Surrender to the Flow

[smashleyyy918]

10 years

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Aurora borealis - Outer Banks, North Carolina - 11/11/2025

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[vexheart]

[sunrish]

[werenotreallystrangers]

[moan-s]

[4i20]

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2-3 weeks till little big man meets us earth side

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He’s perfect

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09.19.19

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~35 weeks~

Embracing every milestone.

From first trimester Hyperemesis Gravidarum to second trimester glows to now third trimester heart burn, body aches, contractions, and peeing uncontrollably.

Through the good and the tough times I truly love being pregnant. Watching my body change to create life has been such an amazing experience. Time is flying and little big man will be here before we know it.

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It’s been a year since I lost you and my heart still hurts like if it was just yesterday. Truth is no one can prepare a mother to hear the words “there is no heartbeat”. Truth is pregnancy after a loss is filled of uncontrollable fears, looking at the toilet paper after every wipe to make sure there’s no blood, to buying a Doppler to check on the heartbeat every day. Not a day goes by that I don’t think about the what if’s. I know after every storm comes a rainbow and I am beyond thankful for mine. But I can’t wait for the day I get to hold you in heaven. 💔

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