confused buddie queer

Em | she/her, but they/them works too | late 20s | Queer | ADHD | Buddie are my hyperfocus | Impatiently waiting for Gay Eddie confirmation | Bobby Nash is alive to me

[hawt-me33]

Coming into a fandom late

[baxterdamus-deactivated20130513]

Coming into a fandom early and watching it become an angry clusterfuck

[valorious]

Being in a dormant fandom that suddenly comes alive again after a new book/movie

[leatherpatches-deactivated20150]

Don’t forget about those who come in the midst of a fandom war. 

[fauxmoux]

Accuracy at its best

[street-of-mercy]

Being in a fandom and not even knowing there’s a war going on…

[my-reylo]

all of this shit…lol

[nerdsagainstfandomracism]

When You’re Not In The Fandom But You’re Nosy AF

[not-so-secret-nerd]

When you get into a fandom only to discover it’s dead

[jupiter235]

This gets better every time I see it. 

[sageblackrose95]

@fuboos-mess

[inverted-mind-inc-sideblog-deac]

Being in a dead fandom…

[illogicalarchive]

Or being in such a tiny fandom that it feels like youre the only one

[erilias]

The accuracy hurts.

[fanfic-yes-please]

Being in a fandom that had a shit ending.

[it-is-bugs]

When you’ve been fangirling long enough, you’ve experienced all of the above.

[sweetferalbaby]

Being in a fandom meant for kids.

[teaganvamp]

This just gets better..

[hamboj2]

@mi-kleos

[thatcrazysonicchick]

When you realize that joining the fandom has ruined you

[knightofbloodcancer]

Fandom hell in general

[morathavictoria]

Yes.

[marvelanimelover]

This^^^ just… ALL OF THIS.

[stop-talking-babe-deactivated20]

Being in so many fandoms that you don’t even know what’s going on

[raise-cain-archived]

THIS IS THE SKULDUGGERY FUCKING PLEASANT FANDOM IN ONE POST!!

[crochanblackbeak]

Trying to recruit people to your fandom

[kateriverameliawolfe]

Annnnnnndddd it’s back

[ishipwhatiship247]

Being in a fandom which has so many antis

[ravenhilarious]

I’ve probably reblogged this before, but that was before these great additions.

[swanqueen-author]

Being in a fandom that actually works together

[commanderunhingedmongoose]

Why is this so true? All of it.

[pillowprincesslexa]

being in a fanbase but all your mutuals suddenly turn into Kpop blogs

[hangingfire]

I always enjoy it when a good post comes around again and has been improved by the reblogs like the years for a fine wine.

[priory-of-stars]

Being in a fandom when shit goes down and everyone has different opinions

[marianagmt]

When you are in a fandom and don’t care for others people opinion…..even if they are right…(believe me, I have met several of those)

[batbyte-alghul]

Being in a fandom you never meant to join

[tirnel-sutcliff-spears]

I love this. and it’s gotten better

[cartoonjessie]

After abandoning a fandom you’re still a little bit emotionally invested in….

[brit-is-bookish]

All of these are me. Lol

[thehikingastronomer]

Being in a fandom on Tumblr

[julietsemophase]

And it reached its epic conclusion

[isa-ghost]

I CHOKED ON FUNDIP

[van-arts]

HISTORY HAS BEEN ENGRAVED INTO THIS POST

[emziess]

May & Ravi moments 9-1-1, S09E18

[apricustar]

Starting to not ship Buddie because they're both getting so much older and what's the point of them getting together when they've already lived so much of their lives apart I wish they got together so much earlier its so hard to want them together at this point

i dont even know where to begin with answering this…

mind you, you’re saying this about a show whose main couples all got together later in life…? and buck and eddie are—off the top of my head—early to mid-30’s, that is still very young??

i don’t think there’s an age cap on falling in love, on getting into a relationship. i just don’t understand the logic of treating time as something that disqualifies love rather than deepens it.

if anything, i think there’s something incredibly beautiful about having lived a life separate from your person. i don’t like the implication that life lived before your partner is life somehow wasted, that love that arrives later is love that missed its moment. i don’t believe any of that.

most of us do not end up with our first love. we love the wrong people, we live and are lived upon, we survive things we didn't think we'd survive, and we are shaped by all of it into someone more. 911 has never shied away from that—in bobby and athena, in hen and karen, and in chimney and maddie. their earlier relationships and experiences are not treated as wasted time or narrative detours on the way to the real thing. they are treated as formative, necessary even. these relationships feel earned precisely because the show refuses to skip the part where love is costly, where it fails, where it teaches you things you didn't want to know and leaves you changed regardless.

that's what makes it so profound: to have loved and been marked by it, to have known loss, to have lived a life that had every reason to leave you guarded—and to still be open. to still turn toward someone. to reach for them not despite everything that came before but because of it—because of who your experiences made you, because of what they taught you about what you were looking for, what you needed, what you could finally, finally recognize when it was standing right in front of you.

you don't arrive at love untouched by your past. you arrive through it.

[ryliversbuddie]

[landoshabit]

this is canon but we’re closer to this actually being canon

[stablefuse]

9x15 ❤️‍🩹

[steadynightruins]

Eddie staring at Buck and standing gay as hell

[ilya-rozanova]

insp

[gay-space-diaries]

Buck is slow to wake. He blinks the crust from his eyes, waiting for them to adjust to the mid-afternoon light, wondering belatedly if he was awoken by the tones. But it’s the sharp, quick light of a flash and the sound effect of an old fashioned camera someone forgot to silence that makes him realize what exactly woke him from his nap.

Hen and Chim stare down at him from behind their phones.

"Oh, real mature." Buck lifts his head from where it had been resting on Eddie’s shoulder. 

He’d been dead asleep. By the steady rise and fall of Eddie’s chest under Buck’s hands, Eddie is still apparently cold to the world. Last Buck remembers, they were relaxing on the couch as he showed Eddie recipes he had saved on one of his too many open tabs for tonight’s dinner with Chris. At some point, the post lunch haze must have hit them. 

They curl on the couch too small for two grown men. Buck has Eddie in a koala grip and he lessens his hold slightly. A rumpled lock of hair falls across Eddie’s forehead; his face squishes into the couch cushion. How long have they been asleep? The station is never usually this—nope, he's not going to jinx it even in his own thoughts.

Waving his phone, Chimney smirks. "Maddie will love this."

Oh god.

"It’s perfect for the family scrapbook." Hen grins at them and Buck scrunches his nose. Scrapbook is a nice way to talk about her blackmail folder.

It is important to note—both to himself and those gathering said blackmail—that he hasn’t bothered to move. Instead, Buck incessantly taps Eddie's bicep until a delayed grumble emerges in response.

“Eddie, Eddie” —he starts to shove Eddie to wake him up faster— “they're making fun of us.” 

Eddie waves his hand at Buck to shoo away his concerns. "Go back to sleep, Buck." Unbothered, he gets caught by half a yawn and barely finishes his sentence.

That concludes any help Eddie might have to offer. Buck purses his lips. Traitor.

Defeated, he lays his head down, ignoring the wet spot he created on Eddie’s shoulder from drool. He’s not as embarrassed as he should be. It’s happened before. 

“Just send me a good one later,” he mutters, not bothering to argue with the two clowns in front of him anymore.

He’ll make it his phone background.

Content with the thought, he settles back to sleep, burying his nose into the warm crook of Eddie’s neck, and ignores the rest of the world.

[bucksgreyhairs]

You and that chain of command

[gayeddiejuice]

if 9x18 is titled “chain of command” im throwing myself off that bridge they’re filming on

[mihaser]

I need an elf parallel scene where somebody goes up to Buck saying he has a handsome and charming son (because Chris looks like a carbon copy of Buck) and he gets all flustered like no wait uuhh- And Eddie clearly amused by the misunderstanding asks why they think it's Buck's child. The answer highlights their resemblance but the person is getting more confused by the reaction. Then suddenly Chris either calls for Eddie or walks up to him saying "dad!" so the person asking is like OH sorry you TWO have a handsome and charming son. And while Buck.exe is resetting Eddie just says thank you have a good day and the person walks away.

[hexuwu]

[minsvnshine]

the universe does not scream

[theeconfession]

what the hell sure

[drunkeddiediaz]

my princess 💕

[hollanderdiaz]

he's so in love