalliesa, and @diaphanouso

[bg3-uplifting]

shout out to the hottest (😏) Halsin smut writers: @whiskeyskin, @sinelaborenihilsr2 & @scoldingdarjeeling!

you bring so much talent to the fandom, from top tier READER x HALSIN service, to incredible POC OCs like Kesari Tavoryn & Tempest (Tea you absolutely cooked with Halsin’s treehouse)

.

[sinelaborenihilsr2]

This made my whole day.

Thank you again, Anon!

[saesar-the-journeyman]

Qunari vs. Mage

Solas: King's pawn to E4. The Iron Bull: Pawn to E5. Pawn to F4. Pawn takes pawn. Mage to C4. Arishok to H4. King to F1. Pawn to B5. Mage takes Pawn. Ben-Hassrath to F6. Knight to F3. Arishok to H6. Pawn to D3. Ben-Hassrath to H5. Knight to H4. Arishok to G5. Knight to F5. Pawn to C6. Pawn to G4. Ben-Hassrath to F6.  Tower to G1. Pawn takes Tamassran. Pawn to H4. Arishok to G6. Pawn to H5.  Arishok to G5. Queen to F3. Ben-Hassrath to G8. Mage takes Pawn. Arishok to F6 Knight to C3. Tamassran to C5. Knight to D5. Arishok takes Pawn at B2. Mage to D6. Arishok takes Tower. King to E2. Tamassran takes Tower. Pawn to E5. Ben-Hassrath to A6. Knight takes Pawn at G7. Check. King to D8. Queen to F6, Check. Ben-Hassrath takes your Queen. Mage to E7. Checkmate.

[whumpshaped]

i see your "i dislike characters who talk like theyve been in therapy its more fun when they dont know whats going on" but i raise you "theyve been in therapy for a decade and theyve read all the scholarly articles on the topic they know exactly whats wrong with them and yet they cant logic and reason and rationalise their way out of their mental illness and its driving them insane because they shouldve gotten better years ago and they feel like theyre on square one"

[sinelaborenihilsr2]

For folks who think this sounds unrealistic:

Description of personal mental health treatment journey below the cut.

This is literally me. Been in therapy for close to two decades, read a lot, often know exactly why I’m Doing the Behavior and can explain it in therapy and even understand what’s happening in the moment.

And yet

It’s still there. The bad feelings/thoughts/paradoxical actions remain, no matter how wise to them I am.

That sense that I should be…fixed by now is an endless source of frustration. (Unrealistic and unfair ofc because it doesn’t work like that, but the thought remains.)

So yeah, not everyone should be speaking in therapy speak, for the same reason not every character should speak like a medieval knight or Elle Woods - character voice should match the character!

But the frustration and heartbreak of knowing the exact words but not knowing how to translate them into feeling better…

That shit sucks.

…and is coincidentally great whump fodder.

[matumnaples]

Before June I have to share one of my favorite tiktoks

[our-queer-experience]

ive been repeating this in my head all week. auntie likes wearing the strap…….

[sinelaborenihilsr2]

Unity Unraveled Ch. 7 is Live!

Chapter 7

Sorry folks, I'd been editing the chapter in AO3 the last few days and forgot to change the date when I posted today lol.

Mind the tags, my loves!

[sinelaborenihilsr2]

Unity Unraveled, Chapter 3

Chapter three is live!

Mind the tags and TWs, my loves!

Shit gets real in this chapter.

[evelynmooreartsblog]

"Drawn to Hidden Light". Read what this painting means below.

This work is about an unseen direction that leads you forward, even when it is not yet defined.

About moving toward something that doesn't fully reveal itself, but already shapes the way.

About light that doesn't appear directly, but exists as a presence, a quiet force that shifts the sense of movement without becoming obvious.

And about that state where you don't see the final point, but you keep moving, because something inside already knows the direction

Oil on canvas, 28x16"

#oilpainting #seascape #paintingprocess #artforsale #artwork

[mycptsdstory]

I love this!

[saint-batrick]

this is, no shit, some of the best advice i have ever heard.

[catholicliving]

As a group of religious sisters once told me, your vocation or calling is a combination of where, when and with whom. Maybe you’re called to the religious life, but with a different community. Maybe you’re called to marriage, but not yet.

I’d argue all this applies to things like job, career, school, etc. Maybe God will call you to get a PhD one day, but the when and from where is something you have to discern.

[sinelaborenihilsr2]

Celebrating Friday with a Smutty One-shot

Kes, Halsin, Wyll, and Astarion have a different kind of adventure together.

[sinelaborenihilsr2]

Chapter 2 of Unity Unraveled is live!

Chapter 2

Mind the tags and TWs, my loves!

Fic is complete and updates Tuesday/Thursday!

Also I'm sorry if there was no email, I have the first few chapters in AO3 as drafts and I forgot to update the date.

Thank you for reading!

Also for funzies I made Zi in BG3

[sinelaborenihilsr2]

Officially Back on my Bullshit

AKA posting Shakarian Fic.

I've missed Zi and Garrus. It's been almost a year since I last posted anything with them. This is a fic I have been working on for years, but wanted to finish writing before I started posting.

Here we go. Chapter 1 of 24 of my 52,000 Word fic, Unity Unraveled. (Mind the warnings, tags, and the rating, my loves)

[utara-north-deactivated20200707]

It’s all fun and games until you fall in love with that video game character

[heyhoneyfox]

"I'm lying to you but this sentence is technically the truth without context" is such a good trope. Like yes the way that I am spinning these words forms a lie but if you squint I'm actually not lying.

[writingwithfolklore]

Writing Resources to use instead of AI

For coming up with character names:

Behind the name (my absolute fav)

Allows you to choose the origin of where you want the name to be from, whether you want a more feminine vs masculine vs androgenous name (as voted by users), random surname generator, and clicking on the name gives you important info like if there are any famous people with the same name, where it’s from, how common it is, and how people tend to see it, etc.

You can also search their name database by letter or meaning or origin, so if you know you want a character who has a name/surname that starts with an A from Ireland, there’s a whole list for you to choose from.

Census sites

Especially useful if you’re looking for a name from a specific place and/or time period. Just search “(country) census (year)” and you’ll find a database of real people who lived in that place at that time. No one can ever call your names unrealistic again.

For coming up with place names:

Fantasy name generator

This site can basically come up with any name for any person, place, or thing you might ever need. There are also specific generators for different fandoms if you’re looking to make an OC in an established world.

For finding that one word on the tip of your tongue:

One Look Thesaurus

This is my go-to. Not only can you find synonyms like a regular thesaurus, but you can also describe words like “unhappy smile” or “quiet laugh” to find the more specific word you’re looking for.

For coming up with ideas:

Word cloud

When I need to inspire a new idea, I write down all the things I’m interested in (hauntings, academia, lesbians, etc.) and put them into a word cloud to shuffle them next to each other. Sometimes seeing a concept in a new context can spark new ideas!

WWF Discord

This is my discord channel (shameless plug) for when you need to brainstorm off other people but don’t have anyone irl to talk to. We’re also happy to read and give feedback on writing, answer writing questions, or just chat!

For visualizing places and characters:

Pinterest

Pinterest can at times be a bit too sterile for my tastes, but if you use the right words, you can find more realistic photos of places. For example, adding “aesthetic” after basically any word will bring up a more broad collection of photos to help you flesh out places.

This is also a great way to find photos of people and fashion to help visualize characters. I’m bad at describing clothes, so I usually collect photos of outfits to help me know what my characters are wearing. Searching up “character inspiration” will collect more interesting photos and drawings of people who might not exactly be of our world.

(However, to make Pinterest not show you AI results, you have to go into your settings and check the “reduce AI” box. Luckily, it does mostly work.)

Death to Stock

Like pinterest but completely AI free (hooray!) Only drawback is that you have to pay a monthly subscription (about $20 CAD).

Cosmos

Very similar to pinterest but slightly more "artsy". I'm not super familiar with this one but I believe all the photos are human and you can save them and create collections with a free account.

Dupe Photos

Royalty-free stock image site with very Pinterest-core photos!

Minecraft

If you haven’t built your entire fictional city in Minecraft instead of writing, why not? It’s fun.

The Sims

This one is dual purpose because you can not only create your characters in Create a Sim, but you can design their houses. If you really want to go for it, you can bulldoze all the lots in your town and build your world from scratch.

For checking grammar:

Grammar Girl

Easy to follow definitions and examples, and if you learn better by listening, every article comes with a podcast to follow along with instead.

Grammar Monster

This one is my favourite for checking grammar rules because there’s tons of examples in graphics that helps for any situation.

Reedsy

Among other things, reedsy can connect you to professional editors within your budget.

For writing advice:

One Stop for Writers

This one was recommended from my discord channel and has all sorts of tutorials and resources for the writing craft.

My Blog Directory

Another shameless plug, but if you need writing advice on something specific, you can search through my directory to see if it’s there. If it isn’t, you can always send me an ask about it!

For an alternative to Google Docs:

Ellipsus

Think google docs but without AI. Yay!

(will update this list with any more suggestions or resources I discover 😊)

[just-a-readthrough]

A great resource