hi everyone! it's been a while since I last posted, and I know that I promised I'd come back one day, but me growing as a person over these last few years, and experiencing burn out from writing has led me to quit this blog.
I am truly grateful for all the people I met on here over the course of my stay on Tumblr! Thank you for your friendship, support and all the love you've shown my corny writing 🩷 i truly cannot stress how much everyone on here means to me, whether you're an anon, reader, moot or friend, I love every single one of you.
I've learned my lesson to not make promises I can't keep, so I won't say I can guaruntee my return to this account, or that any of my smaus will ever wrapped up.
What I can promise all of you is that I still love writing, and that I always will and sooner or later I will get back into it, whether it be under sl-vega or a new name.
Regardless, thank you for having me, and thank you for reading my work and for providing me with endless support! I hope that if I start writing again that I will be blessed with a following as kind and accepting as all of you were on here!
I WON'T SAY I'M IN LOVE - fluff, hcs, drabble, gn! reader
-> ✮⋆˙ headcanons about rin being an in denial lover boy who would rather die than admit he's actually capable of romantic feelings (which in this case are for you)
✮⋆˙ headcanons about rin being an in denial lover boy who would rather die than admit he's actually capable of romantic feelings (which in this case are for you)
-> cw/additional notes; fluff, potentially ooc, hcs/drabbles, gn! reader, super short, pre-bluelock but can also be read as no bluelock au if you squint, title taken from the absolute BANGER number from disney's hercules (megara my love)
dividers by @aquazero
Thinking about ITOSHI RIN being the type of guy who would rather tread through the fiery depths of hell before ever admitting he liked someone, not that he does at the moment, it's just a dumb hypothetical (as he would say).
Having a crush on someone takes far too much emotional vulnerability that Rin has long since forsaken.
Which is exactly why he doesn't have a crush on anyone, much less you.
...Not that you're a bad person by any means- in fact, by Rin's standards you're far above lukewarm, maybe even tolerable to be around if he's feeling generous.
And you're not that hideous either. You're actually quite attractive-
...from an objective standpoint of course. You were conventionally attractive. That's a fact, no biases or internal feelings at play obviously. He wasn't blind.
Thinking about ITOSHI RIN being so entranced and enamoured with you to the point where it affects his day by day performance. So much so that everyone notices. He's less crabby around his teammates, not as gloomy when he gets home, even his teachers note that he's "less of an asshole than usual" Which to most people sounds like the bare fucking minimum, but when you factored in that this behaviour was from Rin Itoshi- it was a damn miracle.
Thinking about ITOSHI RIN actually being civil around you- no glaring, no scowls, no referring to you as a "lukewarm bitch" under his breath- just Rin acting like a normal, quiet, kid around you. You just think he's another classmate, you don't mind him. He's decent, lends you pencils and erasers and sometimes explains topics that you don't fully understand in class.
You think this is normal, what you don't realize however, is the way you make him think. That strange fluttery sensation in his chest that actually makes him feel...pleasant? Nice? Happy even? And it's always around you- some pretty person in his class that he can't seem to get his mind off of.
Thinking about ITOSHI RIN grimacing every time he walks by you and your friends (by pure coincidence, he totally doesn't go out of his way to pass by you in the halls, and he most definitely didn't memorize all your friends - he's just observant) because every single time he does it's always whispers of "Why is Itoshi so nice to you? Did you save his life or somethin'?" And it would always be followed by an agonizingly adorable nervous chuckle and a short, sweet, response of;
"What do you mean? Isn't he like that around everyone? I think he's sweet."
Thinking about ITOSHI RIN never letting your words leave his mind. The thought that someone perceived him as normal- much less sweet- brought back that same fluttery feeling. He chalked it up to; "genuine (purely platonic) appreciation for a tolerable person with a decent personality and very pretty face"
And that pure faith in that thought is exactly what led him to watching several videos online that always had a title along the lines of; "How to Tell if You Have a Crush" "10 Signs You Might be in Love" "5 Benefits to Having a Crush" and "How to Tell if Your Crush Likes You Back."
And the one he was watching as of right now; "Do You Actually Like Them? (Even if You Think You Don't)" which contained several questions for the viewer to answer to see if they did like whoever they were thinking of.
Which Rin didn't. This was just out of curiousity. Nothing wrong or amiss with that- he didn't like you.
...though watching one more video couldn't hurt.
1. Do you find them physically attractive?
Of course Rin did. He wasn't blind. You were very pretty. But you don't need to have romantic feelings for someone to acknowledge that they were good looking. So what if he stared at you a lot during class? That's just aesthetic appreciation.
2. Do they get you excited?
...Well talking to you did make him rather excited. But it didn't mean anything! It was just nice to be able to have a conversation with someone without said someone making Rin want to tear his ears off. And maybe his heart did skip a beat whenever you asked him how his walk to school was, or if he had any plans after classes, or how his games went, but that was just him appreciating your basic manners! Nothing more. 100% totally pure (EXCLUSIVELY) platonic appreciation for you.
3. Do you get nervous around them?
Yes- but that didn't mean anything. People get nervous all the time.
4. Did you think of them while watching this video?
...
Thinking about ITOSHI RIN absolutely losing his shit after this and being way more flustered around you for the next few weeks, because maybe he is in love (yet he would still rather DIE than say it.)
school's been stressing me out, i know i stated i'd come back in the summer but i've genuinely been SUPER burnt out and honestly pretty lost for a bit, some mild mental health stuff and feeling overwhelmed by life in general has kept me away from updating as well as a loss for motivation and genuinely wanting to quit at one point :(
on a lighter note i have a BOYFRIEND now :D (@stillschizo -he got on tumblr js to follow me :D)
so...what about your smaus?
most of them are getting rebooted (aka the scara ones cuz i'm a silly little clout chaser who likes a big audience) and they won't be smaus anymore! (except for maybe sns) i'll be focusing on writing fully fleshed fics and fully written chapters! (ocassionally with text messages)
will you be consistent this time?
no promises this time since life LOVES to fuck with my writing and i want to focus on school once it starts, but i will TRY to update as often as i can for now i'll be focusing on one shots :D
what smau is getting a reboot?
secret ;3
anything new?
rebooting my blog! i moved all my old stuff to my archived masterlist (you can still read and access it, it's just not going to be taking up my main masterlist) and i'll be adding two new fandoms to my request list! fire emblem three houses and persona 5 (in case you couldn't tell by the blog theme lol)
-> tldr im back! (fr this time) and i'm going to try and continue writing :D
being super specific with requests also helps !! because if you give me a vague prompt I might not do it, also at this current moment i'm focusing more on rebooting some old stuff and working on my own projects, so while requests are open, they won't be prioritized
╰ → chronic daydreamer and occasional fanfic writer, self proclaimed 'silly little gal'. I went from being a writblr to an author who writes corny (very) self indulgent x reader/self inserts for all my fandoms ૮₍´˶• . • ⑅ ₎ა
→ requests; open // status; wants to write but also wants to play p4g nonstop
✧˖°. request rules l masterlist(s) ૮₍˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎ა l old pinned
Just wanted to say that you’re doing SO good on Sweat N’ Sour! I’m hooked on the story already <3 and it’s really motivating me to work on my two fics lollll! Keep it up <333 ❤️😍
AWWW VI TYSMM THIS IS SO SWEET
this is motivating me to actively work on sns more! girl you're so sweet 😭🫶
