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[xenobotanist]

This list includes doctors in the United States, Australia, Canada, and Europe!

Even if you're not the target demographic, please share for any of your friends who may be.

And if you or someone you know would like to be added to the list, there's a place for that!

[posttexasstressdisorder]

PSA

[still-godless-david]

Reblogging to save a life...

[t00muchanxiety]

The Flicker of a Streetlight Masterpost

You can tell when I have to edit this on mobile bc the formatting breaks </3

After years of estrangement, Colt decides to get back in contact with his twin. As they start talking again, Colt realizes that he knows nothing about Ryland anymore. He aims to fix that.

The Main Plot

poorly described as: “slow burn found family, but it’s just your twin that you haven’t seen in 2 decades”

under #flicker of a streetlight!coltland twins au Part 1 Part 2 Part 2.5 Part 3 Part 4 Part 4.5 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12 Part 13

Part 14

Part 15

Extras

under #flicker of a streetlight au On image ID Playlist Original Inspiration Ryland’s Tattoos Bloodymary intro idea Court’s status

Colt’s though process/The Garden

General Warnings

Flicker deals with complex relationship dynamics between family members, romantic partners, and platonic attachments. Do not take all of my depictions of these relationships as healthy, a lot of them aren't.

Flicker also deals with references to patricide, childhood trauma, and child abuse. Partially due to the fact that this is a ColtLand Gentry au and thus deals with Court's backstory through the eyes of his little brother.

Manipulation is a major theme in the main conflict! Learning that the image one has of past events is the wrong image is incredibly destabilizing and Flicker will deal with the aftermath.

Several characters struggle with their mental health and Flicker will include depictions of c-ptsd, passive suicidal ideation, and discussion of past suicidal behavior. There is currently one panic attack depicted in somewhat of a dangerous environment. Nothing will be graphicly described and support for the struggling characters is present.

That being said, I will never hurt the dog. <3

[shayberri789]

Imagine you are a 13 year old over achieving shit head student and one day your favourite science teacher doesn't show up to class for a few days, and when next you see him he looks like he's aged 5 years and hasn't slept that entire time.

And then half way though class he looks sick and leaves and the next time you hear about him (a few years later), he's been sent to fucking SPACE to try and save the world

And you don't hear shit about him until you're in like. Your late 20s. You've long since forgotten about the whole thing except as a vague idea that exists in everyone's minds now as the world steadily gets worse. Everyone has resigned themselves to the fact that they probably won't live past 50.

And then one day, the beetles return and its all over the news that your dorky science teacher from Middle school has:

A) found something to eat the sun-eating algae that's been causing the apocalypse for about 17 years now

B) engineered it to survive on venus

C) discovered intelligent alien life

D) sent a TON of information including some of the language back

E) and could have made it home but decided to go BACK and sacrifice his life to save a WHOLE ALIEN PLANET WE DIDNT KNOW HAD LIFE ON UNTIL THIS WEEK

and you just have to go about your life with this knowledge. Your dorky middle school teacher is a world hero. He chose alien life over returning to earth and his own life. Aliens are real. What the fuck

[shub-niggurath-is-my-wife]

i was thinking about those 'Grace goes back to earth' au's and mixing that with Bloodymary. Because from Simon's and Grace's pov it's the story of two people bonding over similar experiences and developing a codependent relationship(platonic or romantic) because you're both stuck in the same place for four years.

From someone like Stratt's pov its the story of how the scientist who saved the world (who should be dead) coming back to earth with a NEW HUMAN. It's not like Simon is a humanoid alien, no Simon is a human who speaks English with an American accent but he apparently he is not from earth?! Plus he keeps mentioning the scariest things like oceans of blood. Grace isn't concerned about it, but considering that he spent several years with Simon it's not that comforting.

[galacticsabc]

"Detailed Logs"... sure Grace, sure.

[lutheban]

Grace goes swimming! Rocky is not thrilled.

Eridians cant "hold their breath" like humans do, their vents dont close completly so water can still get in, if they fall in water they drown and die. safe to say rocky is not a fan of when grace does it for fun xD

(i got the inspo for this from this fic: Enrichment by alatarmaia4, please check it out it is so funny)

[going2hell4everythingbutbeingbi]

my corner store guy is a 50 year old man who's my best friend in the world and recently he was like "you're too pretty to be single I have some nephews you should meet. very handsome!" and I was like "a niece might be more up my alley" and he just got more excited and said "ah even better! I was overselling my nephews but my nieces are very beautiful"

[caustic-pixie]

OP the tags!!

[can-i-make-image-descriptions]

[Image ID: Tumblr tags reading: he showed me pictures of his (very beautiful) nieces and was like, 'she's a doctor' 'this one is in finance' 'oh this one has a terrible boyfriend I'll introduce you to her go steal her from him', and i asked my guy how many of them like women, and he was like only one but you're so tall you can change their minds /End ID]

[silvaerial]

Patron Saints of One-Way Trips

[dogdaysareover365]

Do with this information what you will bloodymary nation

[vv0812]

I found very funny the idea that Simon falls in love with Grace at first sight, because their first meeting almost always goes horribly.

Like he wakes up from a living nightmare and the first thing he sees is Grace and he is like "wow! an angel that is just his type!" - he didn't know he had a type until he saw Grace and he is like yep, that is my type- to then immediatly think this is an hallucination.

In my opinion that means that he thinks that the Eel (Ellie for the friends) is trying to seduce him to death with the image of a man that is just his type.

That interaction in my mind goes like.

Grace (Beutiful and awkward as always): You are awake!

Simon (High in pain killers): An angel...?

Grace: Hi! Yeah, well, this may sound crazy but my friend and I found you and threat your wounds, and I know this can be a lot to take but...

Simon (Realizing that he is not dead, that he has in front of him a man that is just his type even when he didn't know he had a type until this right moment and concluding that he has to be still inside the submarine and this must be another effort of the Eel to control him): I will not fall for your tricks!

Grace: What? No I...

Simon (Jumping over Grace ready to kill him, because he may be a beutiful hallucination but Simon is not going to let himself die for an hallucination.)

Rocky (Who can hear the commotion) : What the !!! is happening. Question.

After that rough start, Simon realizes that Grace is ,well, real and that he just gave the worst first impression to a man that he is not only attracted to, but is also probably the only other human he would ever interact with. How can you recover for that? Simon must have think he has just kill all posibility to have a "normal" human relationship (platonic or romantic) ever again and sinks in that thought.

While Grace is like: Simon? Oh, don't let his grumpy face mistake you, he is a very sweet person, he is my best friend.

Rocky: ?!

Grace: My best human friend.

[what-even-is-thiss]

I’m kinda surprised that nalbinding isn’t as popular as crochet and knitting tbh because it has an even lower barrier of entry tools wise and unlike crochet and knitting it makes fabric that you can cut.

I guess it’s because it’s slower or something.

[what-even-is-thiss]

Nalbinding aka needle binding is when you use yarn and a big sewing needle to make fabric btw

It also has a lot of different kinds of stitches you can do that make different densities of fabric.

Some people even make rugs.

[thewolfwaitsbelow]

I feel like part of it might be casual people are generally aware of the existence of crochet and knitting, even if they don’t know very much about either, but have never heard of nalbinding

[what-even-is-thiss]

Yeah I hadn’t heard of it until recently and I ordered a big bone needle for myself to try it out and that should be arriving soon.

I was surprised that I’d never heard of it though. It’s older than knitting and crocheting and even though it’s been done all over the world it’s super relevant to Nordic culture and my grandmother and I are both into keeping in touch with our roots a bit so I’m surprised I’ve never heard of it.

It seems like the sort of thing that would be popular even if not as popular as crocheting and knitting, considering the low barrier of entry.

[what-even-is-thiss]

You also don’t need a bunch of different sized needles for nalbinding or whatever. The size of the stitch is controlled either completely freehand or by pulling it against one of your fingers. Most people who have a lot of nalbinding needles seem to either have tried out wood, bone, and metal ones to see which kind they liked or they enjoy carving wood or bone and like making their own needles as an extra hobby.

It’s also a lot easier to freehand and adjust as you go than crochet or knitting and you mostly go by inches instead of rows and number of stitches so a large number of accessories like stitch markers or whatever isn’t really necessary.

Maybe the lack of accessories also makes it unpopular idk. People do like collecting things in their nests.

[the-color-of-sound-is-space]

I've been wanting to do so, I cannot find anyone who can teach me, and any books I can find on it are Ass in the Visual Learning department. Otherwise I'd be making the hell outta some nalbinded fabric

[what-even-is-thiss]

I found this channel by a nice man who makes up close tutorials

Happy Needlebinding

I create videos on YouTube to learn people how to needlebind using two fingers and your thumb. Needlebinding helps people to relax, relieve

[what-even-is-thiss]

I thought this would be kind of a niche post to make but I was quickly reminded that I’m on tumblr, the website full of gay people with one billion hobbies.

[what-even-is-thiss]

So my bone needle actually came this evening (yay!) and I’ve started trying this for real. It clicks in my brain way easier than crochet does. I’ve gotta work up the muscle memory but I think I can do this.

The downside as a beginner is that undoing mistakes is more time consuming than with knitting or crochet. You’ve gotta like sew your mistakes out backwards. Disadvantages of making a really sturdy fabric I guess.

I like the feel of this bone needle though and don’t think I’ll be trying the wooden or metal ones.

Also I think I’m gonna have to get good at doing Russian joining if I decide to get good at nalbinding because I don’t have wool yarn and the ends won’t felt together if it’s not at least 50% wool. A small price to pay for using big bone needle though.

Anyways curse of new fiber craft be upon ye.

[prismatic-bell]

Russian join tutorial I did, if you need it.

[bronzeplates]

it is important to me that the first meeting between simon and the hail mary crew is a bad one

First (this one) - Next

close ups \/

[edgebug]

so grace is probably alarming to most eridians at first because he's a lanky wet alien with too few limbs, yes--but what if he ends up being terrifying in a sort of divine way instead of a repulsive one?

like. a creature that perceives the intangible? a creature that walks with thin permeable membranes bared to the air, whose blood contains elixir that can destroy pathogens without heat? a creature that is impossibly fragile yet resilient? a creature that breathes potently flammable gas to survive? a creature that is loud all over and speaks in a strange and frightening monotone, who thought it would die for you? who gave up its home in the heavens for you without meeting you first, whose first words to your people were probably something along the lines of We saved your star. It's gonna be okay. Don't be afraid.

[trexiva]

GUYS MY ROOMMATE @sisiren JUST TURNED TO ME AND SAID THAT ADRIAN AND ROCKY ARE FUCKING PENELOPE AND ODYSSEUS???? IM GOING TO FUCKING KILL THEM????

[trexiva]

Chat I'm going to cry, AO3 is growing up :( /pos

She's no longer in beta

[trexiva]

Hello my little blood eels, I have more food for you

Now, some of you may already know that Ryan Gosling has what we like to call a lazy eye. And I also happen to have a lazy eye (though, almost undoubtedly different types, mines pretty uncommon), so walk with me as I project my specific disability onto my favorite pathetic middle school teacher turned astronaut

And this time! It's in the form of a drabble, rather than aimless rambling! Pls enjoy

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"What's wrong with your eye?" Comes from across the lab, startling Grace out of his focus. He looks up as Simon continues, "sorry that- came out wrong."

Grace just smiles, setting his pen down and leaning back in his chair. "No, it's okay," he says. "I'm used to it." Regardless, Simon still shifts uncomfortably. He's curled up a few feet away from Grace, finding residence on the windowsill. He couldn't look at the stars while the centrifuge was going, but Grace supposed the spot had become Simon's at some point along the way.

"Did..." Simon speaks again, "did something happen?" The words are cautious, and he doesn't make eye contact as he asks.

Adjusting his glasses, Grace smiles. "Nah, nothing happened. It's called a lazy eye, and I was born with it. Well-" he pauses. "Technically, 'lazy eye' is just a colloquial term. Specifically, my condition is called amblyopia." He uses finger quotes around the term. He'd never been too fond of it, but it didn't bother him enough to make a stink. That's just what it was called, unfortunate as it was.

Simon nods, and Grace takes it as an opportunity to continue. "My eyes don't work together very well," he laughs quietly and stands, pulling an empty white board over to his chair, angling it so Simon can see. He draws a lopsided circle and sits. "Let's say this is your eye." On the inside of his circle he draws a smaller circle, sitting right up against the edge of one side. "This is your lens. It sits right behind your pupil and- sorry, this is a bad diagram, I'm not. I don't do eye stuff." He laughs quietly to himself.

The only reason he knew any of this was due to his own condition being explained by actual eye doctors. He continues the drawing, placing the optic nerve opposite to the lens. "And that's your optic nerve. When you're an embryo, and your eyes are still developing, the lens needs its own blood source, so a temporary artery connects the optic nerve to the lens." He draws a single, squiggly line between the two on his rudimentary diagram. Pausing for a second, he glances back at Simon as he realizes that the other man hadn't asked for an entire demonstration.

Simon shakes his head before Grace can start overthinking or try apologizing. "It's interesting, keep talking."

Grace nods once, wordlessly. Turning back to his diagram, he attempts to keep the embarrassment off his expression. Did he really think that loudly? Or did Simon simply know him well enough by now to clock it when Grace was overthinking? Clearing his throat, he continues, "For most people, the artery disappears after they're born. Mine didn't, at least not in that eye." He sets the marker down and leans back in his chair. "The artery is still there, obscuring my vision. And because of that, my brain deemed the stimuli from that eye useless, and sort of uh-" he pauses to adjust his glasses. "Left it to do whatever it wanted. The muscles never learned to work together."

Simon's own eyes are wide, and he's nodding as he looks at Grace's horrible rendering of the human eye. "So, you can't see out of it?" He asks carefully.

"I can," Grace corrects. "Just not well. And since the muscles never learned to work together, my brain never figured out how to process both inputs as one. I've got double vision, and it really messes with my depth perception." He laughs quietly to himself.

Nodding, Simon says, "So you can see two of me?"

Grace says, "Yep!" Popping the 'p'. "Two slightly different angles, which is more obvious when I'm closer to something. Most of the time I don't pay attention to what the lazy eye sees, though. Too much stimuli." He smiles easily as he moves to wipe the drawing off the whiteboard.

With a contemplating expression, Simon falls silent for a moment before speaking softly, "I'm sorry."

Grace turns to him, tilting his head. "What for? It's just the way it is, it's not like I've ever lived any differently, I mean-"

Cutting him off, Simon shakes his head. "No, I- I'm sorry you have to stomach seeing me twice." That stuns Grace into silence for a moment, processing Simon's words. The other man is staring at the ground, curls falling out of his messy ponytail and into his eyes. "I know I'm not exactly easy on the eyes."

"What?" Grace asks before he can stop himself. "Simon- I don't- I don't mind. I think you're pretty."

Pause.

Oh no. Oh no no no no. Oh shoot. He totally screwed that up.

Internally cursing his mouth for running faster than his brain sometimes, Grace freezes. It wasn't incorrect. He did think Simon was pretty. Unbearably so. With warm brown eyes that threatened to swallow Grace whole, and dark curls that were far softer than could possibly be considered fair. And that was all without even mentioning his muscles, or the little frown he got when he thought a little too hard, or-

Simon's eyebrows pinch together as he looks up, and Grace waits for him to get angry.

He's speaking again before he can stop himself, "Sorry- I didn't- I overstepped and- shoot, Si, I'm sorr-"

"Ryland."

He shuts up.

Simon continues, "It's okay." His expression evens out to the smallest of smiles, something almost like amusement or fondness in his eyes. "I-" he hesitates. "I appreciate the sentiment, but you don't have to spare my feelings."

Grace really needs to get a handle on how his mouth likes to speak against his will. "I'm not. It's true." He'd applaud himself for how even the words came out, if not for the fact that he wanted to curl up and disappear before he kept saying things like this.

Watching him for a moment, Simon soaks in the words. Grace can see as the cogs turn in his head, trying to parse out whether Grace was genuinely being truthful. He nods softly.

"I think you're pretty too, for the record."

Oh, so Grace is going to explode now. The stars are doomed. Sorry, Earth, the guy you shot into space died of heart palpitations caused by a man with pretty eyes and a soft voice. Hope everyone enjoys their slow, frozen deaths.

Speaking of, is it hot in here?

Simon chuckles quietly, his smile deepening into something so, so fond. Grace's stomach does a funny twist at that, and he forced his lungs to remember that they need oxygen.

"Really?" he asks, but the word is small and unsteady. He clears his throat. "I always thought I was sort of, uh- average looking."

Huffing out a small laugh, Simon raises his eyebrows.

"Nevermind," he corrects. Why did he even ask? "I uh- I'm going to go grab uhm. A snack. Do you- want anything?" He's making a fool of himself, he's sure.

Shaking his head with that oh, so fond look still plastered on his face, Simon says, "No, thank you."

And Grace is thankfully relieved of the conversation, scuttling off to hide somewhere for a while.

And if anyone is curious, here's a (better than Grace's) diagram

[trexiva]

"diversity doesn't matter!"

I just sobbed my fucking eyes out over Project Hail Mary. And you may be thinking, "yeah, it's a pretty emotional movie. Lots of people cried. But it's a white guy in space tf does that have to do with diversity??" Sit with me for a second.

So. Backing up just a tiny bit. I went into this movie knowing I was going to cry. And throughout the begining, I noticed more and more how emotional it made me whenever it was emphasized how his glasses affect the whole astronaut thing. It hit me when he put on his helmet the first time that I had never seen an astronaut with glasses. And that was a really cool little quiet, personal moment I had with myself, and then the movie went on. But that's not the thing I sobbed over. In the same strain of noticing the glasses, I kept briefly noticing how much more noticeable Gosling's strabismus is in this movie as compared to some of his other works. That is, his lazy eye. And then.

The scene where Rocky wakes up to the taumeoba.

In every. Single. Shot. Of Grace in that whole scene. Gosling's lazy eye is noticeable. Far more noticeable than I'd ever seen in any of his roles. It felt intentional. No- it felt EXTREMELY intentional. And I'm not sure who's responsible for that decision, but I am so extremely happy that it made it into the movie. I am straight up emotional.

Bc that wasn't an accident. That scene, and all of those shots, were probably redone tens of times. At any point in shooting those scenes, absolutely anyone could have told Gosling to fix his eye. This was one of the BIGGEST scenes in the whole damn movie. The details on that would have been micro-managed to hell and back. If that eye wandering wasn't at least somewhat intentional, it would have been noticed and fixed.

But it wasn't.

Here's one of the biggest scenes in the movie. Here's their huge achievement. This is everything the movie has been leading up to. They did it. They did it, and Grace's eye isn't straight. They did it, and the camera is looking up at him. He's a hero. And he's one of the smartest motherfuckers in the universe for being able to figure it out. And he has a lazy eye. And his hairs a little fucked up. And he's human.

And that is so important to me. You, as someone who's probably never thought much about the representation of lazy eyes in media (or so I'm assuming), also don't fully understand that context of why this is so incredible to me. For reference, all representations of lazy eyes, glass eyes, etc are done so to help communicate to the audience that this character is crazy. They have crazy eyes. You're not supposed to take them seriously. They're dumb, they're mad, they're cooky. But this? Here's a character with a lazy eye (orr at least played by an actor with one), but he's the smartest character in the whole damn movie. He's a hero. He's not crazy. He's not stupid. He's smart as fuck and he saved everyone. And he has a lazy eye.

So anyway,,,, this movie was incredible and if you haven't seen it I highly recommend. And hey, if you happen to notice Gosling's lazy eye, think of me :)

And also I want to say thank you, from the bottom of my heart, to everyone who made this movie possible because you have no idea how much it means to me. And an extra special thank you to Ryan, for making this character a little more like me. ♡