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[mimicdog]

anyone have any tips in spotting overstimulation BEFORE a meltdown? putting this in the autism tag but i suspect i experience overstimulation related meltdowns for multiple reasons, so any input is appreciated. thank you!

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

I have trouble spotting this stuff myself (late dx doesn’t help). For me personally, I seem to suffer a spike in vulnerability to stimuli. Audio is louder, visual stimuli feels like too much, etc. It feels harder to think and my anxiety increases. I also get this impulse that I need to escape/leave. Depending on the situation my PTSD probably also doesn’t help. I think the most consistent warning for a meltdown for me is my brain/gut/instinct telling me I need to get out of the situation.

I hope this makes sense, having trouble with words today. Also hope a reblog reply is okay.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

I'm so sorry to read about your current condition, and I sincerely hope your hands heal properly and you should definitely rest, health is important. There's no need for you to apologize do not worry I am not offended, art is also a source of income for many artists so I realize free art is not an option the majority of time. Maybe in the future I'll be able to commission you (off anon of course)! Please take care and get much needed rest, thank you for the reply happy holidays!

Thank you for your understanding and kindness. :> I’m slowly getting more comfortable doing art again, though how much I can do and how long is still out of my control. I’m very much interested in commissions as due to my hands I cannot work (also medical bills oof). You’re very sweet and I hope you had a good holiday and new year’s!

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

Hi I'm curious if you were open to receiving art requests? It would be a simple sketch request of Mr. Hat from shovel knight and an original character of mine. If you are accepting them I can send another ask with more details and provide picture refs of my character.

Hello! I'm afraid given my health situation I don't take requests at the moment. :( My hands/wrists being in a state where they can draw isn't in my control and drawing itself can hurt them. That said, I'd be willing to work out details and prices if you want to commission me. :> I'd prefer to do that by some other means than anon asks, though. Privacy is important!

It's nothing personal and I hope you're not offended, I just have to consider my health first. It's also important for you to know that I can't promise a time frame for the completed work, should we agree upon something. Some days (most days) are just bad hand days and until the doctors figure things out I can't do much about that.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

If you’ve sent me an ask at any point in time and I haven’t responded it’s cuz for some reason the lil askbox symbol doesn’t give me little blips telling me I have asks... <:0 It’s been like that for over a year and idk what’s up with it but I feel bad about it.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

I’m trying to think if there’s art worth posting here and it seems I forgot that I suffered a corrupted hard drive that wiped out a few months of files. I mostly have old art and unfinished stuff but I’ll see what I can do. The time period before both my hands got wrecked wasn’t the most productive because of other circumstances, but the time period after has certainly felt pretty barren.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

Oh yeah, I have discord now? I know tumblr has its own little im deal now but I don’t know if I’m going to regularly be on here. If you want my discord feel free to shoot me an ask! I’d put it here like my twitter but that seems a bit foolish and I wouldn’t know who was sending me requests anyway.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

issamorg said: !!! Take care of yourself, Vin!!! D:

I forgot to install xkit (is that still the good tumblr extension??) so I gotta answer this the old fashioned way but... thank you morg!! I’m trying my best. I won’t lie, its very hard living with bad hands and I wish I had some idea what my future was but... I’m still here, I’m still trying. Anyway it’s really good to hear from you! I hope you’re doing well. :>

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

Life Update

Early this year I got a part-time job which wrecked both my hands and wrists. I don’t know the last time my hands and wrists have felt normal, without pain, weakness, numbness, etc. I couldn’t work, still can’t work. I had to move back in with my family. I’m seeing doctors to try and figure out what the issue is and how to fix it. I’ve been to a hand doctor and this month I’ll see a neurologist. We don’t know what it is but at least I know what I had before was tendonitis.

Anyway, mainly making this post to say I really don’t know what I’ll post here or when. My ability to do art has become very limited though I still do try. Everyday tasks can be painful and warrant care, it’s frustrating. I feel bad not making this post sooner but I guess I’ve felt weird about my tumblr, it’s grown unfamiliar to me. I’d like to get back to tumblr someday but for now I’m mostly on Twitter.

It’s Vinderbox if you want to follow it. It’s more personal than here but I do post art when I do it (or dig up old art I never posted) and I talk about ideas, ocs, etc. It’s been a rough year and my hand problems make everything so much heavier. They hurt as I type this and have been hurting all day.

Thank you, dear followers, for, well, following. I don’t really know what to say... I hope you’re all hanging on the best you can. I wish I had more to give. I’m sorry.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

Cyber Specter Knight. An old assassin robot is brought back to life by a mysterious AI. Now equipped with a frightful new scythe, he lords over his junkyard home, enacting the will of the AI who gave him a second life.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

Cyber Specter Knight. An old assassin robot is brought back to life by a mysterious AI. Now equipped with a frightful new scythe, he lords over his junkyard home, enacting the will of the AI who gave him a second life.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

Tonight’s artstream results! I worked some more on my cyber au Specter Knight and then did a really quick Chester because I miss him. Might revisit that sketch with not NES colors or just do a fresh Chester in the future.

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

A destress I did of the Enchantress where I decided sure, let’s just use the NES colors (and one Yacht Club Games added for the game).

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

Do you remember the time Charly adopted a pumpkin? Last night I dreamed that they named the pumpkin "Charly Jr.". Also is a gourdian a gourd guardian?

Yes! I’m not sure if they ever named the pumpkin. Yanno, names are tricky, it’s gotta feel right and the pumpkin gotta be cool with it. And yes! I… never got to explain in thread but a gourdian is a fall spirit rumored to spirit people (especially children) away. Charly saw one as a kid and every year they can they obtain a goard and hope that maybe they’ll get themself a nice plant guardian. There are conflicting stories about gourdians and sightings and the nature of the entities. (I have more to say but for another time.)

[pactwithart]

Updated Emergency Commissions

I got in a car accident Saturday morning. Both me and my twin sister, who was the only other passenger in the car, are ok but my car is unsafe to drive at this time. I’ve already taken it into the shop and its going to take around $400-$500 to get it working safely which I don’t have if I want to make rent this month. I’m very dependant on my car as getting to work without it isn’t very reliable so I’m gonna chuck some cash at a cheap tablet so I can take emergency commissions to help pay for it. Prices will be as follow: Traditional pencil sketches- Bust up: $6 Waist up: $8 Full Body: $10 * +$4 per additional character Traditional Inked- Bust up: $8 Waist up: $10 Full Body: $12 * +$4 per additional character Digital sketches- Bust up: $10 Waist up: $15 Full Body: $20 * +$5 per additional character Digital Inked- Bust up: $15 Waist up: $20 Full Body: $25 * +$5 per additional character Digital Flat Color- Bust up: $20 Waist up: $25 Full Body: $30 * +$10 per additional character Digital Shaded Color- Bust up: $30 Waist up: $35 Full Body: $40 * +$15 per additional character If you give me a shoutout I’ll take 20% off the price of your commission!! I am willing to do: ✔Transformers/Mechs/Robots ✔Anthros/Furries/Monsters ✔Gore/Guro ✔NSFW* *This does not apply to any character who is underaged and I will check. If you are interested send me a message with info and references!!

Don’t want to commission me but still want to help out??  Buy me a coffee 

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

Vin, Vin, where have you been?

A better question is where am I going! I’m moving from Virginia to Texas and getting away from my family. I’m pretty sure I haven’t talked much about my situation at home on here but it has been bad and getting worse. 2017 has been a stressful year so far. But I’m not really making this post to recount the unfortunate occurrences with my blood relatives.

Why am I making this post? Well, firstly I am very sorry for being not just MIA but also very withdrawn from those of you I normally chat or rp with. I have been very low on reserves both energy and morale. Secondly, I know I have talked about opening up commissions for probably a year now but... at this point I’ll definitely have to kick my butt as any extra cash to make ends meet will be a huge help. I’m moving next month so I’ll probably fully set them up when I’m in Texas as right now I have to prepare to move!

A preview of my commissions. I will be running on a pay system similar to a taxi. You tell me how much you’re willing to pay, and I’ll tell you (and deliver) on what that could get you. I will have base prices to give you an idea but I am very flexible. The minimum is $5 USD. I’ll talk more about this as I put things together.

I hope you all the best! Things are going to be bumpy while I move but ultimately in the long run I think it will be better for me to be in a positive environment that supports me and cares for my health.

[furygalluzzi]

We are ash, nothing more…, nothing more…

[sleepdearlyyoumayrestnow]

So I beat Specter’s DLC last night in one mad go. I deeeefinitely got some posts to put together for my rpblogs because they are working under very different headcanons. That’s all I’m going to say for now.