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18 |ugw:80lbs cw:150lbs Sw:185lbs| 5’6” don’t report just block pls pro recovery | they/them too many mental illnesses to count backup is @sk1nny-lovee Active July 2022

[dumbsuicidalteen]

one of the worst parts of self harm and suicidal ideation is when you’re sitting next to someone you love so much and all you can think about is how badly you want things to end

[malnourishedelf]

An everyday occurrence

[dancingturtle1]

i don't wanna keep trying anymore. i just want to fucking die.

[hel7l7]

How can this nothingness feel so big, so heavy. While at the same time it feels like there’s nothing at all. 

[iceblueboii]

for anyone considering joining an0blr

i remember coming on here and reading those “get out whilst you still can” posts. i thought to myself “oh me? i’m just doing research. i just want to see what it’s about. i dont restrict that much. im not stick thin. im not /that bad/. i can control myself and leave whenever i want!” it’s been 4 years since i had that thought. im still here. that’s the funny thing with this ana thing. you think you’re different. you think you’re the one in control. you think “oh i’ve only been doing it for a few days/weeks/months”, “oh i’m only restricting a little”, “oh i eat over 1200kcal”, “oh i dont puke or exercise all that much”. you think because of all these things, that you’re different. but we are humans too. we are just like you. we all started out curious, just like you. and now we are in so deep, we can’t get out. we keep coming back to this site. we have friends here. we keep looking for our inspirati0n. so /please/, when we say “get out whilst you still can”, we don’t say it to make this some type of invite-only group. we don’t make it to exaggerate. you need medical help. we all do. you’re never “not far enough” to receive that and stay away from these things. this site will trigger you. and we are all here, having been on your side and now on ours, and we are screaming at you that it’s not as easy as you think. we were all once you.  please get away from here and any other sites like this whilst you still can. please seek medical help now. this place is where people die. please don’t let yourself be dragged in. im begging you, dont let yourself go through this like we have. leave whilst you can.

[abnormall]

i dont talk anymore. i dont want to. i have nothing to say. i have nothing to contribute to a conversation. words escape me and i dont care that they do. i can go entire days without muttering a word. i just want to be left alone, now. 

[ribc4ges]

literally stfu

[bluntsncigarettes]

[formetobethinagain]

Has this been done yet?

[kitty1wh11re]

I love this picture sm 😭😭😭🤚

I would kill to look like this

🔫🔫

[lolibones]

[she-whodreams]

Me after every meal ever

[sadandsmilling]

A part of suicidal ideation or self harm no one talks about is the numbness to the subject that comes with it. I sit and scroll through pages and pages of cries for help, suicide notes and plans and feel nothing. No worry, no concern, no crushing feeling in my chest. Nothing. Those familiar feelings are now replaced with a strange familiarity, a kind of comfort that it’s not just me.

Fuck. When did it get to this

[somewherelonely]

maybe I feel so unwanted because I am.

maybe it's not just a feeling.

[pudgepuffin-deactivated20220101]

me calculating how long it would take to reach my ugw if I eat x amount of calories and exercise 50 times a day, knowing I won't stick to it:

[failed-to-find-neverland-deacti]

TJIS SHOULDNT BE FUNNT JDNDJDNDHNF

[noneofyourbusinesslol]

using this as a promise to myself to go binge free the entire rest of summer and reach my ugw by the start of next school year😁