Thoughts

19. Jumbled thoughts. Random. Panda lover. Ordinary. But a daughter of The King.

[wordsnquotes]

I am so afraid of disappointing the people I love, I often forget that I am someone I love too. And I need kindness just as much as I believe the people I love do.

Nikita Gill (via wordsnquotes)

[somejumbledthoughts]

I really really do not want to start classes again. It drains me- not having good friends to rely on and having to talk to people who drain my energy. Sigh.

[somejumbledthoughts]

Don't throw words around. Do you not know that words have the ability to destroy?

[ikwt]

[somejumbledthoughts]

"The longest journey is from your head to your heart"

[mejuki-deactivated20240410]

[somejumbledthoughts]

Tired.

Too tired to care. It's the final-exams time of the year. I've been preparing a whole year for this exam but.. Can I just say that instead of preparing me, it has exhausted me entirely? (well maybe entirely is an overstatement) Really though, I really don't care anymore. Sure, there are occasional waves of "omgh what am I doing my future depends on this". But other than that... It's mostly "ergh let's just finish this so I can do nothing and sleep". I feel like I'm so lazy and being so irresponsible of the education that has been given to me on a silver platter. Not only that, I'm so tired of also comparing. Comparing my grades and kind of placing my worth in it. My friends are doing so well and seemingly flying through it yet here I am struggling and I think, "am I stupid?" But I'm not. I know I'm not. But doesn't mean I don't feel inferior to my friends. All in all. I'm tired. And I just want it to end.

[somejumbledthoughts]

Filter

I have realized over the years that I have something called a God-filter over my thoughts. You know in the heat of the moment and when your head is filled with thoughts that reflect your raw emotion? Many people act on it. They soak up all those thoughts and believe in it; they speak it. But I'm different. Many times I find myself having these negative thoughts but it doesn't get filtered down for me to soak up. It gets caught up and something always tells me, no, that's not true. Your raw emotions are sending lies to your head. Or, if I want to post or say something in my anger, somehow I just can't. God corrects me midway. And I think that "God-filter" is a great blessing. However, many of my friends don't have this. And I've been starting to realize how great a struggle it is for them to filter their thoughts and to dismiss the lies. Perhaps then I'm meant to be that filter for them then.

[somejumbledthoughts]

Boohoo.

All I do is study. Where's the fun in life.

[shaddai-r]

[somejumbledthoughts]

Sao veh important guise.

[rosespell]

[somejumbledthoughts]

But what if I don't have the bravery to step out of my comfort zone.

[somejumbledthoughts]

Double post! I'm on a roll! Anyway, you know those people on Instagram with like these amazing pictures and even more amazing, poetic, and beautifully worded captions that go with it? Yeah, I'm not them. Always wanted to be though huhuhu. I guess it's time to come to terms with myself that I'm not like them and will highly unlikely ever write anything so intricate (if that's even the right word. Hah!). However, there ain't nothin' wrong with reposting and quoting, right?

[somejumbledthoughts]

Hi there.

I’m not someone who expresses my thoughts well through words. Idk, I feel as if I always have to express myself with bombastic and fancy shmancy words (believe me, the number of times I have opened and closed down my blog. Ergh). I guess it’s due to the fact that I haven’t quite found myself. I feel a need to prove myself and that I’m not shallow and blur and that instead I’m a capable person. Heh. I guess now you’re wondering, why I migrated from blogger to tumblr and tbh, idk (way to being honest there). I think I relate more to tumblr. It’s more casual and nonsensical - in the way that everybody posts anything and everything here.

And if there’s anything I know about myself, it’s that I’m a jumbled mess of nonsensical thoughts.

[jillianstwentiethyear-blog]

If life is a river, then pursuing Christ requires swimming upstream. When we stop swimming, or actively following Him, we automatically begin to be swept downstream.

Francis Chan, Crazy Love (via littlethingsaboutgod)

[fy-perspectives]

Sometimes it feels better not to talk. At all. About anything. To anyone.

Breaking Bad (via fy-perspectives)

[rabbit-grey]

The Son of God became a man to enable men to become the sons of God.

C.S. Lewis (via rabbit-grey)

This is powerful.

[wordsnquotes]

You do not even think of your own past as quite real; you dress it up, you gild it or blacken it, censor it, tinker with it…fictionalize it, in a word, and put it away on a shelf - your book, your romanced autobiography. We are all in the flight from the real reality. That is the basic definition of Homo sapiens.

John Fowles, The French Lieutenant’s Woman (via wordsnquotes)

I always thought it was just me.

[delta-breezes]

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