spardae:
THE BOY HE KNEW HAD ALWAYS been so full of life, always shouting or smiling or wreaking havoc– and for the briefest of instants, knowing nothing of the man broken down by time and circumstance, the smile has him fooled. But he knows in his heart that his family is not remotely close to what it was. That Mundus shattered what once had been into a thousand pieces, and left two eight year old boys to glue it all back together.
His expression does not change. Sparda approaches, slow, hesitant– tail dragging against the earth like a weight shackled to his ankles. ❝ YOUR BROTHER FIRST LOOKED UPON ME WITH THE GAZE OF A WOUNDED CHILD, ❞ he says, not wanting to reach out. Fearing that just like the illusory children in the mist, this Dante will slip through his fingers. ❝ I DO NOT UNDERSTAND. AFTER ALL THESE YEARS… AFTER ALL THE TWO OF YOU ENDURED… ❞
It breaks his heart to say it. To stand in the shadow of doubt that the smile he sees is genuine. That the boy before him is left unscathed from the flames that devoured their home and happiness. ❝ FORGIVE ME, MY SON. TO SEE YOU SMILE, TO SEE A SOUL AS BRIGHT AND BUOYANT AS THE ONE I LEFT BEHIND… NOTHING WOULD GIVE ME MORE PEACE. ❞
He pauses, an arms length from Dante. Red eyes staring sternly into the other’s facade, praying that it will not break beneath his scrutiny. Though there is a screech in the back of his mind, an ugly reminder that every second he spends here is another second Mundus acts unhindered, he cannot peel himself away from the other. Staring into those pale eyes, clawed hand reaching gently for his son’s shoulder.
Voice dropping to a raspy growl as he adds, quiet, ❝ BUT I FEAR THE SMILE BEFORE ME IS ONE OF GLASS. ❞
He hates how small he feels.
“Mm.” At the mention of Vergil, his resolve only strengthens, fingers digging into his jacket at the mere mention of the meeting between the two. Were he in a better head space he’d try and imagine Vergil’s reaction to all this, yet he can barely gauge his own reaction.
As Sparda speaks, he can feel his heart sinking, he can feel his mouth trembling and he can feel the torrent of emotions welling within him. How his father’s words hit him harder than any demon, how his words bring Dante back to a simpler times, to the times when every day was bright and colorful and lively. At his words Dante looks away, unable to find a quip or witty line before his blue eyes land on the other’s frame, far too close for comfort.
It’s the gentle touch, it’s the familiar sensation he feels that truly chips away at his facade. It’s what makes Dante’s eyes lose that spark that accompanies his witty remarks, his strength. “Don’t wanna let my old man down, y’know! May not be the bigger bro but I gotta’ set an example either way.” Even so he seeks refuge in the familiar, seeking cover under his fading facade, the smile on his lips now forced and strained. “I’m fine, pops.” He says in almost a hush, a murmur that makes his lie all the more obvious.
The bags under his eyes, his unkempt hair and nervous gaze shows that it’s more than sadness. It’s weight, it’s loneliness, it’s time--- it’s the fact that he wants to hug the being before him and never let him go, to cry and cry until the void that he left is filled. Yet he won’t, he doesn’t deserve it. He knows that he’ll fade away if he does, he knows that he’ll be nothing more than a fading memory the next day. “Just a little shocked to see you ‘round here, is all.” His facade now fully worn off, Dante still tries to desperately tries to hold onto it, he tries to hold onto it against the one before him. The bright eyed child who looked up to his father more than anything else in the world is still there, staring away from Sparda, but he’s still there.











