Fishstyxs...

Hellenic Polytheist | Theurgist | he/They system member

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Smoke & Spirits

He/they, Theurgist, System, Hellenic Polytheist, Poly

Streamer: @akatalepsi Overwatch Variety : Social

Jesters privlage.

Tag Key: System

Slumber | @slumbersmusing #SlumbersMusing

Roma | #Roma #Leo♧ | Crimson-Ichor A03

Fishstyx | @akatalepsi | odd tags

Readings: #SlumbersReadings

{ Cartromancy | Past life }

@theurgist-kyros

18+ blog

minors will be blocked

Including those with no age in bio who seem too young.

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How many times is too many to be electricuted?

Google

Goo

Googl.

Ggooogle

How many

G

How

Ggoo

How many is too many

[hang10art]

Baking my long distance bf into a cookie because i miss him

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I am obsessed w this

[sehyon]

always answer

[sehyon]

always answer

[hardcorechewie]

NaNoMe ow boyband

[starsight-xx]

for the Mizuyang enjoyers 🐢🌊💕

took me a bit to draw and edit to make it somewhat look like the actual style but i hope i made it look good :D

[ollielephant]

[cumonthevoid]

none pizza with left beef

[the-chocolate-chip-pancake-blog]

It should be a rule of Tumblr to always reblog none pizza with left beef

[fishthingdaily]

Today’s fish thing is this set of fish glass cups!

[secretlysly]

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[tragicburnout]

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Yeah its that time again

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Alright i had my crashout bitchfit

Im one selfish motherfuk

Philosophy is heavily influenced by Contractualism, Egosim, Virtue Ethics complex

Not sure how else to put it, ill have to look into it more

This is what happens when you vent to deities that can actually do something to help

My mind feels slow cooked

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Ok fuck you i can say ill kill myself on tumblr and nobody will care

Goddamn literallt cant even fucking vent without being told to shut up

Im so

Im so fucking empty

It really was a momebt i thought id get support too

Time to fucking smoke once again the gods are the only ones who give a shit so why should i fucking bother

[tragicburnout]

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Closest ive ever gone to cave diving was when i was in california and some one showed me a rock that had a tunnle all the way through to the top filled with water you could use like an elevator to get up

So like, bigass bolder, small tunnel in, cant move your arms once your inside so you have to have them forward or back set

You swim in, wriggle, then go up and when you pop out your at the top of a huge bolder that has some area to sit, you can jump off the smooth side back into the deep crystal clear water you came from below

I hated being in there

I was terrified and felt the hundred ways i could die

But i popped out evrey time and loved the adrenaline and dopamine.

Ive learned a lot since then, id never go in something like that, not ever again.

I was right in my instincts, theres so many ways i couldve died in just that short span.

Whooof

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Sometimes i feel stupid for ever even trying to do anything with my life

Its not even mine and i still cant follow orders

Is it bad to soemtimes wish idve just died good

Its stupid but its that exact "live long enouh" bullshit

Im tired

And ever day i get to remember i will never leave her shadow

Im so tired

And nobodys gonna care

Ill throw my fit and cry and scream and tear myself appart and the world goes on like it has since i was 6

And even before

Like always

I wish somebody cared

And they do

Im just fucking stupid and tired of being stupid

I dont understand the point of having me post this im just angry and jealous

Nothing i can do about it im just trash

Behold my ego death! Clap!! CHEER!! ENCORE! AGAIN.

I feel like im going insane but im already so busted i cant possibly get any worse im so angry

Do you have any idea how many times ive been stabbed?????

And then just op get up and back to life again and again and oh broken bones? Dodnt fucking matter dumbass learn something gods ehy cant you learn while im actively shattering your ribs lol what an idiot ahaha

Its not even the learning disabilities anymore

You just were always a rageing cunt and i honestly hope you know you were never worth a single second of the time you guilted me into spending as your personal hotline

Fuck you

And choke on that furry dick you made ripped from 10 other iconic charecters because youre sooo fucking deep soooo original

Cunt.

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I wish i could write out what happened to me but then

1. Im torn appart by "authors" like buzzards to roadkill and left till not even the scavangers would want my bones

2. People take my actual pain and hurt and try to use it as a personality quirk. Kill yourself btw if youre gonna pretend to be me. After all, thats what i did. Try it.

Venting

Yeah no ones gonna read your stupid fucking book btw, you have 600 followers and they all want furry dick you deny them, not my FUCKING LIFE STORY.

So what do i do? Write a fucking book alone while i watch the whole world overshare and get thr validatipn ive been craving since fucking birth

I feel like im going insane

They dont get treated like me

Ive seen it

They get to vent

But after she ripped so much from my life??? Any time ive spoken about it save for few, its appeard in their very bio or "oc page"

I am going to. Fucking ccurse anyone who tries to fuck with my life story i swear to the gods if they wanted to keep me kicking for more than just a fucking delay i will fucking curse that bitch and anyone whos ever tried that fucking shit with me.

MY FUCJING LIFE IS NOT YOUR BACKSTORY YOU RAGING CUNT.

AND I AM NOT YOUR FUCKING PRINCE YOU BASIC BITCH GROOMER.

You were never special thats why you had to steal from who you called fucking BAE

Rot bitch

Rot as a basic bitch we all know you to be.

Both pf you.

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Yknow i thought it was strange as some one who was essentially pimped out as a kid its like traffcking but you get pushed back to the same person as ypur "guardian"

I was like "wow ehy would my dad who is definenetly not a rapist trafficker go to one of the hotspost for chuld trafficking as our final move locations"

And now i see a rapist and criminal running the country he had us move to

Hm

Oh yeah thats apparently alsp not my real dad so that makes sense why my siblings never got sold put or passed around

This place is rotten

One day ill leave

^ ive said that for so long how could i not be a traveler

"One day ill get out of this"

And into another

Because you dont live that life

Its not that you dont deserve it, or you never earned friends and a normal childhopd or even a nice highachool, fuck it no, a highschool experience you actually had a remote chance with

You just dont get that

And no matter how hard you claw you will never get that life

So stop trying to be that and accept and adapt to what you are here and now, or youll drown,and nobody will take notice, as always.

Its strange to see so many people who have never left their home state or town

Do you know? Youre in the cave of platos allegory, the only way out is to recognize you are wether you belive or want to or not

Ive seen your type for so long, yet i said nothing. Ecause i knew you wouldnt belive theres more out there

Ive been told go grow up and shut up after informing people their decisions would inflict actual death on others which by the way it wouldve. I fucking saved some one AGAIN

Again and again a d again ive helped up the ones you left behind

And all i got was caged and beaten

Shut up, and i hate you actually, so ill shut up and you can die in that cave, im tired of people like you who never bother to listen or learn, and only respind with physical violence

Youre not better just because you punch the person who called you out till they cant speak anynore

Its not my fault youre a brute