sebastian looked over at her, replaying her question in his head a few times before finally working out an answer.Ā āmy ex girlfriend? do i think sheās behind some treacherous account trying to scare us by threatening our secrets? is that what youāre asking me?ā he questioned, though his words were stone cold.Ā āno, i donāt.āĀ
Ā Ā Ā Ā AĀ RATHERĀ STRANGEĀ LOOKĀ washesĀ overĀ theirĀ faceĀ asĀ sebastianĀ speaksĀ ;Ā theĀ wayĀ heĀ hadĀ saidĀ theĀ sentenceĀ rubbedĀ themĀ theĀ wrongĀ wayĀ ---Ā notĀ toĀ mentionĀ theĀ toneĀ inĀ hisĀ voice.Ā āĀ i mean, okay . . . you couldāve justĀ said no. āĀ nikitaĀ doesnātĀ meanĀ toĀ butĀ theirĀ eyesĀ rollĀ onĀ theirĀ own.Ā theirĀ attitudeĀ hadĀ shiftedĀ completely.Ā Ā ā do you think itās some kind of joke like everyone else? ā
the moment leo looks over and sees tears in nikitaās eyes he regrets having gone off on her; he hadnāt even meant to, everything had come out before he could stop it, but thatās pretty much his modus operandi these days concerning the subject of natalia.Ā āsorry, nik,ā he says, heaving a great sigh and scooting closer to bump her gently with his shoulder.Ā āitās not your fault, iāve been on edge since everyone got that text. pathetic, really.ā pathetic, yes, and also impossible to do anything about, apparently.
the question she asks is a personal one, and why not? they know a lot about each other. sheās told him about the horror show of her high school career, and heās told her about his struggle with substance abuse and a one-parent family. of course, heās also lied to herātheyāre lies he tells everyone, but theyāre still lies. he hates it, but the alternative is talking about things he simply doesnāt have the strength to talk about, so he tells one more now:Ā āno,ā he says simply, and lifts the bottle to his lips again.Ā āiā¦smoked with her once or twice, thatās all.ā itās more than heās told most people, anyway, but still a long way from the whole truth. and, in a low voice, ādid you know her?ā
ā not at all. truthfully, i think natalia may be dead, just like destiny and mateo. this may just be another student trying to fuck with us. ā sage replied dismissively, thinking on the matter.Ā ā and besides, we shouldnāt let this distract us from our academics. the only way we can beat this is by outsmarting whoever this is.Ā ā
nikitaās presence has become such a safe and comfortable one that leo rarely has any defenses up when sheās around, and his defenses are usually thin anyway. heās an open person, honest about his feelings, comfortable with emotion, so usually thereās really no need for any defense. the thing with natalia is differentāalmost unbearable, actually, but in this matter leo has kept himself a rather closed book. toriās the only one heās ever told about his history with natalia, let alone the feelings for her heād developed, and until that whole obscenity two years ago it hadnāt been difficult to keep secret. heād mourned alone, bitterly. now every time someone mentions her name heās terrified theyāll see everything written on his face. having been as utterly relaxed as he is hanging out with nikita at his apartment, beer in hand, heās absolutely sure he faltered when she said nataliaās name; the question is whether heād managed to cover it up fast enough.Ā ādo i think what is natalia, love?ā he asks in a voice of drawn-out apathy, as though anyone on this campus wouldnāt immediately know what she was referring to.Ā āare you talking about the text?ā he laughs, and thereās no humor in it. he wonders if heāll ever be able to talk about this particular subject without shutting down.Ā āno, i donāt think itās fucking natalia, what kind of vapid teen drama do these idiots think we live in? gimme a break.ā he immediately regrets the harshness of his words and, after taking a sip of his drink, adds,Ā āitās just stirring the pot is all, nikki, people get bored with reality and make up these pathetic fantasies to entertain themselves. itās called lord of the fucking rings, know what i mean? iām so sick of living in a fucking reality show.ā
Ā Ā Ā ā natalia ?Ā āĀ pink matte lips pressed together at the name, a girl she hadnāt spoke of for quite some time but also harboured her own curiosities in regards to her disappearance, before a humourless laugh caused them to part once again.Ā Ā ā of course not, thatās fucking stupid. sheās dead. āĀ it was bad enough that the investigation had been reopened after all this time, but to have this mass text lingering over their heads now was ridiculous. the very thought had toriās blood boiling. how dare some self-proclaimed sleuth try to threaten her. with an exasperated roll of green hues, the blonde lifted a hand to gingerly tuck a few loose strands of hair behind her ear.Ā ā honestly, nikki, itās been two yearsĀ āĀ nearly three. itās just some sick take at a joke to get everyone going absolute apeshit. ā
Ā Ā Ā MAYBEĀ THEĀ BLONDEĀ WASĀ rightĀ butĀ ---Ā Ā ā how do you know that for sure, though ? have you seen her body ? āĀ maybeĀ itĀ wasĀ disrespectfulĀ toĀ evenĀ beĀ consideringĀ herĀ toĀ beĀ theĀ oneĀ whoĀ sentĀ thatĀ massĀ text . . .Ā thoughĀ partĀ ofĀ itĀ beingĀ herĀ madeĀ sense.Ā ā i mean, wouldnāt you hold even a bit of a grudge against the people who were supposed to look for you until you were found but never did ? āĀ shrug.Ā ā anyway, i guess it doesnāt really matter at the end of the day. itās not like we can all have life threatening secrets . . . . . . āĀ nikitaĀ looksĀ atĀ toriĀ &Ā feelsĀ somewhatĀ worried.Ā ā right ?Ā ā
āof course itās natalia,ā the young woman confirmed in a loud yet oddly hushed tone as she braced forward on her bony little elbows, folding her arms on top of each other.Ā āi mean, itās just too convenient, donāt you think? chadās locked up, i doubt someone managed to smuggle a cell phone with paid service up their ass to him, and where is she? out there turning this thing into some morbid jokeā two people died.ā these last words were said in firm criticism, as if she suspected the girl in question was somewhere nearby, listening in.Ā āi mean,ā vada shook her head, blowing bangs from her eyes,āi always had this feeling about her, yāknow? like that she was just a seriously shady person.ā indeed, the dislike between the two females wasnāt secret.Ā
Ā Ā Ā SHEĀ Ā ALMOSTĀ Ā IMMEDIATELYĀ GOTĀ AĀ sickĀ feelingĀ inĀ herĀ stomachĀ afterĀ theĀ otherĀ voicedĀ herĀ opinionĀ -----Ā itĀ didĀ makeĀ senseĀ forĀ itĀ to beĀ nataliaĀ butĀ . . .Ā ā why would she do it though . . . ?Ā to this extent ?Ā āĀ nikitaĀ shookĀ her headĀ &Ā pressedĀ herĀ lipsĀ together.Ā ā it just doesnāt make sense to me. āĀ nikkiĀ leanedĀ backĀ inĀ theĀ chairĀ &Ā letĀ outĀ aĀ raspberry.Ā sheĀ didnātĀ knowĀ whyĀ sheĀ wasĀ soĀ intriguedĀ +Ā interestedĀ inĀ crackingĀ theĀ code.Ā maybeĀ itĀ wasĀ theĀ psychologicalĀ factorĀ thatĀ interestedĀ herĀ theĀ mostĀ ;Ā whoāsĀ toĀ say . . .Ā ā did you know her when she was here ? āĀ aĀ questionĀ nikitaĀ prayedĀ wouldnātĀ bringĀ upĀ anyĀ badĀ memories.
Running his hand down his face he sat up at the table,Ā āMierda itās too fucking early.ā Sitting in the UC Santiago was busy tossing peices of notebook paper on the floor. Heād get some professor bitching at him, he knew that but right now he didnāt care.Ā āDoes anyone who takes 8am classes ever actually go to them?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā” ! āāā Ā hELLO Ā my Ā name Ā is Ā amanda ( Ā 19 Ā + Ā she/they Ā ) Ā and Ā i Ā am Ā very Ā excited Ā to Ā meet Ā everyone Ā + Ā your Ā characters Ā :^) Ā under Ā the Ā cut Ā youāll Ā find Ā info Ā on Ā my Ā baby, NIKITA Ā ~
also my d/scord isĀ coochpetals#3608 if anyone prefers talkingĀ /Ā plotting from there
ā ARIZONA U is proud to introduce you to NIKITA TANAKA , the twenty-three year old , undergraduate psychology major in her/their SOPHOMORE year. most of their peers deem them as someone who is sweet, empathetic & polite but i know that some of their professors think theyāre more emotional, clingy & skittish , maybe thatās why the police are still interviewing them on the reopened cold case. maybe it was because they were also EX GIRLFRIEND of DESTINY MICHAELSON. i mean that is just a little suspicious, but i only really think of golden hours, gold cross necklaces, crying at night so no one can hear & matching shirts with her grandmother when i hear their name, not murder. but i could be wrong. ā FIVEL STEWART.
ON THE SURFACE
STATS PAGE & Ā WANTED Ā CONNECTIONS Ā .
minimal make up , soft kisses , shy smiles , glossy lips , sugar melting on the tongue , fairy lights around a mirror , berry picking and sidewalk chalk , silently observing the world , appreciating small beauties .
a forewarning that there will be mentions of her being druggedĀ +Ā recorded while doing indecent stuffĀ --Ā iāll also put a warning on that specific bullet point so you can skip if it need be. & iāll be talking about religion (Ā christianity )Ā throughout
born to a very religious & strict couple, bo and leonaĀ in a small town just 3 hours outside arizona.
she had to abide by the rules of god & the rules of her household or there would be ādire consequencesā ( as her mother put it ).
in grade 12, nikita was invited to a house party by a girl named matildaā¦ someone she would grow to hate. there was no reason to be suspicious and so, she went to this party.
WARNING ~Ā Ā /Ā nikita had been drugged & had done indecent actions while matilda & her friends recorded her.
^^ she woke up on the front doorstep when the sun rose ; aloneĀ &Ā terrified.
the link was spread throughout the entire school & nikita was quickly made into a mockery. by some miracle, her parents never saw this link. thank GOD (literally).
prayed, confessed, countless hours of volunteer work. eventually, she was forgiven āā by herself or by her god, whoās to say. she still feels a lot of regret & hates talking about it to this day.
she always knew she wanted to study psychologyĀ &Ā become a school counselor to be the person kidsĀ /Ā teens can trust with their problems. nikki thinks itās mEGa important for them to not bottle it up like she did.
NOWADAYS
she still very much loves godĀ &Ā prays often but she does it more in private and doesnāt really like to discuss religion with people.Ā she does go to church every sunday though.
trying to live her best life tbhĀ --Ā just taking each day as they come, trying to blend in with the crowd and not get into too much trouble.
really wanted to get out of her comfort zone for the rest of her university experience so she became a cheerleader as a back spotĀ !!?! and to her surprise, she actually really enjoys it.Ā
tries to be that person everyone can go to with their problemsĀ --Ā not only for practice but also because she genuinely wants everyone to be mentally healthy and happy.
RANDOM HEADCANONS
is a demigirlĀ &Ā goes by either she or theyĀ !Ā she literally...... never talks about her gender identity &Ā sheās only really told her super close friends about it.
is a veganĀ &Ā will get very sick if she eats meat :(
a hOPELESS FRICKING ROMANTIC. WOW. she loves love and will literally melt if you compliment her and wholesome things make her so happy
was in looooooove with destinyĀ &Ā still is !!!! she was her first ever same-sex relationshipĀ &Ā nikita was the one to break things off because she didnāt want destiny to feel tied down or anything and she reeaaally regrets leaving her.
is simply too fucking wholesome for this world DJKGH. she gets hurt so easily and makes this really sad face while trying not to cry. shitās so sad LMAO.Ā
i think thatās all i wanted to add ?? if youād like to plot, please hmu @ legit any time of the day or night + iāll reply as soon as i see it !!! :ā)
