Don't you need somebody to love

Soldatik\Kate | she | Ru\Eng |  Drawing some stuff My TG: https://t.me/tiny_soldier

[irlpim]

🍻i made some free to use outlast trials banners for any adult artists or writers struggling with strangers online trying to sanitize the internet. stay weird stay queer.🤍🤍🤍🤍

[soldatik]

Guys, I love you and all, but I'm an artist with drawings that may or may not be suggestive. Just saying. I didn't see fun policing people on my page yet and I would be happy if it's stays that way :)

[taerb8]

All of the primes' psyches are so upsetting to think about, seperating them from their crimes for a moment (crazy scentence, my apologies). All of them were genuinely born into failure, none of them had a shot. All of them had shit parents, all of them were victims of sex crimes (the Kress twins included, even if they mutually consented to their..relationship), multiple examples of abuse (physical, mental, sexual as previously stated, emotional, verbal), the people around them constantly--whether directly or indirectly--enabled their violent and (self) destructive behaviors, ect. I love doing deep-dives into my fav characters (I have a google doc FULL of prime asset lore/evaluations/media) but lord does it get heavy.

It gets even heavier when you're fully immersed in the lore, you start to piece things together during gameplay (hearing Phylis beg her dad to stop genuinely makes me stomach drop, I literally throw projectiles to make noise so the line cuts off lol). Hearing Franco talk to/about his dad - Coyle's constant paranoia about lack of control, the dark, forced submission, being overpowerd - Arora contemplating suicide whilst Otto tries his best to distract and reassure her - Dr. Futterman's very rare lines of affection that are obviously manipulative tactics he used when he was alive (and Phylis being so happy to be "loved" - The whole Pervert the Futterman dialogue where she's so upset about her dad being "taken away from her" and Dr. Futterman using it as fuel for her hysteria)

Also, in Franco and Kress' case, could you imagine being so young and wondering why you don't look the same as the other kids? Otto and Arora especially. From the moment you're born, you're a "cancerous miscarriage." Something rotten, born wrong. - All of the prime assets spent their lives resenting their parents, fathers specifically, just to become more like them as they got older. Violent, dismissive, manipulative, abusive. Perpetuating the cycle. (Gooseberry may show affection and possesisiveness of Futterman but I'm sure the rose-colored glasses crack at times)

These nerds make me so sad sometimes :(

I do NOT support nor empathize with real murderous degenerates - This is all because of my love for fictional characters

[soldatik]

THOUGHTS ABOUT PRE-MURKOFF PHYLLIS FUTTERMAN

This is just something I don't see enough in the fandom works or fics.

But how did Phyllis actually tackled the situation after her father's death and before her detention?

Comics said that the tone of the show started to change, but how did she justified it to the studio workers? It's not a YT podcast, TV shows require a lot of people in production and I never saw it being tackled almost anywhere. Yes, it is a local, private and fairly small TV studio. But one way or another, there must have been technicians of some sort: lighting technicians, sound technicians, camera operators, and editors. Even if we assume that Phyllis herself handled the script, puppets, costumes, and makeup (let's assume).

The channel's television producers, accountants, managers were supposed to work with her... It's a lot of people.

There is so much to say about her charisma on children, but apperantly on adults too. She had to be insanely popular and respected/loved/feared by her colleagues to pull out this shit with show, while doing drug traffic/kidnapping (who btw) and racketeering on the background. And apparently, with constant renovation work going on, given how the police described her studio.

I have no idea why and how she did something like this, but I suppose she was already deeply spiraling after her father's death at this point.

Speaking of Dental drops. The most logical thing would be to sell it not through a show, but through a clinic, and most likely, Doctor Daddy dearest long before started this and it wasn't a new scheme. At least for me, it answers some questions.

How I'd love to see the Phyllis of this era, running the studio after Dad with sweet smiles and an iron fist. A slow (or rapid) descent into total psychosis and delulu, highly charismatic woman in power, whose moral state, which is obvious to those around her but not to her, is beginning to clearly leak and the needle of her moral compass is spinning.

But alas. I do think about drawing her in this era in the future tho.

If anyone have anything good to read about pre-Murkoff Phyllis , pleeease send me links, I found like... One. Also if you have good Coyleberry, just saying.

[soldatik]

I had this in my head all day like a brain worm

The most accurate translation I can do: "If she has a mouth and hole, she is not an ugly soul. If she has a hole and ass, she will not be a poor lass."

[apchipip]

！！！⪩⪨⋯ ПРЕДЗАКАЗ⋯⪩⪨！！！

Дорогие друзья, открыта форма с предзаказами на этих балбесов₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎

оформить предзаказ на любого из мужей можно в этой форме:

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Буду очень рад распространению этого поста^^

по любым вопросам можете писать в комментарии или лично мне

предзаказы принимаются до 15.07 включительно.

[soldatik]

hell nah, she's too over this

[soldatik]

Sat down to sketch something new (which I'll only finish after the thesis)

But suddenly I thought, what if, instead of the girl on the right, someone would like to see their umeship reagent? Franco nation, what do we think about this?

[soldatik]

NO thin sexy Waylon twinks on my watch

My version of Waylon is a sweetheart and he carries pictures of his wife and kids in his wallet

[soldatik]

Talking to women with naturally generous chest charisma in our 2026, I begin to understand why the Murkoff give Mother Gooseberry kilos of cocaine but not a comfortable bra. Poor, poor Sinyala didn't have the budget for that in the 1950s after all those cuts.

[soldatik]

WIP Little Goosey's weekend with Daddy :)

Last night before the photo, Dad was really angry, but today he took her to an amusement park and bought a goose, so she remembered the amusement park and the goose.

I'll get back to this work when I deal with my thesis

[spookyboywhump]

I do really love it when women write graphic and fucked up things. I feel like so often people react to fucked up fiction with “of course a disgusting man would write this 🙄” and it often carries an unspoken (honestly sometimes spoken) message of “a woman’s PURE and DELICATE and FEMININE mind could NEVER think of something this VILE”. Thank you women in fucked up fiction 🫡

[soldatik]

ты будешь записываться на зин по аутласту? хотелось бы там видеть твою работу

РАЗУМЕЕТСЯ

Это я (слева) и я (справа) призываем вас присоединяться к Меркофф зину!

And, by the way, I LOVE anon questions, give me more questions

[der-fleischwolf]

ОТКРЫТ НАБОР.

Доступ ограничен. Материалы засекречены.

Идёт вербовка художников и писателей в Murkoff Sketch Zine по вселенной Outlast. Это не просто зин — издание будет оформлено как засекреченная папка с материалами о деятельности корпорации Мёркофф.

┏ до 40 авторов ┣ ~ 50 страниц ┣ Мягкая обложка ┗ Формат А5, вертикальный

Художники — [https://vk.com/topic-228990192_57394709] Писатели — [https://vk.com/topic-228990192_57394813]

Перед подачей заявки ознакомьтесь с протоколом: концепция, условия, сроки — [https://vk.com/topic-228990192_57392017]

Окончание набора: 11.05.2026

Мёркофф напоминает: вы сильны, вы красивы, вы заслуживаете нашей любви.

[soldatik]

Всем моим русскоязычным аутласт мьючам - вам туда надо

To all my English speaking Outlast audience tho - it would be SO GOOD, I'm practically vibrating

[soldatik]

hate this game, never have enough diamonds for everything

[soldatik]

Nightmare blunt rotation family

[soldatik]

Dad, you're ruining the vibe

[soldatik]

Baby girllll your crazy

GB!Franco Barbi plus little GB!Coyle (I hope all 10 people who remember that meme will laugh)