I Wonder
As I wonder, I wonder why I wonder, why I don’t grieve Anyone else’s mother dies, I see them crying I see them willow, Instead without her, I am in reprieve So little time, So little life, so many people dying in front of me I wish I could receive the message no one is trying to give me but instead, I’m alone, wondering why, wondering who, can I be next, please? Instead, I suffer, suffer alone, wondering what it's like to have a house called home Maybe a toilet, many men call a throne Instead, thrown from my home, again so alone! I wander the streets looking for eats, looking for a place to sleep! Never time to weep, never time to care, just enough time to meet the dealer, to keep from weeping to keep me from killing, selling me the cure, keeping me stealing I write in hopes to fix me, but I wonder if at all possible Especially with every hit, I feel invisible, that’s not sensible To you, everything is a variable and comfortable while I’m stuck in this insensible lifestyle And probably belong in a psychiatric hospital! I’m a criminal, with little principle, A lot of potentials, I’d rather keep it illegal, un-ethical to say the least keep my inner beast, in the forest, subsist from reality While I wonder what it’s like to be deceased I’ve witnessed too much, noticed it all, dismissed everything understanding the awakening, passing by my family, Considering corresponding on the contrary out of courtesy being friendly is silly when your whole family are bullies According to history, I now know our mental disabilities are in fact, Deadly I no longer wonder out of courtesy That’s just me. Written by SKJP
