[pumpkinhrat]

She would, in fact, download a car

[someoneishereithink]

my room is clean now

i don’t sleep on the floor anymore

my mother smiles as she comes in, telling me she’s so glad i’m better

i repeat ‘your room is a reflection of your mind’ as i slide each book in line with the others on my shelf, as i drape another blanket over the blood splatter on the bed

the ants don’t join me as i shake at night anymore, i wonder if they miss me

i wonder if they would let me tell them that i miss them, that i miss the way i would slam my door and sink downdowndown onto the floor when i got home for another godforsaken night, ready to relish in the filth i would surround myself with.

tell the ants soon i want to have to sleep on the floor again.

[someoneishereithink]

tw sh

don’t you feel your hand ghosting over mine as you feed me the courage to push down and swallow the disgust you’ve etched into my mind, i will thank you for your help as my blood reaches the floor, will you open the door knowing what you have done to me?