A blog Some Random Gal made for herself for Batim stuff, etc. nowadays though it’s less batim and more random tumblr stuff with aromantic and other queer bits and pieces… I am bad and staying consistent with topics and interests.
Anyways, and to summarize my first week on my personal end:
Day 1: okay, apparently I used it more often than not
Day 2: Withdrawal symptoms... wait a minute.
Day 3: We're just battling addiction, holy shit, holy shit we need a better plan
Day 4: and here is my first impromptu essay on what I think is going on here
Day 5 (I think): btw. I think I can expand on how far that battling addiction metaphor goes, even down to being surrounded by other still addicted people
Day 6: unrelated (?) brain fog due to bad sleep and low blood sugar due to not much appetite
Day 7: made art and celebrated :3 HOLY SHIT IT'S BEEN A WEEK
if goyim are so determined to compare everything to the Holocaust, here’s a fucking comparison for you.
why are you making lists of Jews — and it is Jews, because most “Zionist” blocklists contain at least 2-3 users who are actually not Zionist in any form? who else did that?
seriously, goyische leftists, who else made lists of Jews, of Jewish businesses to boycott?
you may not be Nazis, but you sure as fuck have no problem copying moves out of their playbooks. and while we’re on the subject, this whole chasing Jews off social media and trying to ban us from places like rallies, colleges, etc? We’re dangerously close to being halfway through the 10 stages of genocide.
I seriously want goyim to reblog this. Because being an ally isn’t just reblogging the feel good content.
You’re complicit if you aren’t uplifting Jewish voices. And I’m not telling you that you have to reblog my post specifically, but I do want you to at least ask yourself why you aren’t. Because I truly believe, based on facts, evidence, personal experience, historical knowledge, that everything I have said is true.
I'd like to recommend a certain book/play by the name of Andorra by Max Frisch for this here, for everyone that still thinks they cannot possibly be contributing to this, because they ain't actively doing anything bad to jews.
Read it. Be it in german or translated in your language. Perform it if you must and ask yourself: Am I currently doing anything like what those andorians are doing in the play there? Do I feel uncomfortable with anything anyone is doing there?
Because I've got news for you: that's the exact fucking point of the play.
Helped work and edit on this for @insane-control-room
I had explicitly declined on adding my tumblr handle in herre since I am kinda lazy with social media anyways :P
sharing this around here anyways, you might enjoy ;)
Helped work and edit on this for @insane-control-room
I had explicitly declined on adding my tumblr handle in herre since I am kinda lazy with social media anyways :P
sharing this around here anyways, you might enjoy ;)
Some things are meant to be remembered; for the right reasons.
i've posted this review on steam, but i think that i want to say it here, too.
Here is my review of the 'promotional' material (according to steam) Secrets of the Machine
What I liked: the art appeared to be a true return to form; the style had its original charm with updated lighting techniques and slightly better optimization than previous games in the Bendy series. The audio design was also nice, with good ambiance and nice composition.
And now, the jank.
The game handles reasonably well; but it is clearly slapdashed together and is missing important components.
There is no starting menu. There are no loading screens; and it is very jarring. There are no options in the game menu - you cannot minimize the game, you cannot brighten the game, you cannot make the game run any better on your computer, and it is incredibly laggy. If you have a potato laptop? Nah, get out. No game for you. There are no subtitles that you can enable, and voices are very muffled. Additionally, the game is very dark, and as mentioned, you cannot adjust that in the settings of the game, nor in steam settings. You have to do so from your computer.
Controls are extremely janky, as you cannot run, you cannot jump, and there is no indication for interaction with any objects. There are no control settings for remapping, and you cannot even see which keys do what.
Puzzles are boring and confusing; with no guidance. There were no hints, no rhyme or reason. There was more puzzle in the BATIM chapter 1 demo release. This thing is very confusing, especially when you cannot see anything at all. You will spend a long time walking back and forth between two rooms, wondering how you can progress, because you've done everything you could: you smashed cutouts; you hit targets; you opened and closed hands; you found posters for future games, but nothing that could move forward the one you were playing at the time. If you look at the community page, you will see that most people simply spent their time clicking on the soup can dispenser to see how many cans they could get.
Puzzles are boring and confusing; with no guidance. There were no hints, no rhyme or reason. There was more puzzle in the BATIM chapter 1 demo release. This thing is very confusing, especially when you cannot see anything at all. You will spend a long time walking back and forth between two rooms, wondering how you can progress, because you've done everything you could: you smashed cutouts; you hit targets; you opened and closed hands; you found posters for future games, but nothing that could move forward the one you were playing at the time. If you look at the community page, you will see that most people simply spent their time clicking on the soup can dispenser to see how many cans they could get.
If you have epilepsy, nah get out. Oh? I didn't mention the flashing lights? Well the developers did not either. Not only did they not mention the flashing lights, not in the game nor in steam, but they included TWO car crashes without warning - one audio based, and another that was directed at players. This is not only rude, but it is dangerous. Warnings exist so that people can make educated choices whether or not to interact with content that may be sensitive to them. Warn people appropriately. This 'game' did not take any measure to protect its players. There are many instances of sudden loud noises, flashing lights, and jarring location switches (not to mention the car crashes).
The story was lacking, and has nothing to do with the puzzles that a player is faced with. It feels like three disjointed tracks, and none of them align, all of them crashing together in a discordant, unsatisfying, confusing mess. It brought in more new characters that had nothing to do with the original story nor interested players, and had content that went against previously established material. It was (as you can tell, from a writer's perspective) a bad story.
It was less of a demo, less of a playable trailer, more like a tech demo with a few morsels for fans to pick apart and wish there was more of, wish there was more effort put into, wish there was more love and care for them, the players who arguably were the foundation of this game. There were teasers for games that, honestly, lacked the soul that the very first game had, and here's a point to prove it: there was an easter egg that if you clicked something 414 times (very funny.) it would rise in the air and then fall down without further ado. In the game files, the name for that sound effect? Sting. Yeah. It did. Games are a collaborative work; between the creators and the players. Blatant disregard and flippancy towards half of the collaboration is not acceptable behavior. This is a development team that mocks those who once loved them most, those who poured over their coding and carefully crafted world to marvel at what they had made, and coaxed in others with the rich promise of a delightful story that anyone could engage with on any level. The spite the creators have shown for the individuals who, essentially, had given rise to their stature in the first place, is painful.
Finally, by the time that I got a chance to sit down and actually play the game- I personally could not. The developers, by constantly updating a clearly unfinished game, had made their final update - that of a wood board blocking the actual place where gameplay takes place. You cannot go to any of the places shown in the screenshots, because the game is locked on the opening area. I've seen many people complaining of it; hoping that they can play the game.
Now, in the fashion we've seen common of JDS, they have rescinded their terrible design choice - but without notifying players that it is now possible to play the game; without telling players that this was purposeful; without telling players anything aside from a big old screw you. It is entirely possible that the only reason they put the game back into a playable state was the torrent of negative reviews that spawned after their. interesting. choice. regardless, those who care about their playerbase would have informed those who complained that it was a temporary gesture for storytelling reasons. They, however, did not, and there are a multitude of reviews marking the game as unplayable.
No matter what, the bottom line is this: This is not okay.
I'm not sure how much more eloquently I can put the fact that I'm heartbroken. This game, unlike any other, shows how much scorn that a developer can have for their own fans and playerbase. I am glad that there are people who enjoyed it, but I wonder - what did you really like about it?
Oh the new bendy game, if only you weren’t confusing for the sake of being confusing and made us do something other than bashing our heads against the wall for half an hour
if I may add to that for those not getting the disappointment:
if it were ANY INDIE game that isn't in the batim franchise or related to it in one way or another, that would ABSOLUTELY NOT FLY or be a good practice at all!
Would you enjoy it as much, would you theorize as much or make still fanart as much if it were literally just its own independent indie game thing?
would you still come up with the same reason you come up for, for why it still is somewhat good or genius?
if not so, ask yourself, why do I do that for and with bendy? Why is that the exception I make to that?
If it is just because it is the thing that introduced you to horror and find something that you can like about horror games, then that is more than fine.
If you are still young and still trying to form and discover your opinions and tastes, then that is also fine.
Just staying at the same opinions and tastes however... without ever allowing anything new to it or even yearning for something more or of higher quality later on... to be polite: I just don't get that.
Especially for those longer in the bendy fandom: What do you see in that, that I don't, which still keeps you there?
I personally got drawn in and stayed in there at first, because of that initial hidden secret ending in the Batim game. I was actually the one along with my friend Dreamfisher who ended up finding about that and also uncover it. It was the feeling of uncovering a secret, something exciting, something that told me and many more in my today friend group that there was something more going than what was just given on the surface, that wasn't just the aesthetic of the game.
Another story below it that was worthy enough to be uncovered and searched for! The very reward for trying to find it in the first place!
Then bit by bit, cracks formed, grew further, things fell more and more apart, decisions in the follow up games have been made that started to feel more and more like a mockery of what we liked about it, what we saw in it that appealed to us.
And on a far more personal note, the patterns related to the bendy franchise started to remind me at least way too much of the patterns of narcissistic abuse and manipulation there.
A pattern of events and behaviors uncannily similar/related in my mind to what had eventually previously leave the hp fandom and franchise behind. (Not that those two are necessarily the same or related otherwise, those reminding me of narcissistic abuse and manipulation is just the type of connection I ended up seeing as a result).
I have more than a lifetime enough of that kind of thing having gone on in my real life. I have enough of that kind of thing uncritically going on in the fictions I digest and the fandoms that are a part of those and revolving around them as well.
It may kinda make me like the starving artist from that same story, but remember: The artist in that story didn't starve out of dedication to that art, they starved because they couldn't find anything edible enough for themselves to eat.
I don't intend to starve in that way either. So...
Next best thing I have now is trying to do my own new things that aren't bendy.
i grew as a bendy artist. i'm still known as "that bendy artist" by A LOT of people and am constantly approached by people saying they grew up watching my bendy animatics (which tbh makes me feel very old hahaha)
but that charm that the first 3 chapters of the first game had, has disappeared with it's popularity. I still love those games, Bendy and FNaF were the first indi horror games I've ever encountered. They started feeling like unfinished stories with no proper gameplay or solutions.
ffs, people are still debating who Bendy or Boris actually are! Are they cartoons? Are they people, like Alice?? There are so many genuinely good paths this franchise could go, yet they just throw everything against the wall and give you no explanation or event clues at all.
That's kind of the reason why I was disappointed in Secrets of the Machine. It sounded promising, it looked promising, but all the puzzles and everything were completely unsolvable. You had to brute force your way to get anything at all and even when you get something, you end up at a dead end. The only relatively comprehensive part of that game was about the new character and people literally had to guess how to get in there. You really think I will guess that I need to break some windows to get into a right room?!
They assume that since Bendy is so popular, we will eat anything they'll throw at us. But as you said, it's just manipulation at this point. They don't actually care about the players or the game anymore. They're doing it with the thought "ooohhh they want the games, the liked the first one, so we will throw everything with the same aesthetic at them, let them think that someday it will become a comprehensive story and they'll give us all the money".
They're going the fnaf route, but fnaf at least knows what they're doing and what the players want.
I am still a fan of the game, I really want to believe that the next games will be good, because I actually kind of liked BatDR despite its very obvious flaws (being weird and confusing). But subconsciously I am also prepared for disappointment.
Oh the new bendy game, if only you weren’t confusing for the sake of being confusing and made us do something other than bashing our heads against the wall for half an hour
if I may add to that for those not getting the disappointment:
if it were ANY INDIE game that isn't in the batim franchise or related to it in one way or another, that would ABSOLUTELY NOT FLY or be a good practice at all!
Would you enjoy it as much, would you theorize as much or make still fanart as much if it were literally just its own independent indie game thing?
would you still come up with the same reason you come up for, for why it still is somewhat good or genius?
if not so, ask yourself, why do I do that for and with bendy? Why is that the exception I make to that?
If it is just because it is the thing that introduced you to horror and find something that you can like about horror games, then that is more than fine.
If you are still young and still trying to form and discover your opinions and tastes, then that is also fine.
Just staying at the same opinions and tastes however... without ever allowing anything new to it or even yearning for something more or of higher quality later on... to be polite: I just don't get that.
Especially for those longer in the bendy fandom: What do you see in that, that I don't, which still keeps you there?
I personally got drawn in and stayed in there at first, because of that initial hidden secret ending in the Batim game. I was actually the one along with my friend Dreamfisher who ended up finding about that and also uncover it. It was the feeling of uncovering a secret, something exciting, something that told me and many more in my today friend group that there was something more going than what was just given on the surface, that wasn't just the aesthetic of the game.
Another story below it that was worthy enough to be uncovered and searched for! The very reward for trying to find it in the first place!
Then bit by bit, cracks formed, grew further, things fell more and more apart, decisions in the follow up games have been made that started to feel more and more like a mockery of what we liked about it, what we saw in it that appealed to us.
And on a far more personal note, the patterns related to the bendy franchise started to remind me at least way too much of the patterns of narcissistic abuse and manipulation there.
A pattern of events and behaviors uncannily similar/related in my mind to what had eventually previously leave the hp fandom and franchise behind. (Not that those two are necessarily the same or related otherwise, those reminding me of narcissistic abuse and manipulation is just the type of connection I ended up seeing as a result).
I have more than a lifetime enough of that kind of thing having gone on in my real life. I have enough of that kind of thing uncritically going on in the fictions I digest and the fandoms that are a part of those and revolving around them as well.
It may kinda make me like the starving artist from that same story, but remember: The artist in that story didn't starve out of dedication to that art, they starved because they couldn't find anything edible enough for themselves to eat.
I don't intend to starve in that way either. So...
Next best thing I have now is trying to do my own new things that aren't bendy.
Weak form: „wir heuern an“ = „we‘re hiring“ it’s impersonal, distant. It implies a sort of „whatever, let’s just get anyone willing enough, not even we care enough“ feel in the job advertisement for potential employees.
Strong form: „wir suchen dich!“ = „We‘re looking for you (in particular)!“ this is more personal and direct, a command and a promise to get to you specifically, the job position has to be filled since the work needs to be done, even if we have to literally kidnap you, so you better get your papers ready for the job interview, cause this is job offer is actually a threat and you better star working yesterday already, cause we‘re gonna get your ass!
Source: I live in Germany and here we have more and more old people getting out of work with too few young people coming in to do the leftover work.
The fact that your paragraph still stands with this in mind is hilarious. It is personal and direct, a command, a promise ... The work needs to be “done” and the position has to be “filled” ... And well if you’re into kidnapping ... and getting asses too while you’re at it ...
Wait, so do they actually use either phrase depending on urgency of the position needing to be filled, (because if so that’s really interesting) or did I misunderstand and you were just translating English into German for comparison
Let me put it this way: the very short answer is that there is almost always urgency and pressure for an empty job position to get filled.
The (far) longer answer incoming, because the short answer alone just is a massive understatement out of context:
I almost always only heard „wir suchen dich“ or „X (m/w/d) gesucht“ (X being the job position and the m/w/d part kinda being a way of saying „whatever gender“ since m = männlich (male), w= weiblich (female) and d= diverse (for when it is neither for whatever reason)). I have maybe heard the term „wir heuern an“ twice in my life there.
Additionally there is also following to keep in mind there about how the ages within our population.
I took that image from our population website statista. The percentage of people living here under 25 has been on December 31 in 2021 in total 19,96% over here in Germany. Meanwhile the percentage of 60 and over years olds is at around 24,43% and for the 40 till 59 years old that would be 23,07% as you can also take it from there.
And this here is a population pyramid of Germany from populationpyramid.net for the year 2022:
Let’s just also say that while compared to other countries Germany may or may not be a better place to raise children in (I definitely heard this very often from the perspective of vloggers who were from the US and moved to Germany), for many if not most people in Germany, they end up working so much more to make up for that gap, so that it ends up becoming just too difficult personally and financially to also get children and raise them in the meantime. Which then in turn worsens the original problem massively, leading to even less children being born and raised and fueling this vicious cycle of working more to make up for the lack of young people even further, leading to even less people being born.
Hence you can also guess that a lot migration into Germany nowadays is to actually fill said empty job positions in here and that said migration comes from both within the EU and outside of the EU.
The amount of people who have either immigrated into Germany or have at least one parent that did so is at around a quarter of the population (as in not having been born with a German citizenship and not looking into wether or not you‘ve did become a citizen by now in the meantime). I took this from destatista (short for „deutschland statista“ = germany statistics for those that don’t know yet that Deutschland is how Germany refers to itself, because I don’t trust not giving further context on the internet yet) on their page about immigration and couldn’t exactly instantly find while writing this reply more exact percentages or statistics explaining this further or showing how much is from within the European Union or outside of it. Though from what else I did find so far it alluded to most of the immigration from outside the EU being for filling those empty job positions and/or for seeking asylum from war and political persecution and so on.
And from what I do remember from, when the refugee crisis was going on and a big topic in mainstream politics, a big argument that was being made for just in general accepting the refugees, was that it would make up for the deficit of needed job positions, which already was a result of too many of the people holding those positions going into pension back then.
Which kind of is of course a point you would make if you want to get votes within a country where there just are that many people in pension or about to be in a few years in pension, worrying about wether or not they are still going to get the same amount of worth of money they’ve put previously into the pension system for their elders also out of it.
The rate of inflation over here as of the 10th of may 2023 from April is at around +7,2% (also taken from destatista). Just mentioning it, cause that is currently extra adding to that particular stress financially for many people doing work and looking for work and hiring for work.
Additionally I also think that it would make sense to add that from within the EU especially young people from southern European states tend to move to germany for the better job prospects, due to that same deficit. In the meantime within their own country they just do not find any work and end up being jobless (at the very least, last time I checked, this was the case, which has been quite a while). Someone else can probably add more context and more accurate information to that particular avenue of this topic, if I don’t end up coming back to it later, but basically Germany ends up taking younger working people out of other countries into the German workforce that way.
But to go back again to the question from @archaardvarkarchive about the use of that particular phrase „Wir suchen dich“ relying on the urgency on wether or not a job position needs to be filled:
Because our elders have neglected making enough children in their time and have since then also neglected to make it generally even just financially able or otherwise convenient enough for those after them, to make more and enough children, because they started instead try to ensure their own pension instead… those pensions are nowadays also low and we are in this mess of empty job positions always being in need of being urgently filled.
I‘m not even sure if there even exists an empty job position that isn’t in an urgent need of getting filled. It is just there is a job position or there isn’t. So why would you even bother with an not urgent enough seeming phrase? Hence why there is also always the phrase „wir suchen dich“ or „X (m/w/d) gesucht“.
Anyways, personal sidenote for now: I plan on moving out of Germany.
I still may add more to this blog later on though.
oh my god, I didn’t think there were any surviving versions of this post left
For those who weren’t around in the Deep Lore times, this is one of the relics of the editable post era. This post has THE SINGLE HIGHEST NOTES of ANY post on this site, bar none, but with more than a dozen variations. Every single post you’ve ever seen with more than 3 million notes has been a different version of this one.
This is the “Dean’s Gym Shorts” post. This is the Flubber post. This is the original “Reblog if you support gay people” post. it was ALL of them. before half the site got nuked, it had even more notes than it has now - at one point, well over 15 million, and that was years ago.
This, with no exaggeration, is the ONE TRUE heritage post
So… i started making myself an aro flag striped dress for pridemonth and so I can later wear it for CSD in my country.
I was planning to document it all with photos of the progress and all and then post it all in one piece after I was done, but today I ended up breaking the sewing machine mid sowing there.
I mean it was an old one about to break anyways and I still have a second one with me thankfully to continue, but…
Idk I‘m just… grieving about it. Poor sewing machine, I didn’t mean to wreck you!
The day is almost over at the time I found this out where I live, like there are only 1 hour and 15 minutes left, but here is my reaction to having found out about this:
HELLL YEASAAAAAAHHHH LETSA GOOO! I AIN‘T AN INVISIBLE GHOST ANYMORE!
And you cannot ignore me anymore either. I just will not allow it.
So… it’s midnight now where I live and I am invisible again… I hope y‘all other aros will still have fun being a now visible menace on society in the meantime >:3
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