my entire life is one big trigger warning

56.5kgs ; gw 50kgs ; ugw 44kgs he/him ftm please please don’t report this is where i vent dni if ur in recovery. block me

[skeletal-ice]

i can’t stop eating i’ve got into so many bad habits recently

i used to have really good self restraint and now i just eat all the time and it’s endless.

[skeletal-ice]

5 months of recovery gained 4.5kgs guess i’m back lol

[thesunwillriseforus]

Meanspo

Look at you, eating. Being healthy. Taking care of yourself. How could you ever think you deserved to starve? It’s fucking disgusting that you would believe for a second that you aren’t beautiful, because you are, for god’s sake. You know what? I hope you get better, goddammit. You are so fucking beautiful it makes me wanna vomit flowers and rainbows. Love yourself, bitch. Eat! Be healthy! you fucking deserve to feel better and love yourself for who you are. I can’t even believe that a person as perfect as you would do this to yourself. It makes me sick. It makes me want to fucking hug you so tight that you feel better. So go ahead, feed yourself. And you know what, eat a fucking cake. Treat yourself, bitch. You deserve it. I don’t care what you did to think you deserve this, but you don’t. YOU. ARE. PERFECT. For fuck’s sake, I love you and you deserve the fucking world. 

[devilsbabygirl-blog-deactivated]

READ THIS IF YOUR HAVING A BAD DAY PLEASE

[pancakesmakemecry]

The only meanspo I’ll ever reblog

[relapses-after-relapses]

I almost scrolled past this 

[peachjambobatea]

*cutely deletes paragraph*

[angel-s02]

Almost had me 😌💙

[skeletal-ice]

i’m under 115lbs i’m so happy i’m at my lowest weight since relapsing :))

[skeletal-ice]

being able to see my collarbones and ribcage >>>>>

[skeletal-ice]

bones r getting more visible. idk what i’m doing different but it appears to be working

[skeletal-ice]

with clothes i was under 54kgs the other day that means i’m losing weight thank god

[skeletal-ice]

i’m finally getting SKINNIER

[skeletal-ice]

just found out one of my closest friends fucked the guy i like lol (and yes she knew). definitely don’t want to fucking kill myself right now

i don’t get why this shit has to happen. like why the fuck did she do that.

i just want to relapse rn and i keep on thinking that if i was just prettier or thinner or cis he would have wanted me instead like why her why’d he want to fuck her and not me what’s wrong w me

[skeletal-ice]

‘i’m gonna be skinny by september’

well that didn’t happen /:

[faerielbs]

they way ive had this stupid ass ed for so long and im still not skinny shoulda done this shit the healthy way bro 💀💀💀

[skeletal-ice]

cheers but i am here to figure out the best way to off myself so if u cld just show me that instead x

[skeletal-ice]

might just find a fucking guy with a blood kink to fuck so i can pretend i’m not relapsing

[littelpiceofshit]

[skeletal-ice]

only had abt 600/700kcals todayand i only had the last 200 cuz someone made me eat but i didn’t even feel hungry which is a first cuz normally i’m just hungry all the time

[skeletal-ice]

after dinner tn i got told

“wow i didn’t think you’d manage to eat all that”

both hurt to hear and also the person who said it preaches never commenting on what others eat ? why am i the exception ?

[skeletal-ice]

i need to delete my ed / sh playlist because it genuinely makes me want to kms lmaoo