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when I accidentally reblog something did/osdd related on my main where irl friends follow me instead of the system blog
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collecting alters like fucking pokemon cards is on our agenda APPARENTLY
we’d really like some new friends :DDDD so reblog or whateva if ur a system (and punk!) -dallas ><
Hello system here!!! Always for good friends yall- also our host and primary protector are very punk!!
fun system things
can i get a mcfuckin uhhhhhhh
forgetting everything
*walks past mirror* lmao who that
s t a r e
not responding to anything
alter: *moves something* / (switches) another alter: fucking thieves
alter: *eats* / (switches) another alter: when the fuck
d i s s o c i a t e
falling
running into shit
not paying attention like. ever
“when did i do that?”
“i dont remember that”
friend: hey whats up / me: haha yeah
someone: whats ur name? / me: shit idk man
someone: how old r u? / me: 16? (system yelling) no uhhhhhh wait
me: *describes abuse* haha yeah its no big deal
not remembering abuse
feels like ur watching everything from a 3rd person view
all of my alters have blogs
forgetting
i literally forgot what i was typing while writing that so im gonna leave it at that
forgetting your alters and being confused when u see them again
me: when tf did u get here / alter: bitch i been here
arguing with ur self taken to a whole new level
making descisions? more like no
what is my fashion sense
sexuality? no thanks
gender? who is she
when ur whole system is arguing and u just gotta fuckin uhh SCREAM
what is body control
staring at my hands for weird amounts of time
*gets scared by something* *dissociates for 2 hours*
we all talk differently
somehow my alters have different accents
being shocked when u speak bc it doesnt sound like ur voice
switching? more like AAAAAAAAAA
*sees dog in headspace* how the fuck did u get here
gender dysphoria is wack
thing: *happens* / system: *screaming*
friend: what r u staring at / me: haha yeah
“sorry i didnt hear u”
saying “huh” like 8 times and still not understanding
when u start dissociating and people talking sounds like the teachers talking from peanuts
i have 86 different hobbies
i have not actually tried 32 of them
what are coherent thoughts
etc
Trauma didn't make me nice, I consciously made me nice because I don't want anyone else to suffer like I did. Trauma didn't make me strong, I made me strong. Don't you dare ever tell me my trauma made me anything but scared, broken, and confused. Don't give credit to the abusers for me being a good person. They didn't make me good, I made myself good.
Venting Post:
Was my trauma bad enough?
TW: mention of; trauma origins / visual hallucinations /emotional abuse.
“Im faking” feeling
Ive been having alot of discussions lately with both fellow systems, singlet friends and most importantly my mental health team of case workers and psychiatrists; about the basis of trauma and my dissociative disorder, (osdd by the by)
Mostly about the usual conversation of whether my trauma and past was “bad enough” to develop osdd- my trauma was mostly emotional and unchecked and the most of my trauma wasnt even anyones fault- having psychosis and hallucinations (excluding alter voices/osdd symptoms) where we saw horrific stuff from a young age and never being able to communicate that.... until late highschool. My systems trauma doesnt fit in with the quota of most other did/osdd systems and its actually quite invalidating for myself...
Do you support endogenic systems?
That’s complicated. Do I think that endogenic systems could exist? Yes. Do I include them in my activism? When something also applies to them yes. Do I think that they’re inherently harmful? No. Do I think that a lot of behaviours that some endogenic systems do is harmful an are against those behaviours? Yes.
For example an endogenic system saying they have did (when they can’t as did is a form of cptsd which requires trauma) is harmful as they’re spreading misinformation however an endogenic system saying that they’re a system isn’t harmful. Basically i’m against some things that SOME endogenic systems do and not endogenic systems as a whole.
1. Is no one else going to front at all this month or am I really stuck out here to take all the punches.
If I’m in a stressful situation,
I just say “this one is for the boys”
and dissociate until I meet God.
I mean really, it’s unfair to exclude endogenic systems. Most systems don’t know they’ve experienced some sort of trauma that has affected them to a point where their identity has been compromised (which is kind of the whole point of DID). And regardless, identity is so much more fluid than folks realize, wherein systems can exist outside of trauma.
It’s not a black and white issue! Stop being gatekeepers to this already taboo condition!!
I was exposed to the concept of endogenic systems back in high school, and actually thought "wow, this is really relatable" and looked into the concept for a few weeks before dismissing it as Tumblr SJW Bullshit. I didn't remember any of my trauma or much of my childhood in general, so DID wasn't even a consideration. (I literally always said that I had a perfect life and had no reason to be this fucked up.)
But I think, had I let myself be more open to the concept of multiplicity and inner communication, I may have saved myself a really traumatic suicide attempt in early college where "the evil being that kept possessing my body" would "try to kill me".
Multiplicity, by the way, isn't even a concept that's exclusive to trauma. There are entire therapy methods and theories of personality based off this. The sense of self is a lot more fluid and "multiple" than we give them credit for. How many times have you seen people referring to their anxiety or depression as a seperate being? Or say things like, "wow, the 12 year old in me really jumped out"? Or talk about "shoulder angels" as a metaphor for their conscious, or their "logical side" vs their "creative side"? What about people who hear voices? What about the identity issues people who have to code-switch face? Etc.
So is it that much of a stretch to say endogenic systems are just experiencing a more extreme/elaborate version of this? Humans are SO damn complex.
Something DID Tumblr seems to forget is that DID isn't just alters. The DSM-V also requires chronic dissociation and memory issues - and that's not even including the PTSD symptoms, disorganized attachments, Schneiderian first-rank symptoms, depression, and anxiety that's so common in DID/OSDD patients.
Yes, DID is a trauma disorder! But multiplicity isn't! While my condition has been debilitating and required lots of therapy, internal communication, introspection, and trauma processing to get to where I am now, the endogenics I've seen generally don't experience their multiplicity as "disordered" in this way. Aside from the switching, communication, and having multiple states of self, we're experiencing two very different beasts. It's like comparing apples to oranges. Both are fruits, both are real, but they're very different, too.
Sidenote, though - if you are experiencing symptoms that impair your everyday life, I would reccomend speaking to a professional!
(I would also like to point out that environmental and genetic factors are also thought to play a part in DID's formation. Not everyone with childhood trauma, regardless of how "severe", goes on to develop DID - some people get BPD, PTSD, depression, anxiety, or are lucky enough to develop nothing at all.)
So yeah, it's not my place to tell someone whether their experiences of multiplicity are valid or not. It's a much more complex issue than that - and there are people who don't really fit into either "box", too. Not knowing, or feeling like you're somewhere in the middle, or changing labels... That's all fine, too, regardless of what Tumblr says.
You don't have to interact with anyone you don't want to, but don't be a dick, either. Hell, "being a system" isn't even in the DSM. The word "system" may be used by some therapists, but it isn't a medical term. Some people with DID don't even use it!
Just like... Be respectful, man.
I just want to say
Just because your alters don’t front as often as others, that doesn’t make you invalid.
Socialism: You have 2 cows and you give one to your neighbor.
Communism: You have 2 cows; the Government takes both and gives you some milk.
Fascism: You have 2 cows; the Government takes both and sells you some milk.
Nazism: You have 2 cows; the Government takes both and shoots you.
Bureaucratism: You have 2 cows; the Government takes both, shoots one, milks the other and throws the milk away..
Traditional Capitalism: You have 2 cows. You sell one and buy a bull. You herd multiplies, and the economy grows. You sell them and retire on the income.
An American Corporation: You have 2 cows. You sell one, and force the other to produce the milk of four cows. Later, you hire a consultant to analyze why the cow dropped dead.
A French Corporation: You have 2 cows. You go on strike because you want three cows.
Japanese Corporation: You have 2 cows. You redesign them so they are one-tenth the size of an ordinary cow and produce twenty times the milk. You then create a clever cow cartoon image called Cowkimon and market them Worldwide.
An Italian Corporation: You have 2 cows, but you don’t know where they are. You break for lunch.
A Swiss Corporation: You have 5000 cows. None of which belong to you. You charge others for storing them.
Chinese Corporation: You have 2 cows. You have 300 people milking them. You claim full employment, high bovine productivity, and arrest the newsman who reported the numbers.
An Iraqi Corporation: Everyone thinks you have lots of cows. You tell them that you have none. No one believes you and they bomb your arse. You still have no cows, but at least now you are part of a Democracy…….
Counter Culture: ‘Wow, dig it, like there’s these 2 cows, man, grazing in the hemp field. You gotta have some of this milk!’
Surrealism: You have two giraffes. The government requires you to take harmonica lessons.
Apathyologism: You have 2 cows. You do not care.
Fatalist: You have 2 doomed cows…
Atheism: You have 2 cows. There is no God.
A West-Country Corporation: You have 2 cows. That one on the left is kinda cute.
A Brazilian Corporation: You have 2 cows. You pay taxes for 6 cows. You have to sell one cow in order to pay the taxes. Your remaining cow gets sick and dies while waiting for availability in the public vet hospital.
Russia: You have two cows. Since they are both female, if you happen to keep them in the same stable you will pay a 5,000 rouble fine for homosexual propaganda.
PETA: You have two cows. You kill them both. You then use naked women to convince other people that killing cows is wrong.
Moffat: You have two cows. Both of them are your daughters time traveling from the past where they had a brief love affair with Da Vinci making you the rightful Queen of England. As you assume the throne, you throw them off a building.
Hussie: You have 2 cows. You ask for another one. Instead of getting just 1 cow, you get 2,485,506 cows.
Romney: You have 2 cows. You are not the president of the united states.
Once-ler: You have 1 cow. Everyone decides to make 5 different versions of that cow.
Old Spice: You have 2 cows. The cows are now diamonds. I’m on a horse.
An Irish Corporation: You have a million cows because they’re everywhere
Tumblr: You have 2 cows. You ship them together and make GIF posts screaming about how much you love your cows, but they should stop existing because they are so perfect.
Also Tumblr: I give you a hamburger.
Night Vale: You do NOT have two cows. Cows do not exist. What’s a cow? Show me a cow! That’s not a cow! Who let you in here?
Tom Hiddleston: You have two cows. You are very sorry for them.
Thranduil: You do not have two cows, you have an elk. Riding on two cows is not majestic. Also the dwarves are on fire.
Dwarves: You had two cows but now they’re on fire.
Bilbo Baggins: You did not invite those two cows for dinner.
Cows: The shit you go through.
This post: Started off as a post that explained different goverments but then everything changed when the fire nation attacked
I don’t know what happened or what the point was but I love it
Terms we’ve used to describe switching:
Force quit
Give the remote
Hand over the mouse
Tap out
Feel free to add
“Let me be The Boss™”
“Give me the responsiblities”
“Don’t make me take the fucking controller because you’re emotionally unstable”
Oh wow those are quite the additions!!
“Mom said it’s my turn to use the brain cell!”
“Alright, imma brexit.”
💣Mark
“I’m king now”
“Jesus Christ, just let me drive”
“RAM said it’s my turn on the xbox!”
“you’re doing it wrong. Get out <3”
“wait stop no let me try”
“you can’t handle this i’m doing this conversation for you”
“let me use the control panel”
(No communication and my gatekeeper just switches me out sometimes)“Someone stop her!”
“Courtney.exe has stopped working”
“Now entering.......”
“______has respawned”
“Im being summoned”
“Despawning”
“this is an intervention!”
“You absolute fuck up let me drive”
“Let me in you bastards”
Oh my heart!