Nihilist

I'd rather be addicted to drugs than addicted to you

[snakeshady]

Things I should tell my therapist

My ex boyfriend tried to kill himself while I was on a school trip

I still have trouble eating regularly

I haven't thrown my razors out

[snakeshady]

Some nights I still struggle to find a reason to continue

[snakeshady]

It was like everywhere was freezing cold, but the two of us together were burning hot. After some time freezing to death, burning up didn't seem so bad.

[snakeshady]

Sometimes you do things you know you’ll regret. It’s part of life

[snakeshady]

I want to open up to you, but I don't know how. I've spent so much time building my walls, and I'm not about to tear them down, when I don't know if it's going to last

[snakeshady]

I'm exhausted. Exhausted when I wake up, exhausted when I go to sleep. I'm exhausted when I'm out and exhausted when I'm home. I think maybe this life has just gone on too long

[snakeshady]

I do not fear the darkness that surrounds me, for have i seen a much more terrifying darkness within myself

[snakeshady]

My mother told me she's scared I'm getting bad again I didn't know what to tell her So I just stayed quiet

[wnq-writers]

Depression isn’t necessarily defined as the presence of sadness. Sometimes it’s just the absence of happy.

freckledmatches  (via wordsnquotes)

[wnq-writers]

I don’t want to write about now. I’m trying to write this poem but I can’t. I just can’t seem to get the words on this piece of paper. And it’s really not that weird because you see; How can I get words on paper if I don’t even want them in my head? On paper I’m trying to form these supposedly beautiful sentences but in my head I’m tearing them apart. Deep down I know every single word I want to write but I just can’t. Because writing means realizing. Writing means digging deep down inside of me. Clawing down to each painful memory and ripping out the words meant to adorn this paper. And I can’t do that. I can’t take out my beating heart and scrape out all the beautiful words, just for you. Not again. Not anymore. I still want to give you wonderful things But you have already taken the best pieces of me. Sometimes all that is left to be said is written on empty paper.

-//vp unfinishedlines (via wordsnquotes)

"Sometimes all that is left to be said is written on an empty piece of paper"

[snakeshady]

You make me lose all control of my heart

Reasons why you scare me

[gracebriarwoodwrites]

Icarus

How do you tell Icarus

To stay away from the sun

When it is the heat

He craves, when he wants

To burn, when he needs

To fall and taste the ocean

On his tongue? How

Can you quell disastrous

Desires, pull him down

From his flight, away

From all-consuming light?

How do I tear myself

Away from you?

[snakeshady]

This is really really good omg

[snakeshady]

Lately the bad days have been turning into bad weeks

I can't do this again

[snakeshady]

So we smoke our lungs black Not for fun It's just that we don't want to go back And we stay out all night Not for fun It's just that we don't want tomorrow to come

It's not fun

[soul-angelos-deactivated2023102]

Dark times all around but there are still people out there who love you

Do not hurt yourself, do not hurt others, get help, talk to someone, anyone. Humanity has survived before and we can do it now if we all just support each other. My country and my people let me down and endangered my life but there’s nothing I or anyone else can do about that so let’s try to spread the love that is so clearly lacking.

[snakeshady]

I know this isn't what I normally post, but with everything happening in the messed up world I just wanted you all to know that I really fucking hope you are all safe, regardless of race, gender, sexuality, religion or anything else stupid humans seem to discriminate against

[snakeshady]

And when you die you can look them in the eye and say at least i fucking tried

Ugly heroes

[snakeshady]

I felt the slow sadness of missing a person who was still there

Half of a yellow sun, Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie