i didn't think i'd be heartbroken at chapter 256 (literally the very last chapter before it takes a break--im still crying over it), but alas, the author really knows how to hit where it hurts
no matter how much of a team based sport is baseball, pitchers are always the only people standing on the mound where Sawamura is here, sitting all alone by himself and thinking about the same person who's essentially the reason how he became who he is today
we've seen him struggle all throughout the series, thrive for acknowledgment he now believes he deserves, the fact that the one person he wants the most to get acknowledged from, can't ever verbally tell him even though we've all seen Miyuki's thoughts and actions
and here, the part that really broke me because Sawamura's end goal has always been Miyuki and yet, over and over, he's never truly tasted it, Miyuki's approval, Miyuki's trust, just Miyuki. he got the ace number and yet, the one thing he wants the most apart from it, seems to always just cut short where he can't get it... not yet, at least. im really hoping lol, for a scene so similar to what Chris said after the Ichidai vs Seido p2 ended
just look at how happy he is?? hearing the same thing if not more from Miyuki himself, tell him exactly what Sawamura is in Miyuki's eyes as his battery partner, as his ace, as his pitcher before he graduates, i feel like id be at peace if it ever happens because i think apart from everyone, Sawamura deserves to know how the team is how it is now because they have him, how reassuring and reliable to have him, from the captain's mouth, from his catcher's own words. Furuya always had Miyuki's trust and he's shown him, but never Sawamura and it breaks my heart lmaoo because what makes them so different?
Sawamura's always looking forward, thinking of things he lacks and tries to better himself each time, and i feel like, his efforts were always set aside. i feel like if i was in his shoes and constantly get toss aside even if they didn't mean it, i would have held a grudge. granted it's fictional, but still, my heart cries for this boy.
earlier in the previous chapters, Miyuki told Sawamura he'll gradually get the acknowledgement he wants and he did, through the ace number and yet he's shown again that even with all of that, he still can't get Miyuki's, "there's just no goddamn end in sight, huh" and i just about teared up, i really really want the Inashiro vs Seido match now 😔 maybe then, Miyuki will finally tell Sawamura he's always acknowledged him from the start ☹️
im honestly so in tears when the first years came into the picture because they've put Sawamura in a pedestal where he deserves to be, not just Furuya's shadow, not just Seido's only southpaw, but Sawamura Eijun
i really wish i didnt read this chapter 😕 im gonna be sad for another 24hrs
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