#getting bad again

[brians-tacobell-order]

watching all my passion and motivation and progress slowly fade away because I can't self regulate or use discipline

[iinevitable]

Lolz

[girlwithtoomuchemotion]

When it starts getting bad again after being okey for a while.

[oasisofgalaxies]

I do not feel like a human person

[music-notes-xoxo]

say you believe in something bigger.

say you think your prayer will change something.

say you think it won't change anything.

say there's no evidence.

say it's as meaningful as a flower through concrete.

or say it's nothing and just science.

either way, i wasn't supposed to be here today.

isn't that something

don't you think someone saved me

it wasn't my mother.

it wasn't my friend.

it was someone else i've never seen.

i heard Him though.

through static, through guilt, through salty cheeks and mascara smuged, i heard it.

damn you, you easy one.

you believe in that you can touch and hold and write a paper about.

you only know what your peers do.

damn me, the hard one.

i've believed in nothing.

i've believed in everything.

my sin can't take me.

the Man that whispers in the willows, says He's good.

i believe Him.

why can't i

you keep saying you're not sure but trust me i heard Him.

i haven't seen Him, but i also haven't seen the wind.

but i felt both that night on my mother's bathroom tile.

i heard Him.

i didn't mistake it.

-- "i heard Him" - july 4, 2026

[see-through-the-stars]

I feel that everything is so tiring. Just want to sleep it all off. Be gone for a while, just hide from life.

[idek-how-do-ifeel]

Everything is getting so heavy again

[eikotona]

one of the worst things of having a mental illness is feeling 'good' for a while and then suddenly everythings getting bad again and you just think why am i even trying anymore