It's been three years of this blog already. It's weird. When I look back it is kind of validating. In a strange way always was. I looked at my thoughts written out and realised that it was that bad, that I truly was unwell, and this validation helped me face the way that I looked at the world.
There still are ups and downs recovery is full of surprises and never consistent, yet I'm at a place now that I can say it has gotten better.
My posts getting little to many likes made me realise that I'm not alone, as it turned out I never was, I just felt lonely, and having this community made me feel less lonely sometimes, not as misunderstood.
So thank you. I have not posted in a year, because I needed time to heal but now I just wanna say thank you.
I don't even know if anyone cares about this entry as there is no reason for anyone to care, yet it feels wrong to just say nothing.
Getting better takes a lot of work, but I believe one step is enough to at least feel better. I believe in everyone that reads this! You can do it even if right now it seems impossible, but believe me it is worth it.
The world is harsh, and can be so goddamn cold, but everytime the sun shines and there's a butterfly next to me, the world seems a little brighter, it is cheesy but it never fails to make me happy.
I hope you find your butterfly!
There are some people that followed this blog since I started it, kept checking in with me. So thank you for three years!
