strange and unusual

they/them. spiritually i am in the library.

[softest-punk]

Hello!

Okay okay I do actually need a pinned post so here we go. Hi. Hello. Dia duit. Salut. Salve. My name is Cecil (they/them), people also call me punk/soft, you can call me whatever, it's lovely to meet you!

Other places you can find me:

Ao3 (fanfic)

itch.io (games & zines)

Current active fandom(s?):

Arcane

The Sandman

Tagging:

Some useful archival tags are: i guess this is my writing tag (for writing), ask and ye shall receive (answered asks)

Fandom stuff:

Please take this as blanket permission to do whatever your beautiful heart desires with fanfic or headcanons or shitposts or whathaveyou of mine. Take it and run with it, make stuff inspired by it, tattoo it on your person. I would love to see! But also you're welcome not to show me. You do you.

General:

Anon asks are on! Unless I run into some kind of significant problem, they will remain so.

I love you. Yes, even you.

[sardineincan]

Be whooo youuu areee

[sboochi]

If his lips didn’t feel so real you'd think he was a figment of your imagination

[softest-punk]

I am so sorry but every single time I come across your posts, without fail, I always thought your pfp was an eye or smth, until I realized it was actually a tea cup or maybe. Especially looking through the peripheral vision.😭😭

It is meant to give the impression of maybe being an eye at a glance!

[ratbebes]

niam i love vampires

[eddie-redcliffe]

Mr Hayward, I am heartened to see you out in public so soon after your... disappointment with Miss Baxter. The whole situation was so publicly played out. I would have hidden myself away for a year, at least, with the humiliation of it all.

[damndorothea]

i saw this somewhere else but reply / tag what you did today so everyone can see that we all did something different today

[nataliehall]

Hey look it’s your boyfriend

[souvenirs]

[spitfaggot]

happy birthday, gilbert baker. (june 2, 1951 — march 31, 2017)

[softest-punk]

A thing no one talks about re: ADHD is that you can't... gain experience, the way other people do.

I don't mean you can't get good at things through repeated practice. You can do that, I have done that, but I don't trust it.

I was driving this morning and thinking about how I have never developed the blasé contempt for it most people seem to despite never having caused an accident in 20 years because my sense of time is such that I might as well have been driving for a week. I'm a good, safe driver, but I do not have a heap of confidence in my driving despite having regularly done it for two decades because my sense of time is such that those two decades may as well not have happened.

I finished editing a novel today. When I publish it, it will be the 64th novel I have published in the last 10 years, not counting ghostwritten work. You'd think after a decade and 63 novels I'd be confident that I was capable of writing, editing, and publishing a novel—even be confident about the timeline for this—but no. No, I feel like I'm doing it for the first time, every time, and I was surprised to have finished the editing at all, let alone on time. Because those other 63 novels were published in a past I have a vague at best concept of. I have a record that says it happened but I do not feel it.

I cannot trust my future behaviour because for me there is functionally no past. I know it occurred, I have records, but I don't feel it the way people without this kind of memory issue do. I feel inexperienced at everything I've ever done and I cannot accurately estimate my skill level at anything, particularly not on the fly.

I don't have a solution to this I just find it an incredibly frustrating phenomenon.

[softest-punk]

Not strictly related but since several people have doubted my 63 novels number (this chart starts in 2011 but I did not actually start publishing until 2016 as you can see on the chart, before that I had 1 short story up which is now deleted from the system entirely):

As to how: well the clue is in the first line of the post. I have ADHD. The writing is the hyperactivity.

[romanceyourdemons]

we need fewer songs about falling in love and breaking up and MORE songs about famous disasters of the sea

[romanceyourdemons]

being told you’d cruise the seas for american gold you’d fire no guns, shed no tears, now you’re a broken man on a halifax pier might not be a universal experience, but like neither is the club. so a little perspective might be nice

[lestatdelioncuort]

THE VAMPIRE LESTAT Live at the Beacon Theater (x)

[lasaraconor]

[girl-blorbo-polls]

is your girl blorbo queer at all?

- yes, explicitly in canon

- yes, implied in canon

- yes, in my headcanons

- no

-nuance ™️

Is your girl blorbo queer at all?

Yes, explicitly in canon

Yes, implied in canon

No

Nuance ™️

Remaining time: 4 days 3 hours

[succubusboyfriend]

you have permission to pick that 2 year old "abandoned" project back up. it's not mad at you for setting it aside. and maybe time and distance have helped ease or erase the things that made you put it down in the first place.

[tcustodisart]

Happy Pride Month!

Faust is back for the 5th time! If you want to use the flag of your choice as an avatar, they're under the cut. They're free to use as long as it's for personal use only.

[softest-punk]

dumb-ish injury i thought i'd tell (this is meadow)

I'm normally pretty good at riding my bike (by which I mean, safe, with good balancing ability - I can go down a hill at speed and then simultaneously start braking, flag a left turn with my hand, and make the turn, etc.)

On this day the bike chain was acting up and distracting me so I went onto the sidewalk which was clear of people at the time to try and figure it out. While I was distracted with it, the sidewalk zig-zagged around a telephone pole. I looked up, hit the brakes and tried to turn a few seconds too late, and ran directly into it with my front wheel.

The bike came to an extremely sudden stop; I went sideways off it into the sidewalk, smacked my helmet on the ground and also my chin, and bounced into the grass (I am very good at bouncing into the ground wihtout serious injury, somehow).

I needed three chin stitches though. Welp.

This is delightfully cartoonish but I am sorry about your chin!!