depressed stressed and terribly dressed

I like art and not a lot else

[wandashotshells]

tummy progress :))

[soforgetable]

my brain is such a fucking awful place to be, I’m so paranoid and so sad, I feel so alone and like I’m about to be abandoned by my favourite person, I feel sick and I just want to die

[aquiraxuno]

[razorshapes]

[timeslord]

IN MEMORY OF NAYA RIVERA

Naya Rivera was a mom, a sister, a daughter. She was an actress, a singer, a writer, a model. She was a latina woman who went through a lot in this life. She was always vocal and open about important issues such as homophobia, racism, toxic relationships, sexism, motherhood, abortion. Her character in Glee was probably one of the most influential and important representations for the LGBTQ+ community and she always talked about how Santana was important for young LGBT people and how proud she was for being able to represent something good. If Santana ever helped you, Naya was so proud of that and of you. She changed lives.

Thank you, Naya. You’ll be remembered and missed. 

[mpdrolet]

[allaroundvibes]

Being ADHD and BPD is like I walk through a doorway and go “who am I”

[adhdcognizant-deactivated202110]

[yourmindoesnotexist]

things my adhd makes me do:

rock back and forth, ALOT

bite my nails when im bored or need a stim

rub soft stuff against my face

space out when im not supposed to 

say things like “i guess” and “yeah” when i dont want to talk

not understand when im doing weird things in public

scream and yelp when im excited

make weird noises when i get over-stimulated

talk too much when i am excited

stop talking at random times

change my hyperfixations almost every week

lose a lot of money on my hyperfixations

collecting random things like empty toilet paper rolls

lose track of time

my appetite changes ALOT 

loud things really bother me

sometimes i cant hear

i lose track of my surroundings

i spend a lot of time online researching about random things

im constantly moving

my eyes go wide at random times

i jump up from my seat

eating the skin on my fingers

scratching my skin alot

touching my face

scratching my head

my head gets really itchy when something disgusts me

things like rain or a bug catch my attention easily

i cant tell if someone is my friend or not

i get attached to people when they do something nice to me

there are so many others things, but i cant focus on this anymore lol

[soanyways]

ADHD is like I have a thousand tabs open and I want to look at all of the tabs but the tabs register all at once and sometimes they don't register at all.

I'll get SO caught up in all the information in all the tabs and each tab will become my life, until I move on to another tab which draws me in because OOH SHINY

My brain will jump from the first tab to the fifth tab to the second tab and back to the one it started at.

And when people try to explain things it's like "Oh just go to the blue tab" and the blue tab will be a few spaces away but my brain won't register it so its kind of like "BUT I DON'T FUCKING HAVE A BLUE TAB"

And all the information in the blue tab falls out but no one knows because you don't want to look like an idiot.

So you're stuck on the yellow tab when you're supposed to be on the blue one.

And then people assume that you just can't use a computer, so they put you in the COMPUTER CLASS FOR DUMMIES, when you already know how to use a computer, but actually, you have NO IDEA what the fuck the blue tab is.

[genusniebla]

it's that time again!!!!!!

d̿͛o̐̌̽ Ì͋ a͗̕ćt͑u͠͞͠al̛͒ĺ̔̚ÿ́͛͑ ĥ̛͒͌a͂v̾͑̽̓͞e̾̂̄̓͞ ádh̒̾̽d́͞ o̽̈͗͞r͂̐̽͋͂ a͆̓̋m͘̕ I͋ j̑̒u̅͡ś̎̕͝t̾̅͆͘ l͌ȃ̈͂z͑̆͘y̆ ảǹ̓d̋ e͐̉͘x̕a̎̄̎͡g̒̇͞gé̿̒̕̕r͌̍̀aẗi̐̋n̐̕g̏̓ m̈́̿y̅ e͞x͝p̉̈̎̚e̓r͂̓̑̎ì̂ē̚n͂č̕͞͡è̐͗̊͝s̈ á͗n̈̇̂͌d̉̌̆̚͝ b͗̀̓̇y͌͌͆̅ c̾́͛l̉̈́̍a̓͘i̊̈̑́͞m̔͛́͋í͗̔͡n͗̈́g̈ tȟ͑ȇ sel͞f̈͊͗́ dx̍̃ o͑̔̾̀f͋͆̾̔ p̆̚r̊̉͐̽ob̓͗ả̛̑b͒̍l̈́e̎̀͊̏ á̀͋dh̃d̓͐͘ I̓̏'̓m̋̌ d͒̕ǐm̋̂͝͞i̊nis̑̒͗͝h̄̏͗̾in͊ǵ t̽͑hě̛̽͝ st̓̄̍̕r̊̆̽u͗̎͗͑g͋̕͡g̋̅̽lẻ̎̉̿s͊̐̈́ o̒͆f͂̈̑̓͑ ac̋͊t̕͠úȃ̇l͛̄̿̌ p̽̇̆e͊̑͑̓o̿̕ṗ̒̕l̆ë́̓ w͑̏͛͞í̐̕t̛͋h̔̿̚ i̇̓t̂̀ a̾̀͘͠n̄d͋̽́͞ e̓v͋̅e̓n̔͛͑̍ t̀́̉͘͝h͊̈́͠o̅͆̄̆͗ȗ̊̓͐g̚h̔͐́̀ e͋̅v̈́͆͡e͑̃͡r̓̃̀y͘ s̓͒̎́c͌r͛͋̇̊̐e̒̾͡ȅn̾̊é̕ŕ͑͘ t̽̓̆̆ë́͛̚s̓̓͠t̕͘͞ Ï̇͊ h̛͗̀͊ä́̕vé̂̇͘ ṫ̒ä́̐͗k̐ë́n h̓͊a͋ŝ̋̐͠ s͊̆a̐̃ḯ͋͐̔d͒̾ l̀͗͆̍͡i̓̈̚͠k͂̃̅͞͞e͝ "̾9̏8̈%͊͠ lḯ̄̚k̽̒͂͊͘e͐̎͒͒l̉i͂h̾ood̓ ơ͛̄̆f̌̓́͡ s̑̓e͂ṽè̂r̍̉͒e á̌d̉̉h̅͗̚͝͞d̅"̄͗̅ Ĩ'͋̓̅̆m̎́͂ j̉̏̅ư̅̓s̐̕̕̚ẗ a̛̿̓̋͘c̀͋̀̍t̛̔̓͐͠u͆͆al͆͊l̔̌ŷ͐̊ t̽͊̂̍h͑͑̏e̛͂͑͊ w̚ó̍̾̚r͂͐̅̍͞s̏͊̄t̏͐̓͞

[becherdireinen]

[fadedfemales]

[soforgetable]

1. On a busy train in London with my parents, August 2012

2. After a french lesson, February 2014

3. Informal depression and anxiety diagnosis, Spring 2014. Formal BPD and Anxiety diagnoses, March 2017

4. Fluoxetine (Prozac), October 2014

5. Auditory hallucinations, January/February 2019

6. Marijuana, March 2015. Cocaine, January 2018. MDMA, June 2019

7. For suicidal intentions, Early 2016

8. Overdose, February 2017

9. Very young age, possibly age 7

10. October 2014

11. Lost my virginity, unprotected with a stranger, October 2016

12. 2006/7

13. April 2014 by my GP

14. March 2017, following Overdose

15. N/A

[toadallybpd]

I made a bpd favorite person bingo. If you get a bingo you’re a clown like me hfdgjjfdgjj

DNI if you do not have BPD

[myriadsubtletiess-blog]

The worst part about having mental health issues is that you’re seemingly required to have a breakdown in order for people to understand how hard you were trying to hold yourself together.

[soforgetable]

Anyone else out here creating fake mess so it looks like you’ve eaten something when you haven’t or is that just me?