skinny iced lattes for skinny minnies

TW- mostly triggering stuff, please don’t report but instead just block me. this is a way of me coping with my mental illness. pls stay safe and much love 💕 active may 23’

[gothalbinorat]

this user has an ED but supports and encourages recovery

[skinnyicedlatte555]

hey there,

i'm not pro 4n4 or f4tph0bic at all, this is just a digital diary of sorts to help me cope with things and i guess 'document' how i'm feeling.

i've suffered from an ed (or ed habits) specifically ana for a while that seem to come and go. however, pls either block me or click off my page if you are in recovery or find topics, pictures, etc around ed's triggering. lastly, i also want to say i am not romanticising anything at all — please stay safe and always know that u r loved and recovery is always possible.

some stuff abt me,

pronouns are she/her

i'm nineteen

i love lana, frank ocean, the neighbourhood, arctic monkeys, etc

i alsooo love the sims and anything y2k or even the 'coqutte' aesthetic

virgo

enfp

i love iced lattes if you couldn't already tell

TW - stats, info

i gained a significant amount of weight from bipolar meds (affects blood sugar, increases appetite) - my usual weight is usually in the 60's (kg) and i'm 167cm.

after the issues with my weight, i started to lose my confidence and self-esteem once again. then the body checking started again, the clothes started getting tighter (and then eventually not fitting), the restricting started again and the worrying/guilt abt every meal - you know how it goes… i eventually started to relapse to my old habits and well, here i am.

sw: 90kg

cw: 88kg

cw: 87kg

cw: 85kg

cw: 83.5kg

cw: 82.8kg

cw: 81.8kg

gw: 70kg

ugw: 60kg

ugw 2: 55kg

i would absolutely love to chat, msg me <3

[aziananaa]

Being fat is actually a curse

Why is everyone around me smaller than me

Why do I have to be this disgusting thing

It’s such a joke all my friends say I never eat to the point even their parents know me as the one who doesn’t eat and yet I’m still the fattest

I just want to be beautiful

[deathsponation]

Every time people look at me on the street or I talk to someone

[skinnyicedlatte555]

i wish i could lose 20kg by tomorrow 😩😩

buttttt i know that’s unrealistic af ofc hahahah - does anyone have any tips to lose weight rlly quick? i haven’t been able to lose anymore.

no purging tips pls, i have emetophobia (fear of vomit)

sincerely,

the girl that wants to be skinny 💕💕💕

[alovelessway]

Lunch 148kcal

[skinnyicedlatte555]

heaven. my absolute favs

[winterbeartae16]

Ed really changes the way of looking at other people.

Like today I was at the bus stop while coming from uni and the only thing I was staring at was legs and figures of everyone and choosing them as thinspo like wtf 🥲

[skinnyicedlatte555]

legitttt, i be staring at people and just choosing them as my personal thinspo 😭

[rottingpigflesh]

a look into my brain

[skinnyicedlatte555]

when my mum said “you look different… you’ve lost weight.”

me on the inside: *internal cheering, happiness*

me on the outside: “oh really? i didn’t even notice.”

[skinnyicedlatte555]

ed rant

tw!!

so my whole life i thought these things were normal but i’ve realised they are bc of my ed and body dysmporhia. let me know if y’all relate.

obsessing over the clothes size i wear. i have to wear a specific size and if it’s not the size i want i will do anything to fit into it.

pulling apart parts of my body i don’t like.

analysing my body in every single mirror and reflection.

excessive guilt over food.

seeing other people thinner than me and getting extreme rage. i guess wanting to compete?

this is a hella weird one but when i’d go to my friends house (a friend that is thinner than me) and they had their clothes laying around i’d see what size their clothes were - just to trigger myself.

avoiding pictures.

asking others if i look ‘different’ (skinny).

looking at old pictures of myself and saying “damn i wish i still looked like that” even when at that time i thought i was disgusting. it’s like i have no actual perception of myself.

[skinnyicedlatte555]

i had a dream that i stepped on the scale and i weighed 66kg or something, like i knowww that’s not a low af number but i would kill to be that weight rn.

well you know what they say? dreams turn into reality 😏

[srryforbeinghere]

What I would give to look like them….

[matcha-latte-addict]

FreeZia Spo

[skinnyicedlatte555]

*sees someone skinner than me*

my brain: “you can always be thinner”

lovely.

[pigpiggypig]

Skipping dinner but not waking up thinner 🤬

[skinnyicedlatte555]

ugh an actual joke right

[skinnyicedlatte555]

What's the first thing you're going to do once you reach your gw?

fuck this is a hard one but omg the main one i can think of is to actually post a picture of myself! i kid you not i have not taken a picture of myself (my body tbh) since i gained weight, and omg it’ll be so nice to take pics with my friends instead of having an anxiety attack about how big i am

[skinnyicedlatte555]

love the light af feeling. could get used to this

[thisisnotmeyoudkm]

i want to cry every time i see a picture of myself i’m disgustingly bigger than everyone else i hate it i hate it i hate it