Dose of Zinc

A misanthropic view on the world with a codependency issue that results in an unhealthy amount of self-loathing. The ramblings of an individual who, despite their best efforts relies entirely too much on others. An artist without a single defined craft with an envy for others who understand just who and what they are. I also say the word "fuck" a lot.

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Back at it again with the crap covers

[soytortugaofzinc]

I know it was “A Cover A Day,” but that is a little ambitious. Lets settle on posting a cover as often as possible and go from there?

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I have decided to do something about my anxiety of sharing my passions, one of which being singing.  I don’t think I’m the best, but I think I’m decent, I’d love to get better, but at the very least, It allows me to appreciate the music I love.

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A Passing

I normally save these sorts of posts for the blog that no one follows because sometimes it just helps to put it out there, even if no one ever see’s it.  But I feel I need to put this out there on my public blog.  Last year I fell in love with a girl, like, really, I fell hard, and for a time she loved me, and while our relationship was rocky, it was by far the happiest I’ve been since depression and the shocking reality of the world set in.

She cheated on me, which I understand why she did, and I’ll keep the details to myself as they mostly came from self confidence issues that I am still working on.  For 6 months I tried not to think of her, she went back to her previous relationship and I worked on sorting my life and career out, thinking at some point maybe things would work out and we would try again.  Foolish idea, but I really liked this girl despite everything.

Those chances ended on Monday of this week, she chose to end her own life for reasons I will never know, I am only left to think of what might have been her reasoning, but I WILL NEVER KNOW FOR SURE. The thing that shook me to the core, was the day it happened was exactly 1 year after our first meeting.  Am I overthinking?  Probably, was I on her mind in her last bit of life?  Did I make her happy?  Did she even think of me after everything?  Why?  Why?  Why?

I will never know.

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Futuresight

The more I ponder on my future the more I wonder if my younger self would be proud of where I am at now.  If I had to venture a guess I would give a resounding, no.  But often as we do we say things that we want but we do things that are easy.  Its easier to allow anger to drive your decisions, its easier to let your responsibilities get away from you, and its easier to pursue instant gratification.  These are the reasons I am not the man I wanted to become, I never pursued music because things were too much work to follow up on.  I haven’t gotten back into the gym because its easier to be lazy.  I don’t have the job I want because its easier to be lazy in general.

However, there is still a lot left in the book that is my life, and a newfound resolve can change the directions of these issues.  Here’s to hoping.

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Friends without benefits.

Looking back at my life, I’ve had a shit ton of “friends.” But, looking back, a lot of the “friends” I had were just extremely toxic people who impacted my life in a negative way. And it’s so fucked up that people can just enter your life, you thinking everything is going to be awesome, and it turn out to be a horrible relationship. What little friends I have left I cherish, because life doesn’t give you a lot. It’s important to know your own worth and make sure your friends recognize it too. Because life will give you lots of toxic people, just make sure you’re able to weed them out from the people who will make your life extraordinary.

[did-you-know]

If you like bitter-tasting foods, are a CEO or a lawyer, have an anti-social or narcissistic personality, are fearless and impulsive, like to stay up late, and don’t find yawning to be contagious, you’re more likely to be a psychopath. Source

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It me.

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New Plans

I’m really tempted to turn this blog into some sort of music blog to see what I can do.  I’d have to learn how to play something because vocal covers only work for so long.

[sassysharpshooter]

I judge everyone by their favorite flower

Reblog this post and put yours in the tags

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I am so in love with all of these answers

Keep going!!!

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i guess this was inevitable

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Now I’ll never forget where to find this gem.

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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy

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I tried to scroll past this. I really did

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I feel like minor acts of kindness and good intentions are really important on days like this. 

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More quotes and gifs here!

[soytortugaofzinc]

Gwerp, Soy sees you posting these depressing posts, Soy wants you to know you are amazing, and that no matter what happens, it will get better.  :)

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The 'cancels plans so they can sleep' squad

Taurus, Leo, Scorpio, Sagittarius, Aquarius

[soytortugaofzinc]

Literally did this today.

[booksandpublishing]

“In the gallery beyond: more dead.” - The Goldfinch, Donna Tartt (hardback)

[mycupofbooks]

It’s literally “love is for the weak” 😃

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“It was, like most of the rooms in the Institute, an unused bedroom, meant for visiting Shadowhunters.” - Clockwork Prince 

LIKE LITERALLY ACTUALLY WTF

[lizziekeiper]

“All righty. I’ll leave you to it, then.” - To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before by Jenny Han. 

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This young man’s credentials were satisfactory, my father and my aunt (who had always looked after the children’s welfare) were satisfied, and I acquiesced. - Crooked House - Agatha Christie

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“Alas! My own hand feels as light as a feather.” - The Return of the King Oh, God.

[soytortugaofzinc]

“All these things are regarded as nuisances, but beneficial, and are not welcomed for their own sakes but for their financial rewards and other consequences.” -Republic by Plato

or

“Our goal is not to change the course of human existence, but to help ease the way.” -Pendragon: The Soldiers of Halla by DJ MacHale

or

“Determining individual worker performance and identifying operations that are having problems so the problems can be corrected.” - Motion and Time Study for Lean Manufacturing 3rd edition by Meyers & Stewart Literally the three books sitting on my desk equidistant from my person.  I think I should go with Pendragon.

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LOOK AT THIS FUCKING BIRD

[soytortugaofzinc]

Watch this bird completely lose it’s shit.

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how the fuck do people just stay motivated their entire lives? what drives you? I got out of bed once and i’ve been exhausted ever since.

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You need to learn to hate life to the point where you want to get revenge on existence itself 

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Best advice ever

[did-you-know]

Physalis alkekengi, known as the Chinese and Japanese Lantern plant, is seen as a symbol of ‘life within death.’ It blooms in the winter and dries up in the spring, revealing the bright red fruit that lives inside its arid petals. Source