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lickofdeath

You’re Han Solo! I used to be.

#dad

so I miss playing the smolest of solos. like for a starter?

idontgabit

they say you gotta dress up for halloween as your favorite character right?

Bonus:

#mom #dad

the-real-bruce-banner

#UnclesFavorite

#uncle chewie

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You just don't understand me. No one understands me. You're all phonies, dad! {smolsolo EMO BEN THOUGH}

“If slaughtering a school is your definition of keeping it real, then I don’t want to understand Benjamin.”

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“You don’t know the voices I hear or the battle that goes on in my head. You’ve got no idea the hell I see when I close my eyes.” His hand shook, he was doing his anger control methods in his head. A glass on the table in front of him rattled in response. “You don’t even have the option to judge me.”

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“I think I do. I think it looks a lot like the hell that’s been unleashed before my eyes. You’re my kid, I’m responsible for you…. it’s not your fault. It’s mine. It’s Snokes. He doesn’t care about you, we do. He’s a creepy old man… trying to make you feel like you aren’t alone, that he gets you. That he can help you. He can’t, Ben. He doesn’t want to help you.”

smolsolo

"You can't help me either! Not you! Not mom! Not uncle Luke!" The glass that he'd been rattling shattered as his temper got the better of him. "Why bother?! Why take me to doctors?! None of it helps but at least I feel like I belong when I talk to him!"

He was breathing heavily, face red from shouting. "The only person who could have helped is Grandfather. If he were here, he'd be able to help me. He'd understand that I don't need to be fixed."

#chewieismycopilot

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You just don't understand me. No one understands me. You're all phonies, dad! {smolsolo EMO BEN THOUGH}

“If slaughtering a school is your definition of keeping it real, then I don’t want to understand Benjamin.”

smolsolo

“I-I-” Ben’s face darkened, hints of sadness and guilt. “I-I-I thought we weren’t supposed to talk about that. The doctor said that you and mom agreed not to talk about it.”

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“…I found death sticks in your room, Ben.” Han sighed, rubbing his face. “You know what those do to you. I don’t care what Snoke says, they won’t make you stronger.”

smolsolo

"You don't know the voices I hear or the battle that goes on in my head. You've got no idea the hell I see when I close my eyes." His hand shook, he was doing his anger control methods in his head. A glass on the table in front of him rattled in response. "You don't even have the option to judge me."

#chewieismycopilot

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You just don't understand me. No one understands me. You're all phonies, dad! {smolsolo EMO BEN THOUGH}

“If slaughtering a school is your definition of keeping it real, then I don’t want to understand Benjamin.”

smolsolo

"I-I-" Ben's face darkened, hints of sadness and guilt. "I-I-I thought we weren't supposed to talk about that. The doctor said that you and mom agreed not to talk about it."

#chewieismycopilot

jediknightray

JAMIE COSTA FOR HAN SOLO 2K16!!!

#YES PLEAS #HOLY SHIT

huttslaying

@smolsolo;

‘ no one says you have to hurt anyone, ben. ’

smolsolo

"They do, though. The voices. They keep telling me things." He murmured into his mother shirt a sob escaping as he did. "I killed someone, mom. I felt it. I did."

Luckily the someone he killed was his small pet fish, and there's no telling that Ben had actually caused the gilled creature's demise. But the timing was suspicious. Then there'd been this small furry creature he'd injured when things got out of control a few weeks back. They were still kind of nursing the little fella to be well enough to run wild again.

Ben was a good kid who wanted to help people and the fact he had this contradicting voice in his head tore him apart to the point where his head hurt and he thought there'd never be relief from it.

#ben accidentally kills small animals and feels bad after #snoke needs to just leave this sweet precious flower alone.#also yes this is fine #huttslaying

huttslaying

"Mom, I can't make the voices stop." Ben's chin quivered, holding back tears as he was trying desperately to be brave. {smolsolo because of course}

leia’s been awake about an hour now, she couldhear the voices swirling around his head, invading his dreams. she opens her arms for him.

‘ sweetheart. come here. it’s going to be okay. ’

@smolsolo

smolsolo

Ben accepts the comfort of being close to his mother, unable to keep his stiff upper lip any longer, crying against her.

"I don't want to hurt anybody."

#huttslaying

gnine2

Too soon?

#oh god

@shctfirst Ben was shaking, his knees folded against his chest as he sat on the floor in the middle of destruction he'd just caused. Torn up books, destroyed toys and a broken window. His hand was cut badly on his palm. And he keeps feeling things. Bad things. Things he didn't understand or know how to control and there were voices whispering to him. Calling to him. Tempting him. Getting louder by the second. "Make it stop!" He sobbed, cupping both hands over his ears, managing to smear some of his own blood onto his face in the process.

#shctfirst #blood tw #dark side tw #is that a trigger?#idek imma tag it just in case #sorry not sorry