The circle of chairs broke apart as patients shuffled toward all the different directions maybe back to the cafeteria, to the gym or simply outside to enjoy the morning sun. Cat was already halfway out the door when Dr. Parker’s voice called out for Ellie. “Could you hang back for a minute, williams?” Cat shot her a curious look mouthing the word 'trouble?' . Ellie just shrugged. “Catch you in a bit, okay?“ Cat nodded and went ahead. The room felt bigger now that it was empty, Ellie sat back down, her hands shoved deep into the pocket of het oversized hoodie. Dr. Parker crossed the room with her clipboard, taking the chair directly across from her. “You’ve been making excellent progress lately. I wanted to talk about that.” Ellie shifted in her seat anxiously “Okay…” “You’ve been here almost six months. Your screenings are clean, you’ve been present in every session, and you’ve started opening up a lot more. It’s great to see a big improvement in such a short time span.“ Ellie shrugged like it didn’t matter. “I mean… that’s what I’m supposed to do, right?” she forced a smile. "Yes,” Parker said, a hint of warmth in her tone, her eyes softening. “But not everyone does. And because of that, I think we can start discussing an early discharge.” Ellie’s head snapped up, not fully sure what to say, still processing what Parker just said,the word early ringing in her ears “Two, maybe three months sooner than planned. If you keep on this excellent path.” Parker leaned forward slightly. “That would give you time to get back to your studies for the fall. Or anything else you’d like to focus on“ Ellie didn’t picture classrooms or textbooks, hell she didn’t even care about the ruined reputation she left behind, She pictured you. The look on your face when you saw her again. The chance to explain, to make you understand. To make you hers again..
oh fuck, she thought, the fall semester is starting next month.
“Yeah,” she muttered. “That’d be…really cool.”
Parker gave her one of those knowing smiles, the kind that made Ellie feel like she’d been caught thinking about something she wasn’t supposed to. “Think about what you want your fresh start to look like, Ellie. Not just who you want in it..you’re free to go now. We’ll be discussing the next steps throughout this week, i’ll let you know if i have any further information!“ Ellie didn’t answer. She just nodded, slipping out into the hallway where Cat was leaning against the wall, waiting with her arms crossed, a smirk tugging at the corner of her lips.
“Soooo?” she asked, nodding toward the door ellie just came out of. Ellie shrugged, trying to play it cool. “She said i’m getting out early..i’m hoping for next month“ Cat whistled low "damn that’s so soon els, congrats!“ "Yeah.” Ellie folded her arms, suddenly feeling cold, a bunch of insecurities creeping into her head again. “I don’t know if I’m ready to see her though.” Cat pushed herself off the wall and pulled her into a small hug. “Look, I’m not about to let you walk back into that mess alone. When we get out, you should move in with me.” Ellie blinked in disbelief. “are you serious?” “Dead.” Cat’s voice softened. “I’m opening a tattoo shop as soon as I’m out. I’ll need a roommate. Someone to keep me from going full junkie again and listen to my yapping plus you’ll get free tattoos on top. Sounds like a great deal to me“ Ellie laughed, a genuine laugh you haven’t heard in months. “you like planning ahead, huh“ Cat shrugged. “Yeah and you need to do the same. Get back to studying, get your shit together. You don’t have to drag your past around forever, you’ve changed so much and i’m incredibly proud of you“ Ellie looked away, biting her lip as she saw Cat‘s eyes getting glassy. "don’t get sappy now..i just don’t know if can face the reality“ Cat grabbed her arm gently. “You can and you will, el. You’re not that person anymore.”The hallway felt a little less cold under cat’s gentle touch. Ellie nodded slowly, the weight in her chest easing just enough to breathe. "cmon let’s go, I heard they have cupcakes in the cafeteria" Cat winked playfully and walked ahead. But as she watched Cat walk, her mind flickered back to you the real reason she wanted to get out sooner than later.
very soon.
Later that day Ellie and Cat decided to hang out in their shared room, soft sounds of music playing in the background as they worked on some sketches. Cat was already sketching out some flash tattoos, talking about her ideas for the interior design of her shop and how she’s planning a big opening party "and i’ll also make a big announcement on social media maybe something like the first five costumers get a free tattoo, sounds so sick right?? i’d definitely go there if i’d see the social media ad“ Cat was partially talking to herself at this point, Ellie was too focused on sketching a portrait of you from memory, it’s like the fifth time she’s done this but her pencil always seemed to move on its own once it touched the paper of her scrawny sketchbook. She swore she had no control over it once cat would catch her and roll her eyes violently. A small knock on the door snapped both out of their focus, they shared a questioned look, neither of them expecting anyone. "who is it?" cat asked.
"is Ellie in here? It’s Joel“
Ellie immediately left her cozy spot on her bed, swinging the door open she revealed Joel and pulled him into a tight embrace. "Joel? I haven’t seen you in weeks..i’ve missed you how did you get here so fast? you didn’t drive did you?“ she asked quietly, Joel laughed softly. Before he could give an answer Jesse appeared right next to him "no we took a flight actually..Dina doesn’t do well with car rides at the moment“ Jesse offered a smile as he revealed dina, she was holding his hand standing right behind his shoulde. Ellie noticed the outline of her now bigger belly through her oversized shirt, she was glowing and looking better than she ever has. Warmth spread around Ellie’s heart at the sight of them, she couldn’t believe they’d show up there after everything that happened, after everything she’s done, after all the trouble she caused and-
"we’re so happy to see you Ellie" Dina whispered in between sobs, genuinely feeling relieved to see ellie being stable and healthy again. Ellie‘s heart pounded in her chest, her head spinning. her feelings were all over the place at this point, is this another dream? she asked herself, wondering if she was worthy of forgiveness, drowning in self doubt each second. "We were in town visiting my parents and ran into joel..he told us about your early discharge and we just needed to see you..i’m so sorry about everything that happened to you..i was a terrible person and girlfriend and i feel so guilty and responsible i shouldn’t have-" Dina‘s voice got swallowed by uncontrollable choking on her own tears. Jesse rubbed the small of her back gently and let her cry. "We weren’t great friends to you, els..i’ve failed you in so many ways and we‘re here to apologize and make things right, we want to be in your life once you come back..we can’t imagine it without you“ Ellie has never seen Jesse’s eyes so warm and gentle before, his upcoming fatherhood seemingly changing him and pushing himself to be more mature than he ever imagined to be. Ellie didn’t notice Joel‘s rough fingertips wiping her tears away, too lost in her own head, a million worst case scenarios running through her mind without end. "it’s okay babygirl..i’m here..we‘re here and you’ll be okay." he placed a kiss on her head and pulled her back into his arms. Jesse, Dina and Cat joining into a big group hug. This was the first time Ellie has ever received so much love from all her loved ones at the same time, but you were missing.
Ellie was overwhelmed by all the different emotions she’s experiencing at the same time, the many questions she has and the closure she needs before her fresh start already haunting her. But deep down inside her clouded heart ignites the smallest glimpse of hope, something she hasn’t felt since she left you.
Little sunrays peaked through the pearly white curtains of Ellie‘s tiny room, tickling her nose, stirring her awake from another restless sleep. "shit" she whispered into her pillow as she stretched, glancing to the opposite side of the room, her roommate still sound asleep, buried in her covers only her tattooed arm dangling off her bed.
Ellie tried her best to get dressed quietly, but Cat got very sensitive ears. "what got you up so early? thinking of your girl again?“ she teased, moving her pierced eyebrows up and down, Ellie only rolled her eyes giving her a small laugh.
"i’ll suffocate you in your sleep one day“ Cat flipped her off playfully but Ellie‘s already out the door. Moving mindlessly through the long corridors, earning a few greetings from other patients and a few counselors. Everything around her felt so sterile and empty, she’s sick of only seeing white walls everywhere she goes.
She thinks she’ll never get used to this place, even though it’s been almost six months already.
Six months of being clean, finding herself again and being away from you.
The distant hum of the barley functioning coffee machine brings ellie back to reality, she’s outside now lighting her first cigarette of the day. She takes a long drag as the sun shines directly into her face, blinding her as she exhales the smoke.
Ellie barley remembers the day she got arrested after jesse‘s party, the day she got shitfaced to no end, got her ass beat by anderson and humiliated herself in front of all her friends and basically the entire college community.
the only thing she vividly remembered was the look on your face that night. You were so disappointed, scared and disgusted. All she wanted was having you back in her arms, but at what cost? What the hell was i even thinking? she has asked herself every damn day ever since joel dragged her to this rehab facility in the asscrack of the world. Now that she sees the world with clear eyes again she recognized that she was tricked into doing things that would absolutely ruin her, by a girl that she thought would help her and want the best for her..oh she was so wrong. So blinded by her kindness while being dragged into an absolute shithole.
But that wasn’t the greatest humiliation for her, it was when joel had to bail her out of jail and took her back to her childhood home without any discussion. She gave up the apartment she once shared with you and moved back home.
You haven’t heard from her ever since.
The other thing that keeps haunting Ellie in her sleep was the day she almost died.
6 months prior, Jackson, Ellie’s childhood home
Ellie heard that you and abby were moving into a new place once joel dragged her back to the home she grew up in..you know to get clean..She's been unable to sleep, the only thing she thinks about is your newest instagram story of you showing off your new shared apartment, all sponsored by anderson's money, everything you've ever dreamed of in your palms. Luckily she still had someone to talk to, to distract her from her never ending pain. Her now, only friend. Lena.
Little did she know that Abby Anderson was behind her online friend persona..Ellie never questioned why she’s never seen an actual picture of Lena or why she always had a lot of excuses to prevent any form of a phone call…too lost in her own head to notice anything off about the entire very shady situation.
[E.W]
just miss her yk..
[Lena]
let her go, el...she already let go of you trust me,she's not thinking about this the way you are
[E.W]
you don't even know her
[Lena]
but i know girls like her..yk i‘m just looking out for you here!
it seems like she’s doing pretty well..maybe you’re the only one still putting thought into that girl
[E.W]
maybe i deserved it
[Lena]
maybe..orrr maybe you just need the right kind of distraction;)
[E.W]
what the fuck? I said no more, I said last time was the last time. I'm trying to get clean fr
[Lenal
yeah until you stopped sleeping again and beating yourself up :( i just want you to feel better!
i'll send it to the tree stump behind the barn
no one has to know <3
Ellie stares at the message for about five minutes. Her mouth runs dry. Her hands hurt from clenching. fuck it ,Joel is asleep anyway, She thinks Just one more time Just tonight. She puts on a hoodie, steps outside, and heads into the cold. The bag is there, right where Lena said it would be. Small and neatly sealed. Waiting to be injected into her veins.
After that everything went black.
Joel woke up to a loud thud at 2.14 AM, the bathroom door was half open, light still burning inside. He finds Ellie's lifeless body on the cold ground , an used needle right beside her on the tiles. Joel doesn't scream at first..instead he dropped down to his knees,calling her name like a prayer, trying to revive her desperately.
"Ellie! Come on baby girl, breathe. Stay with me, please get up"
Joel never believed in miracles until that exact moment when Ellie started coughing and gasping for air, sobbing into his arms without saying a single word. Joel holds her so tightly, afraid that she'd slip back into the darkness if he let her go.
"it's okay, i got you. you're home..you're okay"
he whispered between heavy tears, almost unable to catch his breath. Ellie didn't dare to look him in the eyes for a moment.
That night Joel puts her back to bed, staying up all night making sure she gets the rest she needs without hurting herself again, he wouldn't be able to take this another time. He decided that Ellie needs to go to rehab, she didn't have any other choice. Ellie didn't fight it, she agreed to it, knowing that she needs to get out of this shithole to get back to you, at least let her even near you again. Once Ellie got her phone back from Joel, (he took it away until she was somewhat stable again), she blocked Lena's number and changed her own, nobody would be able to hear from her..not until she made a full recovery at least.
Joel contemplated calling or texting you about what happened to Ellie, pacing back and forth when she wasn't watching. But he never did, he kept her secret the same way she kept her pain all this time.
He did everything he could to protect his baby.
the day Ellie started rehab
"Joel, please don't leave me here" Ellie cried when they arrived at the rehab facility, it was only a painful 20 hour drive and a couple thousand miles away, but the only thing Joel could afford so he took the risk of driving Ellie in his almost deadbeat up truck. "Ellie, there's no other way for me to help you, I can't get you through this alone just please...please give it a chance" he squeezed her in a tight embrace and kissed her forehead softly as they said goodbye, Joel promised to call her whenever he could between working overtime to afford her treatment and save up just in case she wanted to get back to her studies and get a place of her own.
present time
"hey, you done yet? You’re really sucking on that filter right now“
Cat‘s voice reminded Ellie that she’s not where she used to be anymore, she’s clean, she’s doing better and she will get out of there, she’ll get to see you very soon.
Maybe sooner than you think.
"very funny“ she scoffed while disposing of her cigarette butt.
"cmon let’s go, everyone’s already gotten breakfast plus if we’re late to group therapy again Dr. Parker is literally gonna kill us and make us switch roommates“
Cat‘s tone got very serious on her last sentence, her and Ellie became friends the second they were assigned as roommates. They bonded over their former drug addiction and love for art and tattoos. Cat was a tattoo artist before her addiction got ahead of her, she’s dreaming of opening her own tattoo shop as soon as she’s ready to start over again. She also can’t wait to meet you some day, finally meet the girl that turned ellie‘s world upside down, the girl that ellie would go to hell and back for, which she technically already did, but cat didn’t dare to say that out loud. She sees ellie for the person she’s becoming and not the person she was before..they’ve been changing and growing together and they wouldn’t trade it for anything else in the world (even though cat is pretty sure ellie would consider trading their friendship if it meant having you back in her arms but that’s most likely not the case so, no worries there)
"don’t worry about that, they wouldn’t dare to separate us trust me they don’t want me to go back to my old habits“
Ellie joked as cat dragged her inside again, both disappearing into the common area, a small circle of chairs and a very impatient Dr. Parker waiting for them to take a seat and get to work.
Little sunrays peaked through the pearly white curtains of Ellie‘s tiny room, tickling her nose, stirring her awake from another restless sleep. "shit" she whispered into her pillow as she stretched, glancing to the opposite side of the room, her roommate still sound asleep, buried in her covers only her tattooed arm dangling off her bed.
Ellie tried her best to get dressed quietly, but Cat got very sensitive ears. "what got you up so early? thinking of your girl again?“ she teased, moving her pierced eyebrows up and down, Ellie only rolled her eyes giving her a small laugh.
"i’ll suffocate you in your sleep one day“ Cat flipped her off playfully but Ellie‘s already out the door. Moving mindlessly through the long corridors, earning a few greetings from other patients and a few counselors. Everything around her felt so sterile and empty, she’s sick of only seeing white walls everywhere she goes.
She thinks she’ll never get used to this place, even though it’s been almost six months already.
Six months of being clean, finding herself again and being away from you.
The distant hum of the barley functioning coffee machine brings ellie back to reality, she’s outside now lighting her first cigarette of the day. She takes a long drag as the sun shines directly into her face, blinding her as she exhales the smoke.
Ellie barley remembers the day she got arrested after jesse‘s party, the day she got shitfaced to no end, got her ass beat by anderson and humiliated herself in front of all her friends and basically the entire college community.
the only thing she vividly remembered was the look on your face that night. You were so disappointed, scared and disgusted. All she wanted was having you back in her arms, but at what cost? What the hell was i even thinking? she has asked herself every damn day ever since joel dragged her to this rehab facility in the asscrack of the world. Now that she sees the world with clear eyes again she recognized that she was tricked into doing things that would absolutely ruin her, by a girl that she thought would help her and want the best for her..oh she was so wrong. So blinded by her kindness while being dragged into an absolute shithole.
But that wasn’t the greatest humiliation for her, it was when joel had to bail her out of jail and took her back to her childhood home without any discussion. She gave up the apartment she once shared with you and moved back home.
You haven’t heard from her ever since.
The other thing that keeps haunting Ellie in her sleep was the day she almost died.
6 months prior, Jackson, Ellie’s childhood home
Ellie heard that you and abby were moving into a new place once joel dragged her back to the home she grew up in..you know to get clean..She's been unable to sleep, the only thing she thinks about is your newest instagram story of you showing off your new shared apartment, all sponsored by anderson's money, everything you've ever dreamed of in your palms. Luckily she still had someone to talk to, to distract her from her never ending pain. Her now, only friend. Lena.
Little did she know that Abby Anderson was behind her online friend persona..Ellie never questioned why she’s never seen an actual picture of Lena or why she always had a lot of excuses to prevent any form of a phone call…too lost in her own head to notice anything off about the entire very shady situation.
[E.W]
just miss her yk..
[Lena]
let her go, el...she already let go of you trust me,she's not thinking about this the way you are
[E.W]
you don't even know her
[Lena]
but i know girls like her..yk i‘m just looking out for you here!
it seems like she’s doing pretty well..maybe you’re the only one still putting thought into that girl
[E.W]
maybe i deserved it
[Lena]
maybe..orrr maybe you just need the right kind of distraction;)
[E.W]
what the fuck? I said no more, I said last time was the last time. I'm trying to get clean fr
[Lenal
yeah until you stopped sleeping again and beating yourself up :( i just want you to feel better!
i'll send it to the tree stump behind the barn
no one has to know <3
Ellie stares at the message for about five minutes. Her mouth runs dry. Her hands hurt from clenching. fuck it ,Joel is asleep anyway, She thinks Just one more time Just tonight. She puts on a hoodie, steps outside, and heads into the cold. The bag is there, right where Lena said it would be. Small and neatly sealed. Waiting to be injected into her veins.
After that everything went black.
Joel woke up to a loud thud at 2.14 AM, the bathroom door was half open, light still burning inside. He finds Ellie's lifeless body on the cold ground , an used needle right beside her on the tiles. Joel doesn't scream at first..instead he dropped down to his knees,calling her name like a prayer, trying to revive her desperately.
"Ellie! Come on baby girl, breathe. Stay with me, please get up"
Joel never believed in miracles until that exact moment when Ellie started coughing and gasping for air, sobbing into his arms without saying a single word. Joel holds her so tightly, afraid that she'd slip back into the darkness if he let her go.
"it's okay, i got you. you're home..you're okay"
he whispered between heavy tears, almost unable to catch his breath. Ellie didn't dare to look him in the eyes for a moment.
That night Joel puts her back to bed, staying up all night making sure she gets the rest she needs without hurting herself again, he wouldn't be able to take this another time. He decided that Ellie needs to go to rehab, she didn't have any other choice. Ellie didn't fight it, she agreed to it, knowing that she needs to get out of this shithole to get back to you, at least let her even near you again. Once Ellie got her phone back from Joel, (he took it away until she was somewhat stable again), she blocked Lena's number and changed her own, nobody would be able to hear from her..not until she made a full recovery at least.
Joel contemplated calling or texting you about what happened to Ellie, pacing back and forth when she wasn't watching. But he never did, he kept her secret the same way she kept her pain all this time.
He did everything he could to protect his baby.
the day Ellie started rehab
"Joel, please don't leave me here" Ellie cried when they arrived at the rehab facility, it was only a painful 20 hour drive and a couple thousand miles away, but the only thing Joel could afford so he took the risk of driving Ellie in his almost deadbeat up truck. "Ellie, there's no other way for me to help you, I can't get you through this alone just please...please give it a chance" he squeezed her in a tight embrace and kissed her forehead softly as they said goodbye, Joel promised to call her whenever he could between working overtime to afford her treatment and save up just in case she wanted to get back to her studies and get a place of her own.
present time
"hey, you done yet? You’re really sucking on that filter right now“
Cat‘s voice reminded Ellie that she’s not where she used to be anymore, she’s clean, she’s doing better and she will get out of there, she’ll get to see you very soon.
Maybe sooner than you think.
"very funny“ she scoffed while disposing of her cigarette butt.
"cmon let’s go, everyone’s already gotten breakfast plus if we’re late to group therapy again Dr. Parker is literally gonna kill us and make us switch roommates“
Cat‘s tone got very serious on her last sentence, her and Ellie became friends the second they were assigned as roommates. They bonded over their former drug addiction and love for art and tattoos. Cat was a tattoo artist before her addiction got ahead of her, she’s dreaming of opening her own tattoo shop as soon as she’s ready to start over again. She also can’t wait to meet you some day, finally meet the girl that turned ellie‘s world upside down, the girl that ellie would go to hell and back for, which she technically already did, but cat didn’t dare to say that out loud. She sees ellie for the person she’s becoming and not the person she was before..they’ve been changing and growing together and they wouldn’t trade it for anything else in the world (even though cat is pretty sure ellie would consider trading their friendship if it meant having you back in her arms but that’s most likely not the case so, no worries there)
"don’t worry about that, they wouldn’t dare to separate us trust me they don’t want me to go back to my old habits“
Ellie joked as cat dragged her inside again, both disappearing into the common area, a small circle of chairs and a very impatient Dr. Parker waiting for them to take a seat and get to work.
I imagine Abby striking at the gym, the place she feels most confident in (besides the basketball court of course)
The clock striked 1 AM as you entered the nearly empty gym. You haven’t been able to go in two weeks, drowning in assignments and a bunch of upcoming exams for this semester. Not only were you overworked but painfully underfucked as well. You’ve been in an argument with Ellie for three days in a row, you scoffed at the memory of you screaming at each other just hours ago, you only asked her for some emotional support in this stressful time but she shut you down to play fucking minecraft. Instead of waiting for her in your cold bed, only to be faced with her back as she drifts off to sleep you decided to pack a cute gym outfit and get your ass out of your suffocating four walls. Ellie didn’t even say goodbye as you left with a quiet "love you“.
You took a deep breath and snapped out of your thoughts, deciding to blast young miko in your airpods as you positioned your yoga mat in front of the mirrored wall, near the free weights section. You were in your head again focusing on your yoga routine as abby anderson walked in like she owned the place (which she technically did) in a tight black tank top, red basketball shorts and a matching snapback. She headed straight into the free weights section, just a few steps away from you. You were hard to miss in your baby pink set, your sports bra squeezed your tits just right, abby almost missed the cute rhinestone lettering on it, Angel huh? Don’t get her started on the way your obnoxious mini shorts clung to your ass, jesus fuck she was staring so hard , unbeknownst to you thankfully. She did her best to focus on her heavy bicep curls, blonde locks sticking on her forehead as she pushed herself further, really wanting that bicep pump right now (just in case you’d look in her direction) and then almost as if abby‘s prayers have been heard she hears a soft little noise coming from your direction. You huff, shifting again, the little shorts riding dangerously high as you pushed your chest further down the mat, glossy lips parted in frustration, you just don’t seem to land the right position. "you’re almost there“ you didn’t notice abby‘s presence until she kneeled right besides you "mind if i adjust you?“ you’re caught off guard as you glance up into her pretty eyes , you only manage to respond with a chaste "yeah“ and she already positioned herself behind you, one hand resting at the small of your back while the other skimmed your waist she noticed you tensing up under her touch, you swear you can see her smirking in the reflection of the mirror in front of you. Abby’s warm hands slide lower, spreading over the base of your spine “Don’t overthink it.. just let your stomach sink and arch your back..right here.”
she applies just enough pressure, your hips shifting while your spine melted into that perfect curve. you felt your skin burn underneath her rough fingertips, maybe you shouldn’t have let her but shit, you haven’t been touched like that in weeks. Abby bites her lip admiring the sight in front of her "there it is, stay just like that“ she leaned in, almost too close to your ear, her fingers lingering a second longer than necessary before pulling herself away. And that’s exactly what you do, holding the pose with flushed cheeks and your heart daring to jump out of your chest
what the fuck was that
Abby just stood up and walked back to her dumbbells continuing her set, as if she didn’t just touch you like that. She made sure to flex her absurdly veiny arms when you shifted into a new position, hoping you’d stare at her through the mirror. Hell, you definitely did.
Abby probably observed your entire routine waiting for a good opportunity to offer her very (un)necessary help.
You spent the entire way back to yours and Ellie‘s apartment with trying to get this out of your head.
(it was nearly impossible because Ellie most definitely didn’t touch you like that when you came home :( )
💫
This attempt actually happened coincidentally, you’re close friends with a girl on abby‘s basketball team and she just happened to forget something in her locker room. She was already finished with classes and headed home so she kindly asked you to get it for her and you agreed mindlessly, the locker rooms would most likely be empty at that hour, well at least that’s what you thought.
"where is this fuckass locker“ you muttered as you entered the girls locker room, struggling to find your friends locker. After spending a good ten minutes on searching you finally found it, the inside of the locker was very messy to your dismay you groaned, not really wanting to touch her sweaty jerseys to find a stupid text book. "she forgot something again?“ you quickly turn around, meeting Abby once again, in nothing but a sports bra and a towel hanging loosely on her hips, small water droplets running down her muscles as she walked toward her own locker, casually getting dressed as you looked away quickly. She knew you liked what you saw.
"yeah just a text book, i could’ve just lend her mine“ you roll your eyes, not daring to look in abby‘s direction just yet. Abby chuckled "she’d forget her head if it wasn’t stuck on her body, at least she didn’t leave a single airpod this time“
you slammed the locker door shut, textbook in your hand turning around to face abby, the loose towel replaced by gray shorts, her skin was still slightly wet, glistening in the shitty light of the room. You exhaled sharply trying to get away from staring at her for too long "i need to go now“ you said, she smiled at you. "aw thought you’d stay and stare a bit longer“ she tilts her head lightly, shamelessly undressing you with her eyes. Your mouth runs dry and you grip the textbook harder. "you’re so full of yourself“ you scoff shooting her a nasty look. Abby just grins, reaching for her tank top and pulling it over her head slowly, her back muscles flexing in the process. You’re still staring. "yeah" she says, letting her fingers brush her abs like it’s nothing.
"But you make it real easy.”
You quickly walk away, abby‘s eyes following your swaying hips until you were gone. You cursed your friend out for forgetting her shit and not warning you about abby, you learned that she stayed late for practice every wednesday.
💫
this time you’d almost start to think that abby always appeared at the right time. You stayed until closing time at the library, studying outside your home needing distance from ellie after another fight about something you didn’t have time for at the moment. Abby casually brought back a bunch of books she already finished reading, planing on lending a few more off of her never ending reading list. You both were about to leave, only crossing paths at the exit. The sky was covered in gray clouds, the first fat drops of rain started to fall, a loud thunder following a few miles away. "fucking hell“ you cursed to yourself, of course you walked all the way to the library today. "i can give you a ride, i‘m headed in the same direction anyway“ Abby steps closer to you, car keys in her hand. You hesitate for a moment, not knowing how ellie would react if you’d told her that abby drove you back home in her ridiculous sports car. "it’s fine i promise“ she added, noticing your silence "i got heated seats and a good playlist“ she winked playfully, you bite back a smile and roll your eyes.
"Alright, but only because i appreciate good music“
Abby smiles, unlocking her car with a flick of her wrist.
“Deal.”
The two of you slide into the pre heated leather seats just as the rain begins to pour, the world outside blurring as she drove you home in comfortable silence.
would you ever do an imagine with ellie x reader where they are dating and reader does her makeup while sitting on ellie’s lap? idk i think it would be fluffy and cute
yes yes and YES i wrote this drabble with a fun little twist a la bittersweet/aftertaste universe 💫❣️ i hope you like my take on this <3
Call me by her (last) name
ellie x reader (established relationship) SLIGHT abby x reader
warnings. a little suggestive, cursing, not proof read, i just wrote this lol
the soft sounds of Ellie’s R&B playlist echo in your shared bedroom, she dimmed the lights just before asking you to finish her makeup look for your couple halloween costume. You quickly sprayed your body with your sexiest fragrance, numbing ellie’s senses, getting high from your delicious scent alone as she got comfortable in the bed, manspreading in her black ripped jeans. She looked so good, only wearing a sports bra and a bunch of fake tattoos all over her body. “like what you see?” Ellie said playfully as you positioned yourself in her lap earning an eye roll from
you. Your tiny red dress rode up dangerously close to your hips as you moved back and forth to get a comfortable angle for doing her eye makeup. “are you doing this on purpose?” Ellie asked, her skin slowly heating up under your touch, the way your soft manicured hands held her face and worked the eyeliner on her eyelids carefully just made her feel things. “Like What? Making you look like the hotter lesbian version of tommy lee? hell yes i am!” you joked, Ellie scoffed and muttered something like “dork” under her breath, you were too focused on her eyeliner to hear. “are you almost done?” she asked once again, growing impatient. “ fuck ellie! i almost messed it up stay still” you grabbed her face firmly this time, smooshing her cheeks slightly, she managed to let out a little giggle. “you’re so bossy” she said quietly as you let her go, admiring your work on her freckled face. “and you’re so damn pretty” you whispered against her lips before she leaned into a soft kiss, her hands sneaked on your hips as yours wrapped around her neck. “you sure we have to go to this party?”
her hands feel warm against your thighs as she slides them under your dress, thumb hooking under the lace of your panties. You playfully shove her hands off of you “Babe we promised jesse” Ellie quickly grabs you again with no way for you to escape.
“I promise we’ll only be fifteen minutes late if I get to fuck you in this wig first” You wished you stabbed Ellie in the eye earlier.
“Ellie!” You squirm, your body betraying you as you tried to get out of her strong grip.
“Cmon baby..you’re dressed up as Pamela Anderson aka my 90s wet dream, what did you think was gonna happen huh?”
she smirks, her voice low and husky against your ear, your breath hitched. “I thought we’d take cute pictures” she nodded “oh we will, especially the ones no one else gets to see” she licks her lips as you glance at her, you lean into her touch, “later” you whispered “only if you’re good”
“fuck”
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You’re glued to Ellie’s side as you greeted jesse, he put on a cowboy hat and called it a day. She’s got her other arm slung over Jesse’s shoulder, laughing about something dumb that happened in the kitchen two minutes ago. Dina’s dressed as a Vampire, she got inspired by re reading the twilight books.
“I swear, you two look ridiculous, i fucking love it” Dina grins, eyeing your couple costume. “Ellie, you clean up suspiciously well for Tommy Lee and don’t get me started on your Pamela!”
Ellie winks. “What can i say, i was born to be trashy and my girl always looks like a damn model”
You giggle at Ellie’s drunken words, feeling a little tipsy yourself. As you forced Jesse to take group pictures of the three of you
(“why can’t i be in the picture?” “it’s a girls pic jesse, you can be in the next ones!”)
you feel someone tap your shoulder, “didn’t think you’d be wearing my last name tonight, suits you” you met abby anderson’s eyes as you turned, she was dressed up as the devil, burgundy prada suit and a pair of horns on her head, how ironic.
Instead of waiting for a response, she walks toward her friend group shooting a wink at you as she turned around one last time.
You jumped as you felt Ellie’s hands on your hips again, she noticed. “you okay babe?” You squeezed her hand and nodded.
“yeah! sorry i thought i heard something and got distracted” your cheeks visibly turned bright red, Ellie assumed that it was the alcohol, little did she know your heart raced inside your chest for the wrong reasons…
popped in (mainly procrastinating an assignment) to re-read bittersweet!! 😘
me procrastinating on writing aftertaste and the asks 😓🤟🏼 writers block is soooo draining BUT i hope you had a nice time re reading!!! I love you tons 🩷 i will be back soon
