This child who came to my house tonight is literally the funniest human being on the planet. She complimented me on having both lollipops and mini Three Musketeers available because "a lot of houses these days don't give you a fruit flavor option." She was very solemn about this.
it’s 2026 so we can stop referring to bras solely by their cup size, right? everyone knows that cup sizes change depending on the band size right and thus are meaningless when mentioned on their own, right? that a 38B has a larger boob volume than a 32D, right? that “D cups” are actually pretty small in the grand scheme of things, right??? that the number on a bra size is your ribcage measurement in inches so if someone wears a size medium it’s impossible for them to have a band size over 36, right?????????? right???????????
⋆˙⟡ JACK ABBOT witnesses a new side to his girlfriend after her bra breaks
WARNINGS: 18+ MDNI big boobed!reader, curvy/plus-sized!reader implied, "i'll pay for it", teasing, dirty talk, breast & nipple play, dry humping, mentions of previous smutty time, kinda brat!reader ? she's annoyed, pet names (doll, honey, baby, pretty girl), swearing, no other physical descriptions of reader, no use of y/n, dual pov, (1.9k wc)
layout inspired by my angel @mariasont
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Jack wasn't prepared for his front door slamming just before eight pm on his night off. And he definitely wasn't expecting the annoyed groan reverberating off the walls as you stomped your way to the lounge. It was a stark contrast to the soft humming he was usually graced with the second you walked through his door.
He sat up straighter, muting the TV to give you his undivided attention. You barely glanced his way as you walked through the threshold, and he couldn't stop his eyebrows from raising at the sight of you.
Your grey scrub top was slightly twisted and riding up, exposing a sliver of your stomach that he itched to trace. A cute pout had taken your face hostage—your lower lip jutting out and brows furrowed, making it difficult for him to suppress a smile. All humour vanished as his eyes fell to your chest; your full breasts hanging without support, pebbled nipples calling for his mouth. The tightening of his pants was immediate, along with the jealous fire that heated him from the inside out—who else had seen you in this state?
It was a losing battle for him as he tried to keep his eyes off the way your boobs bounced as you walked towards him. Honestly, he didn't know why he even bothered.
You collapsed onto the couch next to him with a huff, knocking his crutches to the floor as you ripped your bag off your shoulder with more force than necessary.
Jack had never seen you like this. In the four months you had been dating, he'd seen you cry more times than he could count—videos of dogs reuniting with their owners were your kryptonite—and had seen you lose your cool less than a handful of times. He couldn't help but feel a flicker of trepidation stepping into this unknown territory.
Before he could start running through any events or anniversaries he may have missed, you found your rightful place—wrapping your arms around his right one, curling your body into his side with a sigh. He pressed a kiss to the top of your head, closing his eyes as he inhaled your comforting scent.
Some of the tension eased from your shoulders, your body conditioned to relax in Jack's presence. He rested his cheek atop your head, his affection diluting the annoyance thrumming through your veins.
"What's going on, doll?"
"My bra broke. Right at the start of my shift." You grumbled, nuzzling further into his warmth.
"Okay," he dragged out hesitantly. "That's annoying."
"Yeah, you could say that," you huffed. "The wire was digging into my skin for twelve hours straight," you whined, resembling a petulant child. "I could feel it every time I moved. Do you know how uncomfortable that is?"
He lifted his head off of yours, tilting your chin up to shoot you a look. You had massaged his leg enough to know that was a stupid question.
"Right, sorry, don't answer that." One hand moved from clutching his bicep to his right thigh, tracing patterns with your index finger. You let out another sigh, resting your head on his shoulder. "It was my last decent one. Now I only have sports bras that aren't even near the realm of sexy."
"So just buy a new one."
Jack regretted the words as soon as they slipped out, his body tensing and eyes squeezing shut.
Your annoyance returned tenfold. You ripped away from his body, levelling him with a scolding glare.
"Do you know how expensive bras are, Jack?" You started, diving into a gesticulating monologue. "Especially if you've got big boobs—it's just capitalism once again profiting off of women's struggles! The bigger you are the more expensive everything is because they're trying to make us feel bad—"
"Honey," Jack tried, his voice dropping to the authoritative tone that never failed to make your ears perk up like an obedient puppy. Well, that never failed until now.
You pressed a finger into his stupidly beefy chest. "You're a man, you don't get to speak right now."
He held his hands up in surrender, his dick twitching from you giving him attitude—at the thought of fucking it out of you. An interesting revelation that he was looking forward to exploring later.
You removed your finger, continuing your rant. "No bra ever fits right—unless you go to a boutique and spend at least three hundred dollars on a custom made one."
Jack was drawn in by the fire in your eyes, the outrage and passion you were exuding making you even more beautiful.
"The amount of money I waste on fabric that barely does the job it's meant to do is insane. At this point it'd be fucking cheaper to get a breast reduction." You fell back against the couch, your chest heaving slightly from your tirade.
He rested an arm over your shoulders, his thumb rubbing circles on your upper arm. "You're not getting a breast reduction."
A searing glare burned the side of his face. "Oh, so now you're telling me what I can and can't do to my body?"
A thrill raced down Jack's spine—another side effect of your newfound attitude.
"No," he said placatingly. "I'm just remembering the conversation we had last week." His mouth ticked up with the beginnings of a smirk. "Y'know, the one after I made you look at yourself in the mirror while you came on my cock."
The hand on your arm slid away slowly, featherlight fingers caressing across your chest before making their way to your nipple, circling the pert bud lazily. Your breath stuttered, a whine lodging itself in your throat from your boyfriend's touch.
He dipped his head towards you, his husky baritone filling your ear as his lips brushed along the sensitive skin. "You remember how good you looked, baby? Couldn't stop staring at yourself, could you?" He tugged your earlobe between his teeth. "Looked like a fucking goddess—you always do."
Heat blossomed across every inch of your body, a familiar insatiable need jolting your core at the memory. You had been entranced by the image in the mirror—lidded, glazed eyes staring back at you, Jack's hand around your throat keeping your attention secured on your reflection, your tits bouncing as he drilled into you from behind.
Jack's keen eyes caught the way your plush thighs squeezed together, how your chest was rapidly rising and falling beneath his hand.
"You've made your point," you whispered, lust thwarting your annoyance.
He hummed, pressing faint kisses along your jaw. His free hand trailed up your thigh—a fingertip tracing the seam of your pants inducing a shiver. "I'll pay for it, for the bras. I'll buy you a whole closet full of 'em."
"Okay," you relented, suspicion rising in Jack at your quick response.
He moved his head away from yours, an eyebrow quirking up and deepening his wrinkles. "…That's what you wanted all along, isn't it?"
"No," you murmured, pressing your face into his bicep. He would've believed you if it wasn't for the smile he could feel stretching against his skin.
"Uh-huh, sure."
He grabbed your chin, pulling your face away from your hiding spot and seeing the twinkle in your eyes instantly. He huffed a laugh, leaning in to kiss you softly.
"You know you could've just asked," he mumbled against your lips, teasingly nipping your bottom lip.
A giggle slipped from your mouth into his. "Where's the fun in that?"
"So you admit this was all just an act." He grasped your hips, effortlessly lifting you to straddle his lap. You gasped out at the bulge pressing against your core. "You think threatening to take these away from me is funny?" His hands drifted from your hips, creeping underneath your top and up your sides until they cupped your heavy breasts.
You whimpered at his calloused fingers stroking and pulling; one of them brushing along the tender, irritated patch the wire from your bra had left behind.
Jack noticed the spot straight away—he had every inch of your skin memorised, his fingers knowing your body better than your own. "Let's look at the damage, hmm? Can't have my pretty girl hurting."
You nodded, your brain already turned to mush from his light teasing.
He moved his hands back down your body to reach the hem of your scrub top—a whine leaping out of you from the brief loss of his touch. He lifted your top over your head, moaning once your tits were on full display for him.
He swore he died and went to heaven whenever he saw you like this—sat prettily on his lap, hazy eyes fluttering, full breasts begging for his hands and mouth. He revelled in how your hips would grind against his absentmindedly; his pretty, needy girl desperate for her silver fox from the smallest touch. Your unyielding desire did wonders for his ego.
He brought his hands back up, relishing the sight of your tits overflowing in his large hands. Your eyelids drooped and your lips parted, breathy sighs falling from them. His thumb moved to brush along the tender spot on the side of your boob.
"Poor thing," he muttered, leaning forward to press light kisses to the irritated skin. "Won't happen ever again—not while you're mine." Molten gold eyes stared into yours. "And you're always going to be mine."
His tongue licked the sensitive skin before he blew cold air on it, causing goosebumps to erupt across your body with a gasp slicing the air. Your hips rocked harder against his, your core growing wetter with every touch.
He covered your boob in kisses and spit, sucking and biting to leave behind marks he adored—his marks. His rough hand pawed at your other tit, pulling and twisting the nipple—making you mewl above him, your hips moving faster as fire raced down to your pussy, igniting embers along the way.
His mouth latched onto your neglected nipple, his tongue drawing circles around it and sucking harshly. You let out unabashed moans, his own starting to vibrate against your skin and through your chest. He was rock hard beneath your hips, precum leaking into his boxers as your movements grew frantic. He could feel the flutter of your pussy, the heartbeat in your clit, even through your layers of clothes.
His free hand moved to your ass, giving it a smack. Your responding yelp dissolved into a moan, your hips jerking forward and finding the perfect position that had your clit pressing directly onto his bulge.
He pulled his head away from your chest, admiring his perfect girl using him for her pleasure. He wanted to spend the rest of his life worshipping at your altar—to bask in your divineness until his dying breath.
His hand trailed up from your breast to cup your jaw, his thumb tracing your bottom lip, catching a bit of drool. God, he loved how he could unravel you just as you did him.
But before he could help you reach your release, he needed to remind you of something—to correct a statement you made earlier, one that had been eating away at him.
He tilted your head until your unfocused eyes meet his—his cock jumping at how utterly fucked you looked from a bit of dry humping.
"Let's get one thing straight, doll. The lace and bows are nice, but they're not what are sexy. That's all you, baby."
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a/n: can you guys tell one of my bras broke today. i honestly don't even know what this mess is. am loving the girlies popping off with big boobed blurbs lately tho 😌
GOLDIIII AHSOUGHGOHAGOJAG THIS HAD ME GIGGLING BLUSHING KICKING MY FEET MY QUEEEEEENNNNN
Your grey scrub top was slightly twisted and riding up, exposing a sliver of your stomach that he itched to trace. A cute pout had taken your face hostage—your lower lip jutting out and brows furrowed, making it difficult for him to suppress a smile. All humour vanished as his eyes fell to your chest; your full breasts hanging without support, pebbled nipples calling for his mouth. The tightening of his pants was immediate, along with the jealous fire that heated him from the inside out—who else had seen you in this state?
JACK ABBOT BOOB LOVER THAT’S TRUE THAT’S TRUE!!! i also love jealous abbot so much omfg im sooo hes soooo
"Honey," Jack tried, his voice dropping to the authoritative tone that never failed to make your ears perk up like an obedient puppy. Well, that never failed until now.
You pressed a finger into his stupidly beefy chest. "You're a man, you don't get to speak right now."
He held his hands up in surrender, his dick twitching from you giving him attitude—at the thought of fucking it out of you. An interesting revelation that he was looking forward to exploring later.
INCREDIBLE. AMAZING STUFF HAPPENING HERE SWEET GOLDI. ohm y gooddd i have to have him WALK HIM LIKE A DOG SIS!!!
"You remember how good you looked, baby? Couldn't stop staring at yourself, could you?" He tugged your earlobe between his teeth. "Looked like a fucking goddess—you always do."
STOPPPP WAIT IM HORNY…ohhhh my god something about jack abbot calling his curvy gf a goddess that just makes my heart sing
He pulled his head away from your chest, admiring his perfect girl using him for her pleasure. He wanted to spend the rest of his life worshipping at your altar—to bask in your divineness until his dying breath.
BARRRS BABE omg i’m literally sobbing jack abbot where
Frank Castle is unexpectedly gentle… 18+ SMUT Masterlist
GIF BY @amhrosina
This man is anything but gentle. He comes home bloodied and bruised more times than not. Knuckles split, black eye, cut cheeks. So when you finally finally get him on top of you in your bed, it’s not what you expect at all.
You expected to get right to it, for him to simply slip his cock inside and do you. But he starts by teasingly kissing down your entire body, until he’s in between your thighs.
Slowly removing your panties and playing with your cunt until he feels your ready. He eases you with one finger before adding a second, and he loves the way you gasp when he does.
Then he laps your clit like he’s a man starved and you’re the last meal on earth.
Where you expected bruising grips and bite marks is all soft touches and long kisses.
Where you expected degrading, you received nothing but praise.
“That’s my pretty girl.”
“God you’re so perfect, like you were made for me.”
“You like that? This okay? Come on baby, I wanna hear you. Tell me what you want.”
“Feel so good around me, taking me so well.”
He even starts slow, letting you adjust to his size. He must’ve seen your eyes widen when his cock slapped against his stomach as you pulled his boxers down.
His fingers are calloused, of course they are. All he does is hold guns and you don’t see him applying moisturizer every night before bed. But his touches are feather light, bordering teasing.
Even when he takes your wrists in his hand and hold them above your head as he thrusts into you it’s like he’s holding a precious gemstone.
At one point you take his hand and put in on your throat, just to see if he’s holding back. He swiftly moves it, leaning down to kiss you instead, “not like that, honey.” He whispers it so low in your ear, you could cum just from his voice.
After every bite there’s a kiss, every thrust he watches your face for any trace of pain.
He focuses on your pleasure fully before even considering his own. He’s the type of man you read about in romance novels, that seems like some nonexistent, made up character.
When you flip him over and start riding him, he holds your hips so preciously. It’s firm but gentle, guiding your every move as you bottom out, feeling nothing but ecstasy.
“Wanna hear you,” he says every time you’re being quiet. He wants you to say his name, whimper, curse, anything, because anything you do drives him insane.
When you cum around him, he cums with you. Because he can’t help but reach his climax watching your face twist in pleasure, screaming his name until your throats dry, and clenching around him like your life depends on it.
You realize that he does that nearly every-time, that his pleasure is derived from your own, and you find that insanely hot. Hotter than any roughness could be.
Frank Castle can be gentle… and he’s the best you’ve ever had.
“If you stare any harder, your eyes are gonna leave an imprint on the back of her head, Park.”
Brendon’s head jerks to the side, startled by the voice. He rolls his eyes with a shake of his head.
“Don’t know what you’re talking about Robinavitch.”
Robby chuckles as he stands beside Brendon “Yeah, and the sky’s purple. All I’m saying is you should ask her out. You and I both know she’s the nicest person here and a great catch. If you’re not careful, others will see it too and snatch her right up.”
Brendon crosses his arms and huffs silently as Robby walks away.
You were the beloved nurse of the hospital, more specifically in the emergency department. Everyone loved you and never had anything bad to say, including the patients.
You were also too good for him. Where you were all sunshine and smiles, he was rainclouds and storms. He also couldn’t tell if you were even interested.
You did eat lunch with him almost every day. You were the one to catch him up on the latest gossip. You were the first to offer him help if he needed it. You also were the one who could break him out of a bad mood.
Yet, he didn’t know if you felt things for him that were more than friends. You weren’t dating or seeing anyone but you also never mentioned wanting a boyfriend either.
Several people would comment that he needed to ask you out or stake his claim if he didn’t want to lose you but he just couldn’t bring himself to do it. He also had heard enough of the pestering and the teasing. It only reminded him that he couldn’t have you.
So, in that moment Brendon knew what he’d have to do soon. And it would stand to be the dumbest thing he could do to deal with his feelings.
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You’re across the other side of the pitt updating electronic files when hands land on your shoulders.
“The shark is staring at you again, girl.”
A small smile makes its way onto your face as you shake your head lightly.
“Trin, I told you to stop calling him that. Also, he’s not staring.”
Trinity places her phone in your face and you see a picture of Brendon leaning on the nurses station counter and staring right at you, who is in the background.
“Trinity! Why are you taking pictures of him!” you laugh as you turn to face her.
“Because you love to be in denial about how he’s so into you. I’m telling you, he wants you. And we all know you want him too.” she raises a knowing eyebrow.
Your face heats up at the statement.
“See!” she exclaims “Guilty, guilty, guilty!”
You shake your head in amusement as you go back to your filing.
“Oh, there he comes! Bye girl!”
You turn to look at Trinity but are met with the large broad chest of Brendon.
“Hey trouble.” he says a little gruffly but you know that’s the norm for him.
You face him fully with a shy smile “Hey Bren, what can I do for you?”
He holds his hand out expectantly without a word. You cross your arms and tilt your head slightly.
“I’m fine, Bren. I’ve been in range.”
He doesn’t move a muscle, hand still out.
With a huff you hold out your arm to him. He grabs it gently and scrolls through your apple watch.
‘89 bpm avg. over last 4 hours’
He stares at it as he reads. “That’s higher than when your shift started.”
“I know but it’s been steady since.”
See, you had a heart rhythm disorder, Cardiac arrhythmia, specifically tachycardia. This meant that your heart rate often went over 100 bpm. The higher it went, the worse it was for you. The episodes of arrhythmia would make you feel like you couldn’t breathe because your heart was beating way too fast. Other symptoms included dizziness, lightheaded feelings and extreme fatigue after episodes.
This was something discovered as a kid and it happened more often as you were older. Episodes varied depending on different factors or they happened randomly.
This was something you disclosed to your pitt family for your safety and in case something happened when you were treating a patient.
When Brendon found out, he took it upon himself to be your monitor. He would check your bpm periodically during the day and advise you when to rest or take it easy if he felt your vitals reflected that.
As annoying as it could be at times, you knew he cared and you couldn’t truly be mad at him for it. It was one of the several reasons you started falling for him.
He meets your eyes, arm still in his hands. “If it goes any higher, sit down and text me. Okay?”
You move forward and give him a lingering hug.
“I will, Bren. Promise. Text me when you’re headed to lunch and I’ll meet you.”
He kisses the top of your head “Will do. See you later, trouble.”
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It's the next day during shift that things take a turn.
Today you and Brendon have opposite shifts. You had traded shifts with a fellow nurse which meant you were team night shift for today.
Walking in ten minutes early, you're greeted by the night shift brigade. “There’s our new night owl!” Jack smiles wide from the desk area.
You point at him with a matching smile “Only for the night, Abbot. Sunlight is more my style.”
He scoffs in amusement.
“You know you’d love it if you switched over to the nightcrawlers, kid.”
The laughing is interrupted by a deep voice speaking up.
“Over my dead body.”
You turn to the side and see Brendon approaching slowly with his arms crossed.
“Bren, I'm not going anywhere.” you pat his chest lightly “Who else would I eat my lunch with while catching up on Pittsburgh gossip?”
He slings an arm around your shoulder and pulls you close. Jack catches the gestures between you both and smirks “Don’t worry shark, you can keep your little early bird.”
You don't notice Jack’s observant gaze because you’re too busy getting ready to talk to Brendon briefly before shift change. Your bpm had been higher today than yesterday and you wanted to keep him updated even though you guys weren't going to be on the same shift today.
“Hey Bren, I ju-” you start to lift your arm but stop when Dana speaks up from beside Jack.
“Shark, When were you gonna tell us you had a date? Garcia mentioned it earlier. When’s that happening?”
You could’ve sworn your world stopped after her words.
Date? He had a date?
You lower your arm back as you look up at him, waiting for his answer. Waiting for him to tell her she’s wrong and that there’s no date.
His face shows he’s not too thrilled that the topic has been brought up but he answers anyway.
“I uh, yeah. It’s tonight actually. She seems nice so we’ll see.”
His eyes catch yours and you quickly force a smile before looking elsewhere.
Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry.
You can’t see Trinity and Robby stopped near the group having overheard the news. You can’t see the sad looks they give you. Both of them knew you had a massive crush on Brendon and were hopeful he would make the move.
But I guess not.
Jack observes you and Brendon again and knows that Brendon likes you and you him. So why is he going on a date that isn't with you?
You cough a little to keep yourself from crying in front of everyone.
“I’ve got to put my stuff up, be right back. Have a good night guys and good luck tonight Bren. I’ll uh, talk to you later.”
You quickly make your way to the lockers, wiping a tear away, not being able to hold it back anymore.
Did he not like you?
Were you just imagining things?
How could you have been so wrong?
—--
It’s two hours into your shift and you’re still pretty down about the revelation of Brendon’s date tonight.
You check your phone as you finish a snack and find a text from Trinity
That gets a small smile out of you. Trinity was one of a kind and you could always count on her to cheer you up outside of Brendon.
As you throw your trash away and make your way back to the floor, a pain in your chest stops you. You stay still and assess yourself. Your heart feels like it’s racing a bit but nothing too alarming. Checking your watch you see there’s a new notification
Shit, it had gotten higher than what it was this morning.
You shake your head a bit.
I’ll worry about it later, I’ll be fine.
—--
Almost an hour goes by and now the symptoms are stacking. You know you should tell someone but you don’t want to bother or worry anyone. Night shift was busy and there wasn’t too much downtime to have.
“Kid, did you hear me?”
What?
You turn your head to follow the voice and see Jack.
“Yeah?”
Jack tilts his head as he observes your demeanor.
“I asked if you were on the way to the next patient.”
You blink hard as your heart races more than it had all day.
‘Yeah I’m going now.’ you think to you say out loud
“Kid, hey. Are you okay?”
You can’t answer as your chest heaves from beating so fast.
Shit.
You’re unsteady on your feet and you start to stumble. Grabbing your chest you sink to your knees on the ground.
“Woah! C’mon kid, look, breathe with me. Deep breaths. Ellis! Get a gurney now!
Voices start to blur together as you try to keep your eyes open.
‘I need you, Bren’ you think as it all starts to go black.
‘I need you.’
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Brendon smiles politely at the woman in front of him
They’re at a nice restaurant in downtown Pittsburgh, having just placed their orders.
She’s nice and beautiful but…shes not you.
She doesn’t laugh loudly at his jokes.
She doesn’t hold his hand and play with his fingers while talking like you do.
Her nose doesn't scrunch when she smiles like yours does.
Why the hell did he do this?
He should have just asked you out even if the end result was rejection. He just misses you.
Brendon listens as his date talks about her job at the local news station when his phone goes off signaling a text. It sits on the corner of the table where he can glance and read it.
His heart drops into his stomach with every word he reads. Not even realizing Jack had referred to you as ‘his girl’.
Shit, he never checked your watch earlier. He always does.
“Hey look, I’m so sorry. I have an emergency at the hospital. This was great but I don’t think this is gonna work. Stay and eat, it’s on me. Again, I’m so sorry.”
He rushes the apology to his date as he gathers his things and quickly makes his way to ptmc.
—--
The sound of shoes racing across the floor causes Jack to look up from his chart. Brendon looks around, chest heaving from running a few blocks from the restaurant.
“Park!” Jack calls and motions him forward.
Brendon jogs up to him “Where is she?”
Jack leads him to a room where you lay in a bed resting.
He immediately walks to your side and gently holds your face with one hand.
Jack fills him in on what he witnessed.
Brendon shakes his head with guilt at not checking in with you earlier.
After a few minutes the movement of his hand slowly wakes you from your sleep.
“Bren?”
He sits and leans his elbow on your bed, hand in your hand.
“Hey trouble, you feeling okay?”
You nod sluggishly with your eyes closed “I’m so tired Bren.”
He squeezes your hand lightly.
“That’s okay sweetheart. You just rest and I’ll be right here. Wanna tell me what happened tonight?”
You swallow as you turn your head to face him.
“Bpm was higher this morning than yesterday. I meant to show you earlier but forgot. Then I started feeling bad after a few hours and I knew I should’ve taken it easy but I didn’t.”
“I’m so sorry sweetheart. I always check and I didn’t this time.”
You shake your head “No Bren, it’s not your fault. You were leaving and you had that– oh my god, your date! Please don’t tell me you left it to be here?”
He smiles at your rambling.
“I'm fine right here. You know I’d drop anything to be there for you, always. And it wasn’t working out anyways… kinda had my mind on someone else.”
You furrow your eyebrows at this.
Someone else? Another person?
“She’s funny, smart, fucking gorgeous, the best nurse, always has lunch with me, and is a bit of trouble in the best way of course.” he winks at the last part.
There’s no way.
Your eyes widen a bit “Bren? Wh–”
“Shhh” he rubs his thumb across your hand. “Just rest for now and I’ll ask you on a date properly when you’re feeling better.”
You smile as your eyes start to close from the exhaustion “okay” you murmur.
I love some med school and/or 30s-40s rabbot love stories. but I think I'm mostly enamored with present rabbot. because even after jack getting married once and losing his love and losing his leg and going through whatever else he went through in the army and whatever he's going through now. that even after robby with COVID, and adamson, and his commitment issues and abandonment issues, and his multiple failed relationships, and his ever increasing struggle with his own mind. they found love. they found each other and it worked.
john price who buys a plot of land and moves west, only to arrive after weeks on the trail and find a ramshackle little cabin already squatting on it. the whole place looks abandoned. reeks of neglect. he draws his gun and ventures in for a look anyway, see if he can’t at least salvage the place to build his own—and scares its lone resident, a woman armed only with a knife.
though it takes some time, skittish as you are, he talks you down. learns who you are and what you’re doing on his property. apparently, you’ve been fending for yourself for months after your new husband took your horse into town for supplies and simply never came back. no letter or body, nor word from anybody who might’ve seen him—just a house that’s falling apart and a garden you depend on to keep you alive.
price shows you the deed and bill of sale to convince you he isn’t some drifter or swindler trying to trick or rob you, and watches the fight go out of you when you realize what the papers actually mean, that the land was never your husband’s to begin with. that this stranger has every right to put you out.
you were frightened before, but now you’re looking at winter coming on with no horse, hardly any money, nowhere to go, and truly no one left in the world. and price, who’s spent his life living hard and thought that he’d spend the back half of his life alone, finds he can’t stomach the sight of you standing there trying not to beg him mercy.
he looks at the growing calluses on your palms, the dirt under your fingernails, and the dried mud caked along the hem of your skirts, and he is struck. all those violent, bloody years he survived when better men did not? this must be what he’s been kept alive for. to come all this way to this slice of heaven and find you here.
so he strikes a bargain instead: you can stay through the next month while you decide what you want to do. in the meantime you’ll help him make the place livable and he’ll teach you what he knows.
you’re not stupid. you know exactly how lopsided a deal it is, how little you have to offer compared to what he’s putting on the table—besides the obvious. he gives you the night to think it over, you toss and turn beneath for hours trying to invent a better alternative, but there simply isn’t one.
in the morning, bleary-eyed and embarrassed, you tell him you accept. john just grins and drains his coffee. to him, the matter was never in much doubt. he puts the two of you to work immediately.
the first few weeks are hard. john tackles the roof and walls first, making you his little helper, calling down for whatever tool he needs next or sending you to fetch whatever materials you can manage. you go to bed and wake up sore, palms blistering in a pair of his old gloves. all the while, john, strong as an ox, seems capable of working from dawn until dusk.
in the afternoons, when the heat makes repair work miserable, he puts you both on his horse and rides double to the nearby lake to teach you to fish. you squirm the first time he makes you gut a trout, nearly retching when the knife opens its belly. john only laughs when you try to shove the whole bloody business back toward him. his big hands close over yours instead, guiding the blade while his chest glues to your back, his voice rumbling in your ear as he chides you for trying to worm your way out of it. can’t live on good intentions, love. go on. get your fingers in there.
he teaches you to shoot next and that’s when you get your first inkling of whatever life he led before he found you. he’s an excellent shot, on foot and horseback. he’s also a good teacher. hands-on. correcting your stance, one wide palm at your waist and the other on your elbow, enduring every flinch of yours until you can fire without shaking. he shows you how to set basic snares and read the ground for tracks. in return, you teach him what grows best in the garden and what you’ve found foraging.
and during those early weeks, you live on edge, waiting for him to ask for more than just a second helping at dinner. because you know enough of the world to know what sort of bargain a woman in your position might ordinarily be expected to make, whether the exact terms are spoken aloud or not.
you hold your breath whenever he squeezes past you in the kitchen and go stiff when his hands squeeze your sides while shooting, steadying you against the recoil. more than once you’ve lain awake listening to the floorboards creak beneath his weight while he stays up late, waiting for him to appear at your bedside. when you bathe in the lake, he stands watch on the bank with his back turned, and though you wait to catch him looking over his shoulder. but, to your honest shock, he never does.
he’s refreshingly gentlemanly. you can’t tell whether he’s honoring the existence of your husband, suspended somewhere in that awful limbo between living and dead, or whether john is simply a patient man biding his time. waiting for the right moment.
whatever the reason, each day that passes without him demanding that certain kind of tender as payment relaxes you just a bit more. your vigilance eases and you stop keeping track of where he is in and outside of the cabin. for the first time in a long time, you feel at peace.
as a consequence, the whole situation grows domestic. his razor appears beside your washbasin. his coat hangs beside yours by the door. you start setting two places at breakfast and supper. at night, when there’s oil or wax to spare, you read aloud to each other.
so it comes as a surprise when, near the end of the month, john tells you to put on your best. you’re going into town.
today, apparently, you’re going to finally buy a horse of your own.
you start protesting immediately—you haven’t the money for a horse, your husband carried the bulk of it, you certainly don’t have enough a good one—but john waves all that away. you need one, he insists. can’t have you stranded. and while you’re in town, you can make some inquiries after your husband.
that shuts you up. almost makes you petulant. worse is the stab of shame when you realize you’ve barely thought of the man in weeks. for months, his absence had occupied every waking hour. you would daydream and imagine hoofbeats or footsteps and fly to the window, searching. then john arrived, and at some point, your husband became an afterthought.
in town, john waits patiently while you ask after your husband at the general store, the barber, the blacksmith. he accompanies you into the saloon, standing a few paces behind while you question the bartender and whatever regulars might have been there around the time your husband disappeared. john doesn’t say a word. he watches their faces, thick arms folded across his chest, eyes jumping from face to face beneath the brim of his hat while you explain when your husband left, the horse, and what he looked like.
nobody knows a thing.
in the end, you wilt dutifully. resigned to the fact that he either ran off or that his bones are bleaching in a ditch somewhere on the road. the thought ought to devastate you more than it does, and that brings another little stab of guilt.
john simply plants a hand between your shoulder blades and steers you toward the livery.
there, at least, he manages to cheer you up. he helps you choose a pretty chestnut gelding with a blaze on his forehead and a friendly disposition. john pays for him while you’re busy cooing at the creature, along with a saddle and tack, and when you claim that you’ll pay him back, he merely smiles and says, ‘m sure you will, love.
back home, neither of you mention that your agreement is nearly up. and when the month comes and goes, and neither of you mentions that either.
the timeline simply stretches, one day passing into the next. any sense of urgency gets lost. there’s still work to be done on the cabin, after all. you’re getting better with the rifle but john reckons you’ve plenty left to learn. you’ve only just got your own horse and ought to become a better rider before setting off anywhere alone. then the sun starts setting earlier and the leaves start to change, and really, leaving now would be foolish what with winter so close. you better to stay until spring.
john lays all this out over dinner one night. says it so plainly.
you agree, a mite too eager, and hide your smile behind another bite.
that night, while you sleep curled beneath your blankets, john eases your door open enough to look in on you. he stands there for a long while, listening to your breathing, before slipping a hand into his pocket. his thumb finds the worn band of that wedding ring he picked off a dead man on the road west and toys with it.
he wonders if he ought to pray. john never put much stock in faith or fate before. but what could he call this? finding that failure of a man, then finding the home he’d abandoned and the wife he’d left behind? what else is john supposed to understand it as, if not a series of signs pointing him precisely where he was meant to go? of all the land he might have bought, all the roads he might have taken—what are the chances?
the next day, he takes that dead man’s ring down to the lake and tosses it in. he will buy another the next time the two of you ride into town.
and that night, after weeks of patience, of sneaking off to see to his own wants in private, kicking dirt over his wasted spend, he will finally make his move. he will employ that same slow tenderness he’s shown you from the beginning. he has no reason to believe you won’t welcome it. you won’t shy away. you’ve been alone so long, starved for company, and he’s taught you to reach for him when you need something, hasn’t he?
no, you won’t fight him one bit. you’ll understand better, too, when he’s got you on your back, cock buried deep, drool hanging off your lip—you’ll know that you’re both right where you belong. where you’re meant to be.
and with luck, by the time spring returns, there’ll be more reason for you to stay. maybe his baby in your belly and a new ring on your finger. that bargain of a single month so far behind you both that neither of you will remember there was ever supposed to be an ending to it.
5.8k || All my content is 18+ MDNI || CW: discussions of Smurf; self-hate; feelings of worthlessness and being undeserving; not canon or canon timeline compliant; foreplay; allusions to oral sex, reader receiving; dad!Andrew; pregnancy; getting pregnant while on the pill; quickest mention of being sick (nobody is and nothing is described); soft; soft; soft; soft; fluffy; fluffy; fluffy; fluffy; no use of y/n.
Summary: As you and Andrew stroll along the beach Christmas evening you have one last present left to give him.
AN: I don't know friends lol. This one feels particularly meh to me for some reason. Maybe it's just because I'm so blah and meh right now. Maybe it just is meh. 😂 In any event, I had a chunk of this drafted so I just went ahead and finished it up, and so we're having Christmas in May. This is set on Christmas day but there's nothing religious about it, and I tried to keep it so that it doesn't necessarily say or imply that reader celebrates Christmas, especially in any religious sense, it's more about Andrew and his Christmas and it being a holiday. I don't think I have much more to say about it lol. I stuck with Andrew again because it feels so soft and right. I hope it's fluffy and cute and okay and that you enjoy! Thank you so much for reading and all of your support!! ♥️
If he did this little smile into a mouth thing™️ in front of me I'd cease to exist 🤠:
It's Andrew's first real Christmas.
Maybe that's dramatic and maybe even somewhat horrible to say given that Smurf at least ostensibly gave him Christmases as a kid. But that's what it feels like, both to him and to you. It's how his siblings and J feel too.
It's his first Christmas without his mother around to use it as another tool to manipulate and hurt him with. He's never liked the holiday, but then he's never liked any holidays. He couldn't stay away from the house and his mother on holidays, he always had to be home.
All of them did.
And when you and Andrew started dating you were expected to be there too. Not because Smurf really wanted you there, she hated you and the way you took Andrew away from her, but because she'd never turn down an opportunity to be as subtly nasty to you as possible in an effort to get you to leave her son.
It didn't work out well for her. You and Andrew celebrated six years together earlier this year, bought a house and there's been two beautiful rings on your finger and one on his for over two years now.
The two of you had considered waiting to get married until she wasn't around to taint a wedding. But one day Andrew decided no, the two of you were going to get married whenever the hell you wanted to, however the hell you wanted to.
If you wanted to wait until Smurf was gone, then that was okay with him, he'd happily wait. If you wanted to get married while she was still around then he'd make it happen. If you wanted a big wedding, he'd make sure you had the big wedding of your dreams. If you wanted a small wedding then he'd make sure you had the small wedding of your dreams.
In the end you'd eloped, driven up the coast to Big Sur and exchanged vows on a quiet, hidden beach. It was just you, Andrew, the officiant and his wife, the one witness you needed for the marriage certificate.
Smurf was pissed when she found out. And when you said you didn't want a party or anything at the house that pissed her off even more because she couldn't find a way to make it about herself.
You'd spoken to Andrew a lot about what he wanted to do this Christmas since it's the first where he's truly been able to decide for himself and without Smurf around and without any expectations. You were happy to have it be a cozy day with just the two of you in your recently purchased beach front house, but you were also happy to host his brothers and J because you recognize it's their first real Christmas too and know that despite Smurf, family means a lot to Andrew. He's grown particularly close with Deran. Andrew is your priority though, always, so if he wanted it to just be the two of you then that's what you'd do.
He didn't really have any preference with the holiday not really meaning anything to him. In the end you guys decided to have the morning together and then invite his brothers and J over around noon or so for Christmas dinner, or Christmas lunch, really, you guess. That way Craig, Ren and Nick could go to her family, Deran and Adrian could make it to Adrian's family, and J and his new girlfriend could make it to her family.
Normally you wake up to Andrew's eyes on you if he's up before you, and he almost always is. But today when you finally flutter your eyes open he's propped himself up with some pillows and is staring at the ceiling, lost in thought while his thumb absentmindedly brushes over the back of your hand that he's holding. He always has to be touching you, your Andrew.
You stay still as you lay on your side next to him, smile to yourself as you admire the man you love desperately. You trace his profile with your eyes, his strong nose and plush lips, continue down and take in his neck, the slightest bit of stubble there from not having shaved yet today, move down to his broad chest that you love to rest your head on and that houses a heart that you know beats only for you.
After a couple of moments you let him know you're awake. "Thinking awfully hard over there, Mr. Cody." Andrew's head snaps over to look down at you. "Morning, Handsome," you smile at him. "And Merry Christmas."
"Morning, Beautiful." His voice is still thick with sleep so he hasn't been up too long, cheeks flushing just a touch at you calling him handsome even after all this time. "Merry Christmas."
His hand tugs on yours gently and you do as he wordlessly asks, bring your lips to his for what's always the sweetest good morning kiss.
"You wanna talk about it?" you ask him as the two of you settle in bed, Andrew sliding down a bit and you curling into his side, resting your head on his chest. You run your hand up and down his chest and tummy, the perfect level of definition and softness, and warm, so very, very warm just like the rest of him.
He shrugs, arm wrapping around you and running up and down your back in time with your hand on him. "I was thinking about how nice it is… Getting to lay here with you Christmas morning and enjoy it, not have to worry about going over to the house later and what Smurf will do this time."
"It is pretty nice," you murmur, roll your head into him a little further and kiss his chest where your lips happen to reach. "You know, I was thinking. Maybe tonight we could go on a walk along the beach. We could make it our own little tradition."
Andrew takes in a deep breath and lets it out through his nose slowly. "I'd like that." He shifts slightly so that he's a bit further down and on his side a little, his arm still under you almost like he's cradling you a little. Hazel eyes that look almost golden in the morning light trickling in through the curtains search yours. "I love you."
You smile at him and you're so beautiful he can't believe you're real and you're here and you're his. Before you can even say it back Andrew has rolled the two of you a little more, one of his legs slotted between yours and half of his body pressed against yours with half of your back pressed against the mattress. He kisses you, slow, but deep, licking into your mouth and sighing happily into the kiss when he pulls a breathy moan from you.
Your eyes stay closed for a few seconds after he pulls away, a smaller version of that same smile that made him kiss you lighting up your face. You open your eyes and reach up to cup your husband's face. "I love you too."
You bite your lip and giggle a little because Andrew is your husband. He's been your husband for over two years now but it's still surreal in some ways, almost unbelievable. You can’t believe he’s yours, not just because of how attractive he is, but because of what a good man he is despite the reputation his mother forced upon him. He’s treated you better than any of the supposedly stand up guys from your past.
Your giggle and lip bite earn you a slight raise of his brows and amused quirk of his lips. You shrug. "I just can't believe you're my husband. You're the best, Andrew. You treat me better than anyone ever has, you care so deeply for those you love and you show it in all of the things you do for everyone. You’re such a good man. Sometimes I just can’t believe I got so lucky."
You move your hands down to rub at his chest, drop your voice. "Not to mention how handsome and hot and sexy you are." You press your fingertips into his chest a little more firmly, tilt them slightly so that your nails drag lightly over his skin and move them down his chest and abdomen. "You know, there's still some time before I need to get up and get the roast in the oven and start cooking."
He smirks at you, but you can feel him growing hard against your leg. "You don't even know what time it is."
"I can tell by the brightness of the sun,” you quip.
He huffs a laugh. "Bullshit,” he whispers against your lips as he kisses you again.
You hum at him. "Well, I really don't care if we eat later than planned. I wanna have sex with my husband."
"That sounds more like my girl," he smirks at you, head spinning at the prospect of getting to have you. He gets those same overwhelming moments of disbelief that you do, ones where he can’t seem to process how you’re truly his wife. But you are. You’re his wife, who wants to have sex with him and who bought a house with him and who took his last name. He rolls you further, adjusts the pillows so that you’re laying flat against the mattress for him.
"Yeah?" you breathe, run your hands up his arms and thread your fingers into his curls.
"Yeah,” Andrew breathes back at you before kissing you again, harder this time, devouring you as he drops his hips against yours and starts to grind. His lips leave yours only to find your jawline, kiss along it until he reaches your neck, lips moving down and taking turns pressing the softest teasing kisses to your skin and sucking at all the most sensitive spots he has memorized.
"Say it again," you pant softly, moaning when he nibbles at your collarbone. “Please.”
"Say what?" He nuzzles his nose into the top of one of your breasts before kissing down and taking one of your nipples in his mouth.
You whine at how good his mouth feels, at how he always seems to know the perfect movements and perfect pressure and exactly what you need to have you desperate for him in seconds. "That I'm your girl, Andrew, fuck.”
He releases your nipple and kisses across your chest to the other. "You're my girl," he murmurs before taking your other nipple in his mouth, laving at it briefly and sucking hard when he pulls away. "My woman." Andrew kisses down your abdomen, presses kisses to each of your hips before trailing his lips inward. "My wife."
You swallow hard, almost ruin your own surprise and blurt out everything right then and there. But you manage to keep yourself from saying anything, only moan in response as his lips grow closer to where you're now desperate for them to be.
"Oh, Andrew," you sigh, breathy and low, as he kisses just above your clit and puts one arm over your hips to help hold you down. His other hand takes yours, laces your fingers together so you're palm to palm, and you tangle the fingers of your other hand in his auburn curls.
Andrew doesn't say anything in response, just gives your hand a soft squeeze and licks you cunt to clit.
As the sun sets on the day you and Andrew walk along the path at the edge of the beach, the sounds of the waves crashing and lapping at the shore and seagulls cawing a familiar soundtrack to some of your most important moments together. You think it's fitting that it'll become the soundtrack to this one.
You squeeze his hand when your bench comes into view. He looks down and over at you with slightly raised brows. Andrew's eyes are golden again in the light of the setting sun just like they were this morning in the light of the rising sun. You give him a soft smile, glance over at your bench and flick your chin at it. "Wanna sit for a little?"
There's something to the tone of your voice that gives him a second of pause. You sound almost… nervous. It's strange. But the smile you're wearing is so warm and genuine he tries not to overthink it too much. "I'd like that," he nods.
You squeeze his hand and the two of you continue walking, sit on the bench with the sides of your thighs pressed together. This bench has seen a lot. It's seen almost everything. You sat on this bench when Andrew asked you out for the first time. You shared your first kiss here, said I love you for the first time sitting on this bench. Andrew got down on one knee as you sat on this bench and asked you to marry him. It's truly your bench.
So it's the perfect place for this.
Andrew wraps his arm around you and pulls you close. You rest your head against his shoulder and chest for a minute as he kisses the top of your head, let him have these last few seconds before everything changes.
Once you're ready you pull a small, flat box from the pouch of his sweatshirt that you're wearing. You'd worn it not just for the usual reasons, it's comfy and warm, and is too big and smells like him and makes you feel wrapped up in him even as you walk, but also because it's oversized enough to make the box less obvious.
"Andrew?" He hums at you in response and you lick your lips. "I um, I have one last thing for you." You offer him the box and shift so that you're looking up at him. "Merry Christmas, my love."
Andrew looks down at the small box with slightly furrowed brows and a confused expression as he takes it from you. It's adorable. He's adorable. You guys did presents with his brothers and their respective partners and family so you understand his confusion. "I thought we already did presents?"
"We did," you laugh softly. "I just…" You trail off, look out over the ocean for a second and try to get your heart rate to come down, your nervous energy just growing and growing. This is a surprise. It was a big fucking surprise for you and it'll be just as big of one for him. Bigger, probably.
You worry about his reaction, whether he'll be happy, or not want this right now or ever. Deep down, you know he'll be fucking thrilled, that Andrew wants this, has always wanted this even if he hasn't let himself fully express it. It's just hard for you in the moment with how unexpected this is, your brain all over the place, the hormones swamping your system pulling your thoughts in every direction.
You take in a deep breath and let it out as you turn back to him with a small smile on your face. "I don't know. I wanted this one to be by itself… and out here on our bench."
Andrew picks up on your anxiety easily, has to work hard to not let it trigger his own. The furrow to his brows deepens, corners of his mouth pulling down slightly. He's far more concerned about you than he is the gift. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah." You give him a small, genuine smile that meets your eyes and nod. "Open it," you whisper.
He studies you for another moment but then does as you ask, pulling the top of the small box off. Andrew has no idea what he expected to be in the box but what looks almost like a neatly folded pair of boxer briefs wasn't far up his list of possibilities. His eyes glance up to you, uncertainty present in all his features.
You nod encouragingly for him to take it out, chew the inside of your cheek as he returns his focus to the box to do so. Andrew pulls whatever it is out of the box and then holds it out in front of him, lets it unfold.
As he takes in what he's holding and what it says, Andrew stops breathing.
It's a newborn sized onesie that reads 'Daddy's future skating buddy' with skateboards all over it.
Andrew knows what it means, he knows what you're telling him, what you have to be telling him, but his brain can't process it because there's no fucking way. You're on birth control.
You knew he'd have a reaction like this, something quiet and almost slightly delayed as his brain wraps itself around the news and the idea of himself as a father. You just didn't realize how anxious it would make you feel.
"I know it's a surprise, it was for me too. I'm not perfect with my pill, I don't take it exactly at the same time every day and stuff, but it's worked this far, and I, I…" You laugh softly. "I never thought for a second I'd be a part of the 7 to 9 percent that would get pregnant."
Andrew's eyes tear from the onesie over to you as he brings his arms back in, gripping onto the onesie like a lifeline and subconsciously holding it over his heart. "That you'd what?" he whispers, voice strained, but not in a bad way. His eyes are glassy like he's about to cry. He can't believe he isn't crying already.
You realize he needs to hear it from you to truly process it. "That would get pregnant." You smile at him, eyes just as glassy as his. "I'm pregnant, Andrew. You're going to be a daddy."
Hearing you say it rocks him to his core, sends pure happiness and joy coursing through him in a way he's only ever experienced in relation to you. But his mind tears it apart in a second and his eyes fall from yours down to stare at the sandy sidewalk.
Baz's words ring loudly through his head.
No one is ever going to have a kid with you. Ever.
You can't possibly actually want this with him.
You can't possibly actually want this with him, especially with it being unplanned. You said it yourself, it was a surprise. You must be upset by this, maybe you don't want to go through with it. Yes, you look happy, you sound happy, you seem genuinely happy, but maybe he's making that all up because he wants this so badly.
Or maybe you are happy. The two of you have talked about kids before, of course, both of you open to them but not necessarily dead set on having them. It was always something you guys said you'd talk about when the time felt like it might be right. So maybe you're happy now, but maybe as it all settles in your mind you'll change it, decide that no, you don't want kids with him, how could you be so stupid for even a second to think that might be a good idea.
Maybe you'll decide not to move forward with the pregnancy. Maybe the idea is slowly going to freak you out so much that you realize even the potential of getting pregnant again is too much for you and so you'll leave him.
And regardless, he doesn't deserve this. He can't have this. He'll be a terrible father. He lost Lena. Sure, a lot of that was circumstance and him not wanting to subject her to Smurf, and yes it was before he even knew you, but still. Baz said what he did for a reason. Every child deserves so much better than him for a father. It's bad enough he's selfish and subjects you to himself, he can't do that to a child, especially his own.
His own baby. A little piece of you and him, a little piece of your love physically manifested in the world. God he wants that. He wants this. He wants this baby with you.
Andrew's thoughts are all but written on his face and he's all but saying them out loud for you to hear with how easily you read him. You can tell how excited he is and how his brain is destroying this for him. You know he's telling himself he doesn't deserve this and that you probably don't truly want this and that you shouldn't want this. You know he's telling himself how bad of a father he'll be, that he shouldn't subject a child to himself.
"Andrew," you murmur. You slide yourself onto his lap as he continues to clutch the onesie to his chest. You take his face in your hands and kiss his forehead gently. When his gaze comes back up to you, you hold it, smile widely at him.
"You're not upset?" he whispers.
"No, Sweetheart," you shake your head gently. "I'm the opposite of upset. I'm excited and happy and so fucking in love with them and with you, and thanking everything out there that I'm getting to do this with you and have you and have you by my side for all of this. I'm nervous, yeah, but in that way most people are when they find out they're going to be a parent for the first time."
It hits you then. You're making a whole lot of assumptions right now. You're assuming Andrew wants this. That he isn't upset. That he wants to go through with this.
You're suddenly whispering like he has been and Andrew can feel the change in your mood, a worried nervousness of a different kind. "Are you upset? Because we don't have to… go through with the pregnancy if you don't want to. We can talk about it, I didn't mean for there to be any pressure and I shouldn't have assumed."
"No," he shakes his head quickly, brows furrowing. "I'm not upset. I'm, I'm…"
That's all the confirmation you need that what you thought was correct. He's deep in his head and struggling to get out despite wanting to be happy and excited with you. "Andrew, this is a good thing. This is the best thing. Let yourself have this my love. Let yourself have this moment with me. Be here with me, yeah? Just be here with me."
He nods slowly, that part of his mind destroying this for him shutting off. It'll never cease to amaze him how you can do that, how you've always had the ability to get his mind to quiet so that he can focus on the present with you and just existing in the moment.
Your thumbs brush over his cheekbones as he lets go of the onesie with one hand so he can wrap an arm around you but keeps it clutched against his heart with his other hand. "I'm pregnant," you tell him again once you can see he's back in the moment with you. "You're going to be a daddy. And you're not going to be anything like her Andrew. I know you're worried about that and I promise you I know you're going to be nothing like her. You're going to be the best fucking father in the whole world and this baby is already so, so fucking lucky in life because they have you as their father, even if you can't believe that yet. I know it."
You lean in and give him a kiss, soft and loving and trying to pour how much you mean your words into him. "This baby is going to want for nothing and know nothing but love. They'll always feel safe and protected and know that they are, and they'll always feel so, so special to their father, feel so incredibly loved by him, because they will be. They already are." You swallow thickly, a few tears finally escaping and slipping quickly down your face. "This baby couldn't have a better father. I couldn't have picked or, or created a better man to have a baby with, a better father for my child."
Andrew isn't sure he agrees with everything you just said but he finally lets all of the happiness and excitement and joy and shock out. He finally lets himself truly have this.
"I'm going to be a father," he breathes out, words wet with the tears that finally start to fall. "We're having a baby. You're giving me a baby."
"Yeah," you whisper, laughing through happy tears. "You are and we are. We're having a baby. You're going to be the best daddy ever and I can't wait to get to watch you love them." The two of you lean in for the kiss you share naturally, let it linger and deepen as you both continue to have tears stream down your face, the whole thing so reminiscent of the way you kissed after you said yes to Andrew's proposal. You sniffle when the kiss breaks, use your thumbs to try to wipe away some of the tears on his face. "You know when we take our Christmas walk next year they'll be with us."
"They'll be here. Our baby will be here," he whispers. Another wave of tears flood his eyes and spill down his cheeks onto your thumbs. He smiles at you, something small and genuine, disbelief and a happiness you can feel written in it. His chin trembles hard, harder than you've ever seen before. "You're pregnant. You're really pregnant?"
"I'm pregnant," you nod, smiling at him through your own tears.
Andrew lets out a wet laugh and accepts the kiss you give him. "Thank you. Thank you so much. You're giving me a baby, thank you. I love you, I love you so much more than I know what to do with. Thank you."
He lets the onesie fall between the two of you as you shift on his lap so that you're chest to chest, your legs wrapped around him through the gap in the bench. "I love you too," you murmur. "I love you so much."
You wrap your arms around each other tightly, hold each other close as you bask in the news and this moment together. One of Andrew's hands holds the back of your head to keep you close as he nearly sobs into your neck, the reality that he's going to be a father and that you think he's going to be a good father and that he's going to have the opportunity to give his baby the childhood and life and support he never had sinking in and healing a piece of him.
"I'm sorry," he sniffles against you. "They're good, I promise. I'm just so happy." His voice breaks over the last word as more tears wet your neck.
You hold him tighter, rub his back with one hand and gently lean the side of your head against his. "Don't apologize," you murmur, voice watery with your own tears. "I know they are. I know, Handsome."
At some point both of you pull it together enough to look at each other and laugh through the rest of your tears before sharing kiss after kiss. You let the sleeve of Andrew's hoodie slip over your hand and use it to clean his face, let him use it to clean yours and your neck.
You stay sitting as you are, keep your arms wrapped loosely around his waist. You smile to yourself as you watch Andrew grab the onesie and hold it up again. He stares at it for a moment and you follow his eyes as they trace the edges and read the words over and over. "It's so small," he whispers, voice full of awe, his brain still somewhat trying to catch up with the idea.
"They're going to be that small upon arrival," you laugh softly, bring your lips to his forehead and press a lingering kiss there.
He shakes his head slightly and looks up at you. "How do you keep something this small safe?"
You know it's not literal and somewhat of a rhetorical question, but that there's also some genuineness there, that he's voicing his fear about being a good dad who's able to keep his child safe. You shrug. It's one of those things that's hard to articulate. "The same way you keep me safe, Sweetheart."
Andrew nods, his mind racing and flitting from thought to thought so fast he struggles to hold onto one long enough to voice it. But once he gets one thought out they all seem to pour out of him at once. You bite your lip at how adorable he's being, at how much he cares and loves them and you.
"When can we go see them? How far along are you? How are you feeling? Have you, have you been getting sick in the mornings?" He'll hate himself if you've been throwing up in the mornings and he hasn't even noticed. "How long have you known? Sex, we, we had sex this morning. Are we allowed to? Is that okay? Could it hurt the baby?"
You giggle slightly and rest your forearms on his shoulders, hands coming back to play with the curls at the nape of his neck. "I've known since yesterday morning. I realized I missed my period last month and was late this month and was like it's probably just stress, it's not like I'm the most regular with how I skip my periods sometimes with the birth control. But I figured I'd take a test and it would be negative and I’d be like ha ha what was I thinking and then that test lit up like a fucking Christmas tree. I think I'm about eight weeks."
"I don't have an appointment scheduled yet. My doctor was closed yesterday, but I'm planning to call as soon as they're open again. I'm not sure if that first appointment will include an ultrasound so we can see them, but I can ask." As you stare into Andrew's eyes you find yourself trying to imagine what your baby will look like. You hope they're a mini-him, or as much of one as they can be.
"I haven't been sick, though I have been a little nauseous and looking back it does feel like it's been getting worse slowly, so it wouldn't surprise me if some morning sickness started soon." Andrew frowns at that and you lean in and kiss his down-turned lips. "It's okay, it'll be okay. It'll be so much more than worth it."
"I know," he says quietly. "I just hate the thought of you not feeling well and being sick."
"I know Sweetheart. But maybe it'll never happen and I'll just have a little nausea. And exhaustion. I've been feeling so exhausted lately. That's normal, from the brief look online I did. It has to do with hormones sustaining the pregnancy right now." You give him another kiss and smirk a little when you look at him again. "And sex is perfectly safe."
The corners of his lips quirk up for just a second and you giggle again, fall into him and bury your face in his neck. Andrew huffs a small laugh, can't help it with how infectious your giggles are. He hopes they get your laugh.
He turns his head and pushes his lips to the side, kisses your temple as much as he can in this position. "Will you stand for me? Just for a minute."
"Of course." You pull your head from his neck and steal a quick kiss from him before maneuvering off his lap and standing between his legs when he opens them for you.
You already know what he wants, what he probably needs. And you know that with the slight December chill in the air he won't ask for it. So you do it for him, pull the waistband of your sweatpants down a little so they're low on your hips and then lift his sweatshirt and the t-shirt you're wearing under it up enough so that your lower abdomen is revealed to him.
Andrew lets out an audible breath when your skin comes into view. He feels a little ridiculous for it, there's been no change yet. You aren't showing. Nobody would know just by looking at you that you're pregnant.
But you are.
He looks at you there with a kind of wonder you don't think you've ever seen from him before. It makes you smile to yourself. He's already the best father, has already shown your baby more true parental love than his mother showed him over the span of his entire life. And you know Andrew doesn't even realize it because loving them and showing them love isn't something he has to think about. It's natural. Despite everything he's been through, the childhood he didn't have and the love he was never truly shown, loving his child and showing them how much he loves them even before they're born is instinctual because of how good of a man and person he is, regardless of what he might think and what the world may try to tell him.
Andrew brings his hands to your hips, thumbs rubbing soothing circles against you as he moves his head closer to you until his lips brush against the skin over your womb. "Hi," he whispers, "I'm your dad." He thinks it should feel weird, almost vaguely embarrassing maybe, talking to them like this, like they can hear him. But it doesn't and it isn't. It feels right. It feels like a dream coming true, like another dream you're making come true for him.
You feel something wet against your skin and realize Andrew's crying again, his chin wobbling as he lets out a little laugh of disbelief and smiles before pressing his lips to your skin in the gentlest kiss. You shift your hands so you can keep your tops pulled up and out of the way for him with one hand, run the other through perfect curls you'll never get enough of.
Andrew presses kiss after kiss after kiss to your skin. When he finally pulls back he blinks away the last of his tears and looks at you there again for a moment before he moves one of his hands and rests it there over your womb.
And then his eyes find yours, that same wonder still there. "My baby's in there. Our baby. You're carrying our baby." He squeezes your hip gently, presses the pads of his fingers against your skin where his hand rests. "I love you so much. Both of you."
You smile down at him as a few tears fall down your cheeks. The hand holding your tops slides to rest on top of Andrew's, the fabric falling over them, not that either of you notice. You move your other hand to cup half of his face and lean down and kiss him, whisper against his lips. "We love you so much too."
I want to give him allllllllllll the babies he desires and love him and make him the happiest man in the world who knows how amazing and loved he is!!🥹😫🫠😮💨 I adore him. He would be the best dad. I need it. Thank you so much for reading and I hope it was okay and that you enjoyed! ♥️ I love hearing your thoughts and comments so much!
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"This might be the stupidest thing you've dragged me to yet," Ghost pulls into an empty space at the back of the parking lot. A strip mall lays out in front of them. A brewery and a nail salon bookend their destination.
"Aw, come on," Soap grins, "Gaz swears they've got great tea and-"
"I don't fancy my tea full of cat hair." Ghost shoots back before putting the truck in park.
Soap hops out like a kid going to a candy store, while Simon pockets the keys in his jacket and looks to the passenger seat. "Phone."
Soap looks back at the seat, seeing his cracked phone sitting on the seat where it had fallen out of his jeans. He rolls his eyes, annoyed by his own forgetfulness, tucking it into his back pocket. "I dinnae what I'd do without ye, LT."
"You'd miss a lot more phone calls, that's for sure." Ghost mutters, trailing a few steps behind Soap and scanning the parking lot. Ghost can already see the furry beasts behind the glass, tails swishing and soft meows can be heard from outside.
A chiming bell signals their entry to The Smitten Kitten Cat Cafe, Ghost was expecting to be assaulted with the smells of stale cat piss and old fur- but it's the smell of coffee that catches his attention instead. Good coffee. As soon as they enter, a tuxedo cat stands from its perch on a window sill and stretches before curling back up in a new spot.
A lanky young man stands at the hostess podium, looking up from his work with a smile.
"Hello! Table for two?"
Soap nods, doing his best not to swivel his head around and start cooing at all the cats. "Aye, somewhere by the windows if ye got it."
The host smiles and nods, taking two menus from under the stand and directing them towards a corner table by the window. The corner promises sunlight later in the day, but is pleasantly warm and situated near a large boxed off area with several cats snoozing. The felines don't look up as the pair sit, used to humans being around. The cafe is relatively quiet today, not many visitors on a Tuesday afternoon. Most people would be at work, but Soap was determined to take Ghost out on the few days of reprieve they get after a mission.
"I'll be your waiter today, we're a little short staffed. Can I get you some waters to start?"
"Coffee. Black." Ghost cuts in, ignoring the pointed look from Soap. So called civilian skills were not Ghost's expertise, but he begrudgingly adds, "And waters. Thanks."
"Aye, and bring us two of those blueberry muffins I spied on the way in as well." Soap adds with a prize winning grin.
Ghost's eyes flicker towards a chirping orange cat on a tall cat tree. The large fiery cat swats downward off the edge of its perch to hit the black cat who is curled up in a hanging basket. The black cat, clearly annoyed after several pats, quietly hisses at the orange one before jumping off the cat tree and moving towards a covered pillow bed shaped like a shark.
"Is s'posed to be fun, Si." Ghost shoots Johnny a look promising much worse than cat scratches if the Scot uses his birth name in public again, but he allows the man to take his hand until the waiter brings back the coffees. Soap points out the kitten curled up under its mother in the corner of the box, another tuxedo cat zooming across the wooden track along the top of the wall, but Ghost's eyes keep finding the orange and black cats.
The black cat, having been harassed again by the orange cat, has retreated to the top ledge of a cat tree made to look like a series of cardboard boxes. The orange cat has accepted he cannot reach the black cat and instead bumps his head under the ledge, the black cat grumbling every time he's shifted slightly by a particularly hard thump.
When Ghost's eyes turn back to his coffee, Soap has his chin on his hand, brows raised in a smug victory. "Careful, LT. Almost saw a smile."
Ghost huffs, taking a swig of the surprisingly good brew, "Not a smile. Wondering if we're about to witness a cat fight."
Soap looks over, seeing the black cat has now stood up and leaned its head down to the orange cat, eyes closing every time the orange cat bops it on its forehead. Despite the swipes aimed at its face, the orange cat is unperturbed and continues to play fight with the black cat.
Before Soap can assure Ghost that's how cats play and it's fine, the black cat jumps down and bites a swiping paw, only letting go when the orange cat yowls and scurries off. The black cat then settles back on the top perch, eyes watching the room. Ghost could swear those yellow eyes connect with his for a beat longer than an animal should allow.
"Sorry about that, those two are always getting into it." The waiter laughs, refilling their coffee and taking Soap's empty plate.
"Shouldn't ye seperate them? So they dannae get hurt?" Soap asks, eyes narrowing at the black cat.
The waiter shakes his head, "Trust me, we tried. They're a bonded pair."
Ghost looks up at the waiter, mulling this information over. "How? The black one clearly hates the orange one."
The waiter glances over to the black cat snoozing while the orange cat sits in a box, licking his bitten paw. "They were found together as strays, must've spent some time on the streets together. Oh, here, take a look-"
A calico female walks over to the orange one, sniffing at the slight tang of blood in the air as the orange cat pauses with its rough tongue halfway down its paw. In less than a heartbeat, the black cat jumps nearly ten feet down to land beside the orange cat with a growl at the calico. The orange cat continues treating its wound while the black cat stalks back and forth, warding off the calico with a hiss.
"Oh," Soap looks back to the waiter, "Frenemies then?"
The waiter nods, "Something like that."
Ghost can't tear his eyes away from the orange cat makes room for the black cat in the box who curls around him protectively. "They got names?"
"Black one is Specter, orange one is named Suds- he hates a bath. Mostly because it means being seperated from Specter for the duration."
Ghost's eyes squeeze shut as he scratches at his forehead, already seeing where this was going. He can feel Soap's wide eyes boring through his mask, the Scot speaking through a toothy smile, "Aye? Why Specter then?"
"Because he only makes noise when he's around Suds. We thought he might have a vocal chord issue at first, but really he only trusts Suds to hear what he's got to say."
The two men leave a few hours later with two cats, several recommendations for boarding, and a large bag of supplies.
Suds' new collar is black with skulls. Specter's is a bright blue.
“how to recognize AI in fanfic” — hey so this is another not-gentle reminder that AI stole from us. it’s using OUR words and OUR sentences and OUR styles.
writing “long” paragraphs is not a sign of AI — it’s a common narrative choice many writers make both in fanfiction and in traditionally published novels, and AI stole it from us.
using an em dash is not a sign of AI. it’s a stylistic sentence choice that’s been an option in place of commas and semicolons for a very long time, and AI stole it from us.
long sentence structures are not a sign of AI, but are yet another stylistic choice writers often make to create a cadence and tone that mimics the flow of poetry, and AI stole it from us.
“YA narrative breaks”? i don’t even know what the fuck this means, but i can guarantee that AI stole it from us.
italics are once again a stylistic choice that many writers love to use to create emphasis, and it’s a more stylistically acceptable and traditional form of emphasis than bold or underline text. oh, and just to be extra clear: AI STOLE IT FROM US.
stop creating fandom witch hunts over AI when you know fuck all about what it means to sit and write a story, and to spend hours fiddling with sentence structure and dialogue to get the exact right tone. writers will stop writing out of fear that their work “sounds like AI” — IT DOESNT! AI STOLE FROM US! AI SOUNDS LIKE US! — and after a while, all that will be available on AO3 is shitty AI-generated fanfiction.
because yeah, people are going to continue to use AI to write fanfiction whether you “call them out” or not. but making a laughable thread on X that uses asinine criteria is not going to fix that problem. it will just push the real writers out because people will accuse them of using AI when they haven’t, and they will (rightfully) stop writing for spaces that attack them.