finding my way back @spacelina - Tumblr Blog

See, you were lucky; the sun was still in the sky when you got here, people came to help. Not everybody gets that. It's been, uh, three years, six months and 17 days, and I can still hear my sister screaming in my head.

Elizabeth Saunders as Donna Raines — FROM, season 1

#from

girllookingoutwindow

Colin tried to sleep but he was lost in his inner thoughts. Seeing her, at night, so beautiful and dreamy. Her lips, her body, he couldn't stop thinking about it.

He tries to remember how it felt to touch her, the softness of her skin. Her breath close to his. He's full of desire for her. He always wants to be close to her. Now she feels so close and so far away. He wanted so much to touch her, to kiss her.

Why he can't stop thinking about it? Why he couldn't do the only one thing that feels right to him?

He was hurt. And even if he feels ashamed of himself, he can't deny he wanted to hurt her too.

Her words suprised him. And making him come back to the room. She looks so pretty. She's talking but she's not really looking at him. It takes him a moment to understand what she's saying.

Her voice sounds sad, distant. He wanted to punish her. Making her feel sad. But now, he doesn't recognise himself through that feelings.

Before he can even get up she's gone. His body feels attached to her. The room feels so empty now.

She said something of him not wanting to be close to her. She doesn't know?

He follows her, he doesn't know why. Honestly, that's not true, he knows why. Because his body feels more at easy close to hers. Because everytime she goes away he feels his heart goes tight and he cannot breath. He miss her so much when she's not there. Life without her it's not a life. He feels like he's dead inside.

Why she doesn't know?

Maybe is his fault. He wanted to punish her. But why doesn't feel right? He's angry with her. But he's more angry with himself.

Perhaps he can try to write. Through words his feelings came more easy to the surface. But lately his words don't feel 'his' anymore. It was possible he was a little jealous of her. He needs to find an answer.

Penelope letters were the reason because he started to write. Everytime he read a letter from her, life felt more easy, more peaceful, more vibrant.

He couldn't stop himself to connect this feelings with his words. Words came a place to being his true self. So, he could find a purpose. A better version of himself. Pen made him believe he could be a better man. The man he wanted to be for her.

He recognises her letters. The first time he read it. The way he missed them whe she stopped to write to him.

He remembers the warm she made him feel. Her letters made him feel close to home. She was his home. She's his home. It's always being her, sweet and kind. But at the same time smart, sassy and funny. That's her. That's his Pen. The Penelope he always loved. He can recognise her now. He can hear her voice through her letters. And she always was her. Lady Whistledown, Penelope Featherington. They were the same. Both were his Pen.

#bridgerton #polin

sailermoon

“I’ll just rest my eyes” is the biggest lie you’re going straight to snorkmimimi land

whenthegoldrays

“I’m going to sleep” is the biggest lie I’m going to stare at my ceiling for the next three hours

#me

thelaurenshippen

watching bridgerton and obviously there were a lot of things wrong with the way socializing has worked in the past, but honestly the idea of a "calling hour" is so appealing. office hours for friendship. you can show up unannounced at my home between 1 and 3pm. you must leave by 3pm. I may give you a pastry. lets bring that back

#bridgerton

himbo-buckley

Penelope: If I secure a proposal this season it will be because of you

Colin:

#bridgerton

kathani-bridgerton

Penelope: Pretend to be shopping for sweets so no one thinks we are together.

Colin:

#bridgerton

clevercloudpoetry

Penelope: One kiss, it would not mean anything.

Inner Colin after the kiss:

#bridgerton

acanoeandlifejackets

Colin: men are simple creatures, just bat your eyes and wave your fan.

Penelope: *bats her eyes and waves her fan*

Colin (sweating): Fuck she’s good.

#bridgerton

kiwistede

Ed wants to own an inn with Stede so bad :(

#ofmd

halles-comet

my favorite historical thing about actual pirates is most of them were really young guys who died between the ages of 17 and 24 so one of the reasons blackbeard is so famous three hundred years later is because he was, like, thirty-two and still kicking which made him seem really wise and shit-together by comparison. it's like when you're a 28 year old woman and get tumblr asks from college freshman that say "oh my god you don't look like a withered corpse at all"

iceland’s two moods

Captain Jack finally got the hello he wanted without the Doctor blocking him.

#Jack Harkness #doctor who

battinson4ever

so fucked up that like actually going to bed earlier and exercising and eating well and being kind to urself does actually make u feel a bit better. that is so messed up

#nonfandom #yep

whatsupbeanie

Does anyone relate? haha. I have a similar thought about locking doors ("Did I lock it...?") and as soon as the door is out of my sight I question whether I DID indeed lock it.

#comics #webcomic #Me