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every "man" in undertale/deltarune is just the same egglike guy!!!! a permutation of the same humpty dumpty motherfucker across time and space and i just know i can prove it!!!!! wait where are you going come back
me after ch4: "kris probably looked up to dess as like a cool older sister"
me after ch5: "did...did kris hate her actually..."
i am obsessed with the gay flower cowboy
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this messed up vintage cat sewing pattern has tormented me since i saw it & like some other folks have done in that post - i tried my hand at tweaking the pattern to resemble the illustration (and my personal tastes) a little more. i've ended up with this, which i have only tested at a small scale and not this final version exactly (where i have done such things as further widening the cheeks and finalizing the leg shapes.) i bestow it upon you nice folks now 👐
go forth and make weird little beanbag kittens! pls show me if you do!
woah this got big!! and after another try i have another untested tweak for yall. this should help the weird pinchy side seams out. yey
My first attempt! I made the pattern a bit smaller as I wanted it to be able to fit in a pocket, but then (accidentally but perhaps unavoidably) sewed it with a wider seam allowance than the resized pattern indicated, so the face is proportionally a bit too big and I lost some detail in the ear shape. I'm pleased with it though! It was fun to make something and to do some handsewing.
SOO CUTE AND TINIE 😭
I tried this pattern a while back to try out some minky and I get no points for making the pattern well but looook at my boyyy
His name is Tofu. Thank you for sharing the pattern I will love him forever
getting down & structuring some vague thoughts i've been having, would love to hear people's thoughts:
there is an ideal feminist subject (the thin white middle-class pretty gender-conforming-but-not-too-feminine cis perisex woman). this ideal feminist subject is who much of mainstream feminism has been build around protecting, supporting, defending, and theorizing on her experiences. she isn't real; she's an idea, a trope, a story used to ground feminism in a certain story. feminism uses a lot of stories in order to develop and communicate certain ideas & webs of ideas, which allow us to see the world differently, realize the different options we have to react to our experiences in the world, and connect with others to support one another and act collectively.
people who wish to engage in feminism narrate their experiences through feminist stories. this can be very useful, as it allows people to make sense of their experiences in a way that can actually empower them: there is an important difference between telling the story of "i got pregnant as a teen because i was a dumb slut, and i disappointed everyone" and telling the story of "i got pregnant as a teen because our sex ed was worthless and i didn't have a good understanding of consent and my boyfriend felt like he owned my body, and my community betrayed me because they held misogynistic beliefs about my body and my role in society."
but there are a lot of people who could seriously benefit from being able to apply those feminist stories to themselves, who cannot, because they struggle to narrate themselves as the feminist subject. this not only limits their ability to make sense of their experiences in an empowering way, but also has real material impacts. the ideal feminist subject is also the ideal feminist victim of domestic abuse, the ideal feminist survivor of date rape, the ideal feminist victim of the gender pay gap, the ideal feminist recipient of feminist support. if you can't fit yourself into these stories defined by the ideal feminist subject, you are far less likely to have your suffering recognized as real or urgent. resources that you may desperately need will not recognize you as a potential client. feminist movements to fight for social change will not consider how society needs to change for you to not suffer needlessly.
so many people re-narrate their experiences in order to present themselves as, in some vital way, close enough to the ideal feminist subject to count. people can take different tactics, but one of the most popular is emphasizing one's womanhood in order to counter-act the distance caused by being fat, non-white, lower-class, not conventionally attractive, gender non-conforming, trans or intersex. the narrative used often goes that feminism is for women, I am a woman, therefore feminism should include me. this isn't always successful, but it is one of the most influential, because feminism is centered around gender, it is most concerned with thinking about gender and people as gendered subjects. with all the words i listed above as describing the ideal feminist subject, the final word is not an adjective but a noun: "woman." the ideal feminist subject has many traits, but she is a woman.
trans women narrate themselves very similarly to other marginalized women, emphasizing that their identity as women is what allows them to step into the role of the feminist subject and use those stories and be integrated into feminism at large. trans women in particular can struggle with this process because "cis" (and "perisex") are fundamentally gendered (and sexed) terms, making them part of the same category as "woman," and so it is extremely hard to separate the ideal feminist subject's womanhood from her cisness and her perisexuality. we can see this in how, traditionally, these terms were not used at all; a woman was presumed to be a cis and perisex woman, so much so that "cis" and "perisex" didn't exist as defined concepts. transphobic feminists zero in on this to argue against trans women's inclusion. but, in popular strains of trans-inclusive feminism, gender identity is re-imagined as the location of womanhood (as opposed to the cis-perisex "female" body), which helps to de-couple cisness and perisexuality from womanhood.
but this is where feminism continually fails transmasculine and nonbinary people, and where transfeminism has continually disappointed. even if cisness and perisexuality are de-coupled from womanhood, they are still working behind the scenes to define it. you don't have to check those specific boxes, but you need to pass the vibe checks.
a trans man is systemically oppressed on the basis of gender, affected by misogyny and transphobia, and in need of the support and resources offered by feminism. but if the ideal feminist subject is, fundamentally, a woman, then he must narrate himself as a woman. and, crucially, even transfeminism rarely meaningfully questions the frameworks of oppositional sexism and exorsexism which define womanhood around being the opposite of, and excluding of, manhood. nonbinary people, even if they aren't men, are similarly excluded. even if someone identifies as a woman in some way, they can only re-narrate their experiences effectively if they downplay the parts of themself that aren't "woman." this also affects many trans women who, for a variety of reasons, are not comfortable or able or willing to re-narrate their experiences on the basis that their womanhood is just like cis women's.
and, even worse: the violence and misogyny experienced by trans men, by nonbinary people, by many other kinds of trans and GNC people, is fundamentally tied to their rejection of cis womanhood. yet they must try to narrate these experiences with misogyny as being fundamentally born from existing as a woman-as-defined-by-cisness. this creates an intolerable paradox which was well-explained by C. Jacob Hale in his 2009 essay "Tracing a Ghostly Memory in My Throat: Reflections on Ftm Feminist Voice and Agency":
Those of us who are dislocated from already given gender categories, both normative and nonnormative ones, are dislocated in that we cannot fully inhabit any of them. We place ourselves and are placed by others in the margins of any number of gender categories, never close to the paradigmatic core of any but also never falling fully outside all. [...] I do not fit the paradigms of any already given gender categories. I flit about the margins of each of these categories. Since some of these categories share unions with one another, I flit through overlapping border zones constituted by the margins of several gender categories. Flitting about the margins is not a refusal to own my location, nor is it valorization of gender play or gender fluidity. Flitting is a type of movement proper to ghosts: creatures abjected from full social existence who, instead, have only partial, limited social existence. For reasons as personal, various, and idiosyncratic as the personal, various, and idiosyncratic connections border zone inhabitants draw between our embodiments, self-identifications, and subjectivities, already given discourses offer us little else than indefinite sequences of indiscriminate erasure. Already given discourses may elide the specificities of those with firm locations within already given categories, but not to the same degree that they elide the specificities of the dislocated. Those of us who live in border zones constituted by the overlapping margins of categories do so because our embodiments and our subjectivities are abjected from social ontology: we cannot fit ourselves into extant categories without denying, erasing, or otherwise abjecting personally significant aspects of ourselves. The price of committing such violence against ourselves is too great, though our only other option is also very costly for the dislocated have fallen through the cracks in the structure of the gendered world. Having slipped off all the handholds we have ever tried to grasp, we have fallen between the cracks of language and life. Unintelligible to ourselves and to others, we are driven to search for new category terms, since category terms are the signal-flags of social ontology, and we desperately long to reenter the world.
this is the source of trans in-fighting within feminism. some trans men desperately try to use the idea of a "female body" to narrate themselves as a feminist subject and downplay gender identity (which will inevitably be used by cis-feminists to ignore their transmasculinity entirely, leaving them vulnerable to all kinds of abuse), while some trans women use woman-identity and downplay the body. nonbinary people, too, engage in this. the core issue here is that all trans people, in order to re-narrate themselves to get closer to the ideal feminist subject, must downplay their transness. transness implies the inter-mixing of different gendered experiencs, different sexed bodies. it implies the blurring and crumbling of a solid, objective, unifying identity as females or as women. so the trans community is pulled in various different directions, tearing us apart as we try to cut off different pieces of ourselves to justify to cis women why we deserve whatever scraps of allyship they are willing to give us.
my solution to this problem is to define a new feminist subject, one based around shared suffering under patriarchy and shared resistance to gender-sex-sexuality oppression. this has already been done and will continue to be done until it sticks on a broad (ha) level; bell hooks' Feminism Is For Everybody comes to mind. just because re-narrating yourself to align with the ideal feminist subject is a popular method does not mean it has been the only one, and many people (particularly Black women) throughout the history of feminism have simply rejected the idea that the ideal feminist subject should be the ideal feminist subject. this is important for not just trans people but also the question of where cis men fit into feminism. feminists have long discussed men of all kinds being engaged in feminism, but if the feminist subject is always defined as a woman, then we will always struggle to conceptualize a multi-gendered approach to the goals of feminism, and feminism will continue to be used to turn gender-oppressed people into ghosts and make us tear each other apart for a seat at a very small table, never built to hold us, much less feed us.
we need more stories about high femme prom queen types who become weird faggy guys. you haven't seen Behaviors until you've seen a repressed closeted tboy holding on to socially acceptable heterosexual femininity by the skin of his teeth
Me before I came out, when I did pageants and modeling.
Me after I came out, cut off my hair, bought comfortable clothes, and decided to actually wear my glasses because fuck contacts.
This was me the day of my junior prom. The dress weighed around 20 lbs, was the first one I tried on, and my makeup was done by someone who still thought brown lip liner looked good on white people. I spent the entire day being photographed and generally hating how I looked and wishing I could figure out why, when everything was technically perfect.
And this was me about eleven years later- two weeks after I started T in the first photo, and at around 5 months on T in the second. Much happier, married to the love of my life, and finally looking like myself!
Such girl, very wow (pro ballet, modeling, and my first wedding)
Came out in 2016, here's nine years of transformation (in reverse order, sorry)
Turns out I'm neither a Normal Guy nor a woman, but a much weirder type of faggy masc thing.
And that's pretty great.
In my lifestyle lolita egg era. Somehow getting to dress like a princess gave me the will to get up in the morning
1 year and 5 months on T
granted being a big ol goth doesn't really fit the bill of "socially acceptable heterosexual femininity" but i was HYPER feminine when i was closeted, especially in the years between when i FIRST tried to come out (age 16 - around the time of those first photos) and when i actually made the jump (age 19 - about a year after the last photo)
you can tell in that second to last photo i literally got a tattoo that said "MAD GIRL" which was an exercise in many things, including abstract self-harm, a visual reminder that i had given up on myself, and wildly underestimating the number of dudes who would misread it as BAD GIRL and take that as a cue to say gross shit to me while i was at work
anyway never kill yourself
haha yeah 🫣
consciously dipped my toes into the gender fuckery pool at around 15/16 but I was pentecostal at the time and well. took them out real quick
i tried very very hard to be “femme” for a LONG time but during covid lockdowns I didn’t have to perform for anyone and I slowly started to let it all go and now I’m a silly little man 😌
ahem
these are about 10 years apart, 7 years on t and 5 years post op. it gets better guys
Hope it’s alright for my nonbinary ass to add on, about ten years apart one of my dead eyed barbie photos vs me last year at pride
Looking at this makes me wanna cry, we made it boys
i like nonbinary nonhuman characters bc it shows how gender is really just a human cultural concept. there is no reason we should expect nonhuman beings with nonhuman cultures to be gendered according to human rules, and it's cool to see this explored in fiction.
i'm sick of nonbinary nonhuman characters bc nonbinary human beings exist in REALITY and are severely underrepresented in fiction. i don't like the potential implications of nonbinaryness equating to nonhumanity. we are already so dehumanized in reality.
i like nonbinary nonhuman characters bc i can relate to not feeling fully human. my society does not treat me as fully human, so it's harder for me to relate to nonbinary characters who are treated as fully "people" in their setting, even as an escapist fantasy.
i'm sick of nonbinary nonhuman characters bc most of the time they're feminine humanoids anyway. full disclosure, i lean feminine, but that doesn't mean all nonbinary characters should look like me? ykwim?
i like nonbinary nonhuman characters bc i relate to not understanding esoteric experiences that many people grasp easily. like the gender binary, and gender as a whole.
it's soooo annoying how these cannot be combined into a coherent oneness...mfw literally i can't fucking pick a lane
We Are Here pt 1/?
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🐟 FISH GENDERS 🐟
wrassegender: someone who was a girl as a child and a man as an adult. based on the bluehead wrasse
clownfishgender: someone who was a boy as a child and a woman as an adult. based on the clownfish
anglergender: someone who was binary as a child, and something other than binary as an adult. based on many species of anglerfish
anglerfish idea credit: @equidlibrium
shoutout to slow growers, late bloomers, people whose plans got derailed by circumstances beyond their control or their own choices, people who never had a plan to begin with, people who have had to start over when theyre too old to feel like theyre supposed to be where they are, people who cant pretend theyre built for the environment theyre in, and everyone who's not living the life they thought they would. im proud of you for making it this far and i hope you keep going until youre happy ♡
on my knees begging city queers in relatively safe enclaves to remember everyone else out here with no support, no communities, no families, no resources, no shelters, no friendly storefronts, no pride flags, no earnest cringey displays of acceptance we can roll our eyes at. not just in america but in the whole world
you don't have to help us. but please just remember we're out here. please just remember we exist and that at one point we were trying to live. please just remember that many of us will be buried under our deadnames if we are allowed to have names in death
favorite part of the human experience is when you have a wonderful night out with people you know you will never be with again in the same way and you're so full of love because it's all so temporary and fleeting
(art by meghan lands)
i have these crazy moments when my body and soul sync with the present and im like whoa its me then they drift apart again for another 2 years
assessing dess holiday through clover
i CANNOT find what video i saw this in, if i figure out what video it was in i will update this post, but there's a youtube person out there who thinks clover has some things in common with dess holiday. as evidence, clover's room in the card castle inexplicably has pine trees (associated with the holidays) and giant baseballs (associated with dess)
(hmmm...there's some congruence here...)
let's assume clover was influenced by dess, based on dess, or created by dess. it's super random to have the trees and the baseballs in clover's room unless one of those possibilities is true. can we learn anything about dess by examining what clover does and does not like to talk about in her fight? (clover dialogue source)
clover's likes
cute boys/fluffy: two heads like boys who are fluffy, nice, cute, and wearing glasses. (one head does not like cute boys.) conclusion: dess likes asriel, who is probably all of those things like ralsei. and she is also bi. hell yeah
birthday: idk!
sports: the clover heads like to eat sportsballs. maybe she has the feeling that she should like sports but doesn't really understand them. we know by this point that dess likes sports, especially baseball
family: this would imply dess loves her family. awww
hole: when we first meet clover's heads, they're popping out of holes in the ground, so i guess clover likes to be in holes? nobody take that out of context please
roulx: clover thinks he's hot. what are the dess implications of this? (did she invent him?)
puzzle: not sure. clover likes puzzles, maybe dess does too? maybe she's the reason noelle is into game secrets? i (the older sibling) am the one who got my younger brother into game secrets when we were little kids
party/dance: dess seems like she enjoyed music, so enjoying parties and dancing would be normal for such a person
giant bed: clover's bed is giant. probably not significant to dess, but WHAT IF IT IS
number three: of course clover would like the number three, there are three of her. but...there are also three heroes................
sandwich: clubs sandwich :)
tree: "you brought up the topic of trees. clover seemed happy..." again, trees are associated with the holidays, and those in clover's room are obviously conifers, like christmas trees 🎄
clover's dislikes (the sillier, more speculative section)
splat noise: nooo does clover hate lancer?! what if dess does too :(
sandpaper: it's coarse and rough and irritating. not like asriel! not like ralsei!
chaos/clown: jevil of course. this implies clover remembers when jevil was free, before seam had to imprison him. it makes sense dess would hate things with pointed tails if she was one of the "poor children" who followed a pointed tail into the woods...
number four: remember that door in ch3's sword route that had four triangles? the one you unlock with the ice key?
remember all the implications in ch4 that there was a fourth person in the legend? a girl who might not be the same girl as the second hero? that was kinda weird. hey did you notice the addition of the fourth triangle to form a keyhole lets the delta rune angel symbol look exactly like the angel dolls found in the light world
number two: is this a poop joke? this is a poop joke. also if one of clover's heads were removed, she would not be a complete being :(
turtleneck: dess hates gaster confirmed
trouble: dess sure didn't like when kris was a troublemaker. *whiffle bat thwack noises*
thrash: i can't believe clover hates your machine? your beautiful duck??
guns: i can't believe this made it into the game lol
cheating: it's hard to tell, but it's easier to imagine dess as honest and forthright than underhanded or sneaky. i doubt noelle would admire her if dess were that kind of person.
dice: dess confirmed for hating d&d (or maybe clover just hates pippins)
starwalker: you leave my boy alone, he's the ORIGINAL
4 leaf clover: maybe clover just doesn't want another head. maybe three is enough
garbage: the spamton/clover crack ship is never gonna get off the ground like this
non-birthday: who doesn't love getting presents? who doesn't hate not getting presents?
crime: but crime is cool!!!! what the hell!!!! (disclaimer to minors in this tag: CRIME IS NOT COOL. TAKE YOUR VITAMINS)
in conclusion, there's something here, i can feel it...
my bf was like "i wish you'd post art more, you always second guess yourself and don't show anyone"
and i was internally wincing and waiting for the inevitable you never finish anything you start comment that people love to make about my ADHD perfectionism-anxiety (and like, it is true, but i don't need other people to point it out, i know and hate this fact thoroughly), or you need to get over your fear of being perceived, which is another thing i know and hate about myself,
but instead he said "i wish you didn't have to deal with that anxiety"
and i couldn't find the words to express it at the time, but it really meant a lot that, instead of ascribing deliberate and willful intent to my anxiety or shyness the way so many people have before, he talked about it like it was something that happens to me against my will
just having it acknowledged that i did not choose to be this way and it is an affliction, a daily struggle, instead of getting "stop being lazy" "stop being stubborn" "stop being shy"
was really nice