learning to cry for fun and profit

azaya, sims 2, 30s, she/her & fae/faer.

[rafeandonlyrafe]

well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.

[furbyq]

SO IT BEGINS CONTINUES

Need some help with my bills this month, again. I have been putting out apps left right and center but my lack of a GED continues to haunt me :)

I need $85.34 for my internet.

I need $139.27 for my power.

I am working towards changing the power bill into my name so that June and May's bills can be covered by a government fund. The one being talked about in this post is April's bill. I have been unable to do this because it will require a deposit and I only recently found an organization that will pay it for me.

Please reblog if you cannot donate. I appreciate your help immensely.

paypal.me/furbyq

venmo: @ furbyq

ko-fi.com/furbyq

Job talk under the cut.

I recently applied to a nearby library, and I am really hoping I get this job because it seems perfect for me. 16/hrs per week, $11.50/hr, four hour work days. I am dreaming of this job but the reality is it's unlikely I'll get it.

The only places I would be likely to find a job easily are retail and food service, both of which are not hiring near me. Distance is a factor because our car's registration is expired, and there is no public transit within five miles of us.

I feel like I'm making the same excuses over and over again but I am trying so hard to figure this shit out. I have been following up, keeping in touch, listening to potential employers but I rarely get interviews and my anxiety makes me bad at them. I'm recording all rejections for my next SSI case.

I need a GED badly but I have no clue how to navigate getting that set up. My job coach said they can pay for it but it'll likely cost $100+ round trip to talk to my case worker (he only does in-person) and a $100+ round trip to get the GED test taken. I honestly have no idea how much it would cost altogether, or how many trips it would actually take. I am struggling with this really badly.

I put in three more apps over the weekend, including the library one. God I'm hoping for some good news soon.

[twentyfourfirst-sims]

Garden of Shadows: a preservation effort

Like many of us, I grew up with Garden of Shadows. To me, it was more than just a forum. It was a place I could ask for help, learn new skills and, best of all, find amazing content in any style I could possibly want. I loved the board names, the people, the themes; everything, really.

And I admit I was more than a little heartbroken to find it gone.

After mulling it over, I decided that I wanted to preserve what I possibly could. I spent a few hours yesterday running through strategies and ideas about how to best go about it, and the best I could come up with was, well, exactly the same.

So, here it is: the Garden of Shadows mirror forum.

I've only just started, but I hope to add a little bit to it every day. The primary focus will be on preserving all the knowledge and custom content. I'm tackling it myself, but if you feel so inclined, you're more than welcome to join in.

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PS. I am not here to offend, break Terms of Use, or to step on any toes. This is simply an effort to preserve content and knowledge for a game I have played and loved for over twenty years. Thank you ♥

[freezerbunny-sims2]

Download: Moneywell y2k computer

A frankensteined version of the Moneywell Computer. The main object includes the screen, speakers, keyboard and mouse and it is functional. The case is a separate object and decorative (use cheats to place it under desks). Both objects can be found in the Electronics / TV and Computers catalogue.

Known issues and differences

Sims will play the insert CD animation in the monitor when playing games. I didn't like that so I removed the CD. The animation will still play, but without the CD. Edit to clarify: in this computer.

When the computer breaks, sims will look as though they are repairing the monitor. This doesn't bother me, as broken monitors can sometimes smoke and spark (speaking from personal experience). Sims will turn the screen around when repairing it, their arms might clip through the speakers a bit when doing so.

This is not cloned from Monique's hacked PC as I don't use it. Feel free to make a clone that works with that mod.

Polycounts

Case: 231 faces Peripherals: 1192 faces

Download (Google Drive)

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

played sims 4 for the first time and one of the married cis men had a desire to try for baby with his cis husband. i accidentally pinned it and could not unpin it. trying for baby is physically impossible. I tried to use cheats to give him a viable womb in create a sim but it wouldn’t let me do so retroactively. so I thought, maybe if they adopt the want for pregnancy will go away, and had them adopt a toddler daughter. but then the try for baby desire did not go away. since they now had an unwanted adopted child I tried to remove the toddler from the household, thinking this would send her back into the ether. it did not. instead she wanders the neighborhood like a feral cat. i thought the social worker would come and take her back so someone else could adopt her, but I guess there is no social worker in sims 4. so now the neighborhood is haunted by a smelly miserable baby that has no home but cannot die and everyone who sees her is uncomfortable. fucking omelas scenario.

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

no one is feeding her but every time she gets hungry she simply produces a carton of milk out of the ether and drinks it

[gremlin-pattie]

OP— do ctrl+shift+C and type “testingcheats true” and then “cas.fulleditmode” into the bar, then go into CAS and change one of the sims to be able to get pregnant. mpreg is possible ALWAYS

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

thanks. the womb installation worked.

[adrenalinevan]

I'm sorry, this was dune mpreg the whole time and you never thought to mention? Iconic.

[chaumas-deactivated20240115]

it wasn’t relevant to my journey

[genericrobot]

Buchi finally has some time to herself during her summer visit with her mum. She really does have too many siblings.

[mrsimqle]

[furbyq]

necessities wishlist

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/PZHFPSXU36TE?ref_=wl_share

Hi! This is an Amazon wishlist for things I usually regularly use that I have used up or have not replaced in some time. If you can help me, I would be super appreciative because the lack of some of these items is contributing to my bad mental health. I feel weird asking for any money to buy all these things, and my friends suggested I make a wishlist. If you wanted to send me a care package, this is the way.

I am in desperate need of toothpaste, laundry detergent, and the USB-C cord (to charge my phone. I have been using a Switch charger to charge my phone and uh. this kills the phone).

The power bank is incredibly expensive comparatively but one of my friends suggested adding one. If anyone is able to purchase this, it would allow me to charge my phone (in conjunction with the USB-C cord) for a few days if we get our power disconnected.

Some items are not the cheapest item for their type, but I chose known quantities. I need Sensodyne because I'm having teeth problems, Purex because I get contact dermatitis from the other detergents I've tried so far, and "fancy" lotion because I have psoriasis and only thick lotion really helps.

I have disposable dishes on the list. These are most definitely not necessities in the traditional sense but would help immensely because I have a lot of executive dysfunction.

If anything seems unreasonable and you would like to suggest a cheaper alternative, please let me know.

As always, I have paylinks as well. If you feel like donating a small amount I can get items cheaper locally, and I would be willing to show a receipt. But if you're not comfortable with donating money, that is perfectly fine. If you can buy an item from the wishlist instead, I'd be so grateful. :)

paypal.me/furbyq

venmo: @/furbyq

please reblog if you can!! I'm struggling a lot and got taken off one of my job coach's client lists because everyone who was on my team at my regular mental health facility got taken off my treatment plan. I'm still looking for something low stress, and am actively pursuing some things I need to apply for disability again because really any stress makes me psychotic. I'm still very ill, but getting better everyday.

[furbyq]

Still need some items as of May 15 2026

[skulldilocks]

me: oblivion horse armor walked so sims 4 dlc could sprint

pooklet: gallop. so it could gallop.

me: fuck, that's so much better. ok. 'oblivion horse armor walked so sims 4 dlc could gallop' #teamwork

[miniaturize]

the concept of a site that doesn't even allow porn requiring age verification for mature content. you gotta give us your legal id or else we'll hide random posts that were incorrectly flagged from you

[eleabots]

[simstralia]

I've always been curious about Pandorasims' Growable Marijuana mod (found on the Booty HERE) but it's always looked a little outdated. So when @tvickiesims' Harvestable Hemp Plant with new resources showed up on my feed, I knew I just had to have it, but I didn't want to lose the functionality of the original mod.

So this mod ports TVickie's changes back to Pandorasims' MaryJane2. This version includes a custom garden plot, which will grow new version the plant. When it's ready your sim can harvest bags, which can be made into joints, or added to Pandora's Bong (which I've moved to be found in Hobbies / Recreation). My biggest contribution is figuring out how to make the bags sellable using OFB, so your Sims can now sell out of their garage, or set up their own dispensary. The bags can also now be placed properly onto shelves. I also spent some time messing around with the catalogue descriptions/ text strings.

As a bonus, since it can't be cloned I included a replacement for the Bong using @2fingerswhiskey's 3t2 conversion of Simchimi's Bong, plus @pixelatedollhouse's 6 recolours for good measure. It looks a little funky when it's used, but so did the original.

All the files have been renamed, to make them easier to identify, so you'll need to delete the originals before putting this in your game.

UPDATE 4-May-26 Fixed issue with the Plant file, where unfertilised soil hadn't fully repo'd. Thank you to @normalgirlstrangetown for letting me know.

DOWNLOAD LINK

Sellable MaryJane

[xxsomethingsimfulxx]

Space Invader Hairs: Coolsims91 and Nouk Scifi Buns in @furbyq's Cosmic Colors

I have 12 colors in each set. 10 of furby's colors and 2 of my rainbow colors, as furby has told me she really likes my rainbow colors. Mesh and swatch included. Credits: Coolsims Nouk

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With that said, furbyq isn't in a good place now physically or mentally. She's a genuinely good person and I'm blessed to call her a friend. She's trying to hard to put a life together for herself. I also know that struggle, poor, autistic and disabled in other ways, struggling to get a job....

If you like these hairs, please donate to furbyq, they wouldn't be possible without her gorgeous cosmic colors. If you can't donate please just reblog.

paypal.me/furbyq

venmo: @/furbyq

ko-fi.com/furbyq

All of these accounts use Phaedra's deadname

[eleabots]

[eleabots]

[eulaliasims]

I saw these tops on @theboldandthebeautifulsims's to-do/wishlist and was like 'I am great at copy-pasting things!!'. And who doesn't want a shirt with skeleton carousel horses on it? I want a shirt with skeleton carousel horses. So here are these adorable Azaya sweatshirts for TF-, AF-, and EF-bodied sims.

I included a version of the AF shirts that are also enabled for EF; partially because that's how Azaya's shirts were set up for AM/EM but also because I tend to use meshes like these for my elder sims who use the androgynous bodyshape. Choose one AF folder!

repository or standalone; repo versions require Azaya's original AM shirts

meshes included, compressed, tooltipped, et cetera

Download

Credit: Azaya/@skulldilocks, Trapping

[lovelash]

back at it again with purplepink 💜