polla bear

She/him, 19; fandom artist, sometimes posts ocs PROSHIP DNI

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I believe that its perfectly normal to NEVER be satisfied with the form your dæmon settles as. By extension, I believe that most people are never going to be at peace with themselves, unsatisfied with the way they are, how they look, act, think, etc etc. Because of the personal perceptions that society often pushes on everyone, most people will never accept themselves just as they are. Ive seen that only on the deathbed do people find peace, and even then sometimes it doesnt happen. The way you view yourself is a cornerstone to the way you view your dæmon.

And perhaps its the autism speaking, but I enjoy analytical analysis of dæmon forms, and believe them more than a symbolic analysis for myself. Because it seems conclusive and totally absolute when the traits of a specific form match up with the traits of my personhood. I know thats who I am, so that MUST be my dæmon. And sometimes I dont like who I am.

Polar Bears are not my favorite animal, nor did I even consider that shape when I started out dæmon-searching. But the more I researched analytic forums the more and more it all connected, they were all spot on and it felt so sure that form was correct for Memore. And he's been that form for the last 2 years, but there are times I DO wish for a different form. The physical limitations, the stereotype-perceptions of polar bear forms, and my personal biases for other forms sometimes makes me personally feel incomplete, BUT THATS NORMAL! Everyone's gonna have their moments of second-guessing and thats normal. Despite my troubles, I still would never want Memore to change from what he is now, because every other form possesses traits and qualities that just arent me. Even if I dislike some of those qualites that make me- me, they connect me to my dæmon; and some days that manifests into feeling joyously content and some days spitefully yearning. I believe understanding that spectrum is the steps to begin accepting your dæmon.

maybe this is just a thought process exclusive to me, but maybe it could help people struggling with their settled form, who knows.

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Yo new idea for a tf2 melee weapon for sniper

[funsizedshark]

class of 2013 - mitski

a mini-zine

[howlan-daughter]

One more of my BLU Sniper

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my friend says theres definitely some meaning/symbolism in a dæmon who settles as an animal that lives in the north pole its entire life belonging to a person who was born and has forever lived in a place that never snows

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Reblog and type out what form your daemon would take in the His Dark Materials universe, in the tags (bonus: what would their voice be like)

[cheebuss]

BIG SNIPER RETURNS BABEYYY [X]

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thought to share this since I colored it

he is such a dog /derogatory

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Pyro the pussy slayer gawdamn

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I cannot do eight gacha banners guys but I will do rough sketches

Also sorry to the pyro fans my attention span is very short

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If i had a nickel for everytime i knew a character from a fandom that was a scottish bastard with magical eyes/eye, id have two nickels, which isnt alot but its weird it happened twice

[bob-mirum]

-Ah, it's you… What do you need at such an early hour..? Schatz?

[dovesanctuarydonotkill]

hello … still not feeling very normal abt spy

i think it’s bc i’ve had to deal w a lot of shit personally over the last few months but Thinking abt spy having to comfort his s/o when they’re in the darkest pit imaginable . it’s the kind of dark pit that u can’t really articulate and the kind that u would much rather ignore but it lingers all the time anyway and it’s ruining ur life even if ur able to function normally

like ik it’s a big thing in the fandom that he wouldn’t rly be great w comfort but i feel like he’s def had weeks or months at a time where he’s been like Maybe I’ll Step In Front Of A Train Today . and i think he would be understanding of it even if his knee jerk reaction is to be … A jerk. if anything i think he would probably try to brush it off or act like they’re just overreacting in the beginning bc it’s a deflection and a way of ignoring his own struggles, previous or current. but if he catches them in the fetal position in the shower on the brink of ripping their hair out then he’s like oh. we can’t keep running from this anymore

i hope this all makes sense LOL i kind of rambled

oh I totally get it. i know a lot of people get a vibe that he's somewhat detached from others, but this is the same spy that offered to save miss pauling from the horror and trauma of being tortured, held his dying son in his arms, and had the idea to spend what he thought were his final days alive helping the team fulfill their bucket list items. he definitely cares. when shit really hits the fan he is there.

I also like to think he's a bit of a dad friend and having a team of people he cares about brings out the caring paternal instinct in him. he thought he buried that in his subconscious when scout was a baby but it's back.

Contains: how do we feel about spy calling you "my heart?"

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You'd truly lost it this time. Hit rock bottom, gone off the deep end, pushed to the brink, whatever you wanted to call it. This was truly your breaking point. You couldn't even find it in you to hide somewhere first before you broke down in tears. It didn't even cross your mind.

There was a hand on your back, guiding you away. Probably Pyro or Demo, maybe Engie.

"Come, mon cher. Come with me."

"Spy?" you asked softly.

Sure enough, he was leading you out of the room, holding your hand. He brought you somewhere quieter, out of the way, but you sobbed the entire way.

"Talk to me," he said. "What's wrong?"

Where did you even begin? You just stood there and sobbed. Trying to start explaining yourself just seemed pointless, and you could tell Spy was starting to see just how bad it was.

"Merde. Come here," he said.

You hugged him and buried your face in his chest, where your anguished cries were muffled but still uncontrollable. That was the worst part, the loss of control. You were spiraling and you couldn't stop yourself. But Spy remained your rock, saying nothing and only shushing you. He rubbed your back. You could swear you could feel him sway in place with you, like he was rocking you. But you couldn't be sure, what with the stress making your head spin. You truly felt broken, in every sense of the word, and just a little bit of respite with him was the only thing keeping it from getting worse.

But you still tried to explain yourself. You incoherently brought up the various things that had been piling up, but he didn't understand a word. Maybe that was what the shushing was for.

"Just let it come, mon coeur," he said. "We can talk later. Sometimes there are more important things."

He patted you on the back. "You need this."

[buckyisonfire]

Hey guys so I'm back with a stupid meme

Turns out the conga from TF2 fits perfectly with combination pizza hut and taco bell + brody quest

I made an edit to show you what I mean

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tiktoks with vine energy pt. 15

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im so pissed off i need to dissociate IMMEDIATELY any tips?

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the Christian imagery in Emesis Blue wouldve been really enhanced by a Virgin Mary reference in regards to Fritz, Jeremy and the Respawn Machine

am i cooking or basic