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25 | don't be dead;

[fortuneaday]

[smilekana]

hello there,

it's been so long since I last posted here 🥹 how r u? what changed? what stayed? daming nangyari. daming naging plot twists and redirection. 🥹 brief update of my life;

📀 last update I posted here ay yung nakapag resign na me sa previous employer ko 🥹 grabeng move yun, didn't know na kakayanin kong umalis dahil attach na ako sa mga tao doon and comfort zone ko na yung ganoong environment. learned a lot when I was there, sabi nga namin ng mga ka team ko before - we had a fair share of good and bad experience sa company na yun. overall, grateful for being exposed sa good & bad side of corporate life 🧿

📀 after a week ng terminal leave, was hired to a new company naman. Makatizen na ako 🥹 charot OA ng Makatizen. Makati girlie na dahil sa Makati office ko 🥹 I am starting to get used to sa pasikot sikot sa Makati, & starting to forget my North MM side emz OA. pero real, hindi na ako gaano nagala sa SM North, Trinoma, Vertis or Cubao huhu I miss the crowded malls of Metro North.

📀 alam nyo yung feeling na, kung saan nag kulang prev employer ko, unconsciously napupunan nitong bago. yung, "shet, possible pala yun without me begging for it?" ganon. la lang. alam naman ng prev sup ko yung tampo ko before sa kanya and sa company. sinasabi ko sa kanya na malaya ako here sa new company ko unlike sa prev that I have to please everyone ganon ganon. yung part pa na binubusog talaga sa commendations. magugulat ka na lang may shout out ka na from your leads for doing your job ganonz.🥹

📀 last month, nag start na me gym. before kasi puro walking/jogging lang kami sa UPD, now buhat girlie na sya 🥹 decided also to be committed with this change and subscribe sa meal plan ng theheartygrub (haven't tried yet kasi kanina lang me nag subscribe hahaha) pero the past weeks, naka overnight oatmeal ako, tapos portion control sa meals here sa hauz ganornz. seeing progress naman so far, though minsan hindi talaga mapigilang mag sweets aaaa

📀 apart from that pala! I joined badminton club and booklovers club sa company namin. had my 1st game last week! it was fun, kasi we get to connect with people sa company namin. free networking ganern. na miss ko tuloy badminton sesh din naming 4 hayy 🥹

overall, "I'm doing good, I'm on some new shit. Been saying "yes" instead of "no"" ang mantra natin.

[smilekana]

Random tot lang. Your first job will either make you or break you talaga ano. Azza fresh grad, medyo challenging sya ha. Hirap idistinguish if you're just adjusting pa lang sa work environment and/or work load or sadyang hindi ka fit sa work na yun. Parang halos araw araw ko ng iniisip if maarte lang ba talaga ako o sadyang hindi talaga sakin 'tong ganitong environment. Hayz.

[smilekana]

hello, update....

nag resign na ako 🥹

[valtsv]

getting approached by an animal that wants you to pet them is such a magical feeling. like they saw you and went "yeah there's love in there"

[nobita-here]

[igiinite]

i think my biggest red flag is that i’ve normalized silent treatment when i am not in a mood for a talk‚ i don’t really know how to express my feelings specially when i’m sad or hurt‚ i only talk to myself in my head about how i feel all the time

[anxeious]

[smilekana]

ito isa sa mga na appreciate ko sa kanya eh lol not sure if bare minimum ba'to??? lol. so, sent him messages before i left my phone charging since busy kami asikaso sa hauz now.

before i continue — fully aware sya na bc of my past naging mapang duda ako lol (and also bc of my job as an HR ok 😭) akin naman, pabiro ako mag tanong. i would tease him na "yan ah, sino kasama mo, ano ginawa nyo 🤨". kahit minsan, ako naman kasama nya non 😆 pabiro delivery nyan ah.😆

kaya before ko pa sya asarin ng ganyan, he would always make sure na all details and evidence are provided. so going back — he called me, went on vc, roamed around the mall ng naka vc, showed on cam na mag isa lang sya, then, went back to his parents and showed them on vc.

ik hindi nya dapat saluhin aftermath ng failed rs ko, and i'm trying din naman sa end ko not to put him on the receiving end ng aking doubts charet. la lang, ang saya and gaan lang na kusa binibigay sakin ganito? lol. ganito pala. charot. ty universe 🧿🧿❤️‍🩹

[allsadnshit]

tumblr is for putting your stuff somewhere that's not secret but also not for anyone particular to see so it's true neutral in a really nice way

[pngblog]

[offline-alien]

doing uncomfortable things so that i can grow and make myself proud

[smilekana]

nag tatry na ako explore ng mga pang daily make-up for werk..🥹 although noong pandemic nag try din naman ako, hindi lang natuloy or nag tuloy tuloy kasi napipikon ako agad kapag hindi ko makuha yung gusto kong look.😆 enweyz, relate so much here sa pic na 'to nyeta kasi 😭

[spinalfluiddarling]

I overthink things you've never even thought of

[glowcowboy]

do it weird do it scared do it shy do it anxious do it lonely do it cautious do it with shaking hands. but do it.

[memeuplift]

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Uyanamayanlar

[positiveautistic-deactivated202]

I know you’re sad, so i won’t tell you ’have a good day’. Instead, i advise you to simply ’have a day’. Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don’t give up on yourself just yet. It’ll be better soon. Until then, have a day.