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Soldatik\Kate | she | Ru\Eng |  Drawing some stuff My TG: https://t.me/tiny_soldier

[irlpim]

🍻i made some free to use outlast trials banners for any adult artists or writers struggling with strangers online trying to sanitize the internet. stay weird stay queer.🤍🤍🤍🤍

[soldatik]

Guys, I love you and all, but I'm an artist with drawings that may or may not be suggestive. Just saying. I didn't see fun policing people on my page yet and I would be happy if it's stays that way :)

[rabirayrana]

One reason I like that Coyle may or may not have had an incestuous relationship with his mom is that it reinforces the overarching theme of his arc, that the violence which American culture would like you to believe is disruptive and deviant is actually completely acceptable and encouraged. Coyle being in the KKK helped his police career instead of harming it, he used his abusive marriages to extort money from not just his wives but their entire families; everybody loved him in Oklahoma, even though his crimes were barely hidden. Being monstrous was apart of his job description, it made life easier for him and earned him all the praise in the world. Likewise, Coyle’s mother did what she was supposed to do in the 1920s South, she married and produced children, and then she used that position for sexual and emotional catharsis knowing that - like her son - she could get away with it.

When Coyle sees Phyllis and starts talking about how “letting a woman control your life” leads to “perversion and despair, chaos,” he sounds genuinely disturbed. His voice gets airy, like he’s dissociating, like this isn’t a cautionary tale but a memory of his. He outright compares Phyllis to his mother, in between bouts of sexualizing her, likening Phyllis to a thundercloud, the thing he associates with sexual power. That petulant sniff he does when he’s calling her his “sweet mother” is the kicker; he knows he’s supposed to love this woman, he’s proud of her, he draws confidence from her, (“mama coyle raised no nancies,”) but he’s still upset. Leland looks at Gooseberry - who was a television star working with children while secretly being a serial killer, who operated in public but kept her worst crimes behind closed doors, who used her influence to get children to abuse drugs and commit parricide - and says that that’s what his mother was like. Phyllis takes him back to a part of his life that is equal parts pain, fear and arousal, she triggers something that sits at the root of his entire conception of women. They had Coyle call her a hysterical bitch three whole times for a reason, she gets under his skin.

It is extremely common for media depictions of mother-son incest to portray the son as the instigator, a reflection of the cultural impulse towards victim blaming. But Coyle casually shakes off the residual stigma of what happened to him by reminding us that being overly intimate with your mom is normal. Lots of people kiss their mother on the mouth. He’s not willing to criticize the patriarchal family structure his mother operated within, he’s staked too much on it, so instead, he zeroes in on the way she specifically misbehaved inside of it, chalks his own suffering up to an accidental misapplication of power into the wrong hands. You gotta wonder if Leland blames his father, on some level, for not controlling his mother properly, for not dominating the household like he was supposed to. That’s probably why he considers his violent attentions to be a favor he’s doing his victims; he associates punishment inseparably with love.

Coyle, in his cut lines, describes what his mother did to him and caps it off by saying “bitch never was right in the head.” He’s performing the same cope that you see people perform every day, when they call their parents (who are legally allowed to sexually & physically assault them, and publicly chortle about doing so) “narcissists,” “psychopaths,” “lunatics,” or any other otherizing label designed to frame the abuse as an outlier rather than part of the cultural norm. Ultimately, Coyle can’t deal with the fact that the social order he was raised under allowed for & incentivized his own mistreatment. He benefits from that social order, remember, certainly more than his mother did, he’s built his entire life around exploiting it. So instead, he pretends she was a deviant. He acts like what he went through was a bug and not a feature of the system he grew up in, something he of all people should know is a lie. Women who self-select into a position where they have unlimited unaccountable access to children often turn out to be predators? Wow, who would’ve thunk! Just like there’s nothing abnormal about a cop being a klansman, there’s nothing abnormal about a mother being a pederast. It is accepted; it is allowed. Sorry.

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Commission work for @henrymcleanchik from TG

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Even more spoilers for Murkoff zine: https://t.me/awoozine

Waylon didn't deserved any of that

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you're not a man until you've served

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He wouldn't say no to a little extra electricity, would he?

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Nurse Barlow from the request post, number 2 and 6

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💬 5  🔁 28  ❤️ 302 · I was given the chance to try out all the colors in those series, and now I want to put them to use Mutuals and/or fans

[tragshurpriest]

y’all mind watching my gluskinling while i wait for my tablet to start working again

[soldatik]

Of course ❤️

He started calling me names tho, so he got instant carma

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it's out IT'S OUT

[soldatik]

Haii I dunno if you already posted about this but what pencil did you use on your recent Franco drawing🥹 it looks so yummy

Hi! No, I haven't posted it yet, but it's a regular HB pencil from unknown label :) thank you for your kind words! I prefer HB, 2B or 3B usually

I like when you guys are asking me about my materials (or asks in general), send me more

[soldatik]

The man, the legend himself

Ngl, he was the reason I got into the Outlast in the first place, more than 10 years ago, actually

And also color swatches, because these two are new ink colors and I immediately knew what I had to do with this goulish green with a pink undertone (the palette of the picture is on the right)

[soldatik]

If there is someone to be drawn on this paper? It's this one little devil

[manyamanka]

✱ ...The miracle of birth. We have a beautiful, innocent baby🐇🩷

THE FRANCO BARBI PLUSHIE IS HERE‼️Thank @acggoods

for the opportunity to release such a wonderful baby into production!💗🥺

✱ I would be forever grateful for any SHARES and SUPPORT! ❤️ because this plush can only be made if we reach AT LEAST 100 SUPPORTERS‼️🙏

📌You can buy it through the link below

✱ A new archetype of appetite and childish dependence. Franco Barbi, a gangster, a murderer, a trafficker

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Spoilers, spoilers to Murkoff sketch zine!

Awoozine | Murkoff Zine | Rain World Zine

зины. самиздат. творчество. Организатор: @Katische Awoozine в вк vk.com/awoozine По всем вопросам пишите организатору или в личные сообщен

Auntie Goosey would be on a postcard ;)

[soldatik]

I bought a little treat for myself - new watercolours! So portraits/studies of big momma and leather daddy for ya

And now, for those interested in the watercolors: personally, I liked the third one of the bunch best—because the granulation of the blue in the dark brown areas is so beautiful and I can't help myself but nerd about it. I don't know which of my international readers might be interested, but I believe Nevskaya Palitra is available on Amazon—if you'd like, check it out.

[soldatik]

I was given the chance to try out all the colors in those series, and now I want to put them to use

Mutuals and/or fans, let’s do something interactive: drop a comment with a two-color combo (using the numbers from the swatch sheet) and a character from the Outlast series. I’ll try to draw portrait requests based on the color combinations I like best

[soldatik]

his fkng beak....

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The minute you walked in the joint

I could see you were a man of distinction

A real big spender

As you could tell, I finished my thesis and now can do things in their full potential!