lia

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and i’d wish to be reborn as the sea – 

not so great to be a threat to the oceans

but big enough to finally make a home for my grief

that is too boundless for my heart alone

calm, cool and clear

i’d watch the moon cast its light upon my waters

she’d tell me of the sun she can’t shine without

but if she’s nothing more but a reflection 

of someone else’s glory

then i’m a mere fusion of the men i slaughtered

that lie forever in the depths of my body

somewhere next to my pearls collection

i am the sea full of sorrow

of tears flowing free

wild, wide and weeping

i’d watch the sun cast its light upon my waters

he’d tell me of the moon he can shine for

but if he’s nothing more but a patron saint

of someone else’s weakness 

then i’m a mere martyr to the men i sheltered

that rest forever in the depths of my body

in the house of my grief, a place for rebirth

they complete my collection

i am the sea filled with tears

i am the sea full of pearls

and if i’m nothing more but a vessel for sorrow

then i’m more than i know

and even brighter i can shine

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i woke up at 5am today and the first thought that came to my mind was “funny how pornhub’s been silent since vrijdag 21:21 & vrijdag 22:21 came out”

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there is really cute guy that works in a vegetable shop near my house and i’ve been wanting to talk to him for 7 months and i thought that today is gonna be that day. no need to mention that i’m highly anxious when it comes to talking to strangers, especially when i seem to like them. basically i drank a glass of wine and went straight to the shop and forced myself to come to him (i’ve never talked to him and never bought anything in this shop either, i’ve only seen him through the windows). so i was standing right in front of him, and i asked “do you have celery?”, he was like no, i said “nevermind, i don’t need celery”, stood there for three more seconds silently, then said “sorry” and just ran away. my plan was to tell him that i wasn’t there for celery, that i wanted to know his name, maybe get his insta/whatever, but i ran fucking away instead. wow, i hate myself. the irony is that i pass by this shop everyday and he’ll have to see me through the windows and glass doors for the rest of my life i think. i’ve never been more shameful, legit wanna kill myself, like what the fuck is wrong with me. so yeah, for the first time in my life i was fearless enough to talk to the guy i like but now i don’t think i’ll ever do it again end of the story

[biconsander-deactivated20201119]

anyways, i prefer discussing about the important stuff.

like how vrijdag 21:21 is the best clip of the season and you won’t change my mind and i’ll fight you.

you and i, 100%, forever, in every universe. I’m legit not over it and it’s been weeks. i’ll have the clip played in my funeral; it’s most likely will be reason of my death anyway.

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i mean, it’s very homophobic and not sexy at all of them to not show us robbe meeting sander’s mom, sander meeting robbe’s mom, and robbe finally having dinner with papa ijzermans

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oh my fucking god guys, i feel so dumb rn u won’t believe me

i actually thought that yasmina and moyo are siblings?? because in some site it’s mentioned that moyo is both mahdi and elias?? and i deadass thought that it meant elias bakkoush? the fuck is wrong with me

i literally forgot this guy elias existed rip

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all i have to say is that you gays better watch yasmina’s season because if wtfock’s ratings drop after s3 there won’t be fucking possibility of more seasons i said what i said. see you

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idk if it’s an unpopular opinion but aaron is kinda cute??.. i mean.. he’s dumb of ass but pure of heart and sometimes is just adorable. honey you ARE fuckable. rip to amber but i’m (slightly) different

[finnicknot]

Van der Stoffels has my heart but Jebbe? I'm still here for it

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btw, i don’t know if you guys know it, but in russian fandom everyone calls robbe and sander ronder, now live with that information

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so this clip is worth waiting and clowning for several days huh. i’m shaking you gays, the song, the flashbacks, the drawings, the sander, i’ve finally found peace now. i can’t believe my anxiety is truly over

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idk man. i’m not mad at wtfock for changing things and making us wait longer for ohn and stuff but i’m deadass tired of not knowing what the main character is doing after important events. like give us a fucking text at least. was robbe trying to find sander? or did he went home to play fortnite like the last time? i guess we’ll never know. and this is the only thing that makes me sad at this point

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excuse me? i’ve just came back home after spending more than 4 hours with my friend and somehow there’s no clip? excuse me? i was SURE that ohn would happen like 30 minutes after the latest clip and i was SO restless and anxious all the time bc i couldn’t watch it? and now i’m home and there’s nothing? is this a joke

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BITHC THE FCUK? IM IN MALL WITH A FRIENF RN AND WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? LAY SOMwere, WAIT AND CRY?

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we’re getting so many (unnecessary) characters’ insta updates so i have a feeling that we’ll actually get something more important today. like mama talk followed by reunion... haha just kidding... unless

[itubainaretro]

me, holding back tears thinking about ohn with harry styles’ fine line playing in the background: yeah i’m fine *chocked up* totally fine

[itubainaretro]

okay i figured out why we haven’t gotten ohn yet: they were waiting for harry’s album to drop to choose the song and now that they listened to it thoroughly they chose fine line and we’re getting the scene soon enough