the pussy got me confused as fuck wandering into the darkness with a waning candle like HELLO? HELLO? IS ANYONE THERE? HELLO?
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the pussy got me confused as fuck wandering into the darkness with a waning candle like HELLO? HELLO? IS ANYONE THERE? HELLO?
" A Young Witch"
been trying soo hard to write all day but i'm So Very Medicated zoning in and out of consciousness on new dose of codeine. i have so little left of chem reactions i just have to wrap it up but i'm sooo sleepy. i'm kind of excited to finish it just bc i'm not overly happy w it it's just silly messing around. and i can then post writing i'm slightly prouder of. nellfia are actually haunting me like ghosts. theres no devil on one shoulder and angel on the other they're just nellfia. @ the writers of the renegade nell fandom i owe u my life
Preliminary Thoughts on Costuming in Renegade Nell and Gender and Class as a Performance
When Nell Jackson is just being herself, she's got her signature messy mishmash of signifiers. She's wearing mostly masculine clothes and is seen as a woman just about as often as she is seen as a man. She's just Nell.
When she dresses in all the signifiers of a specific gender or class, it's always a performance. She's "Nelly, Sam's long lost daughter, back from the grave." She's "Lady Somebody travelling with her husband, attending a card game with local toffs." She's "the Duchess of Argyll, seeking urgent medical assistance." She's "a doctor, willing to treat a typhus out break in a prison."
People believe her in the role until she says something that gives her away. But it's not really her. It's not Nell Jackson.
And it's the same with Charles. I can't draw much on his performance of gender because the 1705 impression of masculine gender expression is wildly different from 2024. But his performance of class is still very notable.
Isambard Tulley isn't him. It's a performance of a rough, dangerous highwayman. The clothes he wears, his hair, even his voice, everything is different except for his laugh.
Charles Devereux isn't really him either. He doesn't have the money or really fit in those spaces. But he wears the wig, pastel outfits, the frills and bows. He plays the part of the toff just as well as he does the highwayman.
Even when he's the Queen, people only realise he isn't when he shows them he isn't.
The scenes where the performance slips and Charles is just himself are all scenes with Nell and her sisters. When he meets Nell after she's been thrown out of the enlistment office and she calls him out on being Isambard Tulley, his mask slips. Then again, when he offers her his horse, that's not the toff Devereux voice.
We see him most himself when they're in hiding in the Inn and he's doing card tricks for George while telling them why he became a highwayman. He's essentially in a state of undress, no wig or makeup, the remnants of finery, which perfectly fits the topic at hand. I need to do a rewatch but I think also when he and George are sat under the tree like a Baroque painting. He's dressed partly in the leftovers of his Queen costume and partly in what looks like the shirt and trousers of his Tulley costume. (A shot comparison to certain Baroque paintings would be a good analysis to do too)
I think that little moment in the prison with Nell, when he's talking about not escaping but staying to clear his name fits this too. He's himself with her, dressed in his finery and leg shackles, but he's also been fundamentally changed by being around Nell and her family. He did the crimes he's been charged with, but at the same time he's right. Charles Devereux didn't do those things. Charles Devereux is just another character he plays.
For both Nell and Charles (maybe even Roxy and George too but I need to rewatch with this in mind), when they are most themselves, their costumes are mixed bag of signifiers for different genders and social classes and they're in a state of undress. No jackets or waistcoats done up, no wigs or hair do's.
I think, at the end, when Nell is presented to the Queen in full uniform, but curtsies, and Charles is wearing the same blue colour that accents Nells sleeves. That's neither of them pretending to be someone their not, but there is still an element of performativity. They are performing the role of themselves, the highway robbers who saved the Queen.
Watching the first episode through shipper goggles and the hc that Sofia and Nell used to fool around before they both got married is so fun.
Like, Sofia being the one to inform her father that the Trotter sisters want to see him instead of staff, like she might have greeted them. Nell looking towards Sofia. Sofia defending the Trotters as best she can and giving her father and Thomas judgemental looks, having to leave the room when they decide to kick them out of the Talbot. Nell knowing her way around the manor well enough to get past the staff and find the Blanchefords, the constant cuts to Sofia's reaction to Nell storming in and drawing a gun on Thomas. Nell hurrying over to Sofia hovering over her father's dead body like she was about to check in before Thomas drew her attention again.
Just them having to pretend theres no history between them while they stand in meetings with Lord Blancheford and their siblings. Maybe getting one or two chances to meet up privately after so long apart and having to figure out what that means for them now since everything that happened. Only for shit to hit the fan and suddenly they're both just fighting to survive, Nell forced to focus on literally everything else meanwhile Sofia can only focus on tracking down and catching Nell again.
Oh my goddddd
it wasnt supposed to go like thisssssss they were supposed to reunite alone without grief and hug each other tightly and gush how much they missed each other. IT WASNT SUPPOSED TO GO LIKE THIS. THEY SPENT YEARS DREAMING INDEPENDENTLY OF THE MOMENT THEYD MEET AGAIN AND IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO GO LIKE THIS!!!!!!!! they never got a minute alone they never got the chance to say hello just like they probably never got the chance to say goodbye. all they got was grasping clawing begging screaming eye contact from across rooms and across family members' prying lines of sight and the dead bodies of the dead fathers. and then it was goodbye all over again. what's the point if they never one day fall into each other's arms again like theyve finally come home??? because nell's the unstoppable force and sofia's the immovable object. nell tugs and tugs at her sleeve or her hair or her heart and sofia digs her heels in. nell's always leaving and sofia's always staying put. THAT'S their problem
-can go sit up in that big, horrible house cooking up witchery-pockery with this... Poynton. And I'm the one accused of being a monster!
big ass werewolf in a service dog harness
thinking ab nellfia teacher au hehe yay yay! yay. pe teacher/english teacher/history teacher x deputy head kiss kiss. I MISS THEM SO MUCH SOMEONE LIST HEADCANONS WITG ME
if i see 1 more post hating on 'modern'/conceptual art as a pretentious generalised blob i'm going to add a chapter to chemical reactions where i go into painful detail of one of sofia's artist studies and she uses words like Evocative. it's at that point in the brainrot where i really want to discuss with someone what the characters' stances would be on irrelevant modern-day shit. charles would love louise bourgeois. im sorry to renegade nell fandom if you are a contemporary art hater
thinking ab wait til the sun shines nelly as the clouds go drifting slowly by we will be happy nelly don't you cry down lover's lane we'll wander and be sweethearts you and i wait til the sun shines nelly by and by and by
i love your artstyle so much, your nell drawing makes me so happy
:D ty!! glad there r actually other ppl in the renegade nell fandom
what a time to be a loser gay huh
they both got beautiful princess disorder
I'm in the process of writing a Nelfia oneshot and it's giving me so many thoughts about Nell and Sofia, aged 40-50. Like post Sofia redemption and them getting together, now at the stage where they've been together for a good number of years and have settled into their routine together.
Where Nell still runs the Talbot. But Roxy and Amadin have long since moved out and started their own family, and George is out getting into her own adventures. With Sofia having moved in originally under the presence of keeping Nell company, but ends up taking on more and more responsibility around the pub and they end up running it together.
Nell living her best older woman, no nonsense, butch life. She's done her share of boasting about her adventures to patrons, and has honestly gotten a bit sick of the tourists that come just to gawk at 'The Rebel Nelly', but will still spin tales and recounts stories to the young children of the village, with funny voices and acting to match.
At this point she's also realised she's got some sort of charm that has people swooning over her. She still could care less, but she had over the years figured out how to get a few more tips and purchases out of these customers with a cocky wink and a well timed pet name. The locals all know its an act though, shaking their heads anytime a traveller tries anything further, knowing they'll get brushed off.
Cause Nell is very much dedicated and loyal to her wife, Sofia. They aren't wives in the legal sense, a pardon for Sofia was as much as they could wrestle when it came to the law. But, they are definitely wives in any other sense of the word. If you're paying attention you might notice a soft look, or a quick kiss between them while they tackle a busy night of drunk and rowdy patrons.
Despite earning her redemption, Sofia still notices the suspicious glances and conversations pausing when she comes near. It's nothing overt, not anymore, not after Nell found out about the treatment she was getting when she had first settled in. If anything, to Sofia it's the best she's ever been received by the town. Younger people tend not to care about her past, having not been affected by it personally and only knowing her as she is now, and will make friendly conversation with her. She's even made a few friends over the years. She's finally not isolated, and if that means ignoring a few glares from the older townspeople, she's okay with that.
Sofia doesn't mind working behind the bar, but she'd much prefer watching Nell do her thing there. Instead she's content to move around the room on a busy night collecting glasses and wiping tables, or will sit in the corner with a candle and her ink, pen and paper working on any accounts or communications need doing. Sometimes, on a slow day she will even add little magic effects to accompany the tales Nell is spinning for the little ones.
Just, sleepy sunny mornings where they lounge about their shared bed after late energetic nights in the pub. Soft looks and petnames and quick banter thrown across the room. Domestic moments and the odd adventure when it gets a bit too stuffy in the town. Just, yeah.
werewolf x vampire nellfia
breaking: the 2nd scariest dyke on planet earth just picked up a lock of her crush's hair (1st scariest dyke) so she could keep it in a beautiful ornamental box on her work desk for no fucking reason other than to admire while she plots to kill her i guess. be honest sofia are you smelling it? nell jackson doesnt shower with conditioner enough for you to justify this
Your icon is violently in love with you for 5 weeks how screwed are you
Forever thinking about Sofia's terrified expression as she starts to loose control on the spell during the newspaper room fight she was so close to succeeding and she would've done it on her own!! without the help of Poynton's sexist ass!! like i dont want her to kill Nell obviously but babyyy noooo dont cry its okay