I was safely evacuated from the #MomumentFire last week. We had a bit of a scare from a CHP Sheriff, which left us in a moment of running for our lives, which ended up being not completely the case, but all too real at the same time. I've been through moments like this before, but this was just intense enough that it was more traumatic in certain ways. Thankfully it was a scare and everyone on the land made it out alive and healthy. This was over a week ago now and I have not really had the space to completely process just how intense that evening was, or the fact that I'm now without a job, and just spent three months working an insane amount of hours, to only have it taken away by the forces of #MotherNature. My friend has his property burning, my other friend who lives there is now homeless for the moment, and wewe have been told this could go on for another month before we're really allowed back up to the property. I'm sitting here staring at the ocean breathing clean air feeling oddly blank today. I sat with my feet in the sand wondering what's next and nothing was coming back except the sound of the waves crashing on the beach. Once again I feel humbled. I feel sad and upset, I feel thankful I'm alive, I feel uneasy about what's to come, and I feel uncertain in general, while doing my best to remain open. I'm not really sure what to say. It's been a really really long year and a half for me. I tried to take a step in the direction of putting myself back out there to get myself back on track and I was answered with a #Wildfire in front of my face. Heavy contemplation today. I am once again reminded to remind everyone that life is short, very precious, and can be taken from you or anyone around you at any moment. Love those around you and remind them how much you love them. After losing my brother last year, and now this, it's very plainly obvious that I need to remember all the time just how precious this short time we have on this Earth really is. I'm not sure what's to come next...so with that said, 'sure don't know what I'm going for, but I'm gonna go for it for sure.' . . . . . . #ThankYourFirefighters #Smoke #NorthernCalifornia #HappyToBeHere https://www.instagram.com/p/CSfmlo9JejK/?utm_medium=tumblr
